Rant and Rave, Cry and Complain

About two weeks ago, when I arrived at school I took my phone out of my pocket and noticed that the whole screen was cracked. And I didn't even drop it?? I was pretty pissed off, but things only got worse. The next day we had to run for charity and of course this time my phone really fell out of my pocket and it was just completely broke. So I decided to buy a new one and bought my first ever iphone, I even got 100 euros discount so that was pretty nice.

My wrist was really itchy last night probably because of my wristbands so I cut them all off. It's so pale comparing to the rest of my arm (even though you can't really see it that well in these pictures)

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Once again I embarrassed myself today. :( My teacher came to visit my placement and I had to serve her coffee, the cup was quite full and my hands were really shaky. I ended up spilling coffee all over the table in front of my teacher and my boss and I was so embarrassed omg. I apologised and my teacher said: "don't worry about it brent, it's okay" and my boss told me to go get some napkins but I still feel so bad because this has happened. These kind of things only seem to happen to me lol.

At least the summer holidays are getting close now, I've only gotta survive 10 more days of school and 7 days of placement and then year 12's over!! :D I also decided what I'm gonna do next. I'm gonna do year 13 and after that I'm gonna study abroad in australia for a few months, followed by uni in my own country. Things are finally looking up for me.

My last rant: I'm trying so hard to improve my dream recall again but nothing's working. :disconcerted: Mantras, staying completely still with my eyes closed after waking up, drinking apple juice before bed,... I just can't remember a single thing. I honestly miss those times where I would wake up after every single dream, like last summer, I woke up 5-6 times a night recalling somewhere between 4-10 dreams a night and now nothing. I blame it on the stress so hopefully when school's over, my dream recall will improve when I get more sleep & be less stressed out.

Hopin you havin a good day too Zhaylin, Crashyy, everybody really...
Maybe a mental health day would help?

Put it on the calendar now! Take one day off from your normal routine, set no alarm and sleep in, do whatever you want at your own pace. Do some yoga, drink a piña colada or maybe a mimosa, why not? Take bubble bath, listen to your favorite music, and talk to a loved one, get back to your ROOTS and just be free. Ask for a footrub even! Put the phone away unless it's an emergency, otherwise say "I'm chillin!"

Take a long siesta, and dream like you did as a small child.
:}

Acatalephobic, that's my day every day :chuckle:
Well, until the dog wakes me needing to go potty. But I'd much rather she did than have to clean up a mess!
I *could* go for a drink though. A tall frozen grasshopper would really hit the spot.
For now, though, I'll have to settle on a nice long nap :)

Hope you're having a great day.

:hug: Crashyy. I'd be embarrassed too... but there's little need, though. Accidents happen to the best of us :)
That's a lot of bracelets! Must take forever to put them all on unless you can just slide them on.

Sigh....

Having second thoughts about nursing now. I really wonder whether I'm going to find it satisfying. I've reached out to a nice teacher to ask about the different types you can do.
If it's all the same as this placement, or even similar, I'm quitting. It's just so boring and repetitive.

Some of the people are really cool, there's this schizo guy who always says "it's alright" every time you ask if something's okay lol
A guy who's barely conscious/aware but keeps making jokes.

But yeah.... the general duties are boring and repetitive.
I also miss studying Chem. Much more mentally stimulating, and I just absolutely love it.
I've been realising lately that there's literally nothing I have found that's as interesting and beautiful as Chemistry (besides maybe just nature....)
If only it wasn't so hard to get a job in it.

Could you tough it out and get the degree then pursue your love for Chemistry? It might be helpful to have both?
Hubby always laments over his daughter dropping out of medical school. She passed the first 4 years with flying colors but when it came to shadowing the docs, she became disillusioned with the entire field (hte guy she's still with might have had something to do with her decision too lol) Hubby says it could help her in her job search if she could at least list it (even if she got into something else).

But I know nothing about these things.

My rant is that I am exceptionally irritated today. You'd think I was the only friggin person in the house who takes care of the dogs. Keira was whining outside my door but I was light headed and told her to wait. She didn't feel like it and took a massive crap. THEN one of the girls comes along and just opens the front door for her. She proceeded to whine because she was locked outside. NO. Put her on the bloody leash and walk her (and Duke!).
So, I let her in, cleaned up her mess, went to the bathroom to pee myself and there's piss and blood on the toilet seat. :mad: So, I had to clean the toilet seat before I could use it.

I have counseling tonight but REALLY don't want to make the friggin drive.
i also have a sore throat and my period is 3 days late.

A rave is that I played Runescape last night :lol: I still enjoy it. I think I'll buy membership next week.

I really wished the earth moved slower and there were 30 hours in a day. I just logged on here and its already 4:12am.

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Originally Posted by Zhaylin

Could you tough it out and get the degree then pursue your love for Chemistry? It might be helpful to have both?
Hubby always laments over his daughter dropping out of medical school. She passed the first 4 years with flying colors but when it came to shadowing the docs, she became disillusioned with the entire field (hte guy she's still with might have had something to do with her decision too lol) Hubby says it could help her in her job search if she could at least list it (even if she got into something else).

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lol I was laying in bed last night after writing that and I was like ".... I wrote in that exact thread around 6 months ago about that I knew I was going to doubt myself and miss chemistry etc. but I have to stick with nursing." So yeah I decided I will and just do chem later part time or something. But yeah today was SOOOO much better.
The teacher nurse I had for second and third day just didn't let me do much, she did everything herself and I basically assisted. So it was boring as hell.
Today I had a new teacher and she was amazing. I did a tonne of stuff and she *taught* me about everything she was doing.
She pushed me a bit as well, which I need, but not in a "cummon you aren't doing well, do better" way. More like a "I know you can do this, do it" kinda way. I need that I think.
The head nurses or whatever they are were talking to me in the first way, saying I should have a handle on this stuff and be practicing, when I never even got a fucking chance to do anything.
It was really disheartening.

But today I went from feeling like I just want to leave, to really enjoying it. Having appreciative patients is really nice, it's a fulfilling job.

For the rest of your post, go to counseling, you sound like you need it. lol
edit: That sounds bad, I just mean coz of all the crap you have to put up with lol

:cackle: Not MY counseling... my sons counseling. I have to drive him to it every Wednesday. It's 40 minutes there, 40 back plus an hour of doing nothing while I wait in the car. Now THAT's boring. Well, it would be if I didn't have my iPad :lol:
Glad you had a better time with class :)

My rant... guess :chuckle: Sleep. I was in bed last night for 6hours, 13 minutes, my actual sleep came out to 3 hrs and 3 minutes :bang:
My fitbit registered sleep when I was inactive yesterday. I was laying in bed, playing on my iPad, waiting [to get] sleepy. I was playing for about 2 1/2 hours. When I looked at the activity [on my fitbit dashboard], I busted out laughing because I move around more in my sleep than I do when I game :lol: :roll:
So, I think I need to start exercising.

I also need to start drinking more. Water, coke, tea anything would be better than my current norm of less than 40 oz a day! Last night, I dreamed I was dying of thirst. I tried drinking through a straw, but nothing came up. Then I tried drinking without the straw and it was as if my mouth was glued shut.
I woke feeling very dehydrated.

It's too darn early... I'm going back to bed.

I'm stuck in the cycle of Get Lonely -> Hookup with jerk -> Get depressed -> Breakup -> Get Lonely -> ...

Our school is so weird, today my friend got detention for taking a selfie during lunch break LOL. He was taking group selfies and suddenly a teacher came up to us and told us that we weren't allowed to do that. And my friend who's from Egypt replied with: "it's because i'm black isn't it?" and then he got detention. I think she's a new teacher or someone who does work experience at our school, because we haven't seen her before. We're gonna try and solve this tomorrow, like we even take selfies with our teachers during class, even with the principal so yeah :chuckle:

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Originally Posted by Zhaylin

:hug: Crashyy. I'd be embarrassed too... but there's little need, though. Accidents happen to the best of us :)
That's a lot of bracelets! Must take forever to put them all on unless you can just slide them on.

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Yeah, I guess you're right :) and they were wristbands I got from attending festivals. I've been saving them up basically :lol: cos my first festival was in 2011 and my last one was a few months ago.

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Originally Posted by acatalephobic

Crashyy, everybody really...
Maybe a mental health day would help?

Put it on the calendar now! Take one day off from your normal routine, set no alarm and sleep in, do whatever you want at your own pace. Do some yoga, drink a piña colada or maybe a mimosa, why not? Take bubble bath, listen to your favorite music, and talk to a loved one, get back to your ROOTS and just be free. Ask for a footrub even! Put the phone away unless it's an emergency, otherwise say "I'm chillin!"

Take a long siesta, and dream like you did as a small child.
:}

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That's actually a really good idea omg!! I'm totally gonna do this :D

:hug: Anju

Nice collection, then, Crashyy.
I collect shot glasses from the places I go :)

Rave: I ended up going back to sleep and WOW! the visuals of one dream was amazing. I've forgotten some of the details, but the dream was a love story. There was a faberge (sp) egg that changed shapes and scenes like a snow globe. WHen you looked within you were at the scene depicted. One bit was of a man escaping somewhere, to be with his love, and an elderly man followed behind him covering the footprints he made. The kicker is that the footprints were in shallow water, the sands of which had been carved in intricate designs reminding me of breasts. The elderly man was a master carver. When troops rushed to the waters edge to see if they could spot the love-stricken man, they saw no sign of his passage.
Later dreams were of sex scenes and secrecy.

I now feel rested :roll: And stuffed. I had a baked potato for breakfast/lunch/dinner :lol: then finished off my barbecue chips.

I need to clean my room, but it's currently occupied by a pile of sleeping pups :smitten: I don't dare wake the annoying buggers :chuckle:

I've been having plenty of awesome lesbian wet dreams. I wish I were a lesbian in real life!

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I've been having plenty of awesome lesbian wet dreams. I wish I were a lesbian in real life!

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100x this.
Maybe instead of hookup with jerk, you just befriend an awesome female...that is open-minded enough to maybe just make out once in a while if she's feeling saucy. That would break your cycle.

Kissing a kickass chick would be better than kissing a douchebag guy, at least in my opinion. x}

But really I think everyone should take mental health days, because why the HELL NOT, honestly.
I take off for weddings, funerals, illness...for a change PLEASE give me some time off that involves nothing but ENJOYING myself.

Thank goodness I am taking 4 days off next week, because I need a break. I'm still hobbling around all crazy with my hip messed up. That's my rant, I really need like...a chiropractor maybe, or even just someone to give me proper football stretches or something. I need my back flat and to have my knee touching the floor, because I've been stretching it out myself now for weeks and it ain't doin shit.

But on the bright side, for my time off I am compiling a list of all the things I might want to indulge in during vacation. Because it is important to do more of what makes you happy!

Fuck man, I spend enough time doing things that are no fun.
Life is too cluttered up with that nonsense sometimes, I need to simplify.

Give me a day where I can just BE FREE for a change!
Just for today, as they say...

I want to paint my face and wear a dress and just get really super real with it.
I want to have rap battle! I extended the offer just last week but I don't think they took me seriously... x}

p.s. - Crashyy thanks! You reminded me I need to put "go to festival" on the list, it has been too long already! As Zhaylin said, a very impressive collection you have indeed. I hope you saved them all for zee memories. =}

On Monday there is a public holiday, on Wednesday I have a super easy test and that's it and on Friday there is no school. not a bad week coming up not at all... :). Two day week, who would've thought year 12 could be this easy mehehehe.

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Originally Posted by Anju

I'm stuck in the cycle of Get Lonely -> Hookup with jerk -> Get depressed -> Breakup -> Get Lonely -> ...

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That's my cycle. Feel better now :P

Actually there's temporarily "date" complete cunt somewhere in there, but mostly the above.

Burnt myself twice at work this week; once from heat and once from chemicals. Last night I just brushed up against a fresh lead post straight out of the mold. Dunno how hot it was, but it's 1000F in liquid form. Then it's poured into the mold, cooled for about 3 seconds, and that's about when I decided to touch it with the inside of my wrist. The chemical burn... well, I didn't know oven/grill cleaner was such nasty stuff. If I had read the label, I would've seen that it was corrosive and causes severe burns. Instead, I learned that by spilling some in my boot. Didn't think anything of it until five minutes later when my foot was on fire. :cheeky:

So now I got home from school and found my entire apartment coated in a layer of dirt. They're working on the roof again, doing who-the-fuck-knows what. They worked on it several months last summer, so I figured they were done. But I'm on the top floor and the roof access leads right above my apartment. So that's like the main 'hub' area for all the construction guys. I can deal with the noise, but this is an old factory building. Every time the drop or smack something on my roof, dust and dirt comes poured down from the ceiling.

There was a ton of that crap all over my bed. So I figured screw it and threw the sheets in the wash. Opened the detergent and... absentmindedly poured it in the fabric softener dispenser. :bang:


But all ranting aside, I'm doin' good. My work and school week is over, weather's supposed to be nice this weekend, and I've got some spaghetti and meatballs heating up in the oven. Beer in the fridge, and finally some time to play a few video games. But this filament of dirt on everything (including my keyboard) really is damn annoying...

YOUCH! Heal quickly, Sefalik!

:hug: everyone.

My rant is that I barfed earlier. I ate a huge blueberry muffin, then hubby called and decided he wanted to go out for lunch. "okay, I'll just have a bowl of soup' which was fine and dandy until I saw they had Creme Brulee for dessert. :lol: hubby passed it up. It was Salted Caramel Brulee which he said would be way too sweet. Did I believe him? Nope. I forced it down and had to stop on the way home to get sick. Gah! Sweetness overload and then some!!!!
And now I'm hungry again. Wasted money for nothing :roll:

The soup was too greasy but delicious. The mushrooms in it were ginormous (it was chicken and mushroom with some potatoes and celery in just a broth).
When I got sick I thought, "heh, well I guess I didn't go over my calorie-intake for the day after all" :roll: 1300 calories come about way too easily. A couple cans of coke take care of half of it :eek:

A rave/rant is that it looks like Paula got her car. I stopped at Sheetz for a cup of Ice on the way home from dropping them off. When I pulled up to the light, she passed me in the car she's getting. I guess she was going to walmart to cash her check. The rant in that is that it wont do her much good right away. She's forking over her entire paycheck which leaves nothing for them to buy food, gas, insurance, title or registration. Oh, or glasses. She can barely see at night without them and her drivers license is restricted. I guess my taxi sign remains for at least another few weeks, but then I'll be free :banana:

Rave: I finally posted the puppies on FB. 2 have already been claimed. The girls got a window unit AC for one of the puppies (they'll give me the $50. for it god knows when).
If only the kittens would go as quickly! I am done with pets. I want all of them but my bird gone. I'd even part with Keira (momma dog) if someone was interested.

Another rant/rave is that my mom's in town. She wont come to the house (thank God, because it's such a mess ) because of her allergies, but that just means I have to go to a family get-together over the weekend. which means spending money I don't have on gas and then on dinner Tuesday night. :panic: I always enjoy myself once I get there though. And I might be able to mooch some extra moola off of hubby because she comes up here only twice a year.
So, I'm stressing over nothing.

**EDIT**
Oh yeah, two of the puppies are such huge whiners! They act like they have separation anxiety!
And even though 2 of the pups have been adopted, they're too young to leave yet so we're stuck with them a bit longer.

**EDIT**
Here are some of the babies
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And here's my buddy Simon
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Ugh, the animals kept waking me up all bloody night.
And now, one of the new kittens keeps bawling it's head off. I say "now" but it was bawling all night except for a brief couple hours.

I started getting my adrenaline surges last night. What the heck? I usually have to gone at least a week without my Celexa before the problem returns. This time it was only 1 1/2 days. But I pick my med up this afternoon and the surges retreat after just a dose or three.
My period still hasn't shown up either which is HIGHLY rare for me. It's now 6 days late. I wonder if it's the Gabapentin or if I'm starting to go through "the change" already.

I'm going back to bed.... have a great day everyone.

**EDIT**
i slept ALL friggin day. What the heck? I just could not wake up. My legs were killing me so I slept exceptionally rough.
i've been having very sexual dreams, which normally indicates my period is 1-2 weeks away. But my left ovary is very tender, so I have no idea what's going on lol
I am also furious because I'm 97% positive someone stole 2 packs of crackers. I've been saving them since Wednesday. I remember them being in a drawer with one of the reject-packs but now only the gross one remains. BUT- I could be crazy and just misplaced them or accidentally thrown them away if they had been forgotten in a bag. my memory says one thing but it's been wrong before so I can't throw out accusations.
I'm still ticked off though. I was looking forward to eating them and if they had been taken I'm sick of people taking my stuff.

Time to get a doorknob and a lock methinks.

Where is everyone lol. Hope that means life is wonderful :)

Rave: I slept marvelously last night. The animals stayed out of my room for some reason. I took my usual meds last night but risked 2 ibprofen's and 2 tylenol's. My legs didn't bother me at all. :banana:
I had a strange dream-loop dream that I really wish I could recall. As soon as I got up, though, I had to take the dogs out. It was about the creation of mankind by aliens. Some wanted us dead, others didn't. Then there was another bit about scattering ashes. It had a Native-American feel about the whole thing.

I get to hang out with my extended family today. Hubby's not incredibly happy about it because my brother is part of the shindig, but he tolerates it.

Another rave is that there's supposedly a Vape shop just 20 minutes away in the town the kids work. I'm going to have to check it out!

that's it for now :)

We can rename this thread to Zhaylin's Diary. :chuckle:

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Originally Posted by sefalik

I can deal with the noise

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Scratch that. Holy fucking shit, they've been working all weekend, 12-hour-days every day. If I didn't have to sleep during the day, it would just be really annoying. But instead, it's been driving me insane. It's not that hard for me to fall asleep, even during the day, but it's damn near impossible with them up there. I've been laying in bed since 2pm trying to get some sleep. It's 7:15pm now, they're still working, and I need to leave for work in about 2 hours. Which is not happening; no way I am going to make it all night and all morning on no sleep, plus I've only gotten maybe 6 hours of sleep combined since Thursday night. So now I've got to waste days off work.

I mean, I understand they're just doing their job... but I cannot function with this. I hate to complain, but I have to call the building manager tomorrow to try and find out how much longer they're scheduled to be working. I'm going to have to find somewhere else to sleep if it's going to continue all week like this.

Goddamn WILD's, why are they so elusive? It's sometimes so easy, basically not even trying, but mostly super difficult.
I hit the brink of transition easily, then get snapped out of it and start thinking too much.

Practice I guess....

Oh.... I posted on topic for the first time in years and got a warning for spamming. lol....
That'll teach me.

Hi Anju

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Originally Posted by Anju

We can rename this thread to Zhaylin's Diary. :chuckle:

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I keep wishing I could do what TV Zhaylin does. I wish I would do a quick rundown of my day here on RRCC. You Anju and others, but especially Zhaylin are so interesting and make this thread so o o addictive.

My lifes boring.

Wait a minute (???) Where did that capital t and v come from ... I did not put it there (???) ...

But ...

Yeah!

Zhaylin you diary entries are as addictive as TV.

I tried to do some Dimitri, and it failed horribly. It sucks because I had hyped it for so long =\

Rave

Tiresias

Now I know why I like naval oranges. Ama gunna have 1 to 4 a day. Link at bottom.

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I tried to do some Dimitri, and it failed horribly. It sucks because I had hyped it for so long =\

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yo man i got some DiMiTri, shall we frolic through another dimension?
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