Thread: Rant and Rave, Cry and Complain

no faith, I tell ya, Wobly. I triple check before I seal the deal. I’m always worried about getting it reversed.
Thanks Dark haven’t seen you around in ages. Hope you’ve been well.

Thank you both. Tonight I finally had the energy and motivation to fiddle with my machine. Turns out, my PC didn’t die after all. My monitor, however, bit the dust. Maybe it’s not related to the electric work, but that would be too much of a coincidence. When I moved the dead monitor I could smell that electrical smell very strongly. Maybe the piggyback ground was to blame? It all fixed now, however. But, gah!- there is still SO much to do. I am not patient enough to replace each and every outlet in this house. But they’re all crap. An easy 75% of them have scorch marks from one time or another... we just stop using them at that point.

Not to mention the continuous water leak. Ray’s floor has a soft spot the leak has been going on so long. That end of the house reeks of mildew.
So, he’s finally moving out.... of the room He’s moving into the living room that between his room and mine. Once he’s out, I’ll be able to tackle the plumbing a little more easily.
But on Thursday, I have to somehow get a full sized couch up and out of my hubby’s basement then brought over here. Ray’s couch cannot be moved. We broke it (and the trim of a doorway) moving it back there years ago. Now, it too has water damage and isn’t worth moving anyhow.

But, hey, at least my PC is alive

Rant: my anxiety has been flaring up for the last several days (the adrenaline jolts and mouth/face tingling). I was annoyed with myself, wondering if I missed any meds. It hit me last night: Nope. I have a trip coming up next month At least I recognize it sooner than in the past rofl We’re driving to New Orleans (some 16-20 hours) for one of his educational conventions. It’s not going to be a long trip though, thankfully. We’ll get there on a Friday then we turn around to come back that following Wednesday.

Goodnight, DV.

Just finished my last exam of the year today. Feels good to be on holidays now!
I'm heading over to Canada on the 1st of December for two weeks. I'm going to see my best friend who moved over there last year. Hopefully it snows while I'm there, if it does I'll get to see snow for the first time. Maybe we could catch up, woblybill!

Enjoy your holiday!
It's nice that you're getting to travel and see friends in a couple months I'm sure it will be snowing that time of year (maybe too much lol)

Rant: I woke up all groggy and loopy and with a headache. My allergies are acting up again (cloggy ears, slight pressure in my face).

Rant/Rave: I was exactly 30 days late, lol... but I finally started my period. Blah. Maybe that's why I slept for 11 hours last night

Rant/Rave: This old monitor I'm reusing, had 2 inputs. One was a small blue thing that I tried first. My monitor was so laggy while playing my zombie game, it made playing the game impossible. I googled monitor lag. I didn't even know that could be a thing. An article recommended trying a different port. So I tried the longer gray one and, sure enough, the lag is gone. I *think* one is analogue and the other is digital? Or is one HD? I have no clue, I'm just speaking out my rear I'm just glad I can play my game again.....
BUT, despite tweaking the settings, it's still making me extra motion sick. I have to take my Zofran if I want to play for any length of time.

I think I just need to readjust. My last monitor was wide screen. This one is tall (like an old school TV). I adjusted the flicker rate to 75 because I am extremely sensitive to flicker... I think I also need to tweak the brightness some more. It's just way too dull/dim/drab/blah.
This was my monitor for years previously. I don't recall having these motion problems before... which is why I think I just need time to readjust my brain.

Rave: I woke up just as my son finished cooking a pizza.... so I had perfectly heated pizza for "breakfast" instead of yogurt and prunes.

Curiosity: My taste buds MAY be changing. I filled my 62 oz cup with fountain Coke day on Sunday or so. I drank almost none of it. I filled it again last night... same thing. It's been tasting way too sweet. I can't even stand my 20oz bottles of Coke unless they're cold nearly to the point of freezing. Once they're room temp, they taste too sweet.

SO, it's either my taste buds, this persistent head cold/allergies, OR my e-juice. I've been vaping vanilla with that mint chocolate chip flavoring added in. Perhaps that's just way too much sweetness lol. I guess it could also be hormonal, but I've NEVER had a problem digesting sweets around or during the time of my period

Concern: My step-son and his family own property in Napa. I think they live a couple hours away from there though. Hubby's supposed to reach out tonight or tomorrow (on his sons birthday). I guess no news is good news. Someone (his son, daughter or ex) would have reached out by now if there were problems.

Hope everyone here is doing okay.

Ugh... I feel like I’m dying. My period says: “Hey, I’ve not seen you for 2 months, so let me make it up to you.” Majorly TMI but I didn’t even bleed this much after giving birth to my kids. It’s ridiculous. I have ZERO energy. Nearly zero appetite. I am weak to a silly degree. I’ve ruined 3 pairs of undies. Grrrrrrrr!!!
I feel like I have a “man cold”. You know those videos

Rant: because of all of the above, I did not move the couch up from hubby’s basement.

I feel ridiculous. I’m being such a baby.

Rave: BUT, I’m not being an emotional baby lol. At least there’s that.

Rave: because I’ve not been eating much, I’m not bloated today. So, at least I can lay in bed without my bloated belly getting in the way of using my iPad

Rant: I can't close the DreamViews Videos.

Rave: I survived the worst period EVER, in the history of anyone, anywhere At least that's what it felt like

Rave: The kids and I moved a couch, 3 chairs and a love seat from hubby's basement yesterday. Good googally moogally a few of those were ridiculously heavy. My eldest called it quits early because of BP spikes and failing health (he's obese and it was just too much). I saved my daughter from falling backwards down the stairs because I was spotting her with my hand at the center of her back. I am so achy today... but in a good way. Other than the pads of my toes which are sore to a silly and painful degree.

Rave: As much as I hate Yellow Jackets I just rescued a queen (?). It was the largest Yellow Jacket I've ever seen and several tiny ones swarmed around her. She was stuck inside against the window. We opened the window but she still couldn't find her way outside. So, I put on an over mitt, trapped her against the window and gently pinched her. I took her outside where I released her and she flew off away from the house

My hubby will scold me later when I tell him about it His house is being swarmed. Multiple intruders pester him every day. He's killed dozens. They've even made their way to his basement where they pestered us yesterday. Last night, I had dinner with him and one buzzed his ear then landed on his shoulder. I flicked it off and he squished it.

Rave: I see the Gastro Dr. tomorrow. Hopefully they can give me some answers.

Have a great day everyone.

Rant: I forgot to ask some questions at my appointment. Mainly, why do certain things cause such pain. I wrote it off as Duodenitis, but seeing how I don't have that, what causes it?
BUT, I do have an answer of sorts. Well, a guess that makes complete sense: Gastroparesis. Or, a slowly emptying stomach. The biggest enemy of it is fiber Which explains why the supplements cause such incredible pain.

I was reading over the sheet they gave me and it's stuff I already "know" and have practiced for a couple decades now: small, frequent meals; easily chewed foods; avoiding certain fruits, veggies and meats.

They're also running some labs to test for Celiac Disease.... but reading over the info on-line, that doesn't seem to fit me at all.

Rant: Even though it was in my chart and I VERBALLY requested it right before going under, the Dr. did not take a biopsy. My clinic was most displeased with him. I was the second person that day he failed to follow the chart with.

Rant: I am second guessing the results now seeing how he didn't do the biopsy. I've had Duodenitis since I was 18, 19 years old. I cannot drink alcohol or eat spices. I cannot take certain meds on an empty stomach or it causes Duodenitis pain. I am very grumbly that I failed to bring all of that up.
BUT, I return in December, so I'll stamp the question to my head if I need to.

Rave? They're calling in a script for an old favorite drug: Acifex (sp). I stopped taking it, ever so long ago, because it was too expensive. If it's reasonably priced, I'm going to try it again.

Rave: I've fallen in love with another show called Designated Survivor. I think I'm about to watch the last episode though. I hope it was renewed.

Rant: Don't you hate it when you go to a seafood restaurant and order a chowder, expecting that it would taste fabulous but, it turns out to tastes and looks like canned chowder?
Last night, I got takeout and the chowder that we got tasted like canned chowder. Ugh! I should have just conjured up my own, homemade chowder with real ingredients.
Rant: Also, I'm sick on my birthday, no less. Now, I don't even have an appetite. I look a bit green like the walking dead. My head hurts!! I couldn't do the things that I wanted to do, today. Tomorrow that I probably need to do dishes. This domestic drudgery is the task for lowly sand fleas.

YR, so sorry your special day is especially terrible. Feel better soon

Rant: I'm an entitled brat I went to the big local hospital to have my blood work done. I went straight back to the lab, handed them my paper, sat down and waited. Another woman asked if I registered. Huh? Gah! I had to go to the front of the hospital, wait forever, register, then BACK to lab, wait a while then get my blood drawn.
It used to not be that way.
So I was all internally grumbly about the inconvenience but my rational self told me to put a sock in it, that the hospital probably did it to streamline serves to make it easier and more affordable for them.

Other than that, life has been quiet. I've been trying to start up my daily log again and I've been sticking with it so far.

Oh yeah, Rant: I have not been keeping up with my DJ though. I've been having a lot of great dreams, but I keep get interrupted, getting out of bed quickly and forgetting all of them. For the last few nights, (the tidbits I've recalled) I've been dreaming about being pregnant. The fetus is never doing well though. Sometimes I lose it and it comes back stronger; sometimes it just gets stronger on its own. Maybe I've just had gas

Hope everyone is well (or will get well soon).

Originally Posted by Yorkshire Rose

Rant: Don't you hate it when you go to a seafood restaurant and order a chowder, expecting that it would taste fabulous but, it turns out to tastes and looks like canned chowder?
Last night, I got takeout and the chowder that we got tasted like canned chowder. Ugh! I should have just conjured up my own, homemade chowder with real ingredients.
Rant: Also, I'm sick on my birthday, no less. Now, I don't even have an appetite. I look a bit green like the walking dead. My head hurts!! I couldn't do the things that I wanted to do, today. Tomorrow that I probably need to do dishes. This domestic drudgery is the task for lowly sand fleas.

Its prolly canned the chowder that turned you green

Would someone please turn off that weird looking guy in the corner of the page?

Back home now for the holidays. I leave for Canada on the 1st of December, I'll be over there for two weeks. I always end up getting bored in my hometown while I wait for university to start back up. I'll be here for 4 months. This time I plan on working out and playing basketball a lot, among a few other things - hopefully it makes my time here more bearable.

Originally Posted by woblybil

Would someone please turn off that weird looking guy in the corner of the page?

I'm with you on that one. If they insist on having a video that we can't close taking up so much of the screen, it could at least be something nice, like a pretty woman - right?

rofl, y'all are so mean to that poor chap.
But yeah, I too REALLY wish I could exit the video to free up space.

Finished my Adobe Illustrator class. Got a C. Didn't learn as much as I could have so I'm using other sources to learn from. Been using an affirmation before sleep to help my dream recall. I've been using 'My dreams are important to me'. I've remembered 2 dreams the last 2 nights. I'll be a lucid dreamer yet. My mental state is getting better. Got my guitar out of pawn (stupid addiction...) and I don't plan on pawning anything ever again. Been practicing guitar and adobe illustrator.

Considering Father's had stomach surgery for an ulcer and has been recovering, nice things are going on here.

Yeah, Oneiroer, Pawning is an easy trap to fall in to when things are tight. My daughters are always pawning stuff and I used to in my younger days. Hope things continue to go well.

101Volts, I hope your father recovers completely and quickly.

Rant: My "sleeping sickness" has set in. Or something. I couldn't stay awake yesterday so I was in bed at 9:30PM then awake at 5:30. And I felt rested. But once 8:30AM rolled around, I was asleep at my desk, so I went back to bed until 12:30

Rant: I still haven't gotten my apnea machine. I went to Weston to my appointment on Monday only for the Dr. to tell me it should arrive in the mail in 3 weeks... and then I'll go BACK there to pick it up. What the heck? They couldn't have told me that over the phone? Or do they need billable office visit hours that badly? In three weeks, I'll be just getting back from my trip with hubby.

Rave: Loving the colder weather and playing on my 7D2D server.

Long time no see, lets see if I can actually hold myself to a commitment this time hehehe. I've missed you guys and am trying to get back into lucid dreaming. I've just finished my second year at university, just have my exams in a week, so that's good. I am planning to start going to the gym after the exams and hopefully wont look like quite so much of a stick by the time third year comes around. I've been a bit addicted to dark souls 1 and 3 recently, I thought they were stupid games for the longest time then I actually tried them and fell in love lol. I hope everybody is well and you should see more of my ugly mug around here now .

Rant: The doctors had to remove a mole on my arm last week, because there were signs it could turn out to be cancerous. Everything went well until the point where I had to get my stitches removed. Of course my wound opened up after they removed them. So I ended up getting stitches AGAIN. But now we're three days after the 'surgery' and I feel a sharp/stabbing pain there so I'm not sure if it's normal? I mean this time the stitches do seem to be more tight, like even the skin overlaps quite a bit. I just hope this time the wound will heal properly and stay closed

Great seeing you again, Blair. I hope you're able to stick to your plans (a struggle I know way too well myself ) Grats on Uni. Much success on your exams!

Crashyy, heal up quickly. I hope they get a good report back on the biopsy.

Rant: DV wouldn't load for me yesterday. I only tried once though, so it may have resolved itself quickly.

Rant: My trip is coming up next week so I am being super anti-social. I've even been avoiding my 7D2D server (that I pay for every month )

Rant: Meh. Just meh.

Rave: I have been playing Starbound again though. I even downloaded the Frackin Universe mod. My gosh it adds so much to the game. BUT...

Rant: ... my computer confuses me to death. I went to my D drive, where I store most of my games, and I deleted everything to do with Starbound. It's recommended before launching the mod. I reinstalled it, yet coming back to Steam, I was already subscribed to everything I previously was Then I started playing and ran into a few glitches and realized my C drive also keeps some records of my games.
WHY? I want them in D, not C. I shouldn't have to scour my PC hunting down trace elements. It should be confined where I want it.

Yeah, I know things are probably a bit more complicated than that. I got too far in the game to start over, so I'm just dealing with the glitches (they're minor things anyhow). I'll just have to be sure to remember that for future use!!!

Rant: I've been sleeping absolutely terribly. I average about 4 hours a night with all the tossing and turning. I wish my CPAP machine would hurry up and get here.

( mixed )Dang, college work is getting kinda heavy. Also haven't had a lucid in a long time now. I got a good gym rhythm going on though, no time for anything else really.

Lost everything on my computer, last night. All my pictures and everything.

Saizaphod, High School was too much for me, lol. I can't even imagine college! to getting through it. Lucids can always come later.

Yorkshire. I've been there. I've lost so many great pictures. Many sympathies. I've fallen in love with the Cloud. Most of my stuff gets sent there without my help and I'm thankful for the backup (I never back up my machines).

RANT: My "adrenaline surges" have started FULL FORCE tonight. I didn't have my Cymbalta at the regular time this morning, nor yesterday because I failed to get the script refilled in time But seriously?! I can't go through a full 2 days without this crap?!
When I left to go to the store earlier this evening, they started up. Now, it's a constant state.
How can a person be in a constant state of what feels like CONSTANT adrenaline. But only my face, mind you. I don't get any of the other perks like heightened senses or alertness. In fact, it exhausts me and knocks me out.

PLUS, this darn trip. The trip that I'm only now starting to even think about thinking about. I'm sure it's contributing to these surges.. and my sleepiness.

PLUS, I'm getting a fever blister. :rage: I can count the number of times I've ever had one on one hand. And I'm getting one now? RAWRRRRRR!!!

Rave: Life is, otherwise, peaceful.
I also asked hubby for 2 weeks worth of allowance seeing that our trip is cut up oddly. I have to make it stretch though, even though I want nothing more but to buy games, clothes and music for this trip (and beyond). I always go shopping Monday night. We'll be gone from Thursday to Tuesday or Wednesday so I needed to buy 2 weeks of animal food plus e-juice.

Humorous: It occurred to me, just the other day, *why* it annoys me SO MUCH that these surges and the sleeping sickness have always been written off as anxiety. I used to be afflicted by these up to 2 months before a trip! How can a person be anxious about something THEY DON'T EVEN THINK ABOUT? I am one of the foremost queens of Denial. If something bothers me, I have an uncanny ability to block it out of my conscious thoughts.

So, even though it humors me, it's still a legitimate question: Can a person be anxious over something they give no thought to? Isn't a symptom of anxiety fretting and fussing over stuff?

Anyhow... my brain is also not working well. I don't know how many times I had to go over this and correct typos. Sorry if the flow is off lol, I tried to tidy it up some.

everyone.
(What ever happened to Tommo?)

@Yorkshire Rose there are some definite drawbacks to technology. My hard-drive went and I lost recordings of my daughter singing when she was a little tot and pics too.
But my hard-drive had an electrical thing and was burnt out, any chance yours can still be retrieved? If it's anything other than the hard-drive then you could still get it back. Just a thought.

@Saizaphod yep i've been burnt out with work and everything. Lucids are something I dream of having sad but too.

Yeah, at least I have some pictures on here and twitter. I feel like I am a freak. I don't feel particularly like myself, right now.