Am I going to lose my mind soon!!

I have been remembered my dream very clearly since I was very very young (may be I was three or four). Most of my dream are some kind of stories.

Sometime I dreamt about the same place I went in the other dream and knew that I already been to this place in another.

Sometime I can do realities check on the dream and the trend of the dream is changed based upon how it is in real life. Like example, if I am flying than I said to myself it is not possible and then I lost the ability to fly or if I met someone who is already passed away and as soon as I remember that someone disappeared in the dream.

The dream from last night was kind of strange. This is the first time I dreamt as I was somebody else. But I knew I am dreaming but I don't have control over like the other dream.

I was a 30 something male who is in love with a single mother. She has three children, two boys and a girl. A girl is middle child and the oldest one is about 8 or 9 years old and the youngest is 3 or 4 years old. The lady I was in love was headmistress of the girl-only school. The whole family has blond hair.

The family were living in the back of the school compound (btw the school compound is very large). It seems like the school is boarding school. I wasn't living with them. The children were looking after by her aunt (who is never been married before). It seems like I get along with the family and everyone likes me (even loves me).

I don't know how I look like. I felt every time I look at her, I knew that I am deeply in love with her and love the kids to bits. Very strange feeling.

One day sunny day, we were doing gardening with the girls from the school. There was the wild grass at the corner of the school compound. And somehow because of the digging the earth or cutting the grass(I don't know that for sure as I was planting the seeds somewhere else), we were surrounded by the white features or pollen.

All of the sudden, some of the girls start to die. So we run as fast as we can. And at some point, we had to pass the very large garage which has doors on both end. As soon as we were inside, both doors were starting to close slowly.

I was about to reach the door at the other end, the door was almost close, tiny space left to get through. The someone push me to through the door and I knew that someone was her.

All of them die. About 70 or 80 of them were dead. The school decided the buried all of them in the school compound. I went to funeral. I was very sad and the children were confuse. Then we went back to the house (her house). The youngest one said he saw his mummy.

As soon as we reach the steps to the house, we knew that her souls in trapped under the stair along with 70 something girls.

At that time I thought to myself (felt like Horror movie ending) "oh that's part II". Then I wake up.

How weird was it? Is it normal or am I went crazy for a while?

OMG I know EXACTLY what you're talking about trust me!! Wow I'm releived someone else dreams like this. I've also been vividly dreaming since I was REALLY young and I'm a natural lucid dreamer like you. I've also had dreams returning to a place that I have dreampt about before (kinda like a deja vu feeling), even if I haven't dreampt about this place for a few years. It's an awesome feeling doing that since sometimes I go back to places I'd never think I'd remember again. But anyway about this dream.......I have also dreampt this way many times. The feeling I get after dreams like this isn't that I'm crazy. I think this dream expresses your mind's flexibility. You are a very sympathetic person and can understand the feelings of others, even if you have never felt that feeling. Like even if you've never been a 30 year old man in love with that woman, you can imagine it realistically. I think this dream is beautiful. In a way, I think the "Part 2" part was trying to say that even though all those girls died, their spirit went on with you and that woman "in your stairs" since you both cared for those girls so much and you kept them alive in you. Also I think all people are connected somehow subconsciously and we all understand eachother. I have also had dreams in third person that always teach me something or tell a story. In a more simple explanation, sometimes dreams are just your mind's way of entertaining itself with a bunch of jumbled information flying around. Dreams are random even though they seem to always mean something. I've also had dreams like movies where I woke up thinking, "ha what a cool story! That was fun to experience." My dreams sometimes have funny parts, sad parts, romantic endings, etc. I think it's just our way of expressing ourselves. You should be really thankful and I'm sure you're a very sympathetic, creative, and big-hearted person :) Great share and I completely understand where you're coming from.

I once had a movie-like dream where some astronaut-type guy went into a blackhole to another dimension for research so he could come back to Earth and explain to all the people the meaning of life and what lies outside our dimension. When he came back millions of years later in our time, he appeared as this invisible dark matter thing. The people could not see him or comprehend what he was since his mind had been stretched past the limits of our existence and past the laws of physics and matter itself. But he had reached it---He found the meaning of our existence and had found nirvana but we as humans are not supposed to be able to know these things until we die. So he found and understood everything, he was just no longer human since he knew more than our minds can possibly hold. I think I then figured out the meaning of life but I don't remember. TRUST ME---you're not the crazy one here!! ;)

Wow, it's like the ultimate version of Plato's allegory of the cave!!

EXACTLY. Wildest dream I've ever had. But there's more to it than words can explain. You ever had a dream where you FELT most of it instead of things happening? It's like information was being fed to me. I understood it completely in the dream, but when I woke up it didn't seem to make as much sense in the english language

Yeah, that's one of the things I love about dreams, they can contain feelings, ideas, memories, premonitions, or direct information (like you just said). So much more immersive than any movie or video game!!

You know how they say we don't use 100% of our brains? I feel like we do in dreams. Like I feel like humans have more senses than the 5 we understand