Do you have serious problems, disorders, or really bad habits

I don't express my emotions thoroughly or how i feel about people most of the time

I am like a roller coaster, one day i am suicidal crazy depressed and the next day i feel great. Which causes a lot of moodiness with people and antisocial ness, then all of a sudden being happy, then not talking again.

I have OCD about feeling "even" like if I am touched on my right shoulder i need someone to touch my left shoulder. I've been that person who turns the light switch on and off multiple times until it "feels right" and I wash my hands a LOT but not thoroughly. I just rinse them, after a certain period of time.

I get attached to personas, if that makes sense, Like book characters and what not.

I'm realllyyyy sensitive to people touching me. I get extremely uncomfortable if people around me are really touchy feely. Even if they aren't touchy feely, i still am really uncomfortable around people. One of the times I had to go to therapy, the girl made me feel SoooOOOoOOOoOO uncomfortable i couldn't stand it. It literally made my stomach feel sick. We planned for meeting next week but I never went back lol.

I have hallucinated a lot in the past before with sounds. And things in my peripheral vision. Things that would make me jump.

I am almost always anxious or depressed, and like Sero said, sadness is too my "default emotion" but it's comforting. Rather would i be sad than happy and peppy all of the time because it's normal.

I hate being in crowds, i get so overwhelmed easily.

Most all day every day, I would rather be doing nothing, just sitting around. It's the only thing that sounds fun to do, really. (I'm always in pajamas or comfy clothes lol)

/end rant vent thing (that was rather cathartic, 35389 edits later)

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Originally Posted by Darkmatters

Avoidant personality disorder. That's what I was trying to think of. It's not diagnosed for me, but I suspect it.

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Same here. I've read all about personality disorders and I fit all the criteria (if that's what you call it, even) of it....or maybe i'm just a hypochondriac.

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Originally Posted by Supernova

Procrasturbation (n): masturbation for the intent of putting off other more important and imminent tasks

"Procrastination is like masturbation - it feels good at first, but in the end, you've just fucked yourself."

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Oh damn - and it gets all serious up in here.

Was my picture next to that definition? :cheeky:

when im in the shower im afraid to wash my hair, cus when i open my eyes i think ill find someone standing there.

people sometimes tell me im crazy, just a little touch,

but i think showers just remind me of psycho too much

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Originally Posted by tommo

I literally felt like I was reading something about me.

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:)

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Originally Posted by Darkmatters

Lol you made me read the whole thing hoping you mentioned how many times a day you masturbate... :bang:

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lol I think that would go under the 'not willing to mention on a public forum' category.

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Originally Posted by DarkComrade

I can't stand certain noises.

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This reminds me, I can't stand the noise or feeling of paper rubbing against carpet. Even thinking about it gives me shivers.

Another problem I've had only in recent months is being startled really easily, by noises that are sudden but really not that loud and wouldn't scare most people. My shoulders will jolt if someone sneezes or a car honks or something.

Ahh loud noises. I hate them. Vacuuming, some loud showers, hairdryers, etc.
They make me feel extremely....vulnerable. I think that's the word I'm looking for.
Like I can't be aware of my surroundings because I can't hear so it's like someone could be sneaking up and i wouldn't know.

Sorta piggybacking off that, I am paranoid. And when i am in a room with people who are whispering and laughing, i always think they are laughing at me :paranoid:
or that people are following me.

this isn't really an issue, but earlier someone said something about dyslexia, lol i have a hard time telling the difference between G and J half the time xD

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Originally Posted by Darkmatters

Lol you made me read the whole thing hoping you mentioned how many times a day you masturbate... :bang:

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Originally Posted by Dianeva

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lol I think that would go under the 'not willing to mention on a public forum' category.

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... An answer that allows imaginations to wander... :shadewink:
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No capacity for empathy here.

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Originally Posted by Erii

this isn't really an issue, but earlier someone said something about dyslexia, lol i have a hard time telling the difference between G and J half the time xD

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It was moi ^^. I don't have problems with specific letters, more converting sound to letter is difficult :O

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Sorta piggybacking off that, I am paranoid. And when i am in a room with people who are whispering and laughing, i always think they are laughing at me
or that people are following me.

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I'm the same, although I'm much more toned down about it after all the years. Back when I was in my first years of highschool I was so upset, I just couldn't stand banter, I do now though I dish out a fair bit. I still get pissed when people over abuse though. I love horror films, but I get so freaked out about them. I get scared when I sleep or by myself, open cupboards, doors, noises (like creaks) and mirrors tend to freak me out. I also have to sleep on one side... every night.

I couldn't spell cupboards, WHY THE HELL DOES IT HAVE A P IN IT.

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Originally Posted by Arch

I couldn't spell cupboards, WHY THE HELL DOES IT HAVE A P IN IT.

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I'm guessing because they are boards you put your cups on?

I used to have dozens of bad habbits:
Chewing my nails (actually just because I was too lazy to clip them)
Social phobia (I was just feeling darn uncomfortable around people, only though when I had to do anything with them, like school)
Back in my first boarding school I was burping so ridiculously loud every other day I LITERALLY was able to inform people of my presence from 50 meters away through solid buildings. Buildings with thick doors, windows and concrete walls.

But I've pretty much got rid of all of these bad habbits. Not to say I have none as of now since I developed new ones:
Mild procrastinating, yet I always try to do something for a purpose, like browsing and doing stuff on DV in order to keep myself aware of dreams. It's not that bad.
I'm a misanthrope, I bet most people wouldn't guess that from my behaviour but actually im a REALLY BAD misanthrope. Something I developed after I learned about the average people on earth. Which is why I avoid most human contact in the real world (if I become friends with someone I'm a caring person though, and I don't drop my friends for anything)
I get people to call me by nicknames like 'killer', 'destroyer', in worse cases even 'planet destroyer' and the likes. Without laying open my plans for eradicating mankind (sarcasm here) that is.
Which leads me to sarcasm, I keep it at bay though in real life and use usually none on the internet. Unless someones just ridiculously stupid. Which then again happens often enough.
I often screw with german grammars because me hates them. I also often stange the chart of words with each other to confuse people when I feel like it.

All of my actual bad habbits arise out of logic or humor (xept for the procrastining) in my opinion though, so I'm not eager to change anything about my current ones.

I hate people.
I tend to bottle feelings up and never let other people know how I feel. I often feel a pretty deep dislike about everyone I know IRL, but I never let them know it if they are annoying or if they do something that I hate, I just roll with with it and let myself become angry and frustrated. I think most people in my life are stupid, annoying morons. Similar to that I'm very, very bad at saying "No". People tend to nag and pester me about arrangements and I can't make it clear if I don't want to.
School stressses me out, to the point that I'm almost not able to complete it, not doing what I'm supposed, skipping and so on.
I feel really uncomfortable in social situations, including sitting in a classroom.
Procastination too, but lately I'm kicking that by prioritizing schoolworks and saying fuck you to social things like parties.

Stress, anxiety, depression. My depression is a lot better nowadays though, but it's still lurking around somewhere.
And of course there's the obvious one that I'm a pedophile, which has been a catalyst for all the above.

That was a pretty bad attempt at summing it up, but it's something like that.

I don't really have any of these problems.

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Originally Posted by Darkmatters

... An answer that allows imaginations to wander... :shadewink:
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hehe, yeah well, my thinking is, since she said it is not something she would mention, she must at least indulge occasionally.
Otherwise there would be nothing to mention, right?

Erii - about the paranoia thing. Just trust me on this, with the laughing at you thing, they're not. At least 99% of the time they won't be.
And it's obvious when they are. I still get that feeling sometimes. But I guess it helps that I'm really good at reading people. They will
most likely occasionally glance over at you really quickly, a few times, if they are talking about you. That's one of the obvious things.
There are a few other things which would confirm whether they are or not. But it just depends on the situation.
I don't know how good you are at seeing these things though, so maybe you already know this lol

Oh yeah, I almost forgot, I absolutely hate the sound of styrofoam rubbing against anything, especially itself. If I even think someone is doing it around me, i get all paranoid/irritated and will literally hit someone who is doing it on purpose. This makes lunch in my high-school a living hell.

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Originally Posted by Burke

Oh yeah, I almost forgot, I absolutely hate the sound of styrofoam rubbing against anything, especially itself. If I even think someone is doing it around me, i get all paranoid/irritated and will literally hit someone who is doing it on purpose. This makes lunch in my high-school a living hell.

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You still use styrofoam for lunches at your school? What are you in like the 18th century or something?

Yea, being in new york with their current educational/financial situation, and the fact that my school is very small/almost poor, we use styrofoam trays, though we did get plastic ones last year... I wonder what happened to them :confused:

I compulsively make lists about what i'm doing for the day or the next few days/weeks.
I can't seem to function when i feel overwhelmed and have to do this. I get horrible anxiety about plans.

Come on peeps - makin me have to bust out the pruning shears and flex some mod muscle here.

Let's keep it on topic, shall we?

Thank you Darkmatters for removing that shit from my thread. (srs)

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Originally Posted by Carôusoul

when im in the shower im afraid to wash my hair, cus when i open my eyes i think ill find someone standing there.

people sometimes tell me im crazy, just a little touch,

but i think showers just remind me of psycho too much

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Swim goggles. Look into them.

*Get it? "look" into them? Nudge nudge wink wink*

.. Or was that from a song or something - I notice it rhymes. Damn it's hard to answer your posts Carousoul!

It's from an awesome song. Shame on you for not knowing it :cheeky:

Rockwell - Somebody's Watching Me - YouTube

Lol oh yeah!! How could I forget that one?? :panic:

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Originally Posted by Darkmatters

Come on peeps - makin me have to bust out the pruning shears and flex some mod muscle here.

Let's keep it on topic, shall we?

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I don't really recall you having to flex your mod muscles as having been the original topic here. Did I miss the original topic that this was all about DM flexing?

i'm physically attracted to clowns and captain ahab harharhar

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