I believe anything is possible.
I could end it there, but being me...I just have to elaborate.
I've lived a typical American life in a Christian family, particularly my dad's side. But my thing isn't necessarily that I don't believe Christianity is real, it's more that I just don't feel anything for Christianity. I know people that would swear on their beliefs that God changed their life. I've tried to fit into what my dad has taught me, but part of what defines religion for me is the ability to so firmly believe in something that you're willing to live by and for it..this belief is what makes it real..but I just can't find that in Christianity, or anywhere for that matter. But I would say Buddhism is closest to my beliefs as well. The only real difference may be that I'm not sure about the afterlife yet.
I can only say for sure that I believe everything is energy, and this energy can transcend everything. But, I haven't really experienced anything that proves anything yet. I believe there is other intelligent life in the universe, for us to think otherwise tells me that there's actually more-intelligent life; I believe ghosts are real; I believe words are words and cursing isn't going to decide fate..speaking of, I don't believe in pre-determined fate or destiny. I do believe the energy that makes up everything can transcend everything and sometimes things happen that seem destined to be..and I think this might have to do with energy transcending to a higher power (one thing religions have in common is some "higher power")..but life is still a harmonial balance of what we do and what our energy does. It's very important to me that I do things for the right reasons. What you do doesn't matter as much as why do you it. When I was younger, I decided to make sure I focus on doing everything for the right reasons, as well as what I do. I try very hard to never regret anything, everything is an experience and helps make us who we are. I believe if it is my duty to live a certain way, it should be made clear to me, otherwise I'm just going to do what fascinates me and enjoy life as much as I can.
EDIT: Sometimes I do feel strangely compelled..perhaps by a higher power. But most of what I get a feeling of is feminine, like a goddess. I have a definite drive to better myself. It's very important to me to be able to live for myself, just being who I am. I don't think it's right for someone to go through life and see other people that they'd rather be. I believe if you can't live just for yourself then you'll never find anything else to live for. It's hard to explain, but it could almost seem materialistic or shallow that I sometimes dwell on this...but in actuality, the reason I dwell on who I am is because I have to feel like me on the inside and out...which, to me, is deeper than the reasons people go through life not worrying about who they are. I guess it all comes down to my belief that, in the end, you can only be sure of yourself...you only have yourself. You are the only thing that will be there from your beginning to your end...and it's important to be able to inspire your own happiness. But ironically, it's when you reach this point that you will no longer depend on it, because you will likely find something else inspiring to live for. And it's great to find and have that something. Then again, as I said, you can't be sure that you'll always have that "something else"...which is why all this is important to me.
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