No one's ever given me a convincing, legitimate reason to do that before, but you can try if you want. Not that I'm really inclined to listen, considering how judgmental your first input on the matter sounded.
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I used to smoke every day. I tended to go in spurts though. I'd smoke every day for 4 months straight, then I'd stop for 2 months. Smoke 3 months straight, stop for 4... etc. Basically it was just because availability and work. I went through a few different dealers and had a few dry spells, and whenever I moved around at work I'd take a break (they *usually* test whenever you change positions).
I only would smoke once a day--always after work and never before anything "important." Usually by myself (during the week) or with a few friends (on the weekend).
Really, I stopped because I lost contact with all my dealers. But, even when I smoked I had a love/hate relationship with it. I loved the effects (I still do), but hated how it made me act. And I don't just mean when I was under the influence. Even sober, when I smoked every day I just acted different. I also didn't like that for an entire day all I would think about was smoking weed. I was spending 21 hours a day waiting and looking forward to 3 simple hours where I essentially shut off all connection to the "real" world. Granted, I may have smoked more than most people here... because at least when alone, I almost always would smoke to the point of being literally unable to smoke anymore--that's generally how I knew I had enough.
I never understood why I liked it so much either, and that bothered me. I made several videos recording myself stoned and trying to explain (while stoned) what I really enjoyed about it. Ultimately, these videos disgusted me yet I continued to smoke. Once I finally ran out and had no alternative source, I stopped for good (well, for a over a year so far). I craved it like crazy at first, but for the most part I no longer have any interest in smoking. I still have trouble figuring out why it was so "addictive" to me (obviously not physically).
But, I look at it as a "pleasure." Pleasure is different than happiness, and pleasure does not necessarily lead to happiness. Weed is a pleasure I couldn't help but overindulge in. Just like overindulging on cake, it wasn't good for me. But you can easily argue that a single rare piece of cake will do no harm...
That's not really happy.
I gave in and turned on the A/C. Cold air is filling the room.
it feels good.
I'm happy because I'm having a great weekend.
@Cold, weed does not have negative health effects. Do your research and don't base it off of what you heard when you were younger. Things have changed since then. Why would it be legal in certain places to prescribe it? BY A DOCTOR? Who knows all about health issues. Get this. Back in the day, scientists did tests on monkeys with marijuana. They concluded that weed kills brain cells. Guess what? Years later they discovered that the scientists suffocated the monkeys with smoke. They did it at such a rate that the monkeys couldnt breathe. It wasn't weed, it was the lack of oxygen and struggle that caused damaged brain cells.
That's my two cents
Toonami came back to Cartoon Network, if only as an April Fool's joke. The world got cooler for a couple hours there.
Can't wait to see what they show tonight!
Time for me to watch the first episode of The Legend of Korra online :D
I watched Sawyer7mage's review on it, and it seems it's going to be a good series. Can't wait to see it develop more.
Im having a DVD afternoon later today (monday) and i get to choose the DVDs --- Obviously Batman and Superman movies :D
Went for a bike ride... just an a paved path that I've been frequenting lately. But as I was actually heading back I saw a small dirt trail leading down the embankment. I turned around to take a look, and bam! Looked like a few single track trails weaving around next to the paved path! I started following it one way, but it ended really quick so I was disappointed thinking it wasn't a real trail after all, just a few paths to get closer to the river.
But then I tried the other direction, and it was actually a lot of fun! It followed right next to the river and came out right by where another trail I ride starts. My first "technical" trail. Lots of obstacles and such, had a blast navigating over them... granted, it was pretty overgrown and some parts and there were a few huge fallen trees that I had to walk my bike to get over. It was fairly short too, probably only took 5-10 minutes to make it through. And it started raining on the way back. BUT still great fun, and nice practice.
Quitting smoking for about 5 weeks to be sure I pass a summer job drug test. (With the exception of 4/20). I'll be able to focus primarily on studying now.
Even though it's 12:54 AM, I'm happy that I was talking to myself about issues that I'm dealing it. I never self-vented before, it feels good. My mind has a tingly feeling now, hopefully I can sleep in peace tonight.
Either that or it's the epic masturbation you described earlier.
Which reminds me of a dream I had... :)
i'm happy that i was bored out of my mind this past week.