I think masochism almost found its way to me today. I was getting some electrolysis done (because smooth is the way to be! ) and the area my electrologist was working on started itching a bit. Alright, no big deal, I thought, it's not that bad so I'll just let her do her thing and not get in the way. So I'm laying there, right, and then I start to notice... it's starting to feel kind of good. To those of you who've never had electrolysis of any kind, it basically feels like this tiny heated prick, over and over and over again over a long period of time so if you don't have a good anesthetic like lidocaine on the spot it can get to the point of painful by the end, and even if you do it can still stack up to be annoying after a while. I used lidocaine but I could still feel the sting a bit.
So this time, I felt the prick, but... there was a side of good feeling to it. And it kept happening with the next couple stings. Then it occurred to me, it must be, like, scratching the itch in extremely tiny portions at a time! Well cool, I figured, it's kind of like the endorphin release you get from scratching an itch only spread out and stacked up rather than all at once and instantly over. I figured it would go away soon... but it didn't. The itch grew to cover a pretty large area since I never scratched it myself, and it quickly became obvious that the quick stings weren't enough to make it go away. So I just kept getting that endorphin release every time....
Prick... Prick... Prick... Prick.... 
Basically after about fifteen minutes or so of this my eyes were starting to vibrate a little bit and become half closed and I started giggling, everything felt so good and when my electrologist would shift positions and rub her elbow against me or something the feeling would become really intense and I'd start squirming around because it'd just feel amazing. The urge to talk about it became overpowering so I brought it up and of course that jinxed it. The itch went away not long after that and the feelings slowly died off, although I did have a mild euphoric reaction each time for the rest of the session. Anyway I say masochism almost found its way to me today because I was really starting to build up a positive association with the feeling in my mind, but I don't think I actually got there... although... I probably could still get it to go there if I wanted to.
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