 Originally Posted by Alyzarin
That makes sense.... I wouldn't really say I was ever really that intolerant of a person, but probably only because I could barely be bothered with anything outside of myself. If I'd gotten everything handed to me in life I definitely would have turned out with the prima donna personality. I mean I still want all the attention I can get anyway, I've just learned that the only kind of attention even worth having is the kind you get by sharing the stage. It's kind of pointless to be the focus if everyone secretly hates you.
Funny enough, the girls whose personalities I'm attracted to almost invariably turn out to be the kindest and most caring people I've ever met in my life. If only you were a lesbian lol. Or if only I was just one.... Unfortunately I have other needs too. >.>
Did you get my last message? o.O
haha, I sometimes wish I were a girl and a lesbian tbh. It makes much more sense to me.
" Or if only I was just one.... Unfortunately I have other needs too. >.>"
Not sure what you mean by that.
No I didn't get your message, you mean txt or PM?
Haven't gotten either though....
 Originally Posted by Original Poster
You don't understand. Let me give you an example. I meet a girl, I ask for her number, I tell her she's cute, I kiss her, I call her the next day, or a couple days later, I take her out, I decide I don't like her that much, and bam she's all over me. Or, I decide I like her a lot, and I keep pursuing her, and she loses interest.
When I say I hold myself back, I mean that I don't text her 10 times a day, not that I act disinterested. Shit I may have acted disinterested in high school but I've changed, and yet I find the same feedback. It's easy for me to get laid, but I can't maintain a long term relationship because even if I think there's chemistry, for one reason or another the girl will pull away. But if I don't think there's chemistry, then she sticks.
This has even been the case where earlier she'll have confided in mutual friends that she likes me. I've worked pretty hard on myself over the last few years to figure out and adjust what ever red flag I give off when I like a girl that I don't when I couldn't care less. I almost wish I could read reviews on myself and figure it out.
This is my experience as well, exactly. If I feel even a little attraction, she's not interested even though she clearly was before. If I couldn't care less, she's obsessed with me. There have been a few exceptions for sure, but I'm talking maybe 1 or 2 girls out of maybe 50.
And I feel like a total asshole when some girl is totally infatuated with me but I don't feel the same way.
I mean it's so bad that I simply cannot fuck random girls, or lead girls on just to get sex or whatever.
If a girl loves me and I don't, I feel terrible about it. I envy people who can just have sex with anyone for the simple enjoyment of it.
I mean I want that, but I just don't have it in me.
To give at least some advice, I know at least one of the "red flags", as you say, is when I laugh at things she says which aren't even really that funny.
I think it gives this sense of fake-ness or something. As well as instantly giving her attention in any situation.
I guess try to act like you do with girls you don't really care about, but add just a little bit of extra.... romance in there.
Does that make sense?
I mean the littlest bit, until she's fallen for you. And if she shows signs of pulling away, give very little attention until she initiates interaction.
If she doesn't do that, well she didn't really like you.
 Originally Posted by Zhaylin
I've been very fortunate in "love". Since I was about 12 years old, I almost always had a boyfriend. I wasn't picky though. My mom used to make fun of me when I was young by calling me a chubby chaser and accused me of going for the under-dogs and implying that I dated below my level. I never looked at the world that way. If someone showed me interest and was a nice person, I'd give them a chance. When we broke up, we were still friends... and except for twice, the break ups were mutually agreed upon and there was no drama involved.
I knew I was "pretty" or "cute" but I wasn't a knockout or anything. And I was painfully shy. Someone was always interested though, and I was a basket case back then and actually fantasized about disfiguring my face so people would be uninterested 
So I guess I'd say: think about lowering your expectations and you could be surprised. Be content with what you have. Examine what it is you truly want out of a relationship.
I almost cried the other night thinking about this. I'm pretty sure my ex wants to try again. My reaction surprised even me. I imagined being with her and what I felt was that I had downgraded from the lankan girl to her.
That sounds sociopathic or something, but it's just the most accurate way I can describe it. I felt empty, it wouldn't even be anywhere close to what I felt for lankan girl. I guess I felt this incredible love and amazing friendship with the lankan girl, and I don't want anything less than that.
Even if someone loves me unconditionally, that's not what I want. As I said it makes me feel like crap if a girl loves me more than I love her.
I dunno if this is true or not, but I've found a common factor with a lot girls. I've heard so many times "he's nice to me", when they're telling me why they love some guy. In my opinion, if that's the most someone wants out of a partner, that's seriously depressing.
I mean every relationship I've been in has raised my standards. At first I didn't care, if she was hot and interesting or quirky, I was happy. After that, she had to actually care about me. The last one, we had so many things in common and she just got me. So the next girl I date will have to have things in common with me and really just understand me and like my weirdness.
I dunno, maybe you're right and it's better to settle, or lower my standards, but I can't imagine doing that.
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Not a rant or a rave or anything, but I cried for the 5th time in my entire life over Lankan girl tonight. She made me cry for the 4th and 5th time....
God I hate her.... and love her so much....
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