Tired of being the only one

**blackbirdrising** · 12-23-2012 11:12 PM

The only one who has nothing. Nothing to celebrate, to give,to receive, to share. The only one who has to feel the anger I feel. I try very hard to avoid places where people gather and share their thoughts and pictures (like Facebook, and here) during the Christmas season because I am not in on it for financial and painfully harsh reasons. But I also feel very lonely, so I go online to get some small hint of a familiar face, a friend or relative, and what happens? WHAM - the sickness of family gatherings, presents, christmas trees, warm fuzzy feelings of love and material wealth shoved in the face of the world. Its enough to make me want to go to sleep and not wake up til January. I wish it would all end. Go away. And take the pain and hopelessness with it! I have had enough. Tonight I'm unplugging the computer because tomorrow is Christmas Eve, and I know the next 48 hours will be extremely sad. I'm so tired of the constant sadness. And I'm tired of being the only one who feels this way. Rant off.

**dutchraptor** · 12-24-2012 12:19 AM

Stop being sad and forget your feelings. If a memory is a bad one then don't remember it.

**Jesus of Suburbia** · 12-24-2012 12:42 AM

tl;dr

**blackbirdrising** · 12-24-2012 12:45 AM

working on it dutch.

**Jesus of Suburbia** · 12-24-2012 12:50 AM

That was better, but provided little to no substance.

**Universal Mind** · 12-24-2012 01:24 AM

That really sucks. You should turn it into a day of meditation, yogic breathing and stretching, sensory deprivation, and astral projection. You will start associating the day with how those things made you feel.

**Original Poster** · 12-24-2012 01:53 AM

Or you could develop a drinking problem. I hear those are pretty intriguing.

**Xei** · 12-24-2012 01:59 AM

Stop making all of us miserable at Christmas and do something about it yourself.

**BossMan** · 12-24-2012 05:47 AM

You know Christmas isn't about you, its about the people around you and showing that you care. If you don't care then why should they?

Also if your the only one who feels this way then who do you think has the problem? us or you? Learn to blame yourself for your own shortcomings, then you can go about solving them.

**~~DeletePlease~~** · 12-25-2012 09:02 AM

Originally Posted by blackbirdrising

And I'm tired of being the only one who feels this way. Rant off.

There are literally millions of people across the globe that are in the same boat as you. Metaphorically speaking of course, otherwise all those lonely people would bring the ship down. Get it? Bring it down? Ha, I'm so clever.

But seriously, do something about. If you're lonely, think long and hard (ha!) about why you feel that way and what it is that put you in that position. Then come up with solutions, figure out what you need to do to fix it and then stick to your plan of attack.

**Xox** · 12-28-2012 02:08 AM

You gotta preoccupy yourself so you don't spend time wallowing around.

**dakotahnok** · 12-28-2012 03:15 PM

I feel a bit of sympathy toward you. I can't really relate at Christmas time. But I know the feeling of loneliness. One thing that really bugs me about your post is that you are not the first nor last person top feel like this. But like others have said, do something about it. Don't just sob.

**Carrot** · 01-03-2013 09:31 AM

I usually spend my Christmas with my family. Isn't there anyone you could spend your Christmas with?

**Universal Mind** · 01-03-2013 12:03 PM

Originally Posted by Xei

Stop making all of us miserable at Christmas and do something about it yourself.

Originally Posted by BossMan

You know Christmas isn't about you, its about the people around you and showing that you care. If you don't care then why should they?

Also if your the only one who feels this way then who do you think has the problem? us or you? Learn to blame yourself for your own shortcomings, then you can go about solving them.

Y'all aren't quite the best therapists I have come across. You should study severe depression. There is a lot more to it than what you see on the surface.

**BossMan** · 01-03-2013 12:41 PM

This doesn't sound like severe depression to me, it sounds like excessive hysteria.

I'm no therapist anyway, I'm an engineer, so maybe my opinion isn't the best one.