Rant and Rave, Cry and Complain

Piling on that cologne you probably got from tilly's isn't gonna cover up the smell of cigarettes, and them silent but deadly farts you keep slapping out near me -_-

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Originally Posted by juroara

Okay, random rant time. Yeah, so, there was this one instance that happened years ago on DVs. Still kinda in the back of mind.....

You see, there was this member who was a jerk to me. Post after post after post after post. Named called me, insulted me, post after post after post. Eventually, I got pissed off and blew up on him, posting on how he made ME feel.

He reads my post and claimed I called him sexist. But I didn't say that. That was his interpretation. His feelings were butthurt. Other members were also butthurt, because they someone imagined that me being upset like that was calling them all out as sexists. In fact, several of you were practically ganging up on me. Saying that I was hatefully anti-male.

Apparently, being brutally honest of how he was making ME feel is the same as calling him sexist. He's butthurt. I get punished. Even though I didn't call anyone sexist. Even though those were my legitimate feelings.

I get punished for hurting his feelings. No one cared that he hurt mine. No one cared that he was harassing me post after post. Even though at the time I had pointed out to forum mods of his name calling towards me - but the mod I spoke to at the time didn't see it as harassment. The mod practically suggested that his cruel words me were the truth.

Yeah I remember that time DVs.

I'm sorry for blowing up like that. But I am not sorry for whatever insinuation you got from reading my post.

That was a double standard that you pulled on me dreamviews. Wait, can I say that? I probably hurt someone's feelings again by being honest about how I feel.

:cheeky:

But whatever, I think he's banned. (just wished you taken my case with him more seriously, thanks)


:cheeky::cheeky::cheeky::cheeky::cheeky:

Have a good night.

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Oh man I hate when something like that still nags at my mind like that. I had a bf that acted toward me pretty much the same way: when I was wrong I was wrong, and when he was wrong I was wrong.

Sorry DV was so abusive to you back then. I hope I wasn't part of staff at that time, though if it happened in ED I rarely go in there. But like gab said basically, I like to think the current group of staff would handle a similar situation better.

:hug: acatalephobic :clairity: :hugitout: :therethere: :poke: :buns:

Many, many hugs to you and hopefully a smile (the butt always makes me grin :))
Sorry to hear everything sucks right now.

My rave is that my son may, indeed, have that job. He had orientation and his drug test. They'll call him back by Monday. Now I have 3 others to wish jobs for.

My rant is that I've been getting very nauseous these last couple of days. I think it's just from too much caffeine on an empty stomach.
It's time for a nap...

School starts again in a few days. I spent my entire summer reading, writing, and watching Doctor Who and Star Wars: The Clone Wars. My only regret? That I don't have another three months to do exactly the same thing over again. Next summer I'll have to worry about college and jobs and possibly moving out. Adult stuff. I had been looking forward to it my whole life, but now I'm dreading it.

I'm starting on mood stabilizers, so I guess that's cool since I was the one who decided to get treatment in the first place, but I'm kind of hesitant to take the meds. I'll take them and all, but I'm not going to be comfortable with it for the first little while.
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While using one of the public computers at the library today, I had a bummy-looking guy to my left who kept grunting along to some old 70's tunes, smoked his e-cig, and doodled on his court of appeals documents... and an elderly woman to my right who repeatedly let out wet farts without a care in the world. It was so absurd I had a hard time controlling myself.

While my back is causing a great deal of discomfort, I am in a great mood. This weekend will be both relaxing and productive.

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Originally Posted by Zhaylin

Sefalik, I wouldn't change shifts. But I hate confrontations and annoying people lol. I'd sacrifice a bit of sleep for the peace and familiarity of the shift I do like.

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I think I like 2nd shift better though. Or I did. I don't know; there are aspects of both shifts I like. But I mentioned to a few guys that I was considering going to 2nd shift. Most everyone tried persuading me not to. Probably because I'm not too picky about stuff. My job is essentially to tell people what they're doing wrong, but since I've been in all the departments, I've got a pretty good idea of what's 'bad' going by the books versus what's actually bad. I'll say stuff like, "I can't tell you that this is OK to use, but I'm going to walk away now." So I guess they have it pretty easy with me... :chuckle:

But yea: one guy told me that that department is the worst one to work in on 2nd shift. I already knew that. All the young brats straight out of high school get put there, and despite being young myself, most of them just annoy the crap out of me. Bah, I'll probably stay 3rd. I get along better with people twice my age, it seems.


Rave: Three day weekend. Though I'd rather have overtime. :(

Ahhhh.... Food, ecig, and videogames...that's my friday night in a nutshell... :D

lol, Gavin. I would not have been able to contain myself. Grats on your self control :chuckle:

My rave is that my e-juice arrived.
My rant is that I woke with "whiplash". I've also been chewing on my poor cheek again... just when the white patch of dead skin had almost left completely, it's back :bang:

I've had no appetite this week. It's very weird for me. I might just be filling up on honey water. I don't know if it's good or bad, but I went through about 10 ounces of honey in a week. I've only had 2 sodas, so that's a step in the right direction, I guess.

Another rant is that the mouthpiece of the e-cig I just bought has become pitted. That happened to another mouthpiece. They feel metalic and have a coating. I don't wear chapstick or lipstick so I don't know what causes the pitting. I'm going to see if one of my plastic pieces will fit but I doubt it.

Other than that, it's a great day. I'm going to binge Criminal Minds on Netflix :)

So glad e-cigs are gaining traction. Did I say that already? I always feel like I say thing multiple times on here. I guess I do say a lot of things multiple times though.

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Originally Posted by ParadoxOwl

Feeling pretty terrible, the fact that anju left DV and hasn't even been on skype since leaving is hurting me somewhat :| :(

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:hug: She never responded to my last message either. Not sure why she had to leave like that. I really really hope she can get away from her troubles, she's a great person and I want to see her thrive.

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Originally Posted by sefalik

I don't even know how many credits I have, which I'm guessing is a simple question for most people since everyone seems to ask me that. As well as many other questions that result with my staring at them with a blank face.

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Lol, I can relate to that. I just pretty much ignore all the bureaucracy crap, or anything so institutional, if you know what I mean.
No idea how many "credits" each class is, hell I don't even know most of the lecturers names (except for one really good one who is really helpful).
I'm there to learn, not rack up credits or get to know teachers.

Afaik credits basically just means classes, so why don't people just say classes? Those kind of things baffle me.
Kinda like when people call stuff by its brand name instead of what it actually is.

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Originally Posted by sefalik

A rave is that I finally made it to the gym two consecutive days! Well, with one day break in between, but that's intentional. I've been mopey and grouchy ever since changing jobs over a year ago, but even after transferring back out and starting 3rd shift I couldn't get back into it. My backs been bothering me, I've been feeling like crap, and I've probably lost weight. I can make all sorts of excuses, but really it comes down to me needing to get my shit together. And I've been doing progressively better the last few weeks. Honestly, weed actually makes 'getting my shit together' easier. It's somewhat meditative to me, as it's something I like to do at the end of my day to clear thoughts and reflect on what's important rather than stressing on the little, insignificant bumps in life. But alas, I've got another 3-4 weeks before the next harvest. Bummer.

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Fuck yeah man. Weed is the best motivator for me. For one, I can only smoke it peacefully if I know I'm doing well in my life (or, relatively well.... trying and improving etc.).
If I smoke and I don't have my shit together, I have to start getting it together right then and there.
Otherwise I'll just start getting anxious. It basically amplifies that nagging feeling of knowing I'm not doing the best I can.
Which is good because then I can't just ignore it by zoning out on reddit or movies/shows etc.

My mom and sister have really irritated me the past few months, and not just me but also my husband, my brother, and his wife. It's really hard to articulate exactly what the problematic behavior is, but I think it's that they are so sure they're right. ALL the time. And it's not just that, it's that they're so damn "holier than thou" about it too, but the thing about that is that they say "we're not perfect people at all" which to them negates the "holier than thou" and also tacks on a "but..." so they can convince themselves that they're right.

It didn't used to be like this, it started a couple months back after my sister and her husband moved in with my parents to save some money because they decided to have a baby even though they have no money. What really pisses me off here is that my sister quit her job a full YEAR before having the baby, so her poor husband had to pick up 2-3 shit jobs to make enough for them to pay all the bills and pay for grad school. But I digress. Didn't have a problem with them moving in, they pay rent, whatever. But my sister used to be my mom's confidant when growing up, more so than her child. Things got much better when my sis went to college, and continued to improve after I left for college too. My mom matured a lot (I'd say she was much more mature than the average parent, but she grew a lot here), things were good. But she and my sister have so much in common that as soon as she moved back, they're like one fucking person. One abrasive, judgmental, do-no-wrong person. They back each other up on everything.

The level of judgement here is ridiculous. They say my sister-in-law is the most inconsiderate person they've ever met, and that she's convincing my brother to spend outside his means. I don't think she thinks things through all the way, but neither do most people. She's gotten a lot better since I've known her. They have a budget, it's not nearly as rigid as my parents' but it works for them and you know what? It's their fucking money. The kicker here is that my mom is always complaining about not having money (STFU, you don't even work and I know dad makes over $100,000 a year, you just don't have the money in your rigid little categories), and my sister is too even though they have the circumstances listed above. If you're barely making it, GET A FUCKING JOB. It's great that you want to spend time with your kid, but if you don't have money you can't. Fuck, do it and pay mom for babysitting or something.

Here's an example of a "conversation" I had with my mom and sister when I went over.
"[Your sister-in-law] is SO inconsiderate! Really, she just ASSUMED she would have your brother's party at my place!"
"You know mom, I kinda did too. It's the biggest place and where we usually hav-"
"NO NO NO! In the first email she asked if she could have it at our house, in the second she just assumed she could have the party there."
"I get why that would irritate you, she shouldn't have done that. But she only did because [sister] was concerned about the baby's schedule and all the stuff is at your hou-"
"NO! Blah blah blah you always see the best in people, you're such a good person blah blah blah."

No, I am most certainly not a good person. I haven't "seen the best in people" since I was a kid. I just try to be balanced and let people explain themselves. You want to know why my mom was so pissed that they wanted it at her house? Because she always ends up doing the dishes. Always. Want to know why? Because she gets up and fucking DOES THEM. No one asks her to. In fact, we say "Please mom, sit down. We'll get those later." "Oh no, I'll do them. Nobody else is going to." We even had a family meeting about obligation at parties, where we actually had to lay down rules because people felt "obligated" to bring or do certain things. I'm glad we did that, but she denied that we ever try to help with the dishes or anything. And when my brother's party happened? SHE OFFERED TO DO THE DISHES.

Gah. Sorry guys. I know that was long but it has been pissing me off for a while. I wish I knew how to get through to them because I want to have a good relationship with them and be there for my nephew, but it's impossible when they can't do wrong. I've got plenty more examples I want to get out but there's the situation. Any ideas?

Tl;dr: Mom and sister have become a single judgmental entity THAT CAN'T STOP BEING A FUCKING MARTYR.

Just have time for two rants; maybe this should go under one of those "be careful what you wish for" threads lol.

Successfully got two part time jobs. But one of them, at a grocery store, might call me in at 6am tomorrow. And its 12:46am as I am writing this lol. Ahh I guess I just might not sleep much this year :bedtime: So while I will not be broke anymore, man, I didn't know it was going to be like this :hrm:

And this is derp because I just forgot the second thing I was going to post haha. Wow. Anyway, this isn't a complaining or whining post, and hopefully I can adjust to this pattern. This is probably everyone, but I just want to sleep! :D :( :damnit: :mad:

Edit: Oh I just remembered my other rant! I feel like I am a thread killer here lol. I start posting and then the thread dies. Is it me? Idk. And apparently I am not one of the memorable old timers here, since I just looked at that thread about old members coming back to the light. And I was not on the list lol

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Originally Posted by Iokheira

My mom and sister have really irritated me the past few months, and not just me but also my husband, my brother, and his wife. It's really hard to articulate exactly what the problematic behavior is, but I think it's that they are so sure they're right. ALL the time. And it's not just that, it's that they're so damn "holier than thou" about it too, but the thing about that is that they say "we're not perfect people at all" which to them negates the "holier than thou" and also tacks on a "but..." so they can convince themselves that they're right.

It didn't used to be like this, it started a couple months back after my sister and her husband moved in with my parents to save some money because they decided to have a baby even though they have no money. What really pisses me off here is that my sister quit her job a full YEAR before having the baby, so her poor husband had to pick up 2-3 shit jobs to make enough for them to pay all the bills and pay for grad school. But I digress. Didn't have a problem with them moving in, they pay rent, whatever. But my sister used to be my mom's confidant when growing up, more so than her child. Things got much better when my sis went to college, and continued to improve after I left for college too. My mom matured a lot (I'd say she was much more mature than the average parent, but she grew a lot here), things were good. But she and my sister have so much in common that as soon as she moved back, they're like one fucking person. One abrasive, judgmental, do-no-wrong person. They back each other up on everything.

The level of judgement here is ridiculous. They say my sister-in-law is the most inconsiderate person they've ever met, and that she's convincing my brother to spend outside his means. I don't think she thinks things through all the way, but neither do most people. She's gotten a lot better since I've known her. They have a budget, it's not nearly as rigid as my parents' but it works for them and you know what? It's their fucking money. The kicker here is that my mom is always complaining about not having money (STFU, you don't even work and I know dad makes over $100,000 a year, you just don't have the money in your rigid little categories), and my sister is too even though they have the circumstances listed above. If you're barely making it, GET A FUCKING JOB. It's great that you want to spend time with your kid, but if you don't have money you can't. Fuck, do it and pay mom for babysitting or something.

Here's an example of a "conversation" I had with my mom and sister when I went over.
"[Your sister-in-law] is SO inconsiderate! Really, she just ASSUMED she would have your brother's party at my place!"
"You know mom, I kinda did too. It's the biggest place and where we usually hav-"
"NO NO NO! In the first email she asked if she could have it at our house, in the second she just assumed she could have the party there."
"I get why that would irritate you, she shouldn't have done that. But she only did because [sister] was concerned about the baby's schedule and all the stuff is at your hou-"
"NO! Blah blah blah you always see the best in people, you're such a good person blah blah blah."

No, I am most certainly not a good person. I haven't "seen the best in people" since I was a kid. I just try to be balanced and let people explain themselves. You want to know why my mom was so pissed that they wanted it at her house? Because she always ends up doing the dishes. Always. Want to know why? Because she gets up and fucking DOES THEM. No one asks her to. In fact, we say "Please mom, sit down. We'll get those later." "Oh no, I'll do them. Nobody else is going to." We even had a family meeting about obligation at parties, where we actually had to lay down rules because people felt "obligated" to bring or do certain things. I'm glad we did that, but she denied that we ever try to help with the dishes or anything. And when my brother's party happened? SHE OFFERED TO DO THE DISHES.

Gah. Sorry guys. I know that was long but it has been pissing me off for a while. I wish I knew how to get through to them because I want to have a good relationship with them and be there for my nephew, but it's impossible when they can't do wrong. I've got plenty more examples I want to get out but there's the situation. Any ideas?

Tl;dr: Mom and sister have become a single judgmental entity THAT CAN'T STOP BEING A FUCKING MARTYR.

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I have a friend who does this in the other way: they basically give up everything for their really selfish family, and they end up really worse for the wear with nothing EVER given back to them.

They mean really well, but it is hard to watch.

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Originally Posted by Tiresias

I have a friend who does this in the other way: they basically give up everything for their really selfish family, and they end up really worse for the wear with nothing EVER given back to them.

They mean really well, but it is hard to watch.

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Yeah, I getcha. It's terrible because they're so well-meaning and can't stand to see other people do poorly... but that other person just stops doing stuff for themselves or comes to expect it. Either extreme is bad.

Rant-- broke my middle toe a few days ago. hurts a little less today but I keep thinking it's getting better, then over-do-it and hurt it again, plus its on my gas pedal foot. Urrrr! I was supposed to take a trip! Uhhhh not like the one that broke my toe tho. lol

Gotta laugh at one of my roomates....she snored like a guy. :laughhard: poor thing has been sick, so I should be nice right?

Ouch! Hope your toe gets better quickly!

:hug: all around.

My rant is that I have a cold. My right nostril is clogged but every now and then it just starts dripping like someone turned on a facet lol. This feels more like allergies than a cold. What's really the difference though :huh: I have all of my allergy complaints: gurgly ears, slight sore throat, irritated eyes, clogged/runny nose. The only difference is I'm sneezing more.
I still have no appetite but I still manage to go over my intake of 1300 calories a day :bang: This is my second day without a single soda.

Another minor rant is that I've been vaping Joe Latte, but it tasted like the vanilla clove flavor to me. I bought a new clearo and put fresh Latte in it and sure enough- it IS the clove flavor. I dug out my clove one and it's actually Joe Latte :cackle: I guess that means I have 2 bottles of Clove instead of just one. I'll have to try the third bottle tomorrow and see. I like both flavors so it's all good, I just thought I was going nuts for a few days.
Clove has a bit of a bite to it that I feel on my tongue. Latte is sweet and smooth.

A rave is that I'm loving the tea and honey water. I bought a bedtime tea earlier and it's almost as nice as the Zen tea I've been going through.
My "water" intake is now at about 5-6 cups a day. My bladder is in shock and doesn't know what to think :lol: For decades, I've gone through about 40 ounces of Soda a day and nothing else (for the most part).

Gah, between the Valerian tea and the benadryl, I'm about to fall over.
Goodnight and sweet dreams, DV.

Ohh I hate the dripping nostril thing! Then you turn to the other side and the dripping changes.
Anyway, thanks for the well wishes about the toesies.
I am a coke fiend too. I'm about as bad as you were. I really got to drink more water. Have you felt any changes since you got on the water kick?

haha, yeah, my nostrils changed sides on me last night :lol: :bang:

I'm actually kind of worried about my bladder/kidney's. There are 6 people living here and only one restroom. When I'm desperate to go and can't, I use a "chamber pot" :D
My pee is almost brown it's so dark. I don't know if I'm going overboard on the honey or if it's my body flushing out toxins/whatever but it does not look healthy.
And on top of that I have this cold and feel a bit like poo. I told my hubby "no soda, cigarettes or fast food... my body is punishing me for this heresy!" :cackle:
That's exactly what it feels like. I don't know if it's truly connected or if it's just bad timing... but I figure everything takes time.

I didn't notice anything good from quitting smoking. I did it for my hubby and religion and to save money. I LOVE cigarettes. I'd get a little out of breath if I exerted myself for some time... but that could be blamed just as much on my sedentary lifestyle. It's been about 3 months now and last Wednesday I noticed how much my son reeked of stale cigarettes. I hadn't even noticed my sense of smell suffered and it took nearly 3 months for it to return :huh:

I'll try to lay off the honey (a little :D) and push myself to drink at least half a gallon a day and see if that helps.

Boy... I rambled about nothing again. Sorry about that :lol:

My r4ant is just that I still feel like poo... and I have to take my son out to drop off paperwork... and hubby's going to want me to shop for him tonight. Blah. I just want to hibernate.

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Originally Posted by Zhaylin

haha, yeah, my nostrils changed sides on me last night :lol: :bang:

I'm actually kind of worried about my bladder/kidney's. There are 6 people living here and only one restroom. When I'm desperate to go and can't, I use a "chamber pot" :D
My pee is almost brown it's so dark. I don't know if I'm going overboard on the honey or if it's my body flushing out toxins/whatever but it does not look healthy.
And on top of that I have this cold and feel a bit like poo. I told my hubby "no soda, cigarettes or fast food... my body is punishing me for this heresy!" :cackle:
That's exactly what it feels like. I don't know if it's truly connected or if it's just bad timing... but I figure everything takes time.

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You should see a doctor about that, Zhaylin; it doesn't sound healthy. =/
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I start school today, here's hoping the mood stabilizers help me keep my shit together.

Just gotta act normal for an hour and a half, how hard could it be? :P

Positive Rave:

Just got some leads that will finally allow me to connect my microphone to my laptop so I can begin recording music. Can't wait to mess around and explore the musical textures possible with a marriage between a classical guitar and the infinite digital vistas of a modern DAW!

However, it took me a good hour or two to set up the thing and filter out that nasty microphone hiss. With some added reverb, my guitar sounds lovely now and I can now begin to get musical.

Only bad news is I have no microphone stand so I have to basically grip it in place in between my legs while playing and it has an annoying habit of slipping and crashing into my strings.

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Originally Posted by Zhaylin

haha, yeah, my nostrils changed sides on me last night :lol: :bang:

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This could explain that: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Nasal_cycle

Class wasn't too bad, all we did was go over the syllabus classroom expectations.

Fucking success. >:T

So, I think I killed someone's cat last night. Pretty bummed about it, but there really wasn't anything I could have done differently. The cat just ran right in front of me. All I had time to do was take a gulp of air before hearing it hit my car; I didn't even have time to touch the brakes. My front bumper is cracked all the way through and I had to remove the grill, so I can't imagine the cat survived the impact, especially since it was probably it's head that hit my bumper (at 45mph).

:blue: poor thing, it happens..

Apparently I can no longer feed myself. Scrambled eggs ALL over the table, what is a boy to do?

lol, Ophelia.
I drank out of a straw for so many years that I'm now retraining to body to drink out of a mug :cackle: I tend to dribble which is highly annoying.
Gah! I just woke up but I have to leave in an hour. The kids are going to try to sell their plasma again.
I guess I'll write everything else later :)

VERY interesting Tiresias!
:hug: Sefalik