Thread: Rant and Rave, Cry and Complain

The Chinese food's not here yet. :< General Tso's chicken, orange chicken, lemon chicken, sweet and sour chicken, two orders of white rice and two orders of brown rice, two egg drop soups and one hot and sour soup, and two orders of fried crab rangoon. (I'm sharing it with a friend who's high and a little tipsy. )

Originally Posted by Alyzarin

rangoon

I don't know what that is but it sounds like a Pokemon. .-.
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School starts up again in two weeks, hope I get a professor that isn't mind-numbingly boring. Hopefully the people in my classes are cool too; I had a dream last night where no one wanted me to sit beside them in class. :[

Originally Posted by Alyzarin

The Chinese food's not here yet. :< General Tso's chicken, orange chicken, lemon chicken, sweet and sour chicken, two orders of white rice and two orders of brown rice, two egg drop soups and one hot and sour soup, and two orders of fried crab rangoon.

I am bloody jealous of you. THAT IS THE SHIT RIGHT THERE!!!!!!!! OH MY GOD.

And fuck, I have to take care of these demon spawns, I mean children, for tonight. Their father is here, but they cause so much stress for me...like seriously. I know they are kids but, oh well I can't help it.

Originally Posted by GavinGill

I don't know what that is but it sounds like a Pokemon. ._.

There's cream cheese in there!

Originally Posted by Linkzelda41

I am bloody jealous of you. THAT IS THE SHIT RIGHT THERE!!!!!!!! OH MY GOD.

And fuck, I have to take care of these demon spawns, I mean children, for tonight. Their father is here, but they cause so much stress for me...like seriously. I know they are kids but, oh well I can't help it.

You're telling me. Taaaaaaasty!!

Whose kids are they?

My father's friend. And OH MY GOD, I thought those were Cheese Wotons (w/e you call them). I LOVE THOSE!

Originally Posted by Linkzelda41

My father's friend. And OH MY GOD, I thought those were Cheese Wotons (w/e you call them). I LOVE THOSE!

Yeah, some places I've ordered from also call them crab wontons, so same difference.

Oh
my
god
I am so full. Blood... rushing to stomach.... Entering food-induced delirium....

My chest (or my heart specifically, I'm sure) is giving me trouble again. It's been bugging me all day with this dull ache that just won't go away. It doesn't exactly hurt but simply experiencing that sensation is causing more than enough discomfort. I'll have to get an x-ray or something done some time this week. I should have gotten tests done a while back but I keep putting it off because the doctors office and the hospital make me really uncomfortable.

Originally Posted by GavinGill

My chest (or my heart specifically, I'm sure) is giving me trouble again. It's been bugging me all day with this dull ache that just won't go away. It doesn't exactly hurt but simply experiencing that sensation is causing more than enough discomfort. I'll have to get an x-ray or something done some time this week. I should have gotten tests done a while back but I keep putting it off because the doctors office and the hospital make me really uncomfortable.

Hopefully it's not anything serious! My anxiety is based mostly around imagined physical symptoms, on a good day I'd have those feelings and on a bad day I'd be pacing around my house constantly checking my pulse and feeling the temperature in my hands and shoving vasodilators down my throat and drinking milk and all kinds of other things to calm myself down, thinking that I was about to have a heart attack. :/ I had to train myself to ignore the feelings, and start living healthier to convince myself that nothing was wrong. Even having the doctors tell me I was perfectly fine right in the middle of my worst panic attacks wasn't enough to convince me. >_<

Typing taking too much energy... back to food coma.... (Look how cute it is!! )

I feel empty again. Sometimes I think about how the people I know in my life will be in the future. Who will be the reject, who will be rich, who will become famous, who's going to marry who. And sometimes, I worry that if I don't find the moment to strike, someone I like may be taken, and possibly proposed before I ask them, and it's going to suck.

Sure there's other fish in the sea, but wondering whether or not that person is waiting for you is really doing so. Sigh...even EVA can't help me avoid that...

Why am I worrying about this?!?!

and ....HEY KAOMEA, I KNOW YOU'RE THERE.

and LOL...these little kids think that since I'm in college, I must know everything. trolololol

And I feel like I should be cynical, but what good would that do

Originally Posted by Linkzelda41

And sometimes, I worry that if I don't find the moment to strike, someone I like may be taken, and possibly proposed before I ask them, and it's going to suck.

I think that way a lot too. I'm always too afraid to do anything about it because I'm not even comfortable with myself yet. Can't wait forever, though....

And what my mind does to prevent me from thinking too much about it is death, like knowing that we'll all die alone (but that's just what I think, people might have a different mindset).

Then I think to myself that I shouldn't worry about that either, which just makes me bored again. Ugh XP

Sometimes I think we're all objects, like if you love someone, you have to GET them, as if they're some object. If you love your children or your lover, you have to PROTECT them like they're some object.

And it must suck for a girl to be pretty. Being eye-candy to guys, and any guy who wants to date her will most likely be after something rather than her actual worth as a human being. I'm sure glad I'm not a girl!

Originally Posted by Linkzelda41

Sometimes I think we're all objects, like if you love someone, you have to GET them, as if they're some object.

I can see where you're coming from, but I have to say that with the biggest crush I've ever had, the only one I'd truly describe as "head over heels", as much as I would love to be with him and it hurts me to think that I'm not, I don't really feel like it applies to the "getting them" scenario.... Actually pretty much all I would ever think about was what I can give him, how I can make him happy, what all I can possibly do to make his life easier and make sure that he enjoys every second of it. In relation to it, I don't think I could ever feel that I've possibly given enough of myself. Remember what I told you I thought was romantic?

You're giving him more love, but you're not receiving any back. You must REALLY love him. Wish I could love someone that way, but you deserve better, and you'll find the one someday

By romantic, do you mean how you can play mind games with people?


AND OH MY FUCKING GOD..THIS DEMON SPAWN I'm dealing with, I'm telling him to PLEASE to be quiet while his brother is PLAYING...but no he keeps telling him what to do and he's shouting at him...UGH STfU YOU RASCAL!%@

Oh wait nvm, the little brother said I can use the shotgun on him if he talks (It's a toy shotgun lol, now he's shutting up) Good little boy.

Originally Posted by Linkzelda41

You're giving him more love, but you're not receiving any back. You must REALLY love him. Wish I could love someone that way, but you deserve better, and you'll find the one someday

Well, I'm still holding out hope for the future... but thanks. I really do, though. It's a curse.

Originally Posted by Linkzelda41

By romantic, do you mean how you can play mind games with people?

Haha no, that's more just hot. I'm talking about the hypnosis thing.

I'm sorry lol. I'm just having the time of my life with this shotgun.

I frickin LOVE sushi. I had a Crazy Dragon Roll (Like a California roll but with Eel on it... hmmmmm). I tried having a Miso Soup but it was so ridiculously salty it could not be eaten. The restaurant has had trouble with their Miso for a long time now So I tried some clear soup with a couple dumplings in it, which was surprisingly tasty.
My rant is that it will likely be another year before I eat there again

Also, the foot I popped finally feels better, but the other one felt much worse... then better. ??? I have NO recollection of initially doing anything whatsoever to it. It bothers me mostly when I "point" my foot. The skin feels ultra tight and there's a small pain in the center (top) of my foot.
Like an idiot, while trying to sleep earlier today, I tried to isolate the discomfort by doing "the wave" with my toes and other stuff. When I got up I could hardly even stand on it for several hours, but now it feels almost completely better I can still feel the sore spot if I poke it, lol, but the unbearable tightness has gone away.

We've not gotten much of any snow either Then again, our worse winter days hit in the middle of January.

Lol, try living in Texas, the weather is BIPOLAR here.

Cold as hell one day, and we have to slap on layers.

Next day, could walk out of there shirtless...

Originally Posted by Linkzelda41

Lol, try living in Texas, the weather is BIPOLAR here.

Cold as hell one day, and we have to slap on layers.

Next day, could walk out of there shirtless...

that's how it is here lawl.

Alright, I'm good now. kind of. I'm just gonna make it better no matter what.

Besides that, I have my first ever job interview tomorrow (at McDonald's lol) and I'm scared ;~;

If the weather were always the same, it would get boring, though! I'm OK with Bipolar weather. I like rain after lots of sun, and I like sun after lots of rain. But I want some snow now, before I have to drive, so it can all melt when I do have to drive.

Also my windshield wipers don't work so there's a reason.

Good luck, Kitties.

I think I might draw Kaomea as an apology if my comment wasn't good enough. If she'll let me draw her that is. (I think I understand why no woman would want to see that video lols)

*yaaaaaaaaaaaawn* trying to sleep...but my heart is broken. I'm worried I might lose the bond between me and Kaomea D:

And GOOD LUCK KITTIES !

KAOMEO, if you SEE THIS

GO HERE AND SEE WHAT I CAN DO FOR YOU

http://linkzelda41.deviantart.com/gallery/

(I need practice anyway after I draw me and EVA together). Most of the people I drew were strangers that wanted a drawing, and some were just people I just wanted to draw for the hell of it.

I'll do it for free...just for you. But if I do, we will have a stronger friendship. OR ELSE. YOU. WILL. BE. MY. PAIN.

(Some of the drawings are crap because I was a noob at trying to blend stuff with graphite, but I think I'm getting better with observing with my eyes instead of my ego).

Will you take this path?

I look back on Utah, where I used to live, and still feel a bit of pain. I feel regret and anger that since we couldn't give our cat straight to a good home, there had to be bitterness and pain during this move, wheras there could have been nothing but excitement and positive feelings if things had turned out great for all the pets. Alas, things are what they are now. Things are good, yet lurking in the background is that darkness, just as I was dreading would happen as I desperately tried to find someone to adopt her, but not quite as bad. I've been told that she's a beautiful cat and has surely been adopted by now, so I should just believe it's true, though once in a while it can be hard not to wonder and worry.