Today after I stepped off the bus, I walked down the road a bit and prepared to J-walk on to the other side and make my way toward Subway. As I stood there waiting for the traffic to clear, a black man approached me from my left said, "What can I do to be just like you?"
Slightly confused at this odd black man suddenly approaching me and asking me such a question so casually, I responded, "Uhhhh, I don't know."
"You don't know? What do you mean you don't know? Man, I wanna be JUST like you."
"You can cross this road right here."
"Cross this road?"
"Yeah, you can cross this road."
"Man, you a coward. Don't be criticizing people you don't know." And with that he stepped on to the road just as an oncoming car whooshed by. There was no middle lane on this road, and he had just stepped into oncoming traffic as he made his way half way across. He stood in the middle of the road watching the cluster of cars passing him by. I was compelled to follow him so I stepped out on to the road only to be driven back by the traffic. Finally, after traffic was clear in the oncoming lane, I proceeded to make my crossing. The man also proceeded when he found a window. He looked back at me over his shoulder, his view blocked momentarily by another passing vehicle and called, "That's how you do it!"
On the other side of this road was a Randalls Grocery Store. This man was carrying a Randalls grocery bag, so evidently he had come from that very same direction. What his purpose was, I have not a clue.
The confidence and spontaneity of this man is inspiring. Indeed he was correct. I am a coward. Lately I've been noticing many little things about myself that truly illustrate my introverted nature. Throughout my life, I have sought very little. Decisions such as going into JROTC, and switching schools were indeed mine, but that's just the basic outline of my life. I have not been able to manage the things that fill that outline such as my social life and hobbies. These things have always come to me with little or no effort. This is bad seeing as I'd go long periods interacting very little both with my environment and the people around me (like the state I'm in now). My greatest flaw is that I do not know how to start anything, I only know how to proceed with a task. It's the initiation process that I just can't seem to get a grip on.
Quite a profound random event if you ask me.
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