I know I can't talk from experience, but I suggest taking a look at life through different eyes, and maybe in doing so you will find reason, meaning, and purpose. Pain can be a irritating thing, trust me I've had my digits of broken bones, but aslong as their is a strive or a passion, that pain blocks and eventually goes away. By thinking positive even at the worst of times, will prove worthy in the long run because then u can look back an cherrish that moment of strength, and feel proud of yourself.

I've had my chronic depressions where I've wanted to kill myself, but after fighting it even at the worst of times, I can finally look back and feel that I've accomplished something most could not. And that pride has brought a deeper success to my life. There is a time to die, it's just not now.