Thread: FAIL" SSRI not ISSR... Results here!

Things consumed prior:
2 "bowls" of "mids" cannabis" with 4 people smoked
3 21g packs of colby-jack cheese
cup of soy milk
20 3mg pills melatonin (also 10mg Vitamin B6 in each pill) 10 chewed
4 Sentraline HCL (Zoloft) pills chewed.

1 16.9 bottle of water
2 cups of water

Course of events:
Researched lucidity more. Friends stopped by, smoked. Generally I am lightweight when it comes to smoking. One or too hits and I feel the effects before everyone else. I also took them upside down . Normally I would say 1 bowl per person to get fucked up but all we wanted to do was sleep. Ate. Watched Tv. Showered. Felt sober. Took pills. Normally I'd have around 3 bottles of water after taking that many pills but the day before I had to keep getting up because I had to go to the bathroom constantly and I was already having that problem that night so I didn't want anymore water. Had the bottle after I smoked. Used the 2 cups to drink down all the pills. Went to bed and closed eyes at 4:20. I remember listening to the entire first track of my lucid dream cd with binaural beats. The normally 19 minute song felt short compared to other times. I don't remember what else I heard or falling asleep. Between 6 and 7??? Woke up feeling nauseated and sweaty. Ditched the blankets for cold, I already had slept naked.
When I looked at the clock I thought it was around 6:30. I felt more like I was going to throw up so I took a sip of water. It didn't help and I threw up in my garbage. I rolled from side to side of my bed to rest and then to go back and throw up more over the course of 3 to 5 minutes. Not sure how long I lay in bed before I relieved I couldn't stay there and that I had to clean up the mess. I went to the bathroom and looked at myself in the mirror... I looked terrible very pale. Had diarrhea... but I've had this problem on-off for the last two week. Thought I was going to throw up more but my stomach was already empty. I felt a little fucked up... not so much my head a little weird feeling in my body. It wasn't pleasant or unpleasant. Cleaned up the sheets and went to get carpet aner. I see my dad again and he asks me if I've been drinking and smells my breath after I tell him I threw up.
-I'm just going to skip some parts I think people won't care about
Brushed teeth, lied down with icepack (my remedy for increased heart rate and nausea) held to my heart, stilled feeling "fucked up". Now I'm sitting here sipping gatorade putting icepacks on my forehead and heart as I see necessary. I don't feel normal but I'm not sure if I could call it fucked up. I just wish I knew what it was affecting me...
Anyone I hope someone learns from my horrible experience... oh shit I just remembered I LDed for the first time I think after I cleaned up a bit and got the ice pack. I attempted to go back to sleep and I listened to my LCD cd. Got through to 15 minutes of the third track (each is 19min) I was startled once when I heard the bass pan from left to right and right afterword I heard the voice say "become aware". I usually always get paranoid whenever I attempt but this is the first time I jump and I think interrupt my process. I roll around lost in thought not sure when I am and am not dreaming. Just when I think I'm dreaming I ask myself and then I roll over and I know I'm not. But finally... I don't even remember my dream now but I know that I did dream and I realized I was dreaming but the problem was I woke up because of it! And I forgot it as soon as I went to get a drink.
Honestly... overall I'd say I had a worse trip from smoking too much than this. The throwing up was bad but it was short.
Kinda glad I'm able to type this right now...

Debating smoking more right now because the house is empty so I can. Not sure if it will make me feel better or more tired. I'm going to sleep again later, wish me luck!
Thanks for reading my nonsense. Any response would be great.

EDIT: Oh and sorry for the other thread "ISSR's help achieve lucidity?"... I was already high. haha