Thread: Rant and Rave, Cry and Complain

Well... that went better than expected. Sorta. I still pretty much feel like crying, but unfortunately, I really can't. the last time I cried, it was 3 years ago at my dad's funeral, and it was like for 30 seconds. No lie. I dunno why I can't cry, it's like this goddamned pre-programmed response to not cry, because it's not what guys do. In my opinion apparently. But fuck, I acted normally, and all happy and shit. even thought this is one of the worse days of my life :/

Jus tspent like an hour try8ing to get onto IRC with a client and coudln't, nothting worked. I'm a fuking retarded.

Originally Posted by Dianeva

Jus tspent like an hour try8ing to get onto IRC with a client and coudln't, nothting worked. I'm a fuking retarded.

Or maybe just tired? Make sure you put the ip address of Dreamviews (208.43.40.120) as the server instead of irc.dreamviews.com

OMG SUPER Aly. You have my most profound sympathies!! I'm glad those panic attacks are no longer a daily occurance!!!!

OldSparta. It's okay to cry. But I completely understand. I'm a woman yet I rarely cry. It's been programmed into me as well.

lol Forceez! Hope you regained your sense of manliness

Thanks Ophelia. I don't know about that enzyme. It was never mentioned to me. Perhaps he had to take it because of additional complications? I've heard of people having trouble with diarrhea from eating fatty foods after their gallbladder was removed, but that's it.

I hope Omnis makes it over soon- and anyone else stuck in limbo as well.

My rant is that I'm falling asleep at my desk. I don't recall when I fell asleep last night, but it was well before midnight. I was worried about sleeping with my dog, but she was a good girl and stayed near my feet. I took a hydro before going to sleep and I guess it helped. That med must be very pain specific. I had written it off because it did nothing for my headaches or the pain from my gallbladder attacks. But it's done great with the pain from my incisions.
I woke quickly to the sound of knocking. Cuddlebug had gotten out of his container lol and was chewing on a pair of denim shorts- making quite a noise.

I'm feeling much better today. I removed all the dressings from my wounds (except for the main one at my belly button) early yesterday because I just could not tolerate the irritation from the tape. Surgical tape covers the wounds and I left those be!!! and covered them with bandaids.

I'm also ranting because I'm such a pushover when it comes to animals bound for the Pound. My daughters friend came over with a tiny puppy yesterday and asked me to take her. She's just a tiny baby so I said yeah. Cara (friend) tried telling me the pup is part p(?) and part Chow and that she will be a small dog. Not a chance. If it was Pug she said, I don't see it at all. I'm pretty sure she didn't say pit bull. But the pup looks almost all Black lab. And her feet agree. She's going to be a medium sized dog.
My eldest was complaining that he doesn't have his very own pet the other day, so I told Cara to bring it to him and tell him the pup is his.
Of course, I've taken her outside every time so far Surprisingly enough, for her age, she goes pee outside. But she is a little biter. We've had to put dish soap on wires and such to deter her from chewing them.
And, of course, my dog hates her. I also had to cover the new doggy door lol *sigh*

My son needs to wake up so he can cook some Chimi's for me If I open the microwave, I lose my appetite. I'm very much a neat freak when it comes to the kitchen and my food. But ignorance is bliss...

Originally Posted by Dianeva

What went wrong?

Went to a friends wedding, a friend who I like and was best friends with for the longest time.

Originally Posted by Zhaylin

But she is a little biter. We've had to put dish soap on wires and such to deter her from chewing them.

That's a great idea! Granted, it's a little late now, but if I ever get a dog again, I"m doing this, lol.

I just had to run out of the kitchen, or I would have started a fight. The conversation was about this friend of my mother's, Michel, who has 5 sons I believe, and three of them are homosexual. Michel can't cope with it. When he found out about the first one, he lived in an appartment for a year by himself. He still doesn't know about the third one (or he's in denial) , because the son's afraid that he'd be excommunicated by his father or something. So we were talking about it over dinner and my mother and sister UNDERSTAND Michel. Because homosexuality is unnatural, they say. Argh this just makes me so upset. It's not like homosexuals are made in a laboratory or something, why would you say it's unnatural? What does that even mean, really? Just because they can't get kids? I'd say it's a good thing that at least 10% of the population can't get each other pregnant. We're moving toward a highly overpopulated planet already. And why would that ever justify his behavior against his sons. Just live with it, man. They're family. I can understand it can be hard on you, in some way, but not really... You just don't abandon your family because of some personal preference you have. There are far worse things than having homosexual sons. There are still two left to make some grandkids for you and makes sure your blood lives on, or whatever you're upset about, sheesh...

Originally Posted by Meeps

I just had to run out of the kitchen, or I would have started a fight. The conversation was about this friend of my mother's, Michel, who has 5 sons I believe, and three of them are homosexual. Michel can't cope with it. When he found out about the first one, he lived in an appartment for a year by himself. He still doesn't know about the third one (or he's in denial) , because the son's afraid that he'd be excommunicated by his father or something. So we were talking about it over dinner and my mother and sister UNDERSTAND Michel. Because homosexuality is unnatural, they say. Argh this just makes me so upset. It's not like homosexuals are made in a laboratory or something, why would you say it's unnatural? What does that even mean, really? Just because they can't get kids? I'd say it's a good thing that at least 10% of the population can't get each other pregnant. We're moving toward a highly overpopulated planet already. And why would that ever justify his behavior against his sons. Just live with it, man. They're family. I can understand it can be hard on you, in some way, but not really... You just don't abandon your family because of some personal preference you have. There are far worse things than having homosexual sons. There are still two left to make some grandkids for you and makes sure your blood lives on, or whatever you're upset about, sheesh...

I'm so touched by your post Meeps. *Cries*

Ever since I've been telling people in my country that I've confessed to the girl I like (well actually I have been telling quite a lot of people because it's the first for me, regardless the confession is towards which gender), a few have been trying to help me sort out my sexuality. Examples being asking me to try and date a guy, but I don't date for the sake of dating! Or telling me that I'm not certain of my sexuality. And my Mum's being telling me I can be just good friends with her, why do I have to be in a relationship with her, telling me that love is more than just claiming her as your own.

And I'm only at the very starting stage yet they are telling me all the possible things that could go wrong in the future. I don't love her yet, not yet, how are you supposed to love a person when you have only meet her for a few times? But I was so certain that I like her, I was so certain she possess all the qualities that I ever want in a partner, and most importantly I feel happy and comfortable being with her. I was so certain that with her around, I'll never look at other people and think they are as special as her ever again. She grew from a decent looking girl to a pretty girl in my heart. Why are they telling me so much when all I said is I LIKE HER?

IT'S LIKE I HAVE TO BEAR ALL SINS JUST BECAUSE I LIKE A PERSON AND WANT TO BE WITH HER?

The first confession didn't go well because she was half-believing it but I was happy that we became closer even after it. I was so optimistic about our progression but there are people who have to verbally hurt me when they have no experience of a homosexual relationship. I was over anxious on my side about everything she does. I know she's heterosexual but I've a friend who told me it's easier for girls to be bisexual so I decided to give it a try. But now I'm even doubting, I'm even doubting my feelings for her when I was so certain I like her, I'm doubting that I actually like her as a partner, thinking that I might just view her as an older sister. If this goes on I might just settle for a genderless person, since I don't really have feelings for guys, and the society is misleading me in thinking that I like girls as sisters, I should just settle for a person without gender so they can't judge me right?

Someone please tell me what's the difference between liking a girl as a girlfriend and liking a girl as an older sister?

Originally Posted by Carrot

Someone please tell me what's the difference between liking a girl as a girlfriend and liking a girl as an older sister?

Sex?

Originally Posted by dave1701

Sex?

I guess it's fine to have sex with anyone as long as you think they're attractive?

Yeah, OldSparta... we tried the bitter spray that's made to deter pets from chewing on things, but it never worked. In desperation, I put a dab of soap on my fingers then lightly coated the item with it. If you get ants, though, it's not a good idea lol For some reason, ants seem drawn to soap.

Carrot, how old are you?
I fall for "people" whether male or female. But because of religious reasons, I stick with guys. And because I like guys, that's okay. If I didn't, though, I would remain celibate. Liking someone more than a friend (big sister/brother vrs. lover) means you think of them more in a romantic sense. And you languish when you're away from them in a different way than you do with a dear friend. You imagine their touch more, or laying next to them and such.
But love is still even more complicated than that. Sometimes we don't "love" the person we're fancying- we just love certain qualities about them or their ideals etc.

I was once falling for the married [church] Elder from my local congregation. I anguished over that because I was married as well. After lots of praying and thinking, I realized I didn't really even know him. I just loved the fact he was so great with my kids, with the Congregation and that we was so warm and friendly (unlike my hubby who is often more gruff lol).
Love is a very complicated thing

And, Meeps, I understand. I hate gay bashing (or any bashing really).
I would have left too.

My rant is that I've been feeling nauseous off and on. I ended up taking a nap for a couple of hours and woke quickly when the perimeter alarm went off. I seem MUCH more jumpy since the operation!!!!
There was a puddle of drool on my bed lol but my nose isn't stopped up, so that's going to be driving me crazy if it continues much longer

I finally got my paper out of the car and I see the Dr. in 9 days. But it will have to be the day before or after because my oldest daughter has Court on the 6th.

Originally Posted by Zhaylin

Carrot, how old are you?
I fall for "people" whether male or female. But because of religious reasons, I stick with guys. And because I like guys, that's okay. If I didn't, though, I would remain celibate. Liking someone more than a friend (big sister/brother vrs. lover) means you think of them more in a romantic sense. And you languish when you're away from them in a different way than you do with a dear friend. You imagine their touch more, or laying next to them and such.
But love is still even more complicated than that. Sometimes we don't "love" the person we're fancying- we just love certain qualities about them or their ideals etc.

I was once falling for the married [church] Elder from my local congregation. I anguished over that because I was married as well. After lots of praying and thinking, I realized I didn't really even know him. I just loved the fact he was so great with my kids, with the Congregation and that we was so warm and friendly (unlike my hubby who is often more gruff lol).
Love is a very complicated thing

Thanks for typing so much.

Ever since I saw her last Monday, I've been thinking about her everyday. It's almost as though the last thing before I sleep her images will appear in my mind, the first thing I think of when I woke up lying on my bed is her. I was getting all anxious and worried and panicky because I've been thinking too much, to the extent I need to play Zuma to rid my mind off it. And I think my stomach acted funny because I was too tense up.

I don't think of too much about her touch I think, I've been thinking of how she looks like, what we chatted about, and all the possible things I could do with her in the future if we're together.

But like I said, I can't say aloud that I love her, but I'm pretty sure I like her, maybe that's a way for me to stop myself from sinking too deep if we can't develop any further. Yes love is complicated because we are complicated.

Oh and I forgot to answer your question, I'm 20 this year, never been in a relationship before.

Originally Posted by Zhaylin

My rant is that I've been feeling nauseous off and on. I ended up taking a nap for a couple of hours and woke quickly when the perimeter alarm went off. I seem MUCH more jumpy since the operation!!!!
There was a puddle of drool on my bed lol but my nose isn't stopped up, so that's going to be driving me crazy if it continues much longer

I finally got my paper out of the car and I see the Dr. in 9 days. But it will have to be the day before or after because my oldest daughter has Court on the 6th.

Operation? Oh my. What operation? I was away for so long I didn't know.

Originally Posted by Carrot

I guess it's fine to have sex with anyone as long as you think they're attractive?

That's not what I meant. You would likely be sexually attracted to a girlfriend, but hopefully not to your sister.

Liking a girl as a girlfriend has many special feelings attached, like being attracted to them physically, or finding the way they talk draws you to them. It's something you don't control.

You don't have to like your sister, but if you do it's familiarity, someone who has always been there and you know them because they are your family. But you wouldn't ever want to kiss them.

Bisexuality isn't going to work if you're not attracted to both genders. Either you are attracted to something, or you're not. You either like onions...or you don't. A simple analogy but still true. Being homosexual or even heterosexual is not a choice. You either are...or you are not.

Do what makes you happy. There will always be someone in the world that will judge you negatively for how you live your life, no matter what you do.

Originally Posted by OpheliaBlue

Omnis Dei is in tinychat now, please help him get to this DV

I told him how anderj and Aly explained it to me, but doesn't seem to work for him. And Mancon tried too. Don't know if anyone else has any tips. I gave him my email. Cross fingers.

I had trouble at first myself, because some of the wording in the tutorial wasn't perfectly...well, it just wasn't working, mainly because I am an administrator on my profile and right clicking didn't change anything. I had to do a different step from my program list to make this work.

Anyone got his e-mail? I doubt he's in chat now. I used to write software installation tutorials for my office filled with 90 professionals. It's amazing how people who make 6 figures and have lots of letters after their names can't figure out simple things, like Outlook.

Originally Posted by dave1701

That's not what I meant. You would likely be sexually attracted to a girlfriend, but hopefully not to your sister.

Not referring to blood sister, just a friend you see as a sister. And I don't see why it's not possible to be sexually attracted to a sisterly friend. That's why I was confused.

Originally Posted by melanieb

Liking a girl as a girlfriend has many special feelings attached, like being attracted to them physically, or finding the way they talk draws you to them. It's something you don't control.

You don't have to like your sister, but if you do it's familiarity, someone who has always been there and you know them because they are your family. But you wouldn't ever want to kiss them.

Bisexuality isn't going to work if you're not attracted to both genders. Either you are attracted to something, or you're not. You either like onions...or you don't. A simple analogy but still true. Being homosexual or even heterosexual is not a choice. You either are...or you are not.

Do what makes you happy. There will always be someone in the world that will judge you negatively for how you live your life, no matter what you do.

Regardless whether she's heterosexual or she thinks she's heterosexual because we are brought up this way such that being any other sexuality is "unnatural", I would like to give it one last push before I give up. Or a few more pushes. I think it will take me years before I can find someone like her again.

But anyway I wasn't referring to a blood sister, I was referring to someone older than you but you're treating them like a sister. I'm an only child, no siblings.

Originally Posted by Zhaylin

Yeah, OldSparta... we tried the bitter spray that's made to deter pets from chewing on things, but it never worked. In desperation, I put a dab of soap on my fingers then lightly coated the item with it. If you get ants, though, it's not a good idea lol For some reason, ants seem drawn to soap.

Apparently, ants hate cucumber. Could just put a slice out everyday, till the dog learns not to bite things.

When you find someone special, no matter what gender they are, you have to be true to yourself. If you like them...go for it!

Originally Posted by Carrot

Ever since I saw her last Monday, I've been thinking about her everyday. It's almost as though the last thing before I sleep her images will appear in my mind, the first thing I think of when I woke up lying on my bed is her. I was getting all anxious and worried and panicky because I've been thinking too much, to the extent I need to play Zuma to rid my mind off it. And I think my stomach acted funny because I was too tense up.

I don't think of too much about her touch I think, I've been thinking of how she looks like, what we chatted about, and all the possible things I could do with her in the future if we're together.

But like I said, I can't say aloud that I love her, but I'm pretty sure I like her, maybe that's a way for me to stop myself from sinking too deep if we can't develop any further. Yes love is complicated because we are complicated.

Sounds like being in love to me.

The damn toilet is overflowing... -.-

And we have no idea why. Something seems to be wrong with the tank because it's making funny noises, but what exactly?

My mom has the bathroom turning from dirty to disgusting...

I have no respect for Eddie Murphy.

Just sayin'.

heh- I dreamed my toilet was over-flowing against the bathtub and through the bottom of my bedroom door. I was highly annoyed and all the more so because the water was a dark blue from the toilet cleaner stuff we drop into the back of the tank. In the dream, it leaked because something at the floor needed tightening.
I hope you get you RL problem fixed soon. Ours always overflows when it's clogged. The plunger makes a bigger mess at first, but eventually, it works out whatever caused the blockage.

So yeah, I'm annoyed because I took ANOTHER nap. For 4 hours this time I dreamed A LOT about water- of driving into it, of unscrewing the wrong thing and causing a leak to spring up in a boat and everyone almost drowned etc etc. It's a typical stress symbol for me.

OldSparta... didn't know that about cucumbers. Thanks! In my experience, the pet eventually loses interest in the object. It usually takes a couple of weeks though- especially for babies. For biting people, I use "no" then immediately give them a chew toy.
I am SO happy this puppy is mostly house trained!

Dave, why don't you clean it?

Carrot, had my gallbladder removed on Friday night.

Ugh... I am way too hot. I need to open the window and hope the bees don't come inside...

Hehe, Zhay, if I was coming out of a surgery I'd be thankful for all the sleep. Oh, also, about the hydrocodone.... I'd assume that your gallbladder attacks were probably just too strong for it to dull, it's really not that strong of a painkiller. And I don't know if headaches really count as pain in the way that painkillers act... but I'm glad it helps for your incisions! That I would definitely expect.

Originally Posted by Zhaylin

OMG SUPER Aly. You have my most profound sympathies!! I'm glad those panic attacks are no longer a daily occurance!!!!

Thanks. Yeah, it was certainly no fun.... So happy to be beyond that.