Rant and Rave, Cry and Complain

Guys, it has been a hard day. My wife left for a family reunion last night. This morning my oldest most loved ferret passed away. I had to hold him while he was seizing and then bury him, all alone. I have bawled and wailed three times today. Obviously when he passed, when I buried him and hardest of all was cleaning out his bowls of premeasured medicated soup. The other ferrets can't eat his soup because of the meds. Obviously I needed to open the twenty or so mini bowels soup my wife had made to last while she is gone. So there went his food, one bowl at a time, down the drain, because he would never need them again.
Rave: I went insane and worked my ass off cleaning the yard and the house. Did not stop for one minute, could not stop. Seven hours of this and I see results.

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Originally Posted by Sivason

Guys, it has been a hard day. My wife left for a family reunion last night. This morning my oldest most loved ferret passed away. I had to hold him while he was seizing and then bury him, all alone. I have bawled and wailed three times today. Obviously when he passed, when I buried him and hardest of all was cleaning out his bowls of premeasured medicated soup. The other ferrets can't eat his soup because of the meds. Obviously I needed to open the twenty or so mini bowels soup my wife had made to last while she is gone. So there went his food, one bowl at a time, down the drain, because he would never need them again.
Rave: I went insane and worked my ass off cleaning the yard and the house. Did not stop for one minute, could not stop. Seven hours of this and I see results.

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Really sorry to hear that Sivason. At least your ferret had a good life with you where it was loved

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Originally Posted by Sivason

Guys, it has been a hard day. My wife left for a family reunion last night. This morning my oldest most loved ferret passed away. I had to hold him while he was seizing and then bury him, all alone. I have bawled and wailed three times today. Obviously when he passed, when I buried him and hardest of all was cleaning out his bowls of premeasured medicated soup. The other ferrets can't eat his soup because of the meds. Obviously I needed to open the twenty or so mini bowels soup my wife had made to last while she is gone. So there went his food, one bowl at a time, down the drain, because he would never need them again.
Rave: I went insane and worked my ass off cleaning the yard and the house. Did not stop for one minute, could not stop. Seven hours of this and I see results.

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Aww. :( I'm sorry, sivason. That's two pets in a short period of time. And yes, as yuppie said, at least he did have a good life. Really we can't ask for more than having a pet live happily until an old age and then pass away from natural causes. I hope you get a dream visit from your friend soon, letting you know he's okay and happy. <3

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Originally Posted by HumbleDreamer

Rave: I was really sick yesterday and today I feel a little better...

Spoiler for More film between scene stuff.:

Canada. Ghost.
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This is back when they were filming "Ghostbuster: Afterlife". SEPT 2019.

Time flies!!

Sivason, so sorry about your fur baby.
A few months ago, I put my oldest dog to sleep. She had an ear cyst that kept rupturing and bleeding everywhere and it wouldn't heal.
It wasn't an overly sad experience though. She was old and in a lot of pain.

Then, one of my kids called. There was an apartment fire near her boyfriends house. A momma dog was killed and left behind several pups that needed to be adopted. I REALLY didn't want another pet, but....
Her boyfriends mom, thankfully, took care of them for a couple of weeks. Then changed the deal before I picked up one I offered to buy. She would only sell 2 (single price though). Both were runts who needed more care and didn't have the highest odds. My other daughter said she'd take the other and we just wouldn't let her know lol.

Well, my daughters offer ended up falling through (a breakup), so I have 2 new pups. They're Chilhuahua (sp!!!) mixes but I can't see the mix. I had to give them wet food mixed with formula (in a bowl thankfully) for a couple of weeks. Now they're right as rain and giant pains- but also wonderful cuddlebugs <3

Otherwise, I'm mostly on Discord (which my internet seems mostly okay with as long as I stay away from Meme and photo threads lol), gaming and waiting for Elons satellites. It's supposed to be available next month. We'll see.

I hope everyone else is well.

Good to hear from you!

Rave: rain, rain, we are getting rain!!!

First day back at work. I spent quite a bit of time moving in to my new classroom. The room is very cute. I've never had so much storage space! Also.. the chair in there is like this awesome brand new expensive office chair! ..My chair last year was cheap, and didn't have a functioning lift button. It was stuck on the lowest setting. Guess it's karma. :)

Rant:
Its really really hard to lucid dream right now.
When I first joined DV I was in early high school (Middle School for the USA) so life was a lot more stress free. I would be able to attain a lucid dream about 1 once a week or sometimes 2 to 3 times a week. Now I'm only down to one lucid every 1-2 months, and those are very hard to remember.
The grind of the 9-5 is just utterly debilitating. I am constantly tired, can't concentrate on anything. I tend to relax and wind down using weed, and have dropped the usage to weekends, but its still way too much in order to actively remember dreams, let alone lucidity. Now that I am older and I am able to perform a lot more dream control and and ponder the philosophy behind lucid dreams. When I first joined the forum I was part of the FFF crowd, but would fail miserably due a lack of ability to control dreams.

I feel as though modern smartphones are really messing up me up, and to an extent society today. No one wants to seem to discuss or even admit there is an issue. I have managed to delete Facebook, but Reddit is really a time-waster and brain drainer. I feel like in the past it used to be a decent website to stay informed about the world and look at good memes. Today it feels like a bot infested corporate shit hole, yet I would still check it compulsively for like 3+ hours a day. I have managed to quit three days cold turkey which is great, but now I just open and scroll through youtube mindlessly instead. The way the modern corporate internet (Facebook, Insta, Snapchat, Tiktok, Reddit, Youtube) is designed to be as addictive as possible to ensure you spend as much time and watch adds. The internet is so boring today, yet I spend more time on it then ever. I really really miss the old internet which I grew up on. At least we still have the rant, rave, cry and complain thread to come back to.

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Originally Posted by Ametam

Rant:
Its really really hard to lucid dream right now.
When I first joined DV I was in early high school (Middle School for the USA) so life was a lot more stress free. I would be able to attain a lucid dream about 1 once a week or sometimes 2 to 3 times a week. Now I'm only down to one lucid every 1-2 months, and those are very hard to remember.
The grind of the 9-5 is just utterly debilitating. I am constantly tired, can't concentrate on anything. I tend to relax and wind down using weed, and have dropped the usage to weekends, but its still way too much in order to actively remember dreams, let alone lucidity. Now that I am older and I am able to perform a lot more dream control and and ponder the philosophy behind lucid dreams. When I first joined the forum I was part of the FFF crowd, but would fail miserably due a lack of ability to control dreams.

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I hear you there. It's so hard to practice when working full time. I try to incorporate it in, but it's not easy. I am hoping this year will be easier than previous ones.

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Originally Posted by Ametam

I feel as though modern smartphones are really messing up me up, and to an extent society today. No one wants to seem to discuss or even admit there is an issue. I have managed to delete Facebook, but Reddit is really a time-waster and brain drainer. I feel like in the past it used to be a decent website to stay informed about the world and look at good memes. Today it feels like a bot infested corporate shit hole, yet I would still check it compulsively for like 3+ hours a day. I have managed to quit three days cold turkey which is great, but now I just open and scroll through youtube mindlessly instead. The way the modern corporate internet (Facebook, Insta, Snapchat, Tiktok, Reddit, Youtube) is designed to be as addictive as possible to ensure you spend as much time and watch adds. The internet is so boring today, yet I spend more time on it then ever. I really really miss the old internet which I grew up on. At least we still have the rant, rave, cry and complain thread to come back to.

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Not to mention all the blue light we're being exposed to, which acts like caffeine to our brains. If you don't have a program to change your pc/tablet/phone to orange light at night, you should get one. The blue light they emit messes with our circadian rhythm and pineal gland function.

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Originally Posted by Ametam

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I feel as though modern smartphones are really messing up me up, and to an extent society today. No one wants to seem to discuss or even admit there is an issue. I have managed to delete Facebook, but Reddit is really a time-waster and brain drainer. I feel like in the past it used to be a decent website to stay informed about the world and look at good memes. Today it feels like a bot infested corporate shit hole, yet I would still check it compulsively for like 3+ hours a day. I have managed to quit three days cold turkey which is great, but now I just open and scroll through youtube mindlessly instead. The way the modern corporate internet (Facebook, Insta, Snapchat, Tiktok, Reddit, Youtube) is designed to be as addictive as possible to ensure you spend as much time and watch adds. The internet is so boring today, yet I spend more time on it then ever. I really really miss the old internet which I grew up on. At least we still have the rant, rave, cry and complain thread to come back to.

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I hear you. I don't have social media. I was never really into social media. Yeah, you don't need to do other things like that to take you out of your life. I think the noise of everything outside can be overwhelming. So, I personally choose to step out of the noise as best as I can.
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My leg is killing me. I twisted the other day. This morning it's just killing me a bit.

Really excited and also nervous about tomorrow (first day of school here). My son is transitioning to middle school... it makes me very nervous, but I had a surprise when I saw his schedule. He was going to be in ESE support classes, but I guess he did well on his state tests because they put him in straight advanced classes. :o I'm so proud of him. :)

Also excited about my own classes. I get all of my former 6th graders again, which is great because they were the class from heaven, really. Love that bunch. Also, they delivered a special desk and step stool to my classroom today. Apparently one of my students this year is a little person. I feel honored to have a job where I get to work with such special and amazing kids. Every year is something new.

I had a lot of fun decorating my new room. Everything in my room is hands-on. Everything is meant to be touched. I have huge plastic 3-D maps of the world and U.S. showing elevation on the wall. This always throws the kids for a loop because they're like "What? There are mountain chains in the middle of the oceans??" (mid-ocean ridges). I have a fossil station with posters, a book, and a basket of fossils to be touched. I have a weathering station, with rocks from the ocean to show physical weathering, and green pennies in a rusty metal basket to show chemical weathering. And my favorite - I have a section with zones for "Sedimentary", "Igneous", and "Metamorphic", rock cycle posters, and tons of rocks on trays the kids can touch. I have all sorts of fields guides the kids can look at: birds, mushrooms, trees, etc. Oh yeah, and a couple microscopes. It's awesome! :)

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Originally Posted by MoonageDaydream

Really excited and also nervous about tomorrow (first day of school here). My son is transitioning to middle school... it makes me very nervous, but I had a surprise when I saw his schedule. He was going to be in ESE support classes, but I guess he did well on his state tests because they put him in straight advanced classes. :o I'm so proud of him. :)

Also excited about my own classes. I get all of my former 6th graders again, which is great because they were the class from heaven, really. Love that bunch. Also, they delivered a special desk and step stool to my classroom today. Apparently one of my students this year is a little person. I feel honored to have a job where I get to work with such special and amazing kids. Every year is something new.

I had a lot of fun decorating my new room. Everything in my room is hands-on. Everything is meant to be touched. I have huge plastic 3-D maps of the world and U.S. showing elevation on the wall. This always throws the kids for a loop because they're like "What? There are mountain chains in the middle of the oceans??" (mid-ocean ridges). I have a fossil station with posters, a book, and a basket of fossils to be touched. I have a weathering station, with rocks from the ocean to show physical weathering, and green pennies in a rusty metal basket to show chemical weathering. And my favorite - I have a section with zones for "Sedimentary", "Igneous", and "Metamorphic", rock cycle posters, and tons of rocks on trays the kids can touch. I have all sorts of fields guides the kids can look at: birds, mushrooms, trees, etc. Oh yeah, and a couple microscopes. It's awesome! :)

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How'd your first day back at school go?

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Originally Posted by yuppie11975

How'd your first day back at school go?

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It went very well. :) Thanks for asking!

RANT! You all know what a cholonoscopy is? I have one tomorrow. I had to go all day on just liquids with no substance (no milk) just flavored water and such. Now I have to take the chemicals that will clear everything out.
So there you go, if life is frustrating today, at least you are not doing this!
Rave? I don't know, I am healthy and safe and so on, it is all good.

I'm very frustrated that they have mandated teachers wear masks again (students can opt out). All summer and the end of last year we were told that masks would be optional this year. 2 days before school starts they change the policy. The problem for me is that the masks cause uncontrollable "maskne" on my chin. It's extremely frustrating and I am worried my skin is getting damaged. I am already seeing a derm and have 2 prescriptions. They wanted to give me a 3rd prescription but my insurance declined it (it costs $700 a tube without insurance - not an option). Without masks, and with the medications, I can keep it under control. With the masks, I have no hope. I wash my face in the middle of the work day (in addition to morning and night), I dispose of my mask and get a new one after lunch. I don't know what else I can do.

I understand that health and safety are most important, but it's hard to stand behind that when most of the people getting hospitalized have chosen not to get the vaccine (97% according to this article). I'm also not sure how effective it's going to be when students can opt out, and we're cramming so many kids into small places (desks are right next to each other).

I'm just frustrated.

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Originally Posted by MoonageDaydream

I'm very frustrated that they have mandated teachers wear masks again (students can opt out). All summer and the end of last year we were told that masks would be optional this year. 2 days before school starts they change the policy. The problem for me is that the masks cause uncontrollable "maskne" on my chin. It's extremely frustrating and I am worried my skin is getting damaged. I am already seeing a derm and have 2 prescriptions. They wanted to give me a 3rd prescription but my insurance declined it (it costs $700 a tube without insurance - not an option). Without masks, and with the medications, I can keep it under control. With the masks, I have no hope. I wash my face in the middle of the work day (in addition to morning and night), I dispose of my mask and get a new one after lunch. I don't know what else I can do.

I understand that health and safety are most important, but it's hard to stand behind that when most of the people getting hospitalized have chosen not to get the vaccine (97% according to this article). I'm also not sure how effective it's going to be when students can opt out, and we're cramming so many kids into small places (desks are right next to each other).

I'm just frustrated.

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I can understand the frustration. Here in NSW there's been almost 400 cases daily, so the whole state has mandatory masks at the moment for all citizens. I have to have mine on all day in the office. Also we have a 'mask Nazi' that patrols the office and reports anyone who isn't wearing their mask. So, it's unpleasant. For me, no skin issues, but it definitely makes my ears hurt. I can't see the mask mandate ending any time soon either.

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Originally Posted by yuppie11975

I can understand the frustration. Here in NSW there's been almost 400 cases daily, so the whole state has mandatory masks at the moment for all citizens. I have to have mine on all day in the office. Also we have a 'mask Nazi' that patrols the office and reports anyone who isn't wearing their mask. So, it's unpleasant. For me, no skin issues, but it definitely makes my ears hurt. I can't see the mask mandate ending any time soon either.

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I'm glad my ears don't hurt!

Surprisingly, I am doing OK. I mean, I'm like a maniac with my meds and face washing, etc., but so far I am doing good. One key difference is never ever skipping a day of the medication (I would forget a lot before).

I also have a bit more empathy than I did when I wrote that post. Was talking with one of my neighbor teachers. She can't get the vaccine because she has blood clot issues. She also has diabetes. So she's stuck and scared. What's worse? Covid risk or vaccine risk? I don't know, but I feel really sorry for her.

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Originally Posted by MoonageDaydream

What's worse? Covid risk or vaccine risk? I don't know, but I feel really sorry for her.

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In almost every case COVID risk is thousands to tens of thousands times higher.

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Originally Posted by Sivason

In almost every case COVID risk is thousands to tens of thousands times higher.

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I agree with you, and if it were me I would take the risk. However, it's hard when another teacher in our school lost her uncle to a blood clot after taking the J&J (I think the chances would be lower with Moderna/Phizer though).

No mask mandate here. Thank gawd.

Moved 5 times within 6 months. Life has been crazy yet awesome.

I can't even talk about how angry I am right now. The district just had a 11:30pm vote last night (wtf) to mandate masks for all students without medical exemption starting Monday. Honestly, I am seriously concerned about the masks' long term impact on our young children. They have lowered oxygen levels and increased carbon dioxide levels, which may not be harmful in the short term - but we can't really assess scientifically the long term, because we are the guinea pigs here. And this is going on at a time when our children's brains are growing. Furthermore, the bacteria we are breathing in, is this healthy? I don't know. But I'm pissed, because my son has autism, and can't stand the masks. He is sensitive to anything near his face. And now, if I want to exempt him, something I've been promised by the government, I can't just go get a doctor's note. I would have to go through the Federal Disability Law, and that process takes weeks and weeks. Forget the fact that in 2 weeks I can vaccinate him, and I was planning on it. Fuck that, why even bother?

And all this decided without any input from us parents, at 11:30 at night randomly, with NO warnings.
Eff this crap.

And of course, us teachers are not allowed any medical exemptions. Even though my friend has chronic bronchitis and can't breathe (she's just defying the mandate entirely, but I'm afraid to do so, I don't have her status of power in the school). I am however, breaking out again. And I am really really trying not to. :(

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Originally Posted by MoonageDaydream

I can't even talk about how angry I am right now. The district just had a 11:30pm vote last night (wtf) to mandate masks for all students without medical exemption starting Monday. Honestly, I am seriously concerned about the masks' long term impact on our young children. They have lowered oxygen levels and increased carbon dioxide levels, which may not be harmful in the short term - but we can't really assess scientifically the long term, because we are the guinea pigs here. And this is going on at a time when our children's brains are growing. Furthermore, the bacteria we are breathing in, is this healthy? I don't know. But I'm pissed, because my son has autism, and can't stand the masks. He is sensitive to anything near his face. And now, if I want to exempt him, something I've been promised by the government, I can't just go get a doctor's note. I would have to go through the Federal Disability Law, and that process takes weeks and weeks. Forget the fact that in 2 weeks I can vaccinate him, and I was planning on it. Fuck that, why even bother?

And all this decided without any input from us parents, at 11:30 at night randomly, with NO warnings.
Eff this crap.

And of course, us teachers are not allowed any medical exemptions. Even though my friend has chronic bronchitis and can't breathe (she's just defying the mandate entirely, but I'm afraid to do so, I don't have her status of power in the school). I am however, breaking out again. And I am really really trying not to. :(

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Sorry to hear about that moon...we're all in this together.
The physical and psychological impact in our children and us, as parents and teachers is devastating...I don't believe vaccines should be mandatory for everyone, the fact that messes up with your DNA is enough to say NO, it's MY BODY! and who has the last word on when the virus is gone and we can go back to normal? the President? the Scientist?...
I say to all this bullshit illusion: FOLLOW YOUR HEART and HAVE NO FEAR! LIGHT GIRL IS HERE! :nodyes::nodyes::nodyes:

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Originally Posted by monsa199a

Sorry to hear about that moon...we're all in this together.
The physical and psychological impact in our children and us, as parents and teachers is devastating...I don't believe vaccines should be mandatory for everyone, the fact that messes up with your DNA is enough to say NO, it's MY BODY! and who has the last word on when the virus is gone and we can go back to normal? the President? the Scientist?...
I say to all this bullshit illusion: FOLLOW YOUR HEART and HAVE NO FEAR! LIGHT GIRL IS HERE! :nodyes::nodyes::nodyes:

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Haha, thanks for that, made my day. :)

I played a science song for my students on the uke today. They loved it. I had two 6th graders singing along with me, and my 7th graders gave me a standing ovation! (rofl, guess they haven't figured out I'm not cool yet... ;) ). <3 For the first time in a long time I feel like writing music again. So that's nice. :)

Had a code 5 today. This kid could not stop coughing. It took admin 15 minutes to come get him (not allowed to send code 5's out). The other kids were scared.

Other than that.. I really love my new 6th grade class. Another great group. We did a fun lab yesterday.. they got to measure a piece of candy, find its mass using the triple beam balance, and its volume by water displacement in beakers. Then they got to eat a candy and use taste as an observation. They enjoyed it. :)

[Sorry for double post, can't edit]

Double posting can be allowed if the window to edit has expired. Hope they get better soon. :(
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