Thread: Rant and Rave, Cry and Complain

i hate my life and want to die

You're joking, right Anju? Lol I'm just careful about it bcz my friend wanted to suicide 2 months ago, and I luckily talked him out of it.

This week was nice cuz I got 5 LDs! It's because it's my first serious full blown attempt since last summer, since now I don't have to wake up at 6 am. One was especially nice because I had a full. Akeout session with a cute girl, slightly curly light brown hair. It was grand!

Greetings Zhaylin,everyone I as you can see am the Great Antartica.No need for applause,just the largest continent on Earth.No big deal really..My complaint for today are stickers.THEY ARE EVERYWHERE!I was barely in thigh height grass,and spent almost half an hour getting them all off.(serious time)Please don't die Anju that would make all of us very sad,and want to die as well..

I had to come home with a pretty massive migraine. After taking my meds, I had a very psychedelic dream. It's mostly gone, but I hate taking off work when I was on vacation last week and am off on Friday.

Anju. You are absolutely amazing. I truly hope you don't actually feel THAT bad!!

AhHa!, Antartica. I would guess you're really a Southerner. If you're talking about the same "stickers" I loathed as a kid anyhow (rounded thorns of evil).

Grats, Louai! Sounds great. I gave up on lucids a long time ago. Every time I become lucid, I lose an awesome dream because the dream loses clarity to the point that I wake up.

Tiresias. Hope the migraine leaves you in peace!!

My rant is that I woke this afternoon with a killer headache, stopped up nose, severe nausea. Mine was a combination of needing food and allergies (my daughter kept insisting I smell her pillow yesterday The kittens sleep on her pillow. I remembered that too late).
And now my eyeballs are dry and driving me bananas... and the bird is screeching his head off and I'm about to throw him into a pot and make stew (not really, but I threaten him with that all the time... not that it does any good )

I might also be losing my dog. The original owner was nagging my daughter about being so possessive of the dog and how Kierra's his dog. Wait, what? I've been sheltering her, buying her food and accessories and ear medication for the past- what- 3 months for the heck of it? He's come by to see her or called to ask about her how many times? Zero. I was under the assumption I adopted her. So I sent him a FB message last night telling him that if she belongs to him or his family, someone needs to come pick her up. If she's mine, I'll continue doing what I've been doing but I need to know. I'm not about to steal someones pet. But she's not living here if she belongs to someone else either...

Perhaps he had an agreement with my daughter. They were dating back then and I might not have the full story. He just has to let me know what's what. If this was a pet-sitting arrangement, he needs to compensate me. I'd also not object to pet-sitting her until he finds a place, but he needs to buy the things she needs. *sigh* people...

A rave is that I bought that huge camera fanny pack last night. It's *almost* perfect. There are rubber-type strips on the bottom of it for setting it down and they bite into my legs. I'll wear it for a couple of days to see if I can adapt to them. If not, I'll have to return it I'm REALLY hoping I can get used to it.

**EDIT**
Doggone it, Antartica. I've not heard the term "sticker" for so long it made me nostalgic. (I now live in WV after living in Pensacola, FL from around 10 years old til my 20's). I googled the term... which worked out about as well as you can imagine I narrowed it down to "sticker thorns", got better results but still not perfect. Then I wracked my brain trying to think of what else they were called... sand burrs, sand spurs... then I looked up those. Bingo! 30 minutes wasted on nothing
Northerners use the term sticker for something else. They usually just call them hitchhikers. They're not thorny like the burrs, but they're a mess to get them off your clothes and pets!! Great... now I'm going to have to go figure out what the heck those are hehehe

***EDT***
Okay... I officially need a life I'm still trying to find that weed. It MIGHT be Cleavers aka Goosegrass aka Bed-straw aka a million different other names
My rant in all of this is that Google images has let me down again. I type in "Cleavers grass" and get pictures of knives Bah!!
Oh well. I quit on my search. It's time to venture out into the world in search of food... from Wendy's From what I've read, I'd be better served pulling some of those Cleavers and making a tea along with a dish of Sweet Grass and Dandelions..

Now I have a proper rant. Hubby got a phone call regarding my youngest daughter. It was from the sheriff's department in my sisters town. Apparently, my youngest ran away. She has been staying with my sister and her family all this time after all. (I thought she got sent off again) She's been missing for 2 weeks and they're certain she's back in my town, staying with her sister in her sisters apartment.
Her sister doesn't have an apartment. All of my kids (except the youngest) are back at home and have been for some time now (Ray never left, Miley's been back a year or so and Destinee's been back a few months).

Why does no friggin body ever call **ME**. I've had the same cellphone and number for 6-10 years! To make matters worse, I had a bad premonition of my youngest about 2-3 weeks ago and reached out to her case worker. Was she missing when I called? Why does that agravating woman never return my calls?! *RAGE*
I am most bonded with my youngest, but she knows, I'll turn her over to the State if she shows herself to me (I've done it once already a couple years ago). I just want her to be safe. As much as I dislike my sister and her husband, they provide what my daughter needs. Unless something's changed.

Then again... my sister and them are backbiters, strict, sometimes overbearing and unfair. Me- I'm naive, too trusting, lenient, too nice, too forgiving- an enabler. My daughter has a drug problem, is manipulative, stretches the truth. It's hard to discern fact from fiction. But she's been sexually abused (one person was her 5th grade teacher who went to jail because of it) and taken advantage of. She NEEDS rules, discipline, structure- all the things I can't provide. It sucks, and I hate myself for it, but she was getting better and decided to cut me out of her life while she did. Okay. So I gave her space.
And now I'm accused of harboring her?! While no one tells me anything about anything? No updates for over 7 months, but I'm harboring her?! Give me a fracking break.

Now I'm going to be even more worried about her and I guess the worry will never go away because even if they do find her no one will tell me anything

If she's in town, she'd likely be at the Farm. I guess I'll be scrounging together the gas money so I can drive out there on Friday to check. That's where she first went the last time she ran away...

Originally Posted by Antartica

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Are you aware that your username spells Antarctica incorrectly?

Ohhhhh this is gonna be difficult season of Big Brother, ohhhhhhh the sexism. Ohhhhhhhhhhhhhh my kidneys... ohhhhhhhhhhh I feel it in my kidneys... ohhhhhh Joey there was no need for you to apologize to the hypocrites.... ohhhhhhhhhhh I'm gonna go sit in a cold shower ohhhhh The fluoride shower water ohhhh

You're alive, Dianeva!! How's Biesty? How have you been? Sorry I've not been in the game so long (crappy computer!)

Thnx Zhaylin! I'm having the same problem now with my lucida. They blur quickly then go black and I wake up. It sux, but I'm using reflection intention to work on that.
Wow your youngest seems a handful, hope you find her

My rant is that I'm not having enough time to do all my hobbies (I do art, music, fan fictions, meditation, reading, LDing, my loyal watching of my favorite show, and the beloved Xbox/TV time)
I try to arrange days for a group, but it just seems hopeless lol

I haven't done a new art in like a week or 2, working on a big one now though.

I've been delaying the last chapter of my fan fiction for more than a month now, I should just finish it, it'll just take a couple hours. Also I'm planning a big long fan fiction that is a thriller, apocalyptic themed (a scientific time machine that rearanges molecules to a previous logged time malfunctions, wrecking everything and sending the heroes of the story (who managed to reach the safe room in time) to a completely new planet earth that never possibly existed. Tension, romance, action, betrayal, and all that stuff.

So, that's pretty much it.

My rant today is that I've been thinking too hard about lucid dreams, so it's been impossible for me to actually have one. I had kind of left the forums about a year ago, but I still have had a few natural lucids since then. After one lucid about 2 weeks ago, I decided to get involved in the forums again and try to have more lucids again, but I haven't had a single lucid in those 2 weeks. I've gotten back into doing reality checks, and I still remember 1-2 dreams a night. Unfortunately, all the induction techniques that worked really well for me before haven't worked at all. Like when I try WBTB, if I'm up for more than 2 minutes, I feel fully awake, and going back to sleep takes another 30-45 minutes. So then it just becomes insomnia, and then my tiredness interferes with my work.

So ironically, after rejoining the forum for lucid dreams, I've had fewer lucid dreams. Yeah, I know, I've had dry spells in the past, but the timing is just so ironic that it's almost funny.

First i learn antarctica isn't the largest continent,then today i find out i've been spelling it wrong!!!my entire life has been a lie!!!

Poor Antartica

That sucks, Spell! Hope you get back into the swing of things!

Louai, your fan fiction sounds amazing Get cracking!

My rave is that I just returned from picking up my car... with its new windshield
The dog and I dropped it off right before 2AM. She did amazingly well in the car. I opened the back (the "trunk") and told her to stay and she did. She whined a lot from excitement but she didn't try to jump over the seats. The walk home was perfect and it didn't take nearly as long as I thought it would.

I couldn't sleep afterwards. I kept hoping my hubby's answering machine had a hiccup and that the message from the deputy was old. I couldn't get ahold of the deputy right away but reached him at 9:30. He seemed unconcerned by her disappearance. He had been meaning to call me for a few days but kept forgetting to She'll be 18 in December.
I put a shoutout on FB yesterday, so hopefully someone will see her and reach out.

I desperately want a cigarette...

Tomorrow is the big day....Interview for mature application at a psychology degree. The story is somewhat funny (not!):

- 1 Month before handing in the application: "I have time to finish my portefolio....I have time to....omg 2 days left!". I printed it the same day and run to the university to deliver it, just to witness....
- System error! The lady on the desk told me not to worry as I'd be "signed unofficially". Until now I still haven't payed for signing in, always get a bit nervous since whenever I call there they say "Don't worry, we'll let you know when this is solved".
- My portefolio might be a bit too big....around 400 pages (around 70 and the rest is appendices); besides, I saw no one handing in a portefolio (of the 5 ppl that were there): I guess this plays in my favour, but might be an issue (more on this in a sec)

The first step was a written exam. I got the top grade (out of...35 students), but I didn't get that high of a grade, all because I forgot to take my watch and I ended up having to shorten my essay a lot in order not to fail to write it within the one hour and a half. Think around 70% of all applicants failed the exam, we're around 10 people left: most of them have the minimum positive grade.

Tomorrow is the interview: lucky me (not), I'm almost the last one to be interviewed, which is something I really didn't want (you either want to be the first or the last since it's the easiest to make an impression that way I believe), and somehow I have to fit questioning regarding my 400 pages portefolio with all the other questions they want to make: what if they ask me about cranial nerves, I can't remember them all atm xD Also, I was told I'd get my portefolio back after the exam, but when I asked for it, the examinator had no clue about that....if they don't review it properly my application is loose the majority of my appeal.

Also, I need to find something warm to touch before the interview, since there's that study that indicates that warm and steady hands give a better first impression...I sweat like hell and the waiting room is super cold. Can't exactly stick my hand under my butt, in case an accident happens and well...I can't shake hands without any unpleasant smells xD Also not sure what to tell to the committee: "yes, I don't want to do a psych degree, I just need it in order to move to a masters and start my research" or "how can u guys teach SPSS instead of R or Python?!". I accidentally was a bit critical of their application process in my essay as well

Oh well, better to just worry not to get hit by a bus when I leave home tomorrow, it would be such a shame to die now 0.0

Good lord, Blizzard is an awful company. I just want to log in to play a single player game. Why is this so hard?!

Originally Posted by Zhaylin

You're alive, Dianeva!! How's Biesty? How have you been? Sorry I've not been in the game so long (crappy computer!)

Hi Zhaylin! He's still visiting here, though he'll be leaving shortly. We still play Minecraft. I made a 3d maze in our house and he's made this huge bridge system. In the nether we have so many pathways and rail systems and we found a jungle. Too bad about your computer.

Originally Posted by Zoth

Tomorrow is the big day....Interview for mature application at a psychology degree. The story is somewhat funny (not!):

- 1 Month before handing in the application: "I have time to finish my portefolio....I have time to....omg 2 days left!". I printed it the same day and run to the university to deliver it, just to witness....
- System error! The lady on the desk told me not to worry as I'd be "signed unofficially". Until now I still haven't payed for signing in, always get a bit nervous since whenever I call there they say "Don't worry, we'll let you know when this is solved".
- My portefolio might be a bit too big....around 400 pages (around 70 and the rest is appendices); besides, I saw no one handing in a portefolio (of the 5 ppl that were there): I guess this plays in my favour, but might be an issue (more on this in a sec)

The first step was a written exam. I got the top grade (out of...35 students), but I didn't get that high of a grade, all because I forgot to take my watch and I ended up having to shorten my essay a lot in order not to fail to write it within the one hour and a half. Think around 70% of all applicants failed the exam, we're around 10 people left: most of them have the minimum positive grade.

Tomorrow is the interview: lucky me (not), I'm almost the last one to be interviewed, which is something I really didn't want (you either want to be the first or the last since it's the easiest to make an impression that way I believe), and somehow I have to fit questioning regarding my 400 pages portefolio with all the other questions they want to make: what if they ask me about cranial nerves, I can't remember them all atm xD Also, I was told I'd get my portefolio back after the exam, but when I asked for it, the examinator had no clue about that....if they don't review it properly my application is loose the majority of my appeal.

Also, I need to find something warm to touch before the interview, since there's that study that indicates that warm and steady hands give a better first impression...I sweat like hell and the waiting room is super cold. Can't exactly stick my hand under my butt, in case an accident happens and well...I can't shake hands without any unpleasant smells xD Also not sure what to tell to the committee: "yes, I don't want to do a psych degree, I just need it in order to move to a masters and start my research" or "how can u guys teach SPSS instead of R or Python?!". I accidentally was a bit critical of their application process in my essay as well

Oh well, better to just worry not to get hit by a bus when I leave home tomorrow, it would be such a shame to die now 0.0

Thanks for sharing, Zoth.
I wish you all the best!
You know the solution in theory: practice mindfulness and stop stressing yourself out by predicting/projecting into the future. Time to apply that psych knowledge and allow yourself to be peaceful in the present moment! Your interview will be much easier if you're grounded in the present, too.
Let us know how it turns out.
Good luck!

I'm going insane. I just saw another one. They're everywhere. I almost never saw them until yesterday, and I've seen four people use them since.

I'm talking, obviously, about possessive apostrophes + S being used to indicate plurality. Most recently, for example, someone said "baby's" when they clearly meant "babies."

I don't know what to do. I've begun hording water and boarding up the house. Is that enough? Am I too late?

Originally Posted by Original Poster

I'm going insane. I just saw another one. They're everywhere. I almost never saw them until yesterday, and I've seen four people use them since.

I'm talking, obviously, about possessive apostrophes + S being used to indicate plurality. Most recently, for example, someone said "baby's" when they clearly meant "babies."

I don't know what to do. I've begun hording water and boarding up the house. Is that enough? Am I too late?

Are you aware that you yourself often incorrectly place an apostrophe in "its"? Yep, I'm pedantic enough to have noticed that.

Originally Posted by ~ Dreamer ~

Are you aware that you yourself often incorrectly place an apostrophe in "its"? Yep, I'm pedantic enough to have noticed that.

Oh this is getting hot...

Originally Posted by GavinGill

Oh this is getting hot...

Well, since we have an audience, I'm gonna pull out the big guns with this little gem from OP's facebook (your correction was too late for my screenshot, munchkin!)

I'm afraid you didn't board up the house quickly enough... You've been infected gooood. :hurl:

Hiding on a different board and making the same mistakes, you've finally caught him!

There's no evidence of any wrong doing anywhere, and if there was it was a typo from many years ago. This is an infestation that controls the brain but its forgery can be noticed through these little language corruptions. There is absolutely no other explanation. We must prepare. I've already moved to a bunker.

I hate how throwaway technology is. My current laptop, an ASUS one, no longer takes a charge. If the computer isn't plugged in, it will die in seconds. This makes the laptop completely useless, especially since I have it solely for portability since I have a custom built desktop for gaming.

When I was trying to justify my direction, that is buying an iPad Air and keyboard case so I can write and do apps when I am away, I found out my laptop costs $800. That's $1200 in 4 years for two computers that never lasted a full year. The ASUS I have now had to be resoldered a year in, and the computer before that just died and caught fire. I give up.