I've been spending this fall mostly meditating my life and practicing dreaming since I turned 30 years at septemper and didn't like a bit what my friends were thinking that should mean. Life after 30 they had in mind was nothing like I felt on that moment nor how I was seeing my future could be like. So I started to work on introspection and ask myself what do I want, wdi need, hope and dream of. I started recalling bits and pieces of my past, and what I've dreamed then. Call this 30 years crisis if you like. I call it stopping for a while.
I happen to had the luxury and opportunity of not having any responsibilities that disturbed me in during that time. It had been my top priority for four months now. I don't force you to believe in this, but during this time I've had many days (or more than 12 hour wake cycles ;)) that seemed to last for week or so. In a matter of how many emotions, memories and thoughts flowed through me in that time. Sometimes time was very slow. Sometimes I got deep within my experience that I started to use word shared dreaming describing the phenomenion if I was able to really communicate with someone. That's because many days felt very in-my-dream-like, ppl more like DSs and even the illusion of being able to share this deep quest I was experiencing with someone was best described with word shared dreaming. Some people struck themself out of the DC status, and prooved to me that they can share borders of the proverbial quicksand I was in.
I've also been blessed to in perfect enviroment for this kind of sinking. I live in nice 3 floor commune with some incredible people, who have supported me while I was doing this. Even semi-incorporated my time sense and view that I was dreaming during that time. Hurraye for the beautifull free minded people...
OK, but so much for the past months. Now I'm more awake in the-participating-in-others-waking-life-sense. I've also figured out what are the top things I wan't to do and face.
So I'm hitting the road and adjusting to travelling life style for undefinied amount of time. Now I think that it means atleast some years. I'm not leaving in a hurry but settling things here in Finland first. If I look to the future, I could see myself starting my journey around March-May. I have little savings for the start and small monthly incomes that will run till end of year 2012. So I'm not jumping on total nothing. I've started to getting rid of most of my material possesion. For some I must find good home first. I planning to travel quite lightly. I not tied by any plans yet and not planning to get myself tied to any kind of limiting schelude. Yet I have many places I'd hope to see. I've also hitchiked quite a lot in my past, but mostly in Finland and only in nordic countries.
I'd very much like to meet some likeminded dreamers and maybe also some not-so-like-minded :shadewink: That's why I started a thread about this. So feel free to PM me if you are interested. Though I've posted mainly to beoynd dreaming and babled crazily and unstabelikely about things and stuff here, I'm not that crazy. Or atleast I'm not dangerous. Chances are I've only been lame.
I'm also planning to write stuff on the road to various places of internet. I'm not going to keep a blog or travel diary nor anything personaly trackeble form of writing. Not because of any kind of paranoia, but 'cause I want to share my travels in dreamlike way and dreamlike languge that doesn't give clear picture of the author nor the places he's passing by. Call it artistic expression if you want. Atleast I've got mostly dreamviews to thank of huge improvment of English expression.
OK, that's all for now (folks)
EDIT: oh, happy and merry X-mass time whatever it means to you and however you are spending it
