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NJOC: 346 (fewer than 20 days left)
NPOP: May not count this one anymore. I'm not going out to porn sites but the same time I found myself looking at something that was under a "spoiler text" image which may have been in R34 territory. I didn't look closely. Still, by the time I did that it had been over four months without porn on purpose which is nice to know. I feel different now.
NJOC: 352
Yup. I'm this far already.
Almost at the finish line :D This has become a life style though.
Lifestyle indeed, congratulations. :)
I might be able to count this as the 359th day now or I'm close to it.
362. I miscounted.Quote:
Originally Posted by 101Volts
364.Quote:
Originally Posted by 101Volts
Only one more day. I'm more than 99% there.
Congratulations 101Volts!
I have decided I am going to attempt this, with conviction, for at least a month and then see how I am and whether or not to continue. This has become a bit of an issue in my life so I think abstaining for a month will give me time to break some habits and rewire myself a bit. Hopefully I will report back in a month with success!
Ps I know I failed horribly last year but I am much more determined this year.
Thank you. It's only hours before it's a year now. Here I hope the best for you. I tried in 2015 and got to somewhere in May so I'm familiar with failure. Maybe it'll be different for you but the first three to four months were the roughest on me. I'm guessing that just means I had to be relentless in the pursuit and that I had to use more of a 40 grit sandpaper approach on a power tool to past habits than something finer.Quote:
Originally Posted by BlairBros
It's kind of odd thinking it's nearly been an entire year since and I'm going one more year at least. Maybe 3 years + 5 days (1,000 days) if not altogether finished. I feel as if I may have more willpower now as that was such an obstacle to me; "Gotta do that to feel good" - e.g. the same as alcoholism I guess. I haven't had temptation for months and even if I do "feel up" from, say, a dream I'm not going to "act jerky". I'm finding women look better if I don't "act jerky" too and that perception showed up in October. YMMV*.
*ʸᵒᵘʳ ᵐᶦᶫᵉᵃᵍᵉ ᵐᵃʸ ᵛᵃʳʸ.
That's it. 365 days completed, a whole year. Woohoo! Now comes year 2.
I will slightly update my goal to be no porn throughout the year and at minimum abstaining for single months at a time (don't want anything to burst down there so relieving the pressure once a month should work out fine). Although if I feel up to it I may go longer than the month.
2016 was an abomination, but the fact remains that i learned a lot of things. Finally towards the end of december, i gathered my experience and frustration into killing this addiction. My max was 52 days, 2 years ago. I am surpassing it this time. I practically am using every weapon i can use to finish this. I've been stuck in 1-week cycles for months, but not anymore..
It's day 6, and with each passing day my confidence in my goal keeps growing stronger. Here's for the end of this mess i got myself mixed up in.
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Originally Posted by Weakamon
The prophecy has been fulfilledQuote:
Originally Posted by 101Volts
One week down, still going strong. I haven't felt any particularly bad urges or anything. May update my goal to 90 days as well.
Welp I lost, stupid me, but I will be back starting it again now.
I broke down after ten days and proceeded to utterly destroy myself. However, i have resolved to use my strategy that allowed me to pass 50 days back in 2015.. I still look up to that milestone that i couldn't reach after falling from. Maybe it was a mistake to rely on motivation for this.
Even if another loss happens, I am going to kill you, and i won't stop until that happens.
This thread still active? I have heard a lot about NoFap as a way of life rather than a challenge. Admittedly I couldn't last more than a few days to start with but have mustered up the courage to keep it to a once a week thing. I've noticed some huge benefits mostly centering around my social anxiety and other mental health problems. It's very difficult to start with but I'm going to keep trying and work my way up to a fortnightly basis then monthly basis. I think it would be too difficult for me to abstain altogether and probably not particularly healthy to do that either so I'm just setting myself goals, limits and rules to follow. I feel like this is some kind of insider secret that only successful people practice. We are all taught in school that "It's okay to do it and okay not to do it" but I think the correct thing to teach would be "It's better not to do it" or "Everything in moderation".
I'm still going now, if you don't consider the times this year that didn't go through 100% (no e**********.) I started doing that more for a while after the family heirloom car (84 Caprice Sedan) was forced to hit a telephone pole which totaled it, much to my sore sadness over the whole affair that lasted a few days after we sold it to the towing company. Nobody died over it though, thankfully; the car didn't deform much (the pole only went as far as the radiator or the fan) but Father (who was the only one in the car) wore his seat belt which saved him.
Is anyone else still doing this? I never really stopped aside from "dry runs." On a related topic, just looking at R34 made me feel full of guilt and rot (though I wonder if it's the type or the amount of time spent that bothered me or if it's just that it's R34?) and I don't think that's worthwhile.
Well, that lasted 22 months and 11 days and not a full 2 years. Hindsight might say "You COULD have waited until January 3rd" but I'm not going to hate myself over it though I may not do it again. Now what? I do wonder why I felt so suicidal over it before; was I just acting how I thought I should act? I'm not defending or attacking it at this point.
Stay strong :superman:Quote:
Originally Posted by 101Volts
Well, it's been at least 2 days since the last time and maybe my current depression wasn't caused by it alone (keep reading,) but holy garbage cans. I started playing Team Fortress 2 again a few weeks ago and a day or two before my last reply I started listening to a stupid Pixies song "Bone Machine" about someone being attracted to an unfaithful lover ("You're so pretty when you're unfaithful to me...") and between all 3 things may lay the explanation of why I felt down.
I uninstalled TF2 yesterday; the more I played it the more antagonistic I got and earlier today I felt like telling my Father, who's trying to encourage me to actually live, to fuck off (which was partly due to playing TF2.) "The wage of sin is death." Rather, let's put that in modern words: "The wages of doing things not worthwhile is a sore perspective of the world, the ghetto, depression and all sorts of unpleasant things."
I do this from time to time as a way to enhance my performance when training. 21 days so far. I normally stop after about a month then go back at it again after a week or two.Quote:
Originally Posted by 101Volts
When feeling sexual i don't suppress. I allow it to be expressed without "releasing." It takes a certain level of awareness.
there nothing wrong with self humiliation its jus if you abuse it or not everyone wants that porn star girlfriend or porn star boyfriend and you have it jus humiliate other people while you do this self humiliation is master form beyond the precursor of life if you feel ashamed about playing with your prick then cut it off you don't deserve to have one is the case
I've been doing this as a way of enhancing training performance. Playing around with it. Seeing if it works. You do feel more energized, focused, and even aggressive. So i do notice a few changes but am still examining whether it all in my mind or not. When you do release it does feel energy draining.