Thread: Rant and Rave, Cry and Complain

a lot of people say their leaving only to return a month later.

To be vague as possible, this weekend could have been so much better.

Originally Posted by AURON

To be vague as possible, this weekend could have been so much better.

Tell me about it...

Finding out that my grandma (who has been sick and in surgery) is not out of the woods yet, and still in rather serious condition, was one of many issues that made this a pretty horrible weekend for me...

....but I'd say the award has to go to having the DEA unexpectedly raid my house at 6 AM...

Originally Posted by Oneironaut Zero

Tell me about it...

Finding out that my grandma (who has been sick and in surgery) is not out of the woods yet, and still in rather serious condition, was one of many issues that made this a pretty horrible weekend for me...

....but I'd say the award has to go to having the DEA unexpectedly raid my house at 6 AM...

Um.....wow yeah, I headed out of town to see my GF, but I didn't see her. I'm still over here, but because of work scheduling, and how drunk i got yesterday, it's not going to happen. We had a chance to see each other today, but she got pissed when I said I was going to take a nap before she showed up. Anyways....not such a big deal comparatively speaking, but man....I just wish I could have seen her this weekend. It'll be at least another 6 or so days before I see her again.

Also, fuck the DEA...and fuck whatever has your grandmother sick.

Originally Posted by AURON

Um.....wow yeah, I headed out of town to see my GF, but I didn't see her. I'm still over here, but because of work scheduling, and how drunk i got yesterday, it's not going to happen. We had a chance to see each other today, but she got pissed when I said I was going to take a nap before she showed up. Anyways....not such a big deal comparatively speaking, but man....I just wish I could have seen her this weekend. It'll be at least another 6 or so days before I see her again.

Also, fuck the DEA...and fuck whatever has your grandmother sick.

I did see a post you made, elsewhere, that hinted that you guys might have been on worse terms than just an argument? Is everything ok, on that front?

And yeah, definitely fuck all that. I can only be thankful that they could see I wasn't involved and wasn't charged, and my grandma has gotten through the worst part of her ordeal. That much is just a waiting game, and I'm optimistic. I just can't help worrying about her...

My hair is the longest it has been in at least a decade.

Spoiler for nostalgia:

And even then only half of it was this long because at the time I wanted the most exaggerated asymmetrical cut possible. But that was 2003 me.

So many times I've cut it or wanted to since then, unwilling to even wait for the hand of a trained professional.

Prior to 2003 the last time I let my hair grow this long was...1995. I even broke out the yearbooks to verify. Soon after that I started wearing glasses. That was nearly two decades ago.

It's no wonder I'm starting to see greys!

Except mine aren't.
They look a bit grey/silver in the light,
But upon closer inspection they are all white.

And let me tell you, when you find a hair as long as mine that's all white...it's weird.

Growing older is a change that takes place for the most part unnoticed.
Regardless of how you feel and how things go, time waits for no one.

Before you know it you'll be looking back on it all,
Back on those younger versions of yourself, idealizing some and despising others,
Questioning things in retrospect, wondering if what you know now could have changed you for the better back then...

When I was young I so desperately wanted to be older, faster.
The years seemed almost torturously long.

But now that I'm older I just wish the train could slow down just a little.
Because every passing year seems to fly by quicker than the last.

Weeks are passing by really fast! It's crazy it's been a month since I started living alone, crazy.

There's this guy in my building I like and he's really nice all the time, the problem is that I've not seen it again since last week . But based on my history he's probably straight . Fml.

Originally Posted by acatalephobic

My hair is the longest it has been in at least a decade.

Spoiler for nostalgia:

And even then only half of it was this long because at the time I wanted the most exaggerated asymmetrical cut possible. But that was 2003 me.

So many times I've cut it or wanted to since then, unwilling to even wait for the hand of a trained professional.

Prior to 2003 the last time I let my hair grow this long was...1995. I even broke out the yearbooks to verify. Soon after that I started wearing glasses. That was nearly two decades ago.

It's no wonder I'm starting to see greys!

Except mine aren't.
They look a bit grey/silver in the light,
But upon closer inspection they are all white.

And let me tell you, when you find a hair as long as mine that's all white...it's weird.

Growing older is a change that takes place for the most part unnoticed.
Regardless of how you feel and how things go, time waits for no one.

Before you know it you'll be looking back on it all,
Back on those younger versions of yourself, idealizing some and despising others,
Questioning things in retrospect, wondering if what you know now could have changed you for the better back then...

When I was young I so desperately wanted to be older, faster.
The years seemed almost torturously long.

But now that I'm older I just wish the train could slow down just a little.
Because every passing year seems to fly by quicker than the last.

Ya wanna know about old? ....I'll tell you about old, Old is a pain in the ass, (And legs and back etc: ) Just refuse to get old, Like me ...... I may grow old..

But I guarantee it will not be gracefully...

Originally Posted by Anju

If the gynaecologist won't give me a hymenectomy, my only option is to cut it open with a knife.

I'm leaving DV for now, I'll come back maybe after a year or so if I'm not dead.

That's pretty messed up You're not actually planning on doing that, are you?

Normally I'd assume you're being sarcastic, but DV has it's fair share of weirdos so one can never be too sure. ._o

Originally Posted by Astaroth

Is this ever going to get better? I couldn't do it again today, went to the first two classes but when the professor said we were done and still had 30 minutes left I collapsed. I didn't know what to do, stayed in class looking at the phone for a while but ended up leaving. I'm so damn embarrassed of myself, I can't do shit.
Hopelessness mood.

There are many ways to deal with it, but I have some advice that might help. You just need to understand that everyone is really as awkward and scared as you on the inside. Everyone is scared of being exposed as a weirdo or an outcast. We're all the same, really. Other people just have different ways of dealing with it. Some people use arrogance. Some people are shy. Some people are very good at covering it, and you will never be able to tell. But we all have it. Just know that it doesn't matter how cool-looking or "better than you" anyone seems, chances are they are just as worried. Also you just need to set your intention and act on it without giving any thought whatsoever. I hope that helps.

Originally Posted by sefalik

[last week]
Me: *checks product after initial changeover* I think somebody put the wrong inserts into this mold.
1st shift foreman: What?! No. It's right. It's fine. We only have one set that fits in this mold.
Me: (Yea, OK.)
*Production continues on all shifts like this for the next few days*

[this week]
QA from the next department: Hey, we got a bunch of parts from you guys and the insert is wrong. We can't use them.
1st shift foreman: What?! Why didn't anyone catch this?!
Me: *facepalm*

I fucking love the chain of command.

Lower rank/position: Sir I think we might be all fucked up.
Upper Rank/Position: What? Of course not! Do you WANT to be all fucked up? I can make it happen.
Lower: No sir.
Upper: Thought so, shut the fuck up and get back to work.

...

Upper: What the fuck is this shit? How did you guys fuck this up so bad, when I was in your position we never made mistakes so we got punished for fun. Know what happens when one of you fucks up? ALL OF US ARE FUCKED UP. Looks like you guys want me to do this, fucking useless retards, otherwise you wouldn't have fucked up. This is all your fault, it's always your fault. Now bend over.
Lower (collective): YES SIR BENDING OVER

Of course, on the civilian side it's usually a bit more... uh, well, civil. Lol

At my job you can do something wrong for years and never be corrected, until one day in front of everyone someone will just snap on you for it.

It's as though rules are made up on the fly, so no matter what you do it can be made to look wrong at any given time.

The closest I ever came to snapping was when our system changed. I was trained on it one way, then I worked with the boss the very next day on it. She didn't do things the way I was JUST trained to.

And in front of the whole store she suddenly gets this attitude and tone saying "well if you're not smart enough to do it the way I do it"...uhhh

>_<
/has inner struggle
/passive side wins

With all due respect, I'm not sure that's the issue, here.

So I think this was my best batch of 'bean soup' so far. White beans, chopped carrots and celery and onions, and some chicken broth. Once the beans were done, I used a hand blender to thicken it up a bit. I cooked some mushrooms and bacon on the same tray and then added them to finish. And I used two seasonings that I forget but some recipe told me to use them. And it was really good! But I just finished the last leftover bowl. So that's my rant.

Originally Posted by Astaroth

Is this ever going to get better? I couldn't do it again today, went to the first two classes but when the professor said we were done and still had 30 minutes left I collapsed. I didn't know what to do, stayed in class looking at the phone for a while but ended up leaving. I'm so damn embarrassed of myself, I can't do shit.
Hopelessness mood.

You might want to think about seeing a psychologist if your social anxiety is that bad. Mine was like that but it's not too bad anymore.

Hurry back Anju

I just made it back from our grueling Chicago trip. I wussed out on the way there and only drove for about 4 hours before I handed the wheel over to hubby. He gave it back during the last 2 hours or so. On the way home, I drove all but one hour.
It was a nice trip all in all but it's great to be home!!!!
And to think we have to go to Early's in 2 weeks But then we're through traveling until the Spring

I love getting older. I love the white in my hair. I DON'T love the increase in aches and pains I wouldn't be younger for anything.

A rave is that the girls cleaned a GREAT deal while I was gone.
A rant is that I've had the fatal yawns for several hours now. Hopefully they'll be gone when I wake up (whenever I may go to sleep )

Originally Posted by Anju

Well, common sense won't help when you have a microperforate hymen. I know where the opening is, it's just too small to see. If the gynaecologist won't give me a hymenectomy, my only option is to cut it open with a knife.

I'm leaving DV for now, I'll come back maybe after a year or so if I'm not dead.

Sorry if I offended, wasn't really talking about you, with the common sense thing. Was just going off that topic and talking generally. Obviously some people have other reasons for problems like that. And don't leave!

Rant: Couldn't get the balls to ask my lab partner out. Last day of class.... may see her at the exam but probably not. Feeling pretty shit, also been a stupidly long day and I'm tired as hell.

Has anyone successfully 'moderated' their time on the internet? I don't mean to give up time spent online entirely, which I suppose is the problem. I still want to go on each day, mostly to check emails and because the internet is my primary way of finding out about new music. I also want to give myself the few youtube channels I'm subscribed to, though youtube is one of the biggest time killers for me. I'll watch videos I don't really care about from channels I'm not even subscribed to. Other times I'll spend time looking at forums (yet often times not even responding) or window shopping websites.

Eh, I'm just a bit buggered because once again I came home with a modest and realistic list of things to do (beyond my normal day-to-day tasks). But first I decided to just sit down for a moment to check my email... for an hour and a half.

Originally Posted by tommo

Rant: Couldn't get the balls to ask my lab partner out. Last day of class.... may see her at the exam but probably not. Feeling pretty shit, also been a stupidly long day and I'm tired as hell.

What's stopping you from doing so now? As a lab partner would you not have her number/email/facebook?

Tommo, Sefalik.

I wish I knew that secret myself, Sefalik. Maybe you could use an alarm clock or something? When I really need to get something accomplished, that's what I do and it does help some. I just dont have the wherewithal to stick with it.

2 rants:
1, my finger is itching me to death. It's the one I cut open on the driveway a couple months ago or so. It's healed but still an angry red color. The skin is still a bit squishy if I push on the scar, so I guess it's still not healed all the way?
2, my sister. She sent me a facebook message for me to tell my youngest, whenever I see her, that her gerbil died. I told her I've not seen or talked to her since before she ran away and I asked her if messaging me was so hard that she couldn't tell me she ran off... which lead to her telling me everyone thought she was with me. She said 'Seeing how you used to see her at school, I figured you just talked her into leaving with you.'
what the heck? I don't even know where the school is. I also wouldn't have had the money to put into my gas tank to go there all the time (it a 2+ hour drive away).

When I went to tell her she had the wrong info etc, she blocked me on FB. Seriously. How old are you again? So I sent her an email telling her to believe what she will and act like a child if she wants.
Friggin annoying people...

Originally Posted by sefalik

Has anyone successfully 'moderated' their time on the internet?

Kinda. I go back to mindlessly browsing when I have nothing to do though, or when I cbf doing anything.
It just took me realising that most of what I do online is pointless. I don't wanna be on my death bed and think about that I'd probably spent years, all up, reading reddit or playing video games.

Originally Posted by dutchraptor

What's stopping you from doing so now? As a lab partner would you not have her number/email/facebook?

E-mail yeah, but kinda lame, no? Like the most pussy way of asking someone out ever. lol
Also the reason I didn't do it on the last day, coz it's like textbook high school/primary school tactic to avoid awkwardness if she says no.
Just lame.

Feeling fairly sad now though. I'm gonna miss her and some other people there. I really fit in with some of the people in my science classes, like I haven't really felt elsewhere.
I'm always the weird outlier in most places. Course I still was there most of the time, especially in non-science classes, but at least I found a couple of people I fit in with.

Actually been diagnosed with anxiety but like to keep it on the low-down so not everyone knows about it as some of the dicks I take lessons with are so immature they would draw attention to it and make me freak out so my UCAS tutor for my school refused to approve my application before the end of term because I was too nervous to go and see her so I changed my statement a lot and it's making me freak out because people are getting university offers and mine hasn't been approved because I didn't take every fucking draft to her because I literally have a condition which scares me every fucking day and I hate the world and that will be all for now.

Hope everyone's doing okay and apologies for my rant.

Biochemistry! Biochemistry! That shit is killing me and all my illusions! Just kidding. I like the subject and I find it really interesting (is a huge part of what I am actually studying, so I better do!) but it's pretty hard to understand how things work and there're so many names and functions and connections and my neurons are dying and I'm running out of time 'cause also I've other things to study and *explodes*.

Why do I keep seeing him? This is so disturbing, I thought I'd not have to see him again since moving but fuck my heart drops every time I see someone who looks the same. So tonight I was outside with a friend and his name came out, so my mood started going down and then, he appears. Out of the nothingness. All my thoughts stop and I can't hear what my friend is saying anymore. That fucker.

Edit: I was just reading myself and I fucking sound like a twilight fan in love, damn.

I need to get a place of my own.

My kids need to get a place of their own. They're killing me . None of them are working and they lost their food stamps because they didn't turn in some info by a deadline. Time for them to live off of pasta and ramen again. And my son thinks I'm going to be able to give his counselor $30. a week. I don't think so. Not if they expect even Ramen. Gah!

to everyone.

Wishful, you could always just tell your teacher. You don't have to advertise your problem to everyone.

My rant and rave is that I'm beat. I just carried 4 large and heavy boxes to the upstairs of the garage. I went shopping with hubby this morning and boy that guy takes forever. Forget the stereotypes about men/women shoppers. When I go shopping I'm in and out as fast as possible. When he shops we're there for hours. Well, 1-2 hours. It just feels like forever