Rant and Rave, Cry and Complain

**sefalik** · 12-27-2013 06:45 PM

Originally Posted by sefalik

Shit. I need to be at my parents house in roughly five hours. And I'm currently awake and really drunk (though sober enough to edit this post into coherent sentences).

This is a pathetic rant in comparison so many of the real issues addressed in this thread... so I'll try to compensate by wishing everyone a good holiday. Because regardless of whether you celebrate Christmas, I'm assuming you at least have off school/work. And dammit I cannot type for shit... I had to edit just about every word of this post. I suppose I'm in the wrong thread, but the "drunk" thread is like two click away, which is actually really difficult to do.

I didn't even remember making this post. I call BS on the claim that marijuana kills your memory--I can be flying in outer space and still remember everything I did. Alcohol on the other hand kills my memory.

On-topic: I hate FedEx. I need to start requesting sellers to use USPS or UPS. For whatever reason, FedEx can no longer get in my apartment complex. Or they just don't try. Today I got the message again that the package was undeliverable because "business was closed," yet my window is on the same side as the entrance and I never even saw a FedEx truck. Plus they have my phone number, so if for whatever reason they no longer have the key, they could just call and I'd gladly walk down and open the door. So basically every time I get something from FedEx I need to have them hold it at the nearest store. And although they have a distribution center in my city, I cannot pick up packages there. So once I make the request I usually wait two more days for them to drive the box 5 miles to the nearest store. And in general their website is absolutely horrible (it told me my security answers were wrong when I MADE the account, like my birthplace and passed addresses). And I have two other packages that have been sitting in the same state as me for the last three days with a delivery date of "N/A." I can't even request to send them to the nearest store (which I know I'll need to do anyway) until they fail to deliver it, which is inevitable.

UPS on the other hand is awesome. I needed to sign for a package and wasn't going to be home, so I said to hold it at the nearby store (half a mile away). It was on the truck for delivery at the time, but my online request went directly to the driver I suppose and he never even tried to deliver it at my apartment. It was at that nearby store the same day for pickup.

**Arra** · 12-27-2013 08:24 PM

Originally Posted by Athylus

Good luck there, maybe show them you care by making dinner? Or another gesture like that.

Originally Posted by Maeni

Reading this hurt. I totally know that feeling... I guess they don't expect to get anything back, I mean they know you don't celebrate so they already know you're in unknown territory. Probably hasn't even occurred to them that you're staying at their place for free. I get the same feeling quite lot... I'm 21 now, and this is actually the first year where I actually got presents for some people, I've always felt bad about it but never had it in me to do something about it. In your case, there's not really anything to but as mentioned above you could do just some gesture. I really hate that feeling though, tends to happen when I'm staying at someone's place and when I don't notice the time, they're suddenly preparing food for me too even though I'm technically not invited to stay. I haven't really done anything to show my appreciation to that family... Eugh.

Thanks. I don't think there's much more I can do than I've already been doing. I made them dinner one of the first nights here, made Creme Brulee two nights ago which they liked almost too much, and we've been going shopping for them. I'm actually going to be making like 15 Creme Brulees today, to serve at their family Xmas tomorrow. Which is kinda exciting, assuming I don't screw up somehow.

Originally Posted by tommo

They're literally a "pretend" stocking, made of thin, clear plastic, shaped like a stocking, and with zero thought or sincerity on the part of the buyer/giver.
Filled with chocolates which do not even resemble real food and offer no nutritional value or sense of sustenance.
Just gluttony and facade.

It makes me sick, just thinking about it.

I was noticing the same thing. There's this atmosphere of funness to the whole holiday. This suggestion that all the sugary food is magical and happy and going to make you feel good, but it's a trap. I've felt like such shit over the last few days, and I'm sure it's because I've been eating too much candy. It's hard not to when it's around every corner. Not today though.

**LouaiB** · 12-27-2013 08:38 PM

Originally Posted by Dianeva

Thanks. I don't think there's much more I can do than I've already been doing. I made them dinner one of the first nights here, made Creme Brulee two nights ago which they liked almost too much, and we've been going shopping for them. I'm actually going to be making like 15 Creme Brulees today, to serve at their family Xmas tomorrow. Which is kinda exciting, assuming I don't screw up somehow.

I was noticing the same thing. There's this atmosphere of funness to the whole holiday. This suggestion that all the sugary food is magical and happy and going to make you feel good, but it's a trap. I've felt like such shit over the last few days, and I'm sure it's because I've been eating too much candy. It's hard not to when it's around every corner. Not today though.

Great!! I'm sure their not upset at all. You're just worrying too much

**tropicalbreeze** · 12-28-2013 02:51 AM

watching my aunt suffering, lying in bed in a vegetative state, i had an urge to put a pillow to her to end her suffering. but even if i could get away with it, i don't think i would have the heart to do it.

**LouaiB** · 12-28-2013 03:00 AM

Originally Posted by tropicalbreeze

watching my aunt suffering, lying in bed in a vegetative state, i had an urge to put a pillow to her to end her suffering. but even if i could get away with it, i don't think i would have the heart to do it.

I'm lost. Are you joking or not? You reminded me. My uncle is dying from cancer. He is gonna enter a comma this week, then bye bye. Also, yesterday a car filled with explosives exploded in beirut near my sister's work place

. Good thing she didn't get hurt, but a lot did. Damn Lebanon

**tropicalbreeze** · 12-28-2013 03:39 AM

I'm lost. Are you joking or not?

no, i'm not joking.

**kadie** · 12-28-2013 09:36 PM

Its hard to see a loved one suffer. I have felt the same a time or two. I could never do it, but the thought is there. "why do we have to suffer and why cant we choose someone to end our suffering should we become vegatative".
Sorry for you.

**LouaiB** · 12-28-2013 10:23 PM

Yes, really a tough position to be in.

**EmptyBucket** · 12-30-2013 12:02 AM

Rave - I went to a party last night and got a pretty girl's number, and some married lady was hitting on me

Rant - I'm currently battling my longest dry spell in a while, with lucids

Rant - 3 hours of sleep last night, because of party

Rave - I'm about to watch some One Piece(an awesome anime)

Rave - This thread is great

**Anju** · 12-30-2013 09:24 AM

You guys are the best!

**tommo** · 12-31-2013 10:34 AM

Another NYE not with friends.... It sucks being with family while everyone is out with their friends, actually not sure I will even go to my mum's where the rest of my family are, maybe just stay here alone.
Course I don't really have any friends in general. One really, besides the Lankan girls. Best friend from Uni is basically trying to avoid me I think, but not totally sure, but not counting her as a friend at the moment. I think I'll ask her if she's doin anything just to see what she says lol.

**Wishfulthinker** · 12-31-2013 10:38 AM

People suck. I really dislike some people. However I need to get ready and sort all my stuff out. We're driving down to London today to check into a hotel, spend NYE watching the fireworks and then heading down to the airport tomorrow morning to fly out to Egypt so a rant about exactly what people have been doing to make them 'suck' will probably follow later.

However, for a sneak peak, it involves the love conga getting more complicated among numerous other things.

**LouaiB** · 12-31-2013 05:36 PM

Originally Posted by tropicalbreeze

no, i'm not joking.

I'm terribly sorry! I didn't mean it was funny, I only got confused.
Again, sorry. It is a tough position to be in

**Mystycal** · 12-31-2013 06:17 PM

Parents out for a NYE party, big brother out for another NYE party, all my friends are in London while I'm stuck in Poland. Even the girlfriend back in England is going out for a party while I stay at home with my nan and little sister, probably playing Pokemon Black. Greeeaaaatttttt.

**LouaiB** · 12-31-2013 06:18 PM

I feel uncomfortable, don't know why

**tropicalbreeze** · 12-31-2013 11:43 PM

Originally Posted by LouaiB

I'm terribly sorry! I didn't mean it was funny, I only got confused.
Again, sorry. It is a tough position to be in

no need to apologize, as you neither said or did anything that offended me.

**woblybil** · 01-01-2014 12:45 AM

I'm Cold.. I mean i'm not cold but I feel cold. That's because it's cold outside, I just turned the heat up and there gooes the electric bill thru the roof. It's warm right now, 10f degrees out there with a 30 mph north wind but it's going to -10 tonite meaning a wind chill like 30 below zero f..
Winter sucks......

Happy New Year Everybody........

**Darkmatters** · 01-01-2014 12:47 AM

^^ Lol I hate when it's just warm enough outside that the heater won't kick on for hours on end, and inside the house it keeps getting colder and colder..

**OpheliaBlue** · 01-01-2014 01:46 AM

Originally Posted by EmptyBucket

Rave - This thread is great

No YOU'RE great. And I'm stealing your format.

Rant - I got talked into a $22 bottle of Chablis that tastes like a $5 bottle of pinot.

Rave - The alcohol in it ^^ still works.

Rant - Have to take down the xmas tree and lights tomorrow

Rant - Danny is working overnight AGAIN on the holiday

Rant - Ziggy pooped in the bathtub, BAD

Rave - Alcohol working

**woblybil** · 01-01-2014 05:01 AM

Originally Posted by OpheliaBlue

No YOU'RE great. And I'm stealing your format.

Rant - I got talked into a $22 bottle of Chablis that tastes like a $5 bottle of pinot.

Rave - The alcohol in it ^^ still works.

Rant - Have to take down the xmas tree and lights tomorrow

Rant - Danny is working overnight AGAIN on the holiday

Rant - Ziggy pooped in the bathtub, BAD

Rave - Alcohol working

Go spend $22 on another bottle .....

**OpheliaBlue** · 01-01-2014 07:33 PM

Originally Posted by woblybil

Go spend $22 on another bottle .....

Shooooot, I could spend $7 on three bottles that I already know are good :p

Rave - I blasted a hot shower on the cat bomb plus some shampoo and it dissolved haha. Hope everyone is having a weird and interesting new year!

**rumpel** · 01-02-2014 05:16 AM

Oh wow... soon I'll be back home and the usual days will follow. Being home alone and stuff. I hope I didn't receive too many bad letters because this would be a punch in the face again. I really feel like trying to end my life once again but I don't really know. I seriously hate my life and want the shit being over as fast as possible.
The option would be a cure but there is none and probably never will. And what would it change? Loving people I am actually allowed to love would take some social pressure but I'd be still alone after all. This is a situation I can't handle forever but there's nothing to do about it.
Every morning it feels like waking up into a nightmare.

**Anju** · 01-02-2014 06:39 AM

How old are you, rumpel?

**KruegerInMyHead** · 01-02-2014 06:45 AM

Rumpel, every life is precious, this includes yours, by being born, you accepted the terms and conditions of life, it is your responsibility to not break those rules, never give up, live your life, survive, I promise one day, it'll all get better and you'll be happy that you never ended it.

**rumpel** · 01-02-2014 07:45 AM

Originally Posted by Anju

How old are you, rumpel?

I'm 20.

Originally Posted by KruegerInMyHead

Rumpel, every life is precious, this includes yours, by being born, you accepted the terms and conditions of life, it is your responsibility to not break those rules, never give up, live your life, survive, I promise one day, it'll all get better and you'll be happy that you never ended it.

I never decided to be born. Especially not in this dumb way.
But yeah, I know that it *can* go better. It once got really nice for a short time but now it's even shittier than it was before. Perhaps you're right though. I can't look into the future and because I'm already at the bottom, how should it get worse? But looking into the future (in a positive way) isn't my thing really. I'm working on living with some professional help and medicine but that didn't help much yet.