Thread: Rant and Rave, Cry and Complain

I got rejected by a book publisher. They said they would include notes, but all I got was "the pacing is too fast." So, I am just left with nothing but failure.

I'm totally exhausted, I'm still stressing about classes even though the only course of action is to buckle down and deal, the dog I grew up with will have to be put down in probably less than a year (more likely a few months), and I have a massive spot of carpet burn that hurts whenever I lie down or im in the car or sit with my back against something. And I can't remember much of my dreams again.

Originally Posted by Tiresias

I got rejected by a book publisher. They said they would include notes, but all I got was "the pacing is too fast." So, I am just left with nothing but failure.

Find a neutral party willing to provide critical notes. This is a challenge as it seems most people are afraid of hurting your feelings. And they're not very helpful. But you can't expect the publishers to bother writing complete notes. They probably stopped as soon as they decided they didn't want it and listed their excuse.

While i search for jobs FOR Toronto!... i clicked on a job for TORONTO, from Indeed.ca, look what i got from the major site !!!! https://leons.tms.hrdepartment.com/c...5&s_lcid=en-US
Do you see fuckin TORONTO there??? NO all i see is fuckin' west side jobs (which has been moved there from the gov) and far bloody ass jobs that i need to take 2 muthafuckin different city transits to get there! THIS IS RIDICULOUS!
And oh look, another job i got from indeed.ca that DOESN'T SHOW THE EMAIL TO SEND RESUME BUT TELLS ME TO SEND A MUTHFUCKIN RESUME BY EMAIL?? AND THIS MUTHAFUCKIN job was posted 2 days ago!!!
I AM SO PISSED OFF AND ANNOYED NOW, I DON'T WANNA LOOK FOR A JOB ANYMORE!!!!!!!!!! x(

Originally Posted by Original Poster

Find a neutral party willing to provide critical notes. This is a challenge as it seems most people are afraid of hurting your feelings. And they're not very helpful. But you can't expect the publishers to bother writing complete notes. They probably stopped as soon as they decided they didn't want it and listed their excuse.

They read the whole thing and said they were writing notes along the way. The only critique they gave me was the pacing was too fast. Since that post, I spoke to the agent in charge, and she gave me a few bits to iron out the narrative, but it is a major revision of the plot. I'll get started on it once I can pull myself out of the depression hole.

My best reader to date is my wife. She has a really, really bad habit of saying things without realizing that it could hurt people's feelings, so if she doesn't like something, she'll destroy it, which helps. She also has no real imagination, so if I can describe something that she gets, perfect.

It is my first submission of this novel, and my first submission had a request for a full manuscript. It still hurts like a bitch.

The first one usually does.

I'm fucking pissed off right now, though this is a pretty typical rant. Ever since my bf left and hasn't been able to 'help me wake up', I've been having severe trouble getting out of bed in the morning again, and it's just gotten worse every night.

At first I felt like shit for waking up at noon every day. But now it's like 3-4 pm. I've been sleeping later every night, 6:30am last night. But in the morning I just can't seem to really get up, even if I look at the clock and know I should be getting up, I'm just sooo tired and feel I need 'just a bit' more sleep, so I hit snooze, and this repeats like 15 times until I finally forget to hit snooze and just shut it off, then don't wake up for 2 more hours. Nothing seems to work. If I get a person to wake me up, when the time comes, I tell them I just need a little more sleep and will be up soon. Putting my alarm far away doesn't work. I'll just run to turn off the alarm and go back to bed. I don't know whether it's my willpower that's the problem, or the desire to keep sleeping is so strong that not even the strongest will could fight it. It's hard to tell when we can only view the situation subjectively. We never know how tired other people are.

I've made a strict schedule for what I need to get done in my courses, and this sleep thing is ruining everything. For two days in a row now I've barely gotten any course-work done and have had to move my 2-month long schedule forward by two days. I wake up, write down my dreams, get ready, go for a walk, procrastinate for an hour or so on DV, YouTube or w/e else including Facebook (and it's not even my Facebook, I'm just addicted to looking at the wall of someone else's Facebook, how fucking sad is that?). By the time I'm done with that, it's already 'night time' and I have trouble doing anything productive past 9 pm or so, because by that time, it's like my 'creative/emotional' switch turns on and it's hard to do anything analytical.

Yesterday morning, when I woke up at around this same time, I was just as upset as I am now about waking up so late. I thought that there was no way I was going to do it again. I'm going to wake up at noon no matter what time I go to sleep. I felt so determined, but it didn't matter, I ended up waking up at 3:30 again. I played Tomb Raider for at least 4 hours and was getting so into it, it was just so fun, I couldn't have cared less about getting to bed. It seemed impossible. I thought I'll just set my alarm early and get a lack of sleep. The same thing will probably happen tomorrow. I'm considering just staying up all night, but that never seems to work. It seems to just make me oversleep by about 3 hours the next night, so I keep waking up late anyway. I'll soon be going somewhere that's time zone is 2 hours ahead of me, so my problem will have gotten worse by 2 hours. If I'm still as I am now at that time, I'll be sleeping at like 8 am and waking up at dinner time, a nightmare I haven't experienced since I was a teenager on adderal.

Originally Posted by Dianeva

I'm fucking pissed off right now, though this is a pretty typical rant. Ever since my bf left and hasn't been able to 'help me wake up', I've been having severe trouble getting out of bed in the morning again, and it's just gotten worse every night.

At first I felt like shit for waking up at noon every day. But now it's like 3-4 pm. I've been sleeping later every night, 6:30am last night. But in the morning I just can't seem to really get up, even if I look at the clock and know I should be getting up, I'm just sooo tired and feel I need 'just a bit' more sleep, so I hit snooze, and this repeats like 15 times until I finally forget to hit snooze and just shut it off, then don't wake up for 2 more hours. Nothing seems to work. If I get a person to wake me up, when the time comes, I tell them I just need a little more sleep and will be up soon. Putting my alarm far away doesn't work. I'll just run to turn off the alarm and go back to bed. I don't know whether it's my willpower that's the problem, or the desire to keep sleeping is so strong that not even the strongest will could fight it. It's hard to tell when we can only view the situation subjectively. We never know how tired other people are.

I've made a strict schedule for what I need to get done in my courses, and this sleep thing is ruining everything. For two days in a row now I've barely gotten any course-work done and have had to move my 2-month long schedule forward by two days. I wake up, write down my dreams, get ready, go for a walk, procrastinate for an hour or so on DV, YouTube or w/e else including Facebook (and it's not even my Facebook, I'm just addicted to looking at the wall of someone else's Facebook, how fucking sad is that?). By the time I'm done with that, it's already 'night time' and I have trouble doing anything productive past 9 pm or so, because by that time, it's like my 'creative/emotional' switch turns on and it's hard to do anything analytical.

Yesterday morning, when I woke up at around this same time, I was just as upset as I am now about waking up so late. I thought that there was no way I was going to do it again. I'm going to wake up at noon no matter what time I go to sleep. I felt so determined, but it didn't matter, I ended up waking up at 3:30 again. I played Tomb Raider for at least 4 hours and was getting so into it, it was just so fun, I couldn't have cared less about getting to bed. It seemed impossible. I thought I'll just set my alarm early and get a lack of sleep. The same thing will probably happen tomorrow. I'm considering just staying up all night, but that never seems to work. It seems to just make me oversleep by about 3 hours the next night, so I keep waking up late anyway. I'll soon be going somewhere that's time zone is 2 hours ahead of me, so my problem will have gotten worse by 2 hours. If I'm still as I am now at that time, I'll be sleeping at like 8 am and waking up at dinner time, a nightmare I haven't experienced since I was a teenager on adderal.

I know the feeling all too well. I went through something similar during the last quarter of 2012, until I finally started gong to sleep and waking up on time. Getting to see the day get brighter as the morning progressed (as opposed to simply getting dimmer after waking up in the afternoon) threw me for an absolute loop, I had forgotten what mornings were like. Started getting a lot of things done and felt great. Then recently I fell back into the old routine of staying up until 6:00 AM and sleeping until 1:00 PM to 3:00-ish. Hoping to get things back on track this week.

And I'm sorry to hear about things not working out with your boyfriend. If you mentioned it earlier, I must have missed it. Hope things start looking up for you soon, that's a pretty rough spot to be in. =/

Originally Posted by GavinGill

I know the feeling all too well. I went through something similar during the last quarter of 2012, until I finally started gong to sleep and waking up on time. Getting to see the day get brighter as the morning progressed (as opposed to simply getting dimmer after waking up in the afternoon) threw me for an absolute loop, I had forgotten what mornings were like. Started getting a lot of things done and felt great. Then recently I fell back into the old routine of staying up until 6:00 AM and sleeping until 1:00 PM to 3:00-ish. Hoping to get things back on track this week.

And I'm sorry to hear about things not working out with your boyfriend. If you mentioned it earlier, I must have missed it. Hope things start looking up for you soon, that's a pretty rough spot to be in. =/

Everything's going great with him! I just meant he went back to where he lives. If you missed anything it was my US Customs rant. We were going to go back to where he lives together for a while, went to the customs line together and when I got to the desk, they pulled me aside, interrogated me for 2 hours and eventually told me I was inadmissible and sent me home. Until I can get the proper documents proving my ties to Canada. I'll be attempting to go again on April 11th.

It's nice to know there's someone else with the same problem I suppose. A lot of people say they have that problem and that they know what it's like, but when they say they're waking up 'late' it usually turns out they mean they're waking up at something like 10 am to noon, which isn't nearly as bad. I've also had the problem for years, any time I don't have to wake up for a class or something. And even when I have to wake up early, I still end up staying up just as late, so I end up missing out on sleep. Because it's almost summer, I've been seeing a couple hours of daylight after waking up, but I also know what it's like from the past when it happened in the winter to never see daylight.

How are you planning to wake up earlier in the next week? What has worked for you before?

I guess I just needed food. I didn't eat anything earlier today because the microwave was friggin disgusting. By the time 6PM rolled around I was so nauseous I couldn't function so I went to sleep. Got up after an hour, went to the store, drank a Strawberry Milk as I was checking out lol and felt a whole lot better then and there.
Picked up Pizza and Garlic Sticks, pigged out, and I feel completely better now
I also picked up my Celexa!

I bought my bird a clip-on bowl so he'd stop dumping his food, but he's terrified of it lol. It's also a bit too big for his little cage. I'll give him a day to warm up to it and if he doesn't, I'll exchange it for the smaller one.

Originally Posted by Tiresias

I got rejected by a book publisher. They said they would include notes, but all I got was "the pacing is too fast." So, I am just left with nothing but failure.

You are left with motivation for improvement. Everyone who has ever succeeded at something has also failed at that same thing before.

Originally Posted by NewArtemis

I'm totally exhausted, I'm still stressing about classes even though the only course of action is to buckle down and deal, the dog I grew up with will have to be put down in probably less than a year (more likely a few months), and I have a massive spot of carpet burn that hurts whenever I lie down or im in the car or sit with my back against something. And I can't remember much of my dreams again.

Sorry bout your dog.

I have to ask, carpet burn on your back.... did you get that from sex?

Originally Posted by Dianeva

Everything's going great with him! I just meant he went back to where he lives. If you missed anything it was my US Customs rant. We were going to go back to where he lives together for a while, went to the customs line together and when I got to the desk, they pulled me aside, interrogated me for 2 hours and eventually told me I was inadmissible and sent me home. Until I can get the proper documents proving my ties to Canada. I'll be attempting to go again on April 11th.

It's nice to know there's someone else with the same problem I suppose. A lot of people say they have that problem and that they know what it's like, but when they say they're waking up 'late' it usually turns out they mean they're waking up at something like 10 am to noon, which isn't nearly as bad. I've also had the problem for years, any time I don't have to wake up for a class or something. And even when I have to wake up early, I still end up staying up just as late, so I end up missing out on sleep. Because it's almost summer, I've been seeing a couple hours of daylight after waking up, but I also know what it's like from the past when it happened in the winter to never see daylight.

How are you planning to wake up earlier in the next week? What has worked for you before?

Oh lol, for a second there I thought the two of you broke up. Whoops. =P

The only thing that really works is forcing myself to go to bed on time. Which is terrible advice, I know, since I'm sure you already realize that's all it takes. It's fighting the urge to stay up "just a little longer" that's the hard part. I'm planning on going to sleep at 3:00 AM tonight and I've sort of given myself a schedule - I'm going to browse the web and listen to music from 12:00 to 1:00, then I'm going to study topics of interest while listening to music from 1:00 - 2:00, then I'm going to watch random Youtube videos from 2:00 to 2:30, then I'm going to talk to strangers on Omegle (idk why I feel like doing so, but meh) and listen to music from 2:30 until 3:00.

I realize I don't really do anything but waste time after midnight so if I sort of plan it all out and stick to the schedule, I'll have exhausted all possible time-wasters and be bored as fuck. Then I just lie in bed, snuggling with the sheets until I pass out.

schedule for today- waste time on internet

^ that's my schedule for every day

i can't eat anything anymore without being struck with awful visceral pain. i have gone from 110 to 90 pounds in the course of a few months and the weight loss shows no sign of stopping. i have had countless blood tests, xrays, ultrasounds, taken various medications, cut dozens of things out of my diet. nothing works. invariably, a few hours after eating anything substantial I will become terribly ill. it's ridiculous. i can barely enjoy food anymore.

also i whine a lot. i'm whining about whining. god, whatever.

Probably gluten. Since it's in pretty much everything. Or Crohn's if it happens even when you eat things with no grains in it.
I'd get checked out for those.

I mean it could be anything, I'm no doctor, but those are probably the most likely.

Originally Posted by fiftybirds

^ that's my schedule for every day

i can't eat anything anymore without being struck with awful visceral pain. i have gone from 110 to 90 pounds in the course of a few months and the weight loss shows no sign of stopping. i have had countless blood tests, xrays, ultrasounds, taken various medications, cut dozens of things out of my diet. nothing works. invariably, a few hours after eating anything substantial I will become terribly ill. it's ridiculous. i can barely enjoy food anymore.

also i whine a lot. i'm whining about whining. god, whatever.

I have this!

If you got all those tests, you very likely have functional gastric disorder. In my case, the doctor said my anxiety can basically trigger violently painful stomach cramps that feel like I swallowed a weedwacker. I asked "Does that mean it's psychosomatic?" and she said not at all. Some people have a stronger mind-body connection, so the pain is very real without any direct cause. I have a few books I'd recommend, but learning meditation to block out the pain helps during particularly gnarly bouts. I also switched to a keto diet to lose weight, and in the entire month I was on it, I never had any stomach issues. The weekend I got off it, it all came back. It's worth a short.

@Tommo: Not saying you are wrong in her case, but gluten/celiac are horribly over diagnosed, particularly by dietitians. I had a dietitian give me a gluten-free diet for 6 to 8 weeks. She said I had to stick with it for that time, and it was horrible. I told my new GP that, and he said "Oh, we can just do a blood test to figure it out. One moment." 15 minutes later, "yeah, you don't have a gluten allergy/celiac issue."

Well you had a shit doctor then. They always order tests for gluten sensitivity. It's not over diagnosed at all, it IS over self-diagnosed, but so is pretty much any disease.
It's actually more common than people think. Same with lactose intolerance. Sure every man and his dog say they have it, but it really is common.
We aren't meant to drink milk past a few years of age, same way we aren't meant to eat grains as a staple of our diet.

The reason Keto/Paleo is good for your bowels is that grains contain Lectins, which prevent the bowels from repairing themselves.
Anxiety/stress also prevents this, so it makes sense that going on a Keto diet would improve your problem, as well as finding out what was wrong probably relieved some stress for you, I guess.

celiac/gluten intolerance was one of the first things i was tested for... negative, of course... i still tried cutting gluten out of my diet & i noticed no difference. i actually don't consume much gluten anyway -- all grains tend to cause problems for me, bread especially, so i only eat them on rare occasions. it's definitely not crohn's, i don't bleed out of my butt.

i've never been properly diagnosed but i figure i have functional gastric disorder/ibs/whatever -- it just sucks cause there's not much you can do about it. no treatment or anything. and the anxiety feeds into the pain which feeds into the anxiety...

i actually haven't tried the ketogenic diet -- mostly because fatty foods irritate my stomach too -- but since it's been effective for you guys i'll look into it : ^ )

IBS isn't really a diagnosis. It's just a term for when they have no idea what is causing the problem.

Originally Posted by fiftyshadesofgrey

^ that's my schedule for every day

i can't eat anything anymore without being struck with awful visceral pain. i have gone from 110 to 90 pounds in the course of a few months and the weight loss shows no sign of stopping. i have had countless blood tests, xrays, ultrasounds, taken various medications, cut dozens of things out of my diet. nothing works. invariably, a few hours after eating anything substantial I will become terribly ill. it's ridiculous. i can barely enjoy food anymore.

also i whine a lot. i'm whining about whining. god, whatever.

Have you tried smoking marijuana? I know that might not sound like great advice but there are a lot of people who use cannabis to keep their food down. When I used to smoke, I'd always take a few hits to settle my stomach when I was feeling nauseous or having stomach pains.

Like tommo, I'm no doctor so doctor, and I practically recommend marijuana for everything (and it usually works... sort of). But at this point, it's worth a shot. Just smoke a little bit, wait a while, then try eating something light.

And as for the weight loss, I feel you. Ever since my lung collapsed for the first time, I haven't been able to get any sort of physical activity (at least not enough to keep me in shape) and I had to quit smoking. At the time, I was relying on cannabis to stimulate my appetite and everything was going well - I was starting to put on a few pounds and feeling great. Then when my lung collapsed (unrelated to the smoking, according to the doctors), I had to stop smoking and as a result, I lost my appetite again. Lost a fair bit of weight and since I couldn't really workout without risking another injury, my muscles sort of started shrinking or wasting away.

My doctor just told me to eat and exercise more when I asked him what to do about it (like no shit, genius...), so I haven't bothered to ask about it again. I'm terribly underweight as well (125~130 pounds last I checked, but probably skinnier than you. D: ) so I know how shitty that can be. It's spring now and I can't even go outside in shorts or a t-shirt. I think I might just go see another doctor about it since my family doctor's a dumbass, and just start downing whey protein shakes like crazy. May as well start working out too, if my lungs collapse again, oh well.
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These tiny little beetles keep showing up in the washrooms and I think I saw one in my room the other night. We keep our house spotless (my Mom and I clean obsessively), but there was a bag of birdseed left in the garage that no one knew about. When we came across it during spring cleaning, we opened it and saw that it was just a writhing mass of grain beetles:


(random picture on Google)

We threw the bag out a week or two ago but these things still keep showing up. I can't bring myself to kill these dirty little sons of bitches without being crushed by a guilty concious (killed one the other day, felt like absolute shit for having snuffed a life) so I keep having to sweep them up in the dustpan (usually only one or two at a time, but I came across five at the same time last week) and then tossing them out. That's fine in the morning, but it's a pain in the ass having to do it in the middle of the night.

Might just have to call an exterminator. -_-

I thought about recommending cannabis also, but wasn't sure it was bad advice. People with cancer going through chemo therapy sometimes take marijuana to increase their appetite and stop nausea. Some of them literally dry heave all day and can't eat anything would starve if they didn't.

Now, i have a book on herbal medicines, and I'll list some herbs that could help with crohn's disease, which it sounds like it might be. Crohn's disease it says could be caused by food allergy, or could possibly be caused by antibiotics. It says when bacteria residing in the intestines are partially but not totally wiped out,the remaining bacteria release a toxin in self defence that can cause ulcers and inflammation.

Aloe juice - take one tbsp 3 times daily just before meals. Softens stools; speeds healing of intestinal ulcers.
slippery elm bark - take half table spoon in 1/4 cup hot water as often as desired. Soothes imflammation and stop irritation of the mucous membrane.
fennel seed - tea bag in 1 cup of water 1-2 times daily. Relieves constipation and gas.
peppermint - Enteric coated capsules Take 200-400 mg between meals. Stops muscle spasms. Stimulates release of bile.
licorice - Glycyrrhizin tablets 200 - 800 mg daily, depending on the severity of symptoms. Use for 6 weeks, then take 2 - week breaks. do not substitute deglycyrrizanted licorice. Protects digestive - tract lining from effects of excess acid. Consume potassium rich foods such as bananas or citrus juices, or take potassium supplements daily when taking this herb.
psyllium seed - powder. use as directed on label. Do not use within 1 hour of taking other medications. absorbs excess water from stool.

Ok those weren't all the herbs listed but those are most of them.
Some of the additional information it gives. Says to avoid eating fatty foods as much as possible except those that contain omega 3 fatty acids. Like flax seed oil, cold water fish, walnut oil, or wheat germ. Avoid fatty meats altogether. Do not overdo carbohydrates in diet. During acute attack, eat organic baby foods, steamed vegetables, well cooked brown rice, millet, and oatmeal. Avoid milk and milk products.Avoid products sweetened with sorbitol. Avoid beer and baked goods, says most people with crohn's disease are allergic to bakers' and brewers' yeasts. use heating pad to reduce abdominal pain. Raw fruits and vegetables may be irritating. Reduce stress. Get adequate aerobic exercise. there is alot more but it's to much to write.
I hope what I've said can help in some way. You can pick and choose the advice. Alot of those herbs can be found in heath food stores, or grocery stores that have that kind of thing.

i smoke weed fairly often... it enhances my appetite but does little for the pain that comes afterwards, sadly

really sorry to hear about that, gavin : ( have you tried vaping? it wouldn't be nearly as hard on your lungs as inhaling smoke. my boyfriend actually has similar issues (his lungs have collapsed twice, and he has joint/cardiovascular problems that prevent him from doing heavy exercise; he's around your weight and 6'3) -- vaping works wonders for him.

@saltyseedog thank you! i will definitely try some of those.

i feel like i've been posting way too much depressing shit here... so here's a kitty:

My brother wanted this website for his junk removal business, and a few months ago I told him I'd make it. I was excited, I was looking forward to getting practice. I've made many sites before for practice, both in school and at home, just not ones to actually be put online and uploaded to a domain. I know HTML, CSS and JavaScript, and I was pretty good at designing them, I think. My mistake was asking my brother, every step of the way, if he liked a certain idea or not. He never liked anything I did on its first stages. I think it was because he couldn't see what I had in mind for it to look like in the end. Like, I'd just fill certain divs with random colors temporarily so that you could see the separation better, and of course it looks like shit with those colors, but he didn't understand it was only the layout no matter how much I tried to explain, like he couldn't ignore the colors. And so I felt constrained, with no freedom to create what I wanted. He'd tell me to do a certain thing and I usually didn't like it, but I'd have to keep it because it was what he wanted. So, in the end, it looked like shit. And he hasn't come out and said it but I'm pretty sure he thinks I'm just terrible at web design and hasn't considered that it may has been his fault, since he pretty much designed it.

So, I decided to re-do it completely myself, without asking him anything so that he wouldn't screw it up again. I started it, I got the main layout done and thought it would turn out well. But he hadn't given me any images to work with. Even one image of him doing the removal business or of his truck or something would have been good. I wanted to see the color scheme of the image(s), and what size they were before I continued, since I wanted the layout and color scheme of the rest of the site to work well with it. It just seemed it would work better if I could build the site around the image instead of making the site then inserting some random image that may not even work with the layout. I waited, but he never got a picture.

So, this morning, he told me he was thinking about using one of those user-friendly website builders for like $90 a year instead. I acted fine with it, helped him figure some things out with it, but I'm so upset. I really, really wanted to make the site myself. I had a great idea in mind that I'll never get to implement now. When he hadn't decided if he wanted to use the builder yet, I decided that I'd ask him to give me one more chance, to just give me a week to do the site, even without a picture. I could probably do it in less than a week but wanted to tell him a week because I know things like that take longer than expected. So I went to him, determined to tell him and ready to really start working on it for a few hours a day. I asked if he'd decided what to do yet, expecting him to say no, but he told me he'd decided to pay the $90 for the site builder.

The worst part is that now I don't even get a chance to prove my ability. My brother and my parents probably think I'm just terrible at web design just as they probably think I'm terrible at everything. I'm almost considering buying my own domain for some other purpose, and creating some awesome website that will be way better than the one he'll make with his builder, just so that he knows I can do it and regrets not letting me make his before. To be honest I kind of hope the website builder fails, that it ends up making a shitty website and having limited options. If you can just make some awesome website with a builder, then WTH is the point of having people who actually know how to do the HTML and stuff themselves? Are they just going to be put out of business? That may be a little aggressive, but I'm just really upset right now, I felt like shit already when I woke up and then had to deal with that. I actually woke up earlier this morning, at around noon, but it's already 2:30 pm and I haven't accomplished anything. I might as well have woken up just now.

What a cute kitty. One of our cats does that lol

NewArtemis. Sorry about your dog
everyone's aches and pains.

My rants are silly.
The first one has to do with the D&D alignment quiz I took in the "Tell me?Ask me" thread.
I'm Lawful Neutral/Lawful Good.
But, in life, there's me and those who share my beliefs and then there's everyone else. I'm more critical (though that's not the right word) with myself and those who share my beliefs.
Jehovah's Witnesses have a strict code of conduct. If you do something minor or in private, it's usually just a matter of prayer. If it's something big or something that was done publicly, the Elders should be told. They can pray with you and help you make adjustments. If the wrong doing is something HUGE, you could be disfellowshipped (or excommunicated).

So where that's concerned, I have a "deal with it" sort of attitude. You mess up, you fess up and move on. If you need to be "punished", so be it, but it's not my place to JUDGE or condemn. I mean, I don't think less of someone for messing up- it's part of being human. But so are the consequences.
All of those thoughts made me think of almost having to tattle on my hubby to the Elders. It was driving me insane because I couldn't remember what he had done that I thought was important enough to even mention to them. Last night, as I was finally falling asleep, I remembered. He got obnoxiously drunk at his sons wedding, which was a very public event.
Hubby told the elders himself and it was no big deal.
I hate not being able to remember stuff.

My other rant is Farmville. The game wont load at all anymore, so I've given up on it.

Life is back to normal for me. No more nausea (thank goodness). As long as I regularly drink milk, I'm fine. I'm down to 1-2 16 ounce bottles a day. If I don't have at least one bottle, it feels like someone's punched me in the gut again. It's all very strange. I have a trip coming up for 5 days (next Wed-Sunday) and I'm worried about having my milk. We bring a cooler, but that's not going to cut it. Especially seeing how hubby keeps coke, water and cheese in it.
And the auction is being held at a hotel on an airport road so there's no stores nearby and I'm not brave enough to try to venture into the city.
I REALLY hate traveling.
PLUS, the last time I took a short trip, the Bunny died. Is my bird or dog going to die this time? My son better not neglect them in any way!!!!!!!!! He did a good job with the animals last time, I'm just worried.