Thread: Rant and Rave, Cry and Complain

I always tease my kids like that, Anju. Whenever they start an online relationship, I tell them who the person "really" is After a while though, they just roll their eyes at me.

I'm still jealous of your tank, Tommo. You need to hurry up and finish it so you can tell us all about it

My rant is that I'm ready to go to sleep. It's 2:30AM, so that SHOULD be a good thing. No. I feel physically restless and mentally alert. I want to DO something. But my body keeps closing my eyes and telling me to crawl into bed. I'll fight it for a little while, unless this tea works wonders and wakes me up. I've not had any tea since November or so. It's really nice I'm going to have to start stocking up on tea and honey again.
Within the next couple of days (weather willing), I'm going to start taking the dogs for our morning walks again. I'm glad warmer weather is on it's way but I am NOT looking forward to summer. Hopefully, it will be mild this year.

My tea tastes kind of funny. It coats my mouth oddly. Can sealed tea and/or opened honey go bad? I don't think so. Maybe I just have to get used to it again

Originally Posted by Zhaylin

I'm still jealous of your tank, Tommo. You need to hurry up and finish it so you can tell us all about it

It's pretty much done! I really should improve the roof, but the big sheets of wood cost a lot, and it can really wait I think. I'm just using styrofoam sheets that I had left over. I'll probably just put a blanket over the top to block out light while I'm in there, if I can find one big enough.

Dissolving the Epsom salt has taken all day. When it dissolves, it sucks a tonne of heat out of the water (because it takes heat to dissolve salt).
So I've been putting it in one or two bags at a time and waiting for it to heat up again. It drops about 4 degrees for every bag added.
And I can't just dump it in all at once and heat it up because it needs to be warm for all the salt to dissolve (supersaturated solution).
If it cools down, it will crystallise out.

Anyway, it should be ready for my first float tomorrow!

So I made some spaghetti and meatballs for the first time yesterday and have been overly excited about it. Turned out really good and I have plenty of leftovers for the next few of days--I'm heating some up now. I've been craving spaghetti and meatballs for a while now, probably because of all the italian mafia stories I've been reading/watching.

First-world-problems rant: Gonna quit weed for a bit. There's maybe a 5% chance that I'll actually get drug-tested, but I don't want to take any chances at work right now, especially since I'm hoping to have my employer pay for most of my schooling. I'm just bummed because weed makes it ridiculously easy for me to fall asleep and stay asleep, so I'll be losing that crutch for a little while. So, more beer then I guess? Lousy trade-off. Why does marijuana-use have to be so damn easy to detect?

I just woke up with the scariest surprise right next to my face: a dead, limp hand. I thought "Who's hand is that??", and stared at it just curled there. It looked like my hand so I tried moving it, but my brain couldn't move it at all. That's when I screamed and jumped up, and looked to see what the hell was going on under my blankets. My arm was limp at my side, apparently asleep. I let it fall straight down as all the blood rushed down to it, and flapped my hand around a bit. After several seconds I could control it again.

:rofl: Deery. I've had that happen so many times before, minus the fear. It happens to me so often, though, I'm hardly even confused
Well, no, that's a lie. It USED to happen all the time. Now I wake up in pain before it gets that far.

Tommo, that sounds like quite the process! You're such a smarty-pants (in the best, most endearing way possible )

Sefalik, try Melatonin? Maybe it would help?

My rant is my stupid big toe. Why does it cramp so much? Hubby says if it's gout, a person can't even have a blanket over it because it hurts so much. That's not this. It just cramps at the middle joint to the point I always have to pop it to relieve the pressure. I set my foot flat on the ground, with a little pressure, then I bend the toe at the joint, focusing on the bottom tip of the toe. The skin gets so sore from the process and I ruin sandals doing it (I bore a hole into them after a while).
I keep waking up in bed with my knees bent and my feet flat, popping that stupid toe.

A worried rave is that my coils came in today I took a break while typing all this, primed a coil, was about to use it when my device said "Atomizer Short". What the heck? I've never had that before. Unscrew, take a look... the coil came unscrewed from the base. Okay. No biggy. Then again and again. How the heck am I to know if it works if the darn thing wont stay screwed in. One more time. It stayed put but was still shorted out.
Grumble, grumble... did they sell (sale?) me a bunch of duds. Primed another, stuck in in, didn't wait and tried. Works like a charm. *whew*

the coils came in a 5-piece blister pack with the hologram on the box for authenticity. Let's see how they vape in 5 more minutes.

Must find food. Later, taters.

heh, trying to outsmart the kitten. He wants on my lap, but my allergies are mad enough at his presence. So I'm now typing slouched over with my elbows low.
oUCH, little turd is trying to climb up my legs. He REALLY wants some love

Today is starting out as a good day. Night before last, I actually walked the dogs. Last night, I bought an XBox 360 controller and it works like a dream with my PC and Skyrim (not that I've gotten to use it with farmville's annoying timed quests )
And the kids let me sleep.

I did sleep fairly rough though. I had several false wakings of waking up in bed with a strange fat yellow and green fly in my mouth and fleas covering my legs. No bug bites this morning though lol. I saw a dead fly on my desk yesterday before bed and wondered if it had been biting me. But it didn't look like a horsefly. I have been obsessing though and I took a caffeine pill an hour before going to sleep (I was trying to fight it). So that explains that...

I am so hungry I'm in pain. Off to find food. I wonder if my strawberry lemonaid cake/bread is still good. It's stamp says "Best by the 12th". Tasted fine yesterday though...

I'm thinking of trying Pueraria Mirifica supplements. I'm confused between the pills and the cream. Maybe I can try the cream first and take the pills only if necessary. They apparently work, but they're not cheap and it would be a waste of money if they don't work. :/

Originally Posted by DeeryTheDeer

I just woke up with the scariest surprise right next to my face: a dead, limp hand. I thought "Who's hand is that??", and stared at it just curled there. It looked like my hand so I tried moving it, but my brain couldn't move it at all. That's when I screamed and jumped up, and looked to see what the hell was going on under my blankets. My arm was limp at my side, apparently asleep. I let it fall straight down as all the blood rushed down to it, and flapped my hand around a bit. After several seconds I could control it again.

This happened to me nightly for like a week or two. Evidently, I was sleeping with my hand off the bed and I'd wake up with my arm completely numb and dead. I remember having to cross my arm over my body with my other hand, but god damn, that was so scary.

Originally Posted by Anju

I'm thinking of trying Pueraria Mirifica supplements. I'm confused between the pills and the cream. Maybe I can try the cream first and take the pills only if necessary. They apparently work, but they're not cheap and it would be a waste of money if they don't work. :/

Google makes it sound like the latest miracle thing that will cure everything. There's been no corroborating research that it does anything at all, so if it is expensive, I would pass.

Hmm.. I am also considering surgery. That would be a more expensive option, but there's guaranteed results. Ugh I wish I could trade my body for someone else's.

Originally Posted by Anju

Hmm.. I am also considering surgery. That would be a more expensive option, but there's guaranteed results. Ugh I wish I could trade my body for someone else's.

I wish that too.. ugh.

I could have *sworn* I posted an update about my tank. The hell?.... I know I posted it somewhere.

Anyway, it works! I just need to light proof it properly. It's clearly one of the most important parts of the tank. Closing my eyes is just not the same. The weird brain stimulating thing that happens when I tried a commercial tank really kicks off when you shut and open your eyes and there's no difference. Your brain starts making stuff up. Kinda like tinnitus or auditory hallucinations when it's really quiet, but for vision.

I did get some HI and a few short, trippy sequences today. Some really random things I can't remember. A buddha floating down this purple spiral thing. Some sex stuff, like a woman in leathers with those old style motorcycle glasses, getting doggy styled
They were really comic-book like in regards to the composition of the sequences.

It's so strange how these just pop up from nowhere; no previous thoughts on the images or themes or anything.

Originally Posted by Anju

I'm thinking of trying Pueraria Mirifica supplements. I'm confused between the pills and the cream. Maybe I can try the cream first and take the pills only if necessary. They apparently work, but they're not cheap and it would be a waste of money if they don't work. :/

Will everyone tell this girl that breasts don't matter? Breast size in particular.
Anju, even if that supplement increases your estrogen and leads to bigger boobs, you know estrogen can be really bad for you, right?
It can make you gain weight, breast cancer uses estrogen to spread.... there's other things I can't remember right now.
But if you really want to take it, why not get contraceptives that contain estrogen, instead of a plant which may not do anything?

Pueraria mirifica works as a phytoestrogen, which is about 1/1000 as powerful as estradiol. It doesn't compete for the same receptors, and has been shown in a handful of studies (most conducted in Thailand, where it's been used for ages) to markedly reduce occurrence of estrogen related cancers.

It'll absolutely promote breast growth, if there's any to be had. Obviously, the major limiting factor for breast growth is genetics, and if you've already finished a female puberty, PM isn't likely to bump you up much, if at all. Unless your endocrine system is on tilt...but you'd need blood work done to know for sure.

All in all, I'd recommend not messing with you hormones unless you know exactly what you're doing. There's a reason GPs will send you to a specialist for this stuff.

Tinnitus? I don't think I'd like the tank after all. I forgot how much I hate silence. My "ears" always make noise. Sometimes it's almost intolerable. Most of the time, though, a wee bit of white noise drowns it out.
The visual stuff sounds amazing though I've always wanted to trip though.

Big boobs are over-rated. I always wanted them when I was young. Then I got older, gained some weight, got some boobs. Mine are still small and I like them well enough. I wouldn't want to get any bigger.
My oldest daughter has huge knockers and she always has a backache.

A rant is that I have the City today... in less then an hour. Gah. A rave is that part of Paula's tax return came back and she treated herself, Destinee and me to buffalo Wild Wings. Which is also part of a rant. I'm going to be needing the bathroom soon, lol, but I'll be in the car from 5-8-ish.
The food was really good though. I tried a chicken with spinach and artichoke flatbread- which was more like thin crust pizza than a sandwich.

My toe is still killing me. I wrapped a bandaid around it. The pressure helps some.

Originally Posted by Anju

Hmm.. I am also considering surgery. That would be a more expensive option, but there's guaranteed results. Ugh I wish I could trade my body for someone else's.

If a man only wants you because you have big boobs, he's not worth dating. Find things about your body that you DO like, and associate with people who build you up and appreciate you for you. Wasting who you are to try to look like someone else is a waste of your time and energy. I used to be REALLY worried about my boobs, along with my nose and the blue veins under my eyes, and wanted surgeries. Now I don't care anymore.

I apologize if this is int he wrong room, but I can finally post this: Pre-Order "Illusion of Choice" Today! - The Oneironaut's LogThe Oneironaut's Log

That's been a LONG time coming.

Originally Posted by DeeryTheDeer

If a man only wants you because you have big boobs, he's not worth dating. Find things about your body that you DO like, and associate with people who build you up and appreciate you for you. Wasting who you are to try to look like someone else is a waste of your time and energy. I used to be REALLY worried about my boobs, along with my nose and the blue veins under my eyes, and wanted surgeries. Now I don't care anymore.

Even though I agree with you, It's hard to not feel self-conscious when you get it pointed out too.

Originally Posted by Miau

Even though I agree with you, It's hard to not feel self-conscious when you get it pointed out too.

Yeah, it is hard, but it gets easier with practice. No one in my family gets rude about how I look, anymore, and I don't hang out with anyone who is rude.

Rave for today: Grandma's staying with us now, and I'm getting her to eat a LOT of good, nutritious food. She's frail and 90 lbs, and is barely strong enough to even support that weight, so ironically I'm trying to fatten her up. If anything, the food will at least give her some more energy and well being. Other family members have said once in a while that she won't eat anything, hardly, but she's been eating pretty well when I make food for her.

Rave: My job starts monday
Rave: My computer will be in my hands in two weeks. (thinking of asking dv to name her)
Rant: I have to fix my car tomorrow (wanted to do it today, but my mechanic is a douche)
Cry: I drunk called my ex...ugh. Auron...just let it go.
Complain: I'm behind on homework this weekend is going to suck because of it...the week is going to suck if I can't find an access point to get to it.
Rave: A girl I skate with pretty much let me know that she's not as gay as I thought she was, and she'd probably be up for a date if I asked her.

Deery, enjoy visiting with your grandma

My rant is myself. I bought new sheets. I laid down to take a nap and I started itching So now I'm reading up on Delusional Parasitosis.
I have yet to see a single bug (other than that one dead house fly).
But I have itchy bumps. My daughter says they almost look like pimples. I lifted the back of my nightgown to show her 2 bumps I knew about and she said I have bumps all over my back- about a dozen.
It can't be completely in my head if I'm breaking out, can it?

Skin allergies show up like rashes, right? Not bumps? Gah! All I know for sure is I'm about to lose my head over this.

Originally Posted by Zhaylin

Deery, enjoy visiting with your grandma

Thanks. Well, we're not exactly "visiting". My grandpa died last October, and for financial reasons as well as emotional reasons, she's now going to live with us for the rest of her life. We're moving into a big house, though, so it won't get too cramped.

Have you gone to a doctor about this bug issue? Or at least had some exterminators look at your house?

Originally Posted by Zhaylin

Tinnitus? I don't think I'd like the tank after all. I forgot how much I hate silence. My "ears" always make noise. Sometimes it's almost intolerable. Most of the time, though, a wee bit of white noise drowns it out.
The visual stuff sounds amazing though I've always wanted to trip though.

Oh there's not really any tinnitus. I just meant its similar to that in the way that your brain makes up stuff, auditory and visual, when there's no input. Unless the tinnitus is from damage or other reasons, its just your brain making up the noise when it's quiet. Probably a bad example.... HI is better since everyone here has had that.

First day of spring! Oh, wait, it's a blizzard outside right now. It's OK spring; try again tomorrow.

Originally Posted by Zhaylin

Sefalik, try Melatonin? Maybe it would help?

I might. For now I'm going to try some other 'herbs' (passion flower + damiana), mostly because I just like the act of 'vaping'. Even if it does nothing, I figure just the flavor/experience is worth something. Plus an ounce of each only cost a few dollars, which is a pretty huge difference compared to an ounce of marijuana. I was thinking about trying hookah/shisha because a couple guys at work keep raving about it and say it helps them sleep. But I quit cigarettes a few years ago and decided it's best to just stay away from tobacco since I'm clean.

Good news is I think there's a pretty good chance that 85% of my school bill is going to get paid for by my employer, which is sweet seeing as I didn't qualify for any state/federal grants.



For my first-world-problems-rant, I decided not to work tonight so I've got the whole weekend off. And I already don't know what to do. I'm really ready to get out biking, but there's snow on the ground again now. Normally I'd be content just playing video games, but oddly enough I'm not really wanting to play anything. I did watch Star Wars for the first time this past week, at least the 4th and 5th ones. So maybe I'll just watch the 6th one now.

At a bar with friends because I promised. But I can't sit by the friends I came to see because all the seats are taken, so I'm sitting by my other friends that came but they are talking about only sad stuff. But my friends in the first group are all happy and laughing.

Fuck it imma stand over by them, I already tried cheering up the sad ones and it failed. Ooooo!! Jasmine is gonna sit by me yaaaaaay nvm

Sorry about your grandpa, Deery. It's great you can take your Grams in. Even greater than you can get a bigger place
I wish I had spent more time with my grandma. I was beside her, holding her hand as she took her last breath though and I often dream about her. My poor mom never dreams (which is a rant seeing how her doctor TELLS her she canNOT dream). Mom's always jealous when I tell her my dreams. They were exceptionally close.

I can't afford an exterminator. But I will be seeing a doctor to rule out physical things if this keeps up. Wiping down with strong alcohol wipes before getting into bed seems to be helping. At least the last 2 times it has. I don't know WHY it would work lol, but I'm just thankful I've gotten some sleep.

Tommo, even if it's not true tinitus, I still don't think I would like that degree of silence because of the tinitus I do have lol. I'd have to wear headphones or have white noise pumped in- which would dilute or ruin what the tank's supposed to do

Heh, Sefalik, we might get a bit of snow on Sunday. I'm encouraging Spring too
You've never watched Star Wars before?

Hope you managed to have a good time, Ophelia.

My rant... hmmm... all of my farms will be withered by the time I get back on But that's what unwither potions are for Otherwise, I have nothing to complain about. I got some awesome sleep. I took a 2 1/2 hour nap from 6:30-9AM, took the girls out, picked up McD's big breakfast, came home and ate the egg and sausage then went to sleep. The dogs woke me at 1:30 and I was cranky as I told my daughter to go get her "damn dog" who was running lose and barking at the neighbor.
But I fell right back to sleep then woke and ate the pancakes from this morning breakfast. Happy tummy I probably got in 7 1/2 hours all in all and not including the nap.

i sleep very lightly. Every noise disturbs me, but I always fall right back to sleep and into dreams. I'm very thankful for that

I went into the girls room the other night to get my tea cup. Destinee was awake so we were whispering and Paula shot up scared half to death. I never have that problem. If anyone is even near my bedroom door, I'm aware of it.

time to get to my farms, then to the store, then to Skyrim