Rant and Rave, Cry and Complain

**tommo** · 03-10-2012 03:11 PM

Originally Posted by Puffin

My mom is an IDIOT.
stuff....

Ummmm........ why don't you just go close it yourself?

Originally Posted by Zhaylin

Tommo. Ugh... I couldn't afford to drive it was that expensive here!! You're in Canada, right? Why is it so expensive?

Australia. But, as khh said it is even more expensive elsewhere. Scandinavian countries especially.

Zhaylin - Just jump him. lol I don't think there's many men who would say no to a girl who just wants to fuck their brains out.

**Zhaylin** · 03-10-2012 03:33 PM

@ Tommo. That's great

Hubby prefers the "Twiggy" look. I am no Twiggy by any means anymore

But my Shrink agrees with you. He said if he's not interested THAT much, then he's probably self-conscious about ED or something because of his age or meds. We shall see

I'm now ranting because of 5-year-old gets birthday party, gets left behind - CNN.com article.

The comments are so unforgiving. I understand where they're coming from, but still!! I think it's the first story at CNN that I've even commented on lol

**Linkzelda** · 03-10-2012 04:21 PM

I want to spend the Spring break alone in my apartment and just sit there doing nothing but random crap on the Internet, but nooooo, I'm going to my father's house for the week off.

Ugh. There's really no point in me going back there, I'm just going to sit in my room and do nothing. I don't understand parents and their need to have their child back again whenever there's a break.

I don't even talk to him that much anyway, there really isn't any point, but at least the Internet speed is faster there. But that's the only thing that would make it this so called "vacation" less depressing.

And I'll have to pack my clothes, I hate packing so much....to hell with packing! But it must be done...:<

**Erii** · 03-10-2012 07:25 PM

For the past week, more specifically 4 days or so I'm had this continual, dolorous pang of anxiety and sadness. It's not like normal though, it's just so dark and looming, devouring. It's wretchedly simple yet deadly. My stomach is churning, my head is aching, and my throat feels a peculiar buzz. I don't know what to do, I've just been in my room awake since 8 this morning in the dark, reading or on the computer, which is fairly normal. I couldn't get back to sleep. My friends want to "hang out", not like I would anyway, but I'm just ignoring all their pleas currently. My dreams have been horrible too, very anxious and stressful. I've been feeling this in my wake and in my sleep. There's no way out.

**saltyseedog** · 03-10-2012 09:25 PM

Originally Posted by Erii

For the past week, more specifically 4 days or so I'm had this continual, dolorous pang of anxiety and sadness. It's not like normal though, it's just so dark and looming, devouring. It's wretchedly simple yet deadly. My stomach is churning, my head is aching, and my throat feels a peculiar buzz. I don't know what to do, I've just been in my room awake since 8 this morning in the dark, reading or on the computer, which is fairly normal. I couldn't get back to sleep. My friends want to "hang out", not like I would anyway, but I'm just ignoring all their pleas currently. My dreams have been horrible too, very anxious and stressful. I've been feeling this in my wake and in my sleep. There's no way out.

you can't run from yourself

**Erii** · 03-10-2012 11:18 PM

Exactly..

**DrunkenArse** · 03-10-2012 11:32 PM

Originally Posted by RationalMystic

I might even give a few rants of my own though it'll probably result in a perma-ban

You never know. I'm still around...

**tommo** · 03-10-2012 11:46 PM

Originally Posted by Erii

For the past week, more specifically 4 days or so I'm had this continual, dolorous pang of anxiety and sadness. It's not like normal though, it's just so dark and looming, devouring. It's wretchedly simple yet deadly. My stomach is churning, my head is aching, and my throat feels a peculiar buzz. I don't know what to do, I've just been in my room awake since 8 this morning in the dark, reading or on the computer, which is fairly normal. I couldn't get back to sleep. My friends want to "hang out", not like I would anyway, but I'm just ignoring all their pleas currently. My dreams have been horrible too, very anxious and stressful. I've been feeling this in my wake and in my sleep. There's no way out.

Have you tried meditation before?

**Zhaylin** · 03-11-2012 01:23 AM

Erii and Link.
I hate packing too Link!!
Sorry to hear you feel so horrible Erii. Do you write at all? What you wrote in your post was sadly beautiful.

I ranting because even though my visit with my daughter went very well, she said some upsetting things.
I brought my DSi so I could show her pictures of the new puppy. She looked at them then past pictures of her with her friends. She then got onto PictoChat and started messaging me to get her out of there, that the place was worse than hell etc.
I told her I couldn't.
Then she went on to tell me that the people there (especially the kids) are telling her she doesn't need to come home and that I'm a terrible mother.
I told her, "I am a terrible mother".

She teared up and said she's always had a roof over her head and food in her stomach. I told her there's more to being a mom than that and if I hadn't always been hiding in my room, she likely would not have gotten into even half as much trouble.
She teared up more and said "if you really believe that and I keep hearing it, I'm going to get seriously upset."
She asked me how it was my fault that she stopped going to Baton Lessons but let me believe otherwise. I always dropped her off and picked her up from the place the lessons were held.
I told her I know EVERYTHING isn't my fault, that some of the blame lies on her. But I told her that being a parent means I MAKE SURE she's where she says she's going to be. She replied that no one does that. I told her that's probably why all the youth are disappearing from our town.
I further explained that when kids spend the night with other kids, the parent is supposed to call and arrange things with the other parent. I never did that. I just expected her to be honest.

I told her to get mad at me, that doing so could help her heal and help in her treatment. I said it wasn't fair for her to try to carry all the blame herself. And that it would be good for her to tell me what I could work on (that she can see) or else I'd remain ignorant.
She then told me she had something for me to work on: Not hiding in my room all the time. But she said it out of irritation at the subject than anything else. She even rolled her eyes when she said it

The visit itself was very nice though. She had bought me a candle that smells like Banana and Kiwi and comes in a tiny pie pan. She also gave me lots of stuff to bring home with me.

Oh... and it wasn't nearly as far away as I thought. Only 97 miles there and back. It took me little under an hour to get home.

**Solarflare** · 03-11-2012 06:02 AM

Spoiler for Nonsencial rant with lots of swaring:

I have a problem when people can't speak english properly. Unless they are on the internet and they r typing like this bcuz its faster.

**Linkzelda** · 03-11-2012 06:05 AM

Originally Posted by Solarflare

Spoiler for Nonsencial rant with lots of swaring:

I have a problem when people can't speak english properly. Unless they are on the internet and they r typing like this bcuz its faster.

Foamy understands your pain.

**ThePreserver** · 03-11-2012 06:27 AM

Originally Posted by Solarflare

Spoiler for Nonsencial rant with lots of swaring:

What's nonsensical about that? It makes a lot of sense.

Although what they people say is nonsensical. Eff those people.

**Solarflare** · 03-11-2012 06:41 AM

Originally Posted by ThePreserver

What's nonsensical about that? It makes a lot of sense.

Although what they people say is nonsensical. Eff those people.

Yeah but I overreacted

Originally Posted by Linkzelda41

Foamy understands your pain.

LMFAO!

**Erii** · 03-11-2012 08:51 PM

Originally Posted by tommo

Have you tried meditation before?

Yes I have, I do meditate...I've not done it as much though, as of late.

Originally Posted by Zhaylin

Erii and Link.
I hate packing too Link!!
Sorry to hear you feel so horrible Erii. Do you write at all? What you wrote in your post was sadly beautiful.

thanks

and well, I do sometimes D;

**Taffy** · 03-12-2012 12:39 AM

Originally Posted by Erii

My friends want to "hang out", not like I would anyway, but I'm just ignoring all their pleas currently.

I'm telling you, you may regret this a lot later on. I'm sure they understand, but still.

**Singularity125** · 03-12-2012 02:25 AM

Zhaylin:

I think you might be being a bit too hard on yourself sometimes, but... I really admire how insanely mature about these things you can be. Seriously, my parents are good by most people's standards, and they still make mistakes they don't own up to. You get a ton of respect for actually admitting to the mistakes you've made, and even more respect for still loving your children, despite all they've done. That is what I think parents are really for. But then, I'm in the unconditional love camp myself.

Erii: I really hope you find some relief from your anxiety soon.

I'm going to have to agree with tommo here, if you have constant anxiety like that it might be a good idea to meditate, and to look inward. Much easier said than done, I know. In the end, of course, it may end up being something entirely different, and might just be a chemical imbalance sort of thing. But if you can even get momentary peace from meditation, it will help immensely until you can find out what's really going on.

**Mancon** · 03-12-2012 04:50 AM

I'm ranting because this thread isn't in Dreamviews Favorites!

**OldNutter** · 03-12-2012 04:56 AM

for everyone! PS: Why is the humping smiley so close to the hugging one

Anyway... I'm not happy. Maybe it's cause I got a bunch of compliments from my boss, saying how he thinks I'm doing a good job. But here's the thing... I don't think I am. I think doing a terrible fucking job. Every time he said that it felt like bullet hitting me. I don't know if I'm over thinking this, or just don't know how to take a compliment.. well I don't, actually I've said that before. But still.f
Also the fact that I am almost completely alone now. Besides DV, I really don't talk to anyone aside from the obvious work related crap, and the hello's and goodbye's. And a few friends I was never really deep with anyway. No one to talk to on a personal level for almost 6 months now, ever since I stopped talking to her. and now that she's married, there is no way in hell she'll want to text me, cause she's afraid of her husband thinking she's cheating. Which I think is bullshit. I dunno if she's lying to me, or he's actually that dumb. He's a pretty level headed guy, so... Bah I don't fucking know anymore. Instead of actually doing something and socializing, I sit here and get drunk. And bitch about this shit and feel sorry for myself. Like I always do.

**OpheliaBlue** · 03-12-2012 04:58 AM

Originally Posted by Mancon

I'm ranting because this thread isn't in Dreamviews Favorites!

It's probably just still too new. I think it will make it there one day.

It already has such a cult following

**~~Alyzarin~~** · 03-12-2012 05:02 AM

OldSparta. I'm definitely starting to feel kind of secluded.... It's getting to the point where I don't talk to very many people at all who aren't on DV. Actually, the last time I saw someone face to face other than family was a few days ago at least. I had a short (like three or four messages) text conversation with a friend earlier today, but before that it was a couple days even for that. I need to get out of the house.... :T (Though, I complain, but they're still there to hang out with, I'm just lazy. >_<)

And honestly, I'm even getting lazy about DV, most of my DV talk these days is off of DV. I think this is my first post in this thread in at least a few days.

**Solarflare** · 03-12-2012 05:03 AM

I hate it when people meddle into my affairs thinking they own my problem and have to fix it for themselves. Going on and on and on and on and on and on and on about MY problems. I know that they are trying to be nice and whatnot but fuck off. You aren't in anyway shape or form related to my dilemma, stop pressuring me and being a faggot about it. And hell, I told him that he should shut up about MY problem but he didn't. And he is always so demanding and.... annoying >_>

FUCK!

**OldNutter** · 03-12-2012 05:07 AM

Originally Posted by Alyzarin

OldSparta. I'm definitely starting to feel kind of secluded.... It's getting to the point where I don't talk to very many people at all who aren't on DV. Actually, the last time I saw someone face to face other than family was a few days ago at least. I had a short (like three or four messages) text conversation with a friend earlier today, but before that it was a couple days even for that. I need to get out of the house.... :T (Though, I complain, but they're still there to hang out with, I'm just lazy. >_<)

And honestly, I'm even getting lazy about DV, most of my DV talk these days is off of DV. I think this is my first post in this thread in at least a few days.

I swear to god that if I didn't know any better, I'd swear it was me who wrote that. It's pretty much my entire weekend. Except I had to work -.- But yeah... short conversation with friend. And first post in DV for a bit.

**SpaceCowboyDave** · 03-12-2012 05:13 AM

Somebody shoot me. Just fucking shoot me. Take me out back and shoot me, bury me in the woods. Run me over with a bus as I cross the road tomorrow. Ship me over to Zimbabwe so I can starve, get AIDS, and die. Seriously death can't be worse than this bullshit.

**OpheliaBlue** · 03-12-2012 05:23 AM

Originally Posted by dave1701

Somebody shoot me. Just fucking shoot me. Take me out back and shoot me, bury me in the woods. Run me over with a bus as I cross the road tomorrow. Ship me over to Zimbabwe so I can starve, get AIDS, and die. Seriously death can't be worse than this bullshit.

Dude what happened

**Erii** · 03-12-2012 06:31 AM

double u, tee, eff.
The backspace button completely fell off my laptop. It's not snapping in place like I've done any other time a key had /partially/ fallen off. It makes the snapping noises then falls off again?
What do?