Thread: Rant and Rave, Cry and Complain

Originally Posted by khh

Gah.

Puffin. I hope your sister didn't get you sick!!!!

Tommo. When I was 17 or so I had a one night stand with a neighborhood guy. I had snuck out of the house and we went for a walk, then off into the woods and I fell asleep on a hillside. Next thing I know, he's on top of me, doing his thing. I had my first orgasm. But I pretended to be asleep the whole time and when he mentioned it later in an off-hand manner, I denied remembering anything about that night. How immature is that? But I had a boyfriend and I couldn't come to grips that I had cheated on him and I wanted to deny it even happened.
Perhaps your friend feels a similar way. Perhaps she's just so embarrassed by her actions that she's lying about the events even to herself. Was she wasted?
It may show her lack of emotional maturity more than any sort of malicious intent.

Dianeva I hope you feel better today.

Posting before I lose this....

Solar Sounds very strange but interesting. My hubby likes to watch his kids play games, but he's never been into them himself. Not really anyhow. But it's an activity he likes to share with them. Perhaps your dad is trying to bond with you or something over the game. But he does need to chill lol

I originally posted the content of my sons second letter to show more the fashion in which he wrote it, than the actual content. But DV didn't show the format I used. My son had paragraphs started in strange places. The writing format was just *wrong* which (oddly) made me more concerned than anything else.

Here's the original letter for reference. I'll clean up the spelling as best I can.

"To Mom
It is really difficult to admit this to any living being.
BUT I have To Say it SOMEHOW

If I do not come clean I will be always insane.
So please don't tell anyone what I'm about to enclose to you [triple underlined sentence]

Since I was born I wanted to be a female.
I've even seen picture of me as a kid [in his imagination] in lady's clothing.
I guess you don't outgrow some things.

I also suffer severely from depression and nervousness for [my] lack of spelling ability

and NO I'm NOT gay.
[whole paragraph scribbled out]

I'm also a massive sex addict that you precisely could NOT understand.
I do-not need pills- [indiscernible 'cret- [scribbled out] aced [scribbled out]] females are all Thows [?] and so much more.

But if you're asking yourself about the beginning
Yes, I want to be a Transgender.
O
and if you tell anyone I will have to kill them and I will believe me.



So please do-NOT tell anyone.
please!!!

Thanks for listening.
I had to get it out somehow or I'd keep being depressed and sad / [scribbled] and gun [?] happy.

Goodbye."

The original letter was much sloppier than the second. But the paragraphs were mostly as they should be.

But that's why I'm so desperately confused. One minute he's telling me he doesn't want medicine and to tell NO ONE, the next minute it's the complete opposite.
But I HAVE to do something...

Sorry so long...

Schooling can suck a bag of dicks!
@solarflare ROFL!

Originally Posted by Zhaylin

Tommo. When I was 17 or so I had a one night stand with a neighborhood guy. I had snuck out of the house and we went for a walk, then off into the woods and I fell asleep on a hillside. Next thing I know, he's on top of me, doing his thing. I had my first orgasm. But I pretended to be asleep the whole time and when he mentioned it later in an off-hand manner, I denied remembering anything about that night. How immature is that? But I had a boyfriend and I couldn't come to grips that I had cheated on him and I wanted to deny it even happened.

Posting before I lose this....

Wow Zhaylin, you have many layers to you huh?

Hope you feel better khh, I'm in that "gah" mood too right now. Poli Sci test this Friday, Biology Quiz Thursday, Chemistry Quiz has to be completed before Wednesday, type a summary page before wednesday for Biochemistry, and worrying if I have a reading quiz for Sociohorticulture tomorrow. :s

Edit: After I'm done eating, it's laundry time for me. And god, with the machines that aren't working, it's going to be hard getting the good ones first before I have to wait a whole freaking 30 minutes for someone to finish theirs.

I am in such a shitty mood, I don't know where to begin.

I just learned that, even though my sister is enrolled in dance and piano, she's now getting a $1,000 grand piano because she's bitching that the pedal on her current one "doesn't work well". I've been asking for drums for over a month, and to enroll in art classes. My parents both said no because "we just gave you a laptop this year". I don't care. I don't have shit to put on my resume, all I have is "bowling" and dance classes from two or three years ago. I have next to no extracurricular activities and this is going to make me look like a shut-in, I don't even want to apply to places for a job until I get something else on there.

My friend just called me to let me know that all her friends "know" what I said to her about "how much of a bitch she is". I never said any of that. Also, I called two people and although they've been posting on facebook and stuff, they have been DUCKING my calls and texts.

Also, I'm sick and tired of this ADA bullshit. Everywhere I look, I see awareness being classified as "ADA". Awareness is ADA. ADA = awareness. Ha! Who started putting emphasis on awareness first? Me. My technique is not a version of ADA. ADA is a version of awareness, and so is mine. Apparently people don't see the publication dates. It's everywhere, the writer of the ADA tutorial is getting all the damn credit even though I came up with a technique using awareness and mindfulness first. I just want to pull all my tutorials from DV right now and I am really considering doing it.

I'm leaving for a while and don't know when I'll be back.

Originally Posted by Puffin

Also, I'm sick and tired of this ADA bullshit. Everywhere I look, I see awareness being classified as "ADA". Awareness is ADA. ADA = awareness. Ha! Who started putting emphasis on awareness first? Me. My technique is not a version of ADA. ADA is a version of awareness, and so is mine. Apparently people don't see the publication dates. It's everywhere, the writer of the ADA tutorial is getting all the damn credit even though I came up with a technique using awareness and mindfulness first. I just want to pull all my tutorials from DV right now and I am really considering doing it.

That surprised me a bit too, increasing immediate awareness is by no means a new concept. I had my own version before I even read the ADA tutorial. I don't think anyone should discredit their own versions just because some people never heard of the concept before and think someone invented it, they're just immensely ignorant of history lol.

What. Just. Happened.

It started working. Then it stopped again.

I am heartbroken and I didn't even know my heart was out there for him to crush it.

Yes! I've escaped from the alternate dimension!

To anyone who keeps getting dragged through time, follow the same advice I just did on the duplicate forum. If you get stuck there, Google how to edit your computer's 'hosts' file and add "208.43.40.120 www.dreamviews.com" to it. Then reload at the main URL (dreamviews.com) and it'll bring you back here.

Anyway....

Originally Posted by Meeps

I am heartbroken and I didn't even know my heart was out there for him to crush it.

What happened?

Originally Posted by Alyzarin

Yes! I've escaped from the alternate dimension!

To anyone who keeps getting dragged through time, follow the same advice I just did on the duplicate forum. If you get stuck there, Google how to edit your computer's 'hosts' file and add "208.43.40.120 www.dreamviews.com" to it. Then reload at the main URL (dreamviews.com) and it'll bring you back here.

Add a couple more URLs to that list to get webchat and IRC working:

208.43.40.120 www.dreamviews.com irc.dreamviews.com webchat.dreamviews.com

Originally Posted by Meeps

I am heartbroken and I didn't even know my heart was out there for him to crush it.

On a seperate note... I think beer is giving me heartburn. NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO*Inhale*OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO OO

Originally Posted by OldSparta

On a seperate note... I think beer is giving me heartburn. NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO*Inhale*OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO OO

That sucks. :T Eat some tums!

Originally Posted by Meeps

I cropped the quote cause it's annoying to quote big posts
I missed the first rant, is it far away?
That conversation between you two is really confusing. First she denies it... Then she says that she DID hook up with him (with lololol, what's that about?) and tells you you should have slept elsewhere... Really confusing.
She sounds like a bad friend. Sorry for you. :/

The first rant was just a couple of pages back.
The lolololol thing was something I put in lol, which is why it was in brackets. I was loling at her saying "may have hooked up", coz they so obviously did.

Originally Posted by Dianeva

Stayed up all night, got most of what I needed to done. School in 15 minutes. That uneasy feeling of sleep deprivation.

I found a very true meme the other day for this. It was that Fry squinting picture thing and it said
"Hungover and sleep deprived
Not sure if hungry, or need to throw up" haha

Originally Posted by Dianeva

From the convo you posted that girl sounds annoying and defensive, like she was constantly trying to make it look like it wasn't her fault (from blaming you instead of herself for you sleeping outside, to accusing you of potential snoring).

Ah, another misinterpretation. She just meant "sleep" by snore. I think anyway. Like if we wanted music to sleep. Or maybe it was snore, and to cover the noise. I wasn't 100% sure but yeah, more likely just sleep.

Originally Posted by Alyzarin

And tommo, I have to agree with above comments, she just doesn't sound like a good friend or possibly even that good of a person. I'd try not to take it too hard, some people just aren't considerate at all.

And, I think you're all correct. It's just hard not to take it personally when it's happened so much, like every friendship I've ever had. lol....

But I'm not going to dwell on it any more. Just wanted to clear that up and respond etc.

Thanks guys

Originally Posted by Alyzarin

That sucks. :T Eat some tums!

Actually, it went away. But last night, I took 6 tums, and it still hurt. No bad, and sure as hell not enough to get me to stop drinking, but still, lol.

So many people are still using the evil server, we need to get them back! :<

Lol, yeah. Well... we dunno for sure it's compromised, but things aren't looking great.

I prefer to stay paranoid until there's more evidence that this is normal. Lol. Like if we actually heard from Alex that'd be nice. :T

Yeah, but it's like... 3am in Germany right now. Also we are in IRC right now proposing interesting conspiracy theories at the moment,

Lol I did the IP shit, I feel like I'm travelling though dimensions

Originally Posted by OldSparta

Yeah, but it's like... 3am in Germany right now. Also we are in IRC right now proposing interesting conspiracy theories at the moment,

I suppose that's true.... :T Lol, I'll bet that's interesting.

Originally Posted by Kitties

Lol I did the IP shit, I feel like I'm travelling though dimensions

Right?? I'm having way too much fun.

I always wonder who the hell does this stuff.

It looks like the new copy IP is coming out of Germany. Those Germans!