Rant and Rave, Cry and Complain

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Originally Posted by Athylus

Also Sefalik, the truth you're gonna get much less shit in general when you're muscular, tall or big (to a certain degree big). I'm skinny as well, but I've never gotten shit about it. Maybe back in the days, but I work out a lot now so I am more toned and aggressive. I've never understood why people would give shit to one another (unless friends).

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When I was on 2nd shift, I used to go to the gym 3-4 times a week. It's not an excuse, but ever since going to 3rd shift the best I can do is a 'burst' where I'm at the gym consistently for two weeks. Once I'm done with school, I'll get off 3rd shift and AND have a ridiculous amount of free time. So then I REALLY will have no excuse.


Today's rant: dammit, answer your phone! I found a new place to rent, and it's awesome. I'm trying to get call my building manager to let her know I'm moving out. Called her twice yesterday and she just sent me to voicemail. Left a message asking her to call me some time between 1:30-2:30pm since that's the only time I'm home and I don't have a cell phone. So I get home today and see she called sometime this morning... "Hey! Just returning your call. Give me a call back at [phone number]." So I call back... twice... nothing.

Probably going to be working for Sherwin-Williams delivering paint. I talk to someone who I think might be in charge there tomorrow. Hopefully might work full time and get off of ssi/benefits. :) I work for a company driving now but want better pay.

Grats on finding the new place Sefalik
and I hope you hear great news soon, Oneiroer.

My rave is I finished another case
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I still have a lot to learn, but I'm pleased once again. Just need to make a strap for it. For now, though, I need to go to bed. Ihave a ripping headache.
I wont be making any more cases for a while. I need to find a more suitable yarn. The ones I just made will probably only last a couple of months. The yarn just seems too delicate or something.

I guess I should eat something first.
Goodnight, DV.

Not in a good mood at all. The job thing is going to be a process and in a don't ask me for shit at least until I get 1 of two jobs I want kinda mood. :(

I hate it when people called me a cat ****er for having the hots for Lynx from Chrono Cross as my husbando. That's just moronic. I know that Lynx of Chrono Cross has feline's features but I am attracted to his human's feature and his trench coat or whatever like outfit. People accused me of ****ing cat just for liking a breathless fictional character with odd looking design.

Then, accused me of having no life and need emergency help right away, finding a real human partner for a lovey dovey relationship. In my perspective, having the hots for a fictional character and having a real partner in a relationship have two separate meaning. Having the hots for a fictional character is just some sort of hobby to me for my amusement. It's not like I can't differentiate between reality and fantasy.

10/10 I would avoid these people. Thank you OP for making this thread so I can vent this **** out my ass.

Passed both my tests!

But I feel like crap now. It's prob a combination of this wine my bro got which I'm pretty sure is loaded with sugar (I'm not eating sugar anymore so I guess my body isn't used to it), and the fact that his wife is so fkin touchy. I hate being touched. It's okay with people I know and like, but otherwise it makes me really stressed out. And she just touches me heaps. I'd just showered so was feeling all nice and clean. AHHHH!....
I'm not gonna shower, I'm trying to get over this stuff. I just feel so uncomfortable now, and I wanted to be all relaxed since I just finished all my tests.

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Originally Posted by Zhaylin

My rave is I finished another case
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I really like that case Zhaylin! The other night I through my vape against the wall in a drunken stuper. I need a case or something to cover up the damage. Lol

:hug: Oneiroer.
Great job on your tests, Tommo! Hope you were able to get over the unclean feeling without having to hop into the shower and that you feel better now.

:clairity: HelloBro. Someone else knows Chrono Cross?! Haters gonna hate. Their loss.

thanks Dakotah! I'd be happy to send you one if I knew your specs :) *tsk tsk* for your stupor. What did your poor e-cig do to enrage you so much :P

My rant is that I want to make more cases but I'm making myself wait until I get better yarn. Which will be at least 2 weeks from now :crying: I HAVE to (Have to HAVE to) get my oil changed next week. I have put it off for far too long. I am now -50 on my oil life.
A rave is that I had a lucid dream last night. It was a strange dream and I lost lucidity quickly, but I'm happy none-the-less. In the dream I was snuggling some white animal without a head. It was going to be sent to an ocean in the past where it could heal and get strong. I saw a map to where it was going then looked at it again and it was a kitten. I told someone I was dreaming. i said my mind couldn't handle the idea of snuggling a headless animal so I turned it into something nice.
I was about to get on a train which would take me back to my time-line. Someone said it must be nice to travel between dimensions at will. I told them now that I knew I was dreaming I was going to get some flying in... but then I was afraid of missing the train back, which lead to a guard confiscating items that couldn't (or shouldn't) travel between realms and it's then that I lost lucidity.

It was definitely one of the more interesting dreams I've had for a while! Traveling between realms and time is nothing new, but it's fairly uncommon. I always enjoy them a lot.

Man, I feel like I've been here for centuries. I've actually joined this forum only 5 months or so ago. :-D I had a nightmare that I thought I had a bug in my inner ear fluttering around in there. I recall that I touched my finger to my ear and I looked at it. I saw blood on my finger. At that point I didn't know if I was Dreaming or awake or dying.

That dream sounds so cool Zhaylin! What timeline were you trying to get back to?

My rave is that I also had a lucid! First in a loooooonnng time. It was almost incomprehensible though, and I couldn't turn it in to something that made sense. BUT I was lucid. It's a start.

Zhaylin. Though for the first time, thank you for the nice words and for the surprise jump. <3

- So I went to the hospital last week (expecting to have surgery) and the doctors sent me back home with different meds. And they told me that I didn't need surgery? Which is good of course but I'm still struggling with my infection ffs. My previous meds eased the pain a bit, but the ones I have now doesn't seem to be working at all. I'm honestly getting so frustrated like it shouldn't take months to solve a stupid infection, it's not like it's cancer or something. :angry:

- I'm gonna take a few driving lessons before I book my exam. But the prices are ridiculous, it's like 550 euros for 10 hours? I'm kinda hoping my parents will pay half of it. According to my dad, I don't really need these lessons 'cause my driving's pretty good right now. But I just feel like I could still use some more tips and I wanna do the exam with an official driving instructor instead of with my dad. So that it'll leave a good impression on the person who has to judge my driving.

- One more thing, this girl texted me on facebook a few days ago. And we get along really well 'cause we have so much in common. I honestly thought she was about 17/18 by looking at her pictures but she's only 15. :undecided: And now she wants to meet up (we live like 15 minutes from eachother), but there's a big age gap and I don't know how to feel about it. Like wouldn't it be pretty weird for a 21 year old to go to a 15 year olds house? But 16 is the youngest I'd date so I wouldn't do anything "wrong" though but still. Idk what to do ahh, we're also going to the same gigs in Antwerp and Brussels in the next few months so I can always meet up with her over there I guess.

Wow... I actually managed not to whine for a few days :chuckle:

I was in the future, Tommo, trying to get back to my RL timeline (now).

Anytime HelloBro :)

:hug: Crashyy. I really hope the Doc's buckle down, make up their minds and fix you already. It is getting ridiculous for this day and age.
Will driving school knock down your insurance any? If not, I wouldn't worry about it :lol:

My rant is that I need to buy more glucose testing strips... I need to find my machine first though. For the last week or so every single time I eat sweets, I fall asleep about 30 minutes later. I should have outgrown my reactive hypoglycemia right? Statistics actually say I should be diabetic by now (reactive hypoglycemia is often a precursor for full blown diabetes and my entire family generations back have diabetes). It's starting to get old. I don't even binge on sweets. I'll have 2-4 squares of Brownie Brittle a day, or one out of a 2-pack of Reeses. I make my food stretch.
So, I want to see if my blood sugar really is bottoming out or if it's just me being weird me :lol:

I also discovered that I vape wayyyyy too much. I went to the vape shop to get my juice. I asked how long coils (Nautalis) should last and they said about 2 weeks. I told them mine last about 3-4 days. They talked to me about properly priming and my wattage. They were stumped because I run mine extremely low. Then I thought to say: "I fill up my tank about 3 times a day." They laughed and said that's around 500 puffs (the life of one coil) :cackle:
I'm vaping 6-12 mg nicotine (I alternate between the two levels because at 6mg nic I refill even more often). Is that really so much?

Gah! I really want to get on Terraria, but I need to go back to sleep...

I'm not too sure about the insurance zhaylin, I don't know much about it :chuckle: and yeah i hope so too!!

And I'm honestly so embarrassed right now. Like I messed up so bad. I accidentally sent my best friend my nudes on snapchat. Which were obviously meant for someone else. And he's opened it but he didn't reply :oops: So now I'm hoping he will just keep it quite and forget about it. I'm so afraid he'll tell people at school though fml. I haven't done anything like this for a while and now this happens just great

I thought I was over the training period from hell, but nooo, yesterday I got a e-mail from one of the people I worked with, asking me about a couple of things He needed to pick back up my work and also asking about how I was going because he wis the only decent human being in this cesspit, and I promply had a meltdown complete with shaking and crying. And I still tear up thinking about it. Fuck this sideway with a freaking cactus. I did graduate for fuck sake, I don't depens on those people anymore!

At last my pc is fixed (by me of course :lol:) Zhaylin/Crashyy/tommo/Lauraw :hug: missed u people

Crashy I think your fairly safe with that one....that reminds me of when I was a teenager on a camping trop and I was madly in love with someone or other.
I woke up early in the morning and found I was smooching my best mate, who I was sharing a tent with :cackle:
NEEDLESS TO SAY: THEY NEVER MENTIONED IT...EVER :laugh:

Zhaylin hmm you take a lot of stuff...sounds a pain...I wanna travel between realms...so unfair...take me nxt k

oneiroer good luck!

Milly i'm so sorry to hear that...that sucks...I have days when I just want to cry...but I usually feel better in the morning...
I have to keep things together for my daughters sake anyways....
its funny how no one expects you to say anything other than "i'm ok" when they ask the big question
"How are you?"
I usually tell people exactly how I am :rolllaugh: which usually surprises them

Thanks MeohMyoh. That was six months of my life I would rather forget about. I was always sick, working for people that even didn't care or were actively trying to break students. The worse, strangely, was the people who were worried about me, seeing my health going to hell and a minor birth defect skyrocketing into dangerous territory and asked me why I didn't give up. Because I wanted to give up so bad, but I couldn't. This place is going to explode in a fiery mess soon, and I will bring marshmallows to roast gleefully over it.
On a more happy note, I'm seeing my father this weekend. Always feels a little weird after not talking for five years, but it makes him exctatic.

Hey Tommo, you were supposed to weigh in on my post (being a fellow vaper and all :lol:) Where are you hiding?

Crashyy :panic: Is your friend cool? I recently read on CNN or someplace that 2 16 year olds (a couple) are being tried (as adults) for distributing child porn... of themselves... to each other... at their current age :roll: Which is it, stupid politicians? If it's kiddy-porn then try them as juveniles :mad: If they're adults, then it's not kiddy-porn and there's no crime /rant.
Just panic around your friend and say something "Oh dear god, please tell me you didn't see my snap chat. It was meant for ____. I really should sleep more (or drink less :chuckle:) before using the internet!" That would only work though if it was sent within the last day or so. Anything beyond that would just make it even more awkward.

:hug: Milly. 5 years? Sounds like me and my family. Hope it goes wonderfully!

Missed you too Meoh :clairity: I'd gladly take you if I knew when the next jump was :D

My rant is a headache. Guess what triggered it..... crayons. :wtf: I bought a big box of new crayons and I dumped them out of their sectionals and BOOM- headache. And I can still smell them even though they're put up and closed. :huh:
I also had bad headaches yesterday. Guess what caused those...... the last 3 were triggered by cheese. Seriously body? I discovered tiny little things of aged cheddar which are absolutely amazing. Headaches earlier in the day and before bed were caused by sinus issues. Gah! Is it that time of year already?!

Yet another rant is that the car dealership never answers their friggin phones. I likely wont be getting my oil changed tomorrow after all :mad:

Rave: Hubby gave me $50. mad money for crafting supplies. I bought some upholstery needles, a marker and the crayons. Tomorrow I'll be stopping at the craft shop in the 'big city' to pick up some needlepoint goodies.

I've been having flash back dreams lately. Dreamed of a pet rabbit I had back in 2001. I haven't even thought of her in forever. Dreamed of my old cat, Rogue and familiar stress-dreams of driving off a cliff into water. Those always crack me up because when i fall into the water I always worry about my car being destroyed (if it's not a total freak-out/dying dream), so i just push it out of the water. Because, you know, everything's weightless when it's submerged in water :cackle:
I did have a neat teleportation dream at some point, though. I was flying and trying to catch up to my hubby who was driving. He was going too fast, so I focused on the car and thought 'jump', and I'd be right above him. But then cats starting poking out of a bag I was carrying and they were going to fall to their deaths so i lost hubby worrying about them...

and I still smell the crayons... maybe I'll go to the bed.

Sorry about the double but I figured it would be better this than add to my previous wall of text :chuckle:
So far, my blood sugar is normal. I woke up to it at 87... ate and it jumped to 147 30 minutes afterwards. At the hour mark it was down to 127; 2 hours it was 106.
I'll be binge taking it for the next three days to get a predictable average. So far, so good. I took it after eating sweets and after a dinner of tomato soup and grilled cheese. I had almost the exact same numbers, spaced out the same way.
My poor fingers feel like pin cushions... made worse by the fact that my lancet is some 10 years old and dull as heck :lol:

A weird rave is that I grossed Miley out. I asked her if the inside of my wrist looked swollen to her. She cringed and asked what was wrong with my veins. I laughed and showed my other wrist. they've always been very noticeable. A nice dark blue/green and sometimes purple. I could easily have been a junkie in another life.

Today is going to be a very long one... why am I still awake :bang:

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Originally Posted by Zhaylin

I also discovered that I vape wayyyyy too much. I went to the vape shop to get my juice. I asked how long coils (Nautalis) should last and they said about 2 weeks. I told them mine last about 3-4 days. They talked to me about properly priming and my wattage. They were stumped because I run mine extremely low. Then I thought to say: "I fill up my tank about 3 times a day." They laughed and said that's around 500 puffs (the life of one coil) :cackle:
I'm vaping 6-12 mg nicotine (I alternate between the two levels because at 6mg nic I refill even more often). Is that really so much?

Gah! I really want to get on Terraria, but I need to go back to sleep...

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That's exactly what I was doing. 3 refills a day. I then upped that to 5 at least when I lowered the nicotine. I still use the same atomizer for two weeks. I just take the wick out, dry burn the coil and put a new wick in. No need to buy new atomizers every time. Although I dunno if the nautilus has rebuildable ones.
It also depends on what juice you use. Some of them gunk up a lot really quickly so you need to replace more often.

6-12mg of nicotine is insane for a sub-ohm setup though. I'm surprised you can vape that much. Some places only sell up to 6mg now because most people don't want/can't handle more than that in the new e-cigs.
But yeah, when you're basically just sitting at the computer it's very easy to just continually vape :P

I've cut down so much now. I take a few puffs here and there of around 0.2mg or something lol. I've basically quit altogether. Got sick of the shitty products. Wasted a LOT of money on stuff which either didn't work at all, or worked for a while before breaking or just becoming crap. Also stuff like ceramic wicks and shit which Aspire were using in the Nautilus. So bad....

0.2? Wow. Here we have 0, 3, 6, 12, 18, 24. Most gas stations sell only the 24 :eek:
And yeah, I'm nearly constantly toking on it lol. Maybe wearing it around my neck is a bad idea :cackle:

I've been using this coil for a few days now so it refreshed my memory. It's not that it starts tasting bad or burned, it feels stopped up. I have to toke on it harder if that makes sense.
Thanks for your input :) I'm glad I'm not the only one doing 3 refills or more. The vape shop people looked at me like I'm an alien or something lol

Raves: I got my crafting supplies. I really needed more than an hour at the store though. I rushed through my yarn selection so I hope they work.
My blood sugar has been running even better today. An hour after I ate 3 slices of pepperoni pizza, my reading was 100 :huh: Should have been much higher than that but I'm not complaining. When it drops to the 80's I notice I'm sleepy... but I shouldn't be. 80 is completely normal.

On the way home, my son asked me what super power I'd have if possible. Flying, of course. While talking about it, I kept referencing my dreams as if they have any significance in reality :chuckle: 'I rarely fly much higher than the phone poles. I tend to keep a walking or jogging pace... it's more like levitation now-a-days though it wasn't like that when I was a kid. Now, I push my hands down in order to rise or I flick it upwards to lower.....' :roll: Evesdroppers would think I was insane lol

I just make my own, that's why it's that low. Well, did. I bought 70mg and diluted it with VG and flavoured VG.
I don't recommend that anymore though, you have to be so careful.
We can only get 0mg here, so it was just out of necessity back in the early days. Could order 70mg and just get flavours from here when needed, only had to order the nic overseas once a year or less.

Yeah the gunk ends up blocking the air holes. It will taste bad after a while because it starts burning when not much juice can get to the wick.

Milly now you've made me want marshmallows...bad...i'll come to the work barbi huh
Lucid...I pray for lucid like the holy grail ... but I can't even sleep right now, i'm so stressed with work :/

I saw on FB someone's vape shop was closing because it was so filthy. I try not to think about how my juice is made. Just like, I try not to know what the staff of fast food places do :cackle: I'd never eat again if I did :roll: (Yeah, I say that now; just wait til I get sick).

I had another time jump dream... sort of. I don't really know what it was lol. It could have made for a really interesting story if my sleep didn't suck so epicly last night.
Fitbit says I was down for almost 9 hours. I was restless, though, for 4 hours and 4 minutes so I only actually slept for just under 5 hours.

Rant: I wanted to buy Dying Light on Steam. It was 50% off. But I took my sons suggestion of watching some playthroughs first and :barf: Nope. Motion-sick extreme. Friggin ridiculous. BUT, I really don't need to be buying another game anyhow, so I guess that's okay :lol:

Oh good golly I am unwell today. I woke up extremely dizzy. Blood pressure and sugar are all normal (BP's a wee bit low). I thought maybe dehydration but allergies it is. :bang: I must have some weirdness going on with my ears. They don't hurt but gah my equilibrium is WAY off today. I can't bend over for anything :roll:

Rave: I bought a different game: 7 days to die. I have it on the easiest setting and it's still royally kicking my butt lol. It spawned some awesome dreams last night, which makes it a double rave.
Rant: There were no $25. Steam cards (how much the game actually was on sale), so I spent the rest of my money for $40. :/ At least I have some extra left over to play with if I see anything else interesting.