 Originally Posted by Slacker
To start off, i'll give a little background on my situation. I'm 17, and I have had Inattentive ADHD for years (used to be called ADD.), and just got diagnosed a few weeks ago. Now, I have started taking the lowest dose of Concerta (18mg) for about a week so far, and I have barely felt anything, so my doctor said to take two pills every morning instead of one.
Today was the first day I started taking two, and I've noticed a huge increase in how it helps me, and I can think much clearer. The main issue I have, is if it's making me irritable or not.
Today, I flipped out on a friend. It was somewhat justified though, because he was making ignorant insults about a game that I like. (actually, swear by.) I started yelling at him, although it wasn't really yelling as I haven't yelled in years, but an elevated voice. I normally try to keep an open mind towards people's insults, even if they're against something I like, but in this case he just made almost no reasoning, and ignored everything I said. This pisses me off much more than most things, because I listen to most of his bullshit and then he goes and completely ignores me.
Now, I have always felt discomfort and irritation at things like this, but have tended to push those feelings to the back of my head and laugh this stuff off, because I can't focus on them well enough to react coherently. Now that I've taken an increased amount of my medication, I feel like I'm able to express myself much more clearly, and I didn't slip up once while "yelling" at him. I basically just said how much I hate how he does this, (although in much more words) and he just completely ignored me once again, and said I needed to "take my medication." This enraged me even more, as he damn well knows that I've taken it. I just restrained myself, although it wasn't easy. I think my blood pressure may have temporarily risen from holding it back, but I can't be sure.
Now, in this case, would the medicine be artificially increasing my irritation at things like this, or is it just bringing out how I really feel? I'm not sure, and I can't tell right now. I'm hoping that I'll have a more defined answer as I take the medication for longer, but what do you guys think?
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ANY time you take medications it alters who you are.
I have not experienced ADHD first hand but i know personally the sinister effects that any prescription medications can have on the body and mind. One of my friends has ADD and is now ADHD. He has been on and off medications ever since i knew him and one day he started to use an alternative form of medication responsibily. Instead of eating pills he would smoke a hit of marijuana through a bong (cleaner, less tar, easier to regulate) periodically. He found that the effect was much more manageable than the ritilin he was taking and for the duration of the high and including the come down (some call it burnout) he had no problems with everyday interactions.
When you begin to question how your interactions appear to others as you yourself cannot be fully sure, perhaps you should step back and think about what it is that is causing you to think this way. If it happens whenever you take the medication, maybe its not something you should continue taking. I am in no way a physician or a doctor but having a wide experience with natural medicines, prescription drugs (respiratory and emergency drugs) and other varieties of chemical intoxicants, i have found that the paranoia of questioning something as how you feel compared to how you are reacting is something that you shoud take time on your own with and calmly meditate on. The smoke may help to keep you focused as you try to descipher your feelings vs. medicated feelings.
I hope that was a bit of help
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