Rant and Rave, Cry and Complain

:clairity: Anju. Glad to be seeing more of you :)

:hug: Crashyy. Glad you finally found a great girl who makes you happy. Sucks about the infection though.

Food looks amazing, Stoic. I can't remember the last time I actually COOKED anything. I can't even recall when I last nuked anything :lol:

:hug: Milly. Feel better soon. I do that too. My big thing is breaking out into a sweat. I'll feel really hot and just be like "wtf: Then it finally hits me that I'm in pain. :roll: Bodies and minds are such weird things sometimes.

I've been headachy for the last several days. It's Minecrafts fault. When I concentrate, I vape more and clench my jaw. And because the game is so dark (I do a LOT of mining), I'm always squinting :roll: It doesn't help that I play the game for HOURS on end.

Rave: That nasal spray actually DOES help allergy eyes :wtf: I guess they're all connected, so it sort of makes sense lol. I'm just grateful for it. Hubby tells me not to use too much though because the spray can cause cataracts. Great.
Rant: My muscles (the TOPS of my thighs) are been achy and sore. I blame that on increasing my Gabapentin. My legs no longer feel "tooth achy", but sheesh... this new ache isn't much better lol. I hope it goes away after a couple weeks (or sooner!!!)

Other than that, life is quiet and fine.

I had taken pills for PCOS for 2 months. Been without the pill for a while now and my cycle is regular. To be honest I didn't trust the doctor when she said I'll be fine within 2 months because all the information I see online is about how PCOS is incurable and comes with a million symptoms which can only get worse. Another lesson for me to not google about diseases.

Just won my basketball final. We were down by 19 at the half and not playing too well but then we got about 30 points in a row and ended up winning by 15 or so. I still have a really bad cold so I was drugged up and couldn't play much but still I think I did a decent job. Good way to end the season, and my coaches last game coaching.

Yes, Anju, Google is not always our friend :chuckle:

Grats, Blair! Feel better soon.

My rant is still headaches. It can't be all Minecraft because I only played for 2 hours today... then went back to bed because I was too headachy. Woke up fine, then the headache struck again with no trigger. Now I need to look up side effects for my meds and see if that can be the cause.
Another rant is Carpet Beetles. We've had them since forever but this year they're flying. :wtf: Usually they stay fairly out of sight under furniture and along the baseboards. I have NEVER seen them fly before, so I had to Google it. Bed bugs came up with the search, so I guess a lot of people confuse the 2. The scary thing is that bedbugs are BIGGER than carpet beetles :panic: How do people not realize their beds have them?

Rave: Been catching up on Longmire and it's as great as always.
Rave: Been working on a huge project in Minecraft and I haven't cheated once :banana: I'm just under the surface of the ocean. I'm going to make a huge base with Polished Andesite and glass then open it up to the water with a pyramid sticking out of the top. I have an insane amount of mats from all the mining I've done (large chests for each type of stone filled with some overflow in other chests)

Rant: I've gone through way too much juice this week. My 30ml bottle is almost empty and it usually lasts until Monday night. Last week was pushing it... this week has been worse :bang: I still have some reject juices to hold me over, but it's going to be close.

Rant: I think I inhaled some smoke when I was fighting a fire this afternoon! My throat really hurts and I'm tired right now. Let me just say that it was one of those days where all you could do was take action. I stopped and helped someone put out a brush fire on some farm yard. The fire was windy which made it even worse. It destroyed parts of a greenhouse and other stuff on the farm. Then it quickly spreading toward the woods and the horse's barn but, we got to it in time. At one point that there was the fire under the boats that were put there for the winter. It was a good thing that we had water in the horse troughs and water hoses. I was running around and putting out the brush fire all over the place. By the time the Fire Department and the Police got there, we had most of the fire already put out. I didn't stop helping when they got here. The boat trailer was destroyed in the fire. I recall it was bad when I got there. Right now! I smell like fire, ashes, smoke and the burnt plastic that was from the greenhouse. Yes, we are all exhausted, now. I want to get that off my chest. :yawnorama: -_- That was my afternoon. :D

Rave: Nobody got seriously hurt.:)

@Stoic that sounds scary I hope your ok, or maybe you just have a husky voice now ^^

@Zhaylin Aaaaaaaaaaaaa! no way flying critters, i'm glad we don't have any scary bugs at all, its way to cold in England.

@Anju , yeah google normal scares the hell out of me

Rant: I have been so worn down by managment and the paperwork,deadlines and observations that they have been throwing incessantly at us. That my sleep cycle has been totally messed up. And my recall zilch, so annoyed at them and everything.

Rave: I had my first obe a few weeks back, which made me think things were ok.

Rave: I went to a party I was dreading but ended up dancing all night and having best time i've had in ages. :breakitdown:

Wow, Stoic! Glad you're safe and were able to help out. I watch too much TV. If your breathing gets worse, see a Dr.

hehehe, Meoh, carpet beetles are nothing. Only annoying, like June Bugs. Now if it was roaches :panic: I'd burn down the house and move :cackle:
:hug: for your sleep and stresses. YAY, for the party :)

Rant: I STILL have this blasted headache. :bang: :mad: And it has nothing to do with video games (I've abstained for the most part today). I *think* Gabapentin is the culprit. Tylenol and Ibuprofen do nothing. Caffeine does nothing. So, I have a choice. Either have constant toothachy leg pain or constant headache/jaw ache that makes me nauseous and worthless. I REALLY loathe that leg pain- I ca't sleep. can't get comfy... but with Gaba, there's all my rants PLUS, I discovered it's likely the reason I've been losing words.

Rant: I'm out of my good juice completely so I'm vaping this nasty stuff that tastes like perfume.

Rant: I wish I had some valium to knock out this headache. I'll tough it out for another week then SOMETHING'S gotta give.

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Rave... just finished my complete tower.
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It goes just as far under the water as above, though it's not as wide (stair case with walls only). *whew* Let's see... you can have stacks of 64 in 54 slots in a large chest. That would be 3,456 blocks? I've placed nearly 2 chests full of Andesite and almost 1 chest of Diorite (2 types of stone).

Gah! I started out
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I dug under ground off the coast, then veered under the ocean to the point the tower is. I've been working on it for about a week now.

I need to explore :chuckle: I've been under ground nearly the entire game.

The fire started by someone who was burning boxes in the yard.
I'm fine, now. Thanks, guys but, please don't worry about little ole' me. At least, the house or anything else did not get caught on fire. That would have been a total lost. Anyone would have done the same, I think? I think that the wind was blowing around 5 to 10 mph.

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I watch too much TV.

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Zhaylin: What? What about TV?

Rant: My mom's cousin went into surgery this past weekend for a blood clot. :(

Chicago Fire, I think it was. Someone was in fire and felt fine- just coughing a little with a sore throat. They later died because of some weird delayed effect of smoke damage to the lungs. When I hear of anyone breathing smoke, I worry about that happening. Too much TV :D

Hope your moms friend is okay.

heh, your post reminded me that I dreamed of fire last night. I don't remember much about it other than running for a small fire extinguisher and having a hard time "opening" it.

Rant: I've been sleeping on a desk for some 3 years now. I have several blankets down to cushion it a little but it's still really hard. Which I like (and my back LOVES it). Lately, though, it's been hurting my hips again. What the heck? I wake up often to change sides. I put 2 more blankets down the other day but it hasn't seemed to help. Is this one of those annoying parts of getting old :chuckle: I've not put on any weight so that's not it.

My room isn't big enough for a bed and I stubbornly refuse to move to a bigger space.

Rave: I talked to my mom last night and I'm not as old as I thought I was. I'm going to be 42 in April... not 43 or 44 like I though :cackle:

Rave: Today is Monday. I get good juice tonight... and more yogurt and cheese. I live off that stuff now-a-days.

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Chicago Fire, I think it was. Someone was in fire and felt fine- just coughing a little with a sore throat. They later died because of some weird delayed effect of smoke damage to the lungs. When I hear of anyone breathing smoke, I worry about that happening. Too much TV :D
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Oh, I see. I don't watch that show. The Fire Department's officers never questioned me about whether or not we needed to get checked out or anything but if I die, I will haunt everyone in their dreams. :P They really missed a lot of the action.. Seriously.

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Originally Posted by Zhaylin

heh, your post reminded me that I dreamed of fire last night. I don't remember much about it other than running for a small fire extinguisher and having a hard time "opening" it.

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Hee hee, That is crazy that you had a dream like that, Zhaylin. I only wish it was a dream but, it wasn't. It was good exercise. :D

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Hope your mom's friend is okay.

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Thank you! She is still in the hospital. She is a little confused about some things. My mom thinks she is getting confused between dreams and reality. :(

Anywho, I hope that you feel better soon. ;)

Started practicing piano chords. I think stringed chords 2 octaves lower than middle c sound cool. Gonna be practicing chords then scales. Life's going pretty good right now. Will probably be getting a cat in the near future. :)

Hope she has a speedy recovery, Stoic.
And thank you. Today is the first day, in a very long time, that I have not had a headache.

Glad you're having a good time with the Piano, Oneiroer. I can always mail you a couple of my cats :chuckle:

Rave: No headache. Either I'm acclimating to the meds or Klone Berries was the trigger or something else was. I'm just glad for this break!!!
Rave: Worked on my MC tower some more.
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I finally broke down and cheated though. It's just too much of a hassle to do work on the outside of such a tall building without the ability to fly. The only material I cheated in were the lanterns and Dark Oak.

Rant: I have to be up by 11AM to take Paula to an appointment. I feel so well I don't want to go to bed lol.

Home Owner's Association has been sending letters for violations with the lawn. Okay, if you want to continually be aggressive, then it's time to take out that GoPro Hero+ LCD, and record at 1080p 60FPS for the upcoming weeks. If this isn't going to be enough clarity for them, then I don't know what will. Especially when other neighbors have their region looking like crap.

Is your mom's friend any better, Stoic?

lol, Link. Sounds like something my hubby would do.

Finished Paula's lanyard and it's too small. :mad: :bang: I also STILL hate how much plastic is seen at the corners. Time to try again... But with yarn. I REALLY dislike working with the hemp even if it does have more staying power.
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Rant: Google Voice no longer works for any of my browsers. The last one, Opera, crapped out the other day. It's infuriating me. I use it to make all of my phone calls (no land line) and to call my hubby computer-to-computer. I broke down and installed something like GV onto my iPad. It does iPad-to-computer but I need money to call landlines :bang:
Back to searching...

Rant-ish, I got a new ejuice this week (in addition to my Nutz). It tastes like an eclair and it's very good... but very "heavy". It chokes me which I find more interesting than annoying. It's 80% VG, 20% PG... I guess I do better with higher PG.

Rant-ish... been very bored lately. I'm restless and want to play games and do stuff, but I'm uninterested in my games and lack the energy to do anything real :lol:
I wish 7D2D would hurry up and update already.

Rant: Have to take Miley to the store in 18 minutes. I'm not even going to get out of the car (except at Sheetz to fill my cup)

Rave: My dog is a goofball. She keeps wanting to go outside... but she goes to the driveway and just rubs her back in the sun. She looks so silly with all her legs sticking up.

I went to the gym this morning for about an hour-and-a-half starting a new routine. Then I met up with a coworker and biked for just under 30 miles. I've been on a bike maybe 4 times in the last year, so I'm definitely out of shape for that kind of mileage, especially just a few hours after another workout.

But this is just a pre-rant. I'm OK now, but tomorrow I might not be able to get out of bed.


On another note, I stopped reading when I started school. The theory was: if I'm going to read, I need to read the textbooks. Reading textbooks kinda sucks, and so I finally decided 'screw that.' It was warm outside Friday afternoon, so I downloaded The Blade Itself, sat outside with some beers, and plowed through the first couple of chapters. The last two days have been a bit to chilly to just be sitting outside, but I'm definitely looking forward to sitting out more this summer. It's nice actually having a quiet, scenic outdoor space, compared to before where I just had a parking lot in the middle of a city.

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Rant: Google Voice no longer works for any of my browsers. The last one, Opera, crapped out the other day. It's infuriating me. I use it to make all of my phone calls (no land line) and to call my hubby computer-to-computer. I broke down and installed something like GV onto my iPad. It does iPad-to-computer but I need money to call landlines :bang:
Back to searching...

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Zhaylin....Try Gmail's Hangouts.. I use it for texting from computer to cell phones and it has a video call, I don't know about voice but it's worth a try :)
Hope it helps :yddd:

Sounds wonderful, Sefalik.
I feel like, if I'm going to read textbooks, I'm going to dictate- either by vocally recording what I read, or by manually copying it. Yeah. I burn out on that VERY quickly :lol:
I don't have the attention span for novels or poems anymore.

Wobly... I've had Hangouts then "revert" to old chat. My pluggins just don't work anymore. Hubby thinks I might have a virus blocking it or something- but I run virus scans regularly.
It's silly but hubby and I prefer to just talk to each other- without a video clouding our words. We both have cameras but never use them :lol:
I'm downloading an OS called Fedora. Hopefully it will work.

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Rave: For those with FB
https://www.facebook.com/photo.php?f...type=3&theater

It comes from damnyouautocorrect.com (and perhaps others) Ray and I were laughing so hard at the FB list of 24 that we had tears streaming down our faces.

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Rave: Been catching up on Longmire and it's as great as always.

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I see that series every time I go to my movie/music store. It has good ratings online too, but some reason I've never picked it up.

Rant: Waaa long easter weekend and my friend is away :/ holiday smalliday roll on tuesday :D

You should give it a try, Chigurh, if you like law shows that are a bit slower paced but with a great story and characters.

Hope you had a good weekend, Meoh, even without your friend.
Hope everyone had a great holiday.

Rave: After my last post, 7D2D FINALLY updated. Life has ceased exiting :chuckle: I even joined a server with my Steam friend and I like MP a lot.

Life has been fairly slow and quiet.

heh, I dreamed of you last night, Link. Well, your avatar anyhow and your name. You owned a house filled with antique art glass. I was telling you what everything was and I was surprised you were interested in it. The dream was also Minecraft/7D2D themed and we were in a "world" (server lol) that was linked up with others and I had taken over one of your old houses.
I've forgotten all the other details.

Nothing else has been going on. Been nice and peaceful.
Hope everyone is well.

Thank God for this thread I'm so tired of trying to be perfect. My whole back has been tied up with repressed anger and I am only releasing it the last few months with exercise. Boy life is challenging and girl life too im sure! Its not easy being a man either. I am always trying to fix things and I never get anywhere and then when i dont like something I just pile it on my back. I'm look for understanding here and not a lecture that I am hurting myself and others. Can you just accept me the way I am?

Rant: I'm a bit under the weather. I have been busy. :(

I got dumped last weekend. It feels different this time because I think it was my fault. Welp.

I requested a co-worker to put up his phone since he consistently tries to utilize it at the most inconvenient times. If it’s just to look at the time, I’m not going to foam in my mouth over that, but when you start justifying your actions with lies that just don’t add up, I took action to be more aggressive. When I asked for justifications as to why he refused my request to do so, he says he needs it in case of an emergency. But literally 2 minutes ago, you said you had to look into your account for something—not a relative you were “worried” about.

I just charged to the store phone to call another leader, explained to them about his behaviors over the past few months, and we all had the consensus that this guy is just not taking himself seriously. He pretends to give his phone to a rep, and when I asked her if she got it, she stated no. So not only do you lie to me, you feel that needing it in an emergency is more than enough when we clearly have a number for them to call, and to refer to your name in the event of an emergency. Complete horseshit, man. They tell us if they refuse to comply, what’s the point in having them there? It’s not completely impractical requests here—we just don’t want customers getting pissed off at you for not caring about their existence, and thus we become the scapegoats.

Other peers of mine tell me that we need to be asses, and even management euphemistically states that, but what I did today with almost breaking the fucking equipment in rage, “ass” might be an understatement. I tried my best to look for any pros with this guy, but doing so would mean fabricating something. He gives me this puppy eyed expression of promising not to do it again, but he thinks I’m fucking stupid, and that I forgot how he did it before. I cannot stand how a person just goes through without any moral fiber in their being of doing that in front of me after God knows how much I put up with him in other circumstances.

A peer of mine told me that I should calm down, but ironically, this is the same one that told me that we need to be asses. I don’t think they know what they’re getting themselves into by hinting me to be that way. I would’ve had HR come down like WWIII at the other location if I didn’t make a complete 180 in my disposition, but this working persona just gets treated like shit at work. I don’t want to be an asshat because I prefer having extra help instead of a co-worker always calling in because “I’m” around. But I realize how easy it is to objectify their presence, and just treating them as extra bodies for help instead of people to relate to get the job done.

They don't give a fucking shit. But at the same time, just speed up the legal action to not cope with them ever again instead of getting my emotions into the equation. Don't want the macho man telling me not to do that because we need to "work with people because they matter."