Thread: Rant and Rave, Cry and Complain

Originally Posted by Crashyy

I've been drinking every since 1pm and I think I might aswell just get drunk again tonight. My friend told me that it isn't really 'healthy' and that I've got a problem.
I honestly don't see a problem with that, alot of people go out on Friday and Saturday just to get high and drunk.
So what's so different about what I'm doing?

Was going to respond to your other stuff, but Dianeva pretty much covered it.

With drinking. Yeah it is a problem. So is going out and drinking every weekend, but drinking alone can be worse. Mainly because it exacerbated depression.
Whereas drinking with others exacerbates happiness. Both are harmful long-term of course. And you can drink responsibly alone.

I've been drink every night for months now though, so what do I know?

Originally Posted by Alyzarin

Ah, I gotcha.... Yeah, still fuck that. X) I never get the appeal of that sort of thing, though maybe I just don't like being in pain as much as some people.... It's like those chili peppers that are like thousands of times spicier than regular spicy foods. I remember Wolfwood talking about having one of those way back when and the way he described the immense pain did not make it sound any more appealing to me. o_O

Endorphins girl!

I get super frustrated when eating too much chilly or curry etc. coz the burn seems to never end, but afterward, you fall in to this opiate-like high, just dazed and content. It's really nice.

Originally Posted by Dianeva

I just deleted my reddit account. I got very fucked up last night, went in a Skype chat with 5 other people, and posted a link to a funny meme I'd made on reddit. Then a bit later, a girl in there starts freaking me out by reading word-for-word a post I'd recently made - one among MANY I'd never planned for anyone but myself to read. I woke up multiple times last night thinking I need to delete my red....

Originally Posted by Alyzarin

Yeah, I always use different usernames for this exact reason lol. Well mostly anyway, but I keep forums and personal contact info separate.... Though to be honest as far as my personality and stuff goes I don't think too many people I know would be shocked to read what I post online... but some of the drug stuff and the like probably wouldn't be that great for certain people to come acr....

This is funny coz I know both of your real names

But seriously, yeah I try to do the same thing. But I also know that probably, if someone wanted to, they could track down who I am from my reddit posts alone. And with DV posts, almost definitely. Although I covered a lot of tracks after that Russian hacker fiasco.

Originally Posted by Anju

Corsets? Aren't we supposed to be naked at an orgy?

And how come I wasn't invited to the drunk night?

Foreplay

I can't remember drunk night either, so don't worry. (Maybe I was too drunk?)

Originally Posted by Alyzarin

I'll pass on the zombie apocalypse lol.

Spoiler for Now who left this here?:

Hehe....

Only one of these links worked. I'm glad I quoted your post and saw the other links.

Spoiler for imgur links for posterity:

The picture that did work was the the best though at least. But the others are good too.

EDIT: Ok all your links are working now, bloody hell.... oh well

God damn I love asians (and south east asians now too).

I went to the city tonight and there were so many incredible Japanese and Chinese girls around, and one beautiful Sri Lankan or Indian girl. Too bad I couldn't stand living in the city for long.

I do like the atmosphere (and the women), it's very safe and you just see people riding their bikes around.... for some reason I find that extremely beautiful. Seeing people walk up to where they left their bike and unhooking it and riding around. It seems so liberating/free for some reason. Just like no worries in the world, all you need is your bike and you can get anywhere you need to go, in safety with people all around.

I dunno, maybe most people don't get that, Melbourne is the safest city in the world apparently, so it's probably different in other places, gotta lock it up with alarms or something and worry about people stealing your bike/bag or whatever....

Eh, that's as close to a rave as I can get at the moment

A gift from a person who I have invested much emotional connection into has arrived today. I will likely not be able to pick it up until much later today, but I am quite excited... Well, perhaps not excited is the correct word. Anticipatory is a better word. I am greatly anticipating it. Yes.

This much caring over a physical object with emotional significance may cause me to shake apart. How do other humans handle such generosity and gifts without suffering breakdowns? It's not unlike the tense anticipation of being hurt when someone raises their hand to you, except on the opposite side of the emotional spectrum.

EDIT: The present is beautiful.

You are crazy Alyzarin, I love it. I'd love to try acid once, but tbh I'm kinda scared of it lol. How was your trip? You might still be tripping as I am writing this lol. Definitely gonna take shrooms again in 4 months.

Congratulations Katie, happy birthday!! *3 kisses*

I see people talking about LDR (long-distance relationships) and I saw some old messages of my LDR in my google mail. I read it all and now I'm like "Wow. Shit was fucked up bro (yes, calling myself bro)." I can't hold my laugh in, I'm actually making fun of my former pussy self. It's quite similar to crashy's situation so I empathize with the guy, and I'm sure he will be able to laugh it off sometime later.

This girl I was hitting on never sent me anything back, but idc because it was something unusual for me to do and I still stepped out of my comfort zone. I feel like I've grown a little piece as a person yet again. So who knows... she might send me something but I'm not expecting it and idc either way (okay, just a little). And my studying schedule is tight, I'm rocking this shit now. Also replaced a light with an entire different one, which was pretty cool because I get electrotechnology lessons since 3 weeks ago in my university. I was expecting great shit to happen since I started studying like lots of friends, crazy parties and maybe a love life for once but it doesn't seem to be going that way. Not to mention, the boys-girls ratio is like 3:1 at my school, it's intense man. Who knows, crazy shit might happen... I'm open to everything.

I got some wine stoppers... for my beer. That's my rave. Because for the last two or three days, I've felt like an alcoholic for drinking an entire bottle. Granted, I'm a lightweight. But also, this stuff is 11.8% and comes in 1 pint 9.4 oz bottles. So it's still a pretty decent bit of alcohol to be drinking on regular basis, at least by my standards.

Other rave-worthy material is that I will be getting new sleeves [for free] for both the albums that were damaged in shipping. So that's cool. Which makes me think... seedbanks should just start packaging their seeds in with records. I buy records overseas all the time, and new records come shrinkwrapped anyway. It'd be perfect for a "stealthy" option.

First off, @Athylus - thank you very much *returns affection in cheer*

Second off. MAJOR RAVE - My best friend made me cry today by presenting me with this. It is. I just. I physically can't describe how much I love it. Wow. 1509122_793145884032321_389644177_n.jpg

Now I'm going to go to training because I can't take much more of the excitement.

He ate people food even though he was fat,
He'd come when he was called if I didn't know where he was at,
He loved to play in the water, how about that?
Folks said he must be a dog trapped in a cat,
But he was always just Ziggy to me.



I bet the fountains are even more awesome where you're going, buddy.

Originally Posted by tommo

I dunno, maybe most people don't get that, Melbourne is the safest city in the world apparently, so it's probably different in other places, gotta lock it up with alarms or something and worry about people stealing your bike/bag or whatever....

That sounds ... strange, I wish things were like that here. When I was a kid my bike was stolen the one time I forgot a bike lock, because I thought no one would have time to steal it in the 5 mins I was gone.

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To follow with the themes, I made a huge mistake. My ex sent me an e-mail last night. I'd been up for so long and was tired. I knew it was a bad idea but I replied. After ignoring him and sending no more than 1-2 sentence cold replies when necessary, I just ruined it last night by sending that. Basically an update on my life, which there's no reason he should need. If he was ever going to recover I just sent it back another couple years. The way he worded things was really pissing me off. It sounded so pretentious. He used biggish words that's definitions I mostly know but they just aren't the language most people use. Not sure if my memory is that bad or he's trying to make me feel stupid and failing.

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My teeth are bothering me. I haven't been to the dentist in about 2 years, and last time I did they told me I have small cavities which I need to take care of or they'll get bigger. And I'm pretty sure they're bad now. I keep meaning to floss my teeth more so that I can go to the dentist and not fear them berating me for it. But the regular teeth-flossing I keep planning never quite happens. I just hate the dentist so much, it's one of those things that seem more dreadful the longer I procrastinate. And my teeth have actually been hurting lately. I'm sure I have multiple cavities.

And something else... my top two front teeth have been like... grinding down. I started noticing it over a year ago when I felt that the very bottom of the teeth were sort of gritty with my tongue, rather than smooth like the rest of the tooth. I kind of feel it habitually because it bothers me so much, but that may be making it worse. I don't know whether I grind my teeth or what it is, but it's been bothering me a lot. I've been looking at other people's teeth and even people who are way older than me that just... isn't normal. And now it's gotten bad enough that my bf actually noticed last time I was there. So I know other people might notice too and it's visible rather than just me being paranoid. And I'm afraid to go to the dentist for it, or to even look it up online, because I really don't want to have to do anything extreme. I don't want to have to wear anything in my mouth at night just to prevent further damage from teeth grinding, or anything like that. I fucking hate anything dental like that being in my mouth, it fucking disgusts me. Like those retainers after braces... I didn't wear it at all, and when I see people using them I'm so fucking disgusted. Plus, it's already done. Do they have like sealing material they'd put on my teeth which would make them look normal? That's the only kind of thing I'd hope for.

You guys. Holy. Fucking. Shit. Hold that thought for now, more on that below. I'm going to apologize to people now because there are things that I feel like I want to respond to that are totally separate things (other peoples rants vs responses to my post) but at the moment I'm really just responding to anything someone said to me (except for the one that should be obvious).... That's about all I can handle at the moment. @_@

Originally Posted by Zhaylin

Woohoo! Aly. But, of course, I'm late to the party

Hehe, the party doesn't start until you arrive, Zhay. ;D It's great to see you again!

Originally Posted by Dianeva

I need to head out but I want to respond to this or I'll forget forever. I know that you do this, and you have a good reason. I'm not proud of some of the things I say online. Especially on reddit, I felt anonymous so I would say things assuming no one I knew would ever read them. I made memes out of stupid observations about life, private little details. I made stupid jokes in response to posts purely because I hoped it would catch on and I'd get a lot of karma. The post I was talking about was something like "OMG I just had that song in my head! What a coincidence!" Just a small thing I wouldn't want people seeing because... I'm not the kind of person who would randomly exclaim such an unimportant thing. On here, well I'm sure there have been things I've said I wouldn't want anyone I know to read. Although with 3000+ posts anyone would have to dig pretty deep. I know there have been relationship issues, stuff about depression, etc. over the years I've been on here. Just personal topics I'd prefer people didn't know about.

Alright, I totally get that.... I'm sort of just already in the mindset of not really holding back on things I say most times so it doesn't really occur to me like that. I feel like I want to say more to drive my point home but my mind is still kind of loopy at the moment.... Basically what it comes down to is that I completely get it. I wouldn't want people being able to pinpoint me in such a case either.

Originally Posted by Wishfulthinker

Major rave - it's my birthday tomorrow! The birthday messages have started already. Brace yourself Katie, brace yourself...

Haaaaaaaaaappyyyyyy Birthdaaaaaaay!!!!

I hope it continues to be a fantastic one.

Originally Posted by tommo

Endorphins girl!

I get super frustrated when eating too much chilly or curry etc. coz the burn seems to never end, but afterward, you fall in to this opiate-like high, just dazed and content. It's really nice.

Well opiates don't really do anything for me, so maybe that's why spicy food doesn't either. But I don't know many.... I'm pretty sure Wolfwood said something about eating that chili as being equivalent to drinking lava or having razorblades constantly ripping at your tongue or something like that.... Noooooo thank you. o_O

Originally Posted by tommo

Only one of these links worked. I'm glad I quoted your post and saw the other links.

The picture that did work was the the best though at least. But the others are good too.

EDIT: Ok all your links are working now, bloody hell.... oh well

Which was the picture that did work? Just out of curiosity. X)

Originally Posted by Athylus

You are crazy Alyzarin, I love it. I'd love to try acid once, but tbh I'm kinda scared of it lol. How was your trip? You might still be tripping as I am writing this lol. Definitely gonna take shrooms again in 4 months.

Hehe, why thank you Athylus. LSD is the most beautiful drug of all time.... This trip has nothing but solidified that belief in my mind. O_O Other drugs - such as DMT - may be more intense, but absolutely nothing compares to masterpiece that is LSD. Of course, psychedelic preference is subjective... and don't get me wrong, mushrooms are fucking great too haha. They're probably my second favorite drug so far, maybe tied with DMT. But if you ask me... in a choice between LSD and any other drug in existence, the answer is always

---> LSD!!!!! <---

Wait for the right setting. After that, don't let the fear get you heh heh.... It's worth it.

ALSO don't get me wrong.... While I do love LSD I would never stick to ONLY LSD. DMT especially is a psychedelic of absolute necessity. I'm still waiting for the day I combine these two.... After last night, I can only imagine that it will probably be so unbelievably overwhelmingly wonderful as to completely defy description. >.O

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Okay, my stuff.

RAVE RAVE RAVE: Holy fucking shit. Oh my god. Motherfucking hell. That TRIP. You guys probably don't remember but a couple times here I posted about this synthetic cannabinoid blend I have that's REALLY psychedelic and really speedy for cannabinoid that only peaks for a short amount of time but it's definitely the strong cannabinoid I've ever used. I smoked a bowl of to kick off the peak of the LSD. Good... lord.... My mind was fucking blown apart. Like... okay. I have experienced more extreme emotional states than this while tripping. I have experienced stronger hallucinations. I've even had more trouble dealing with reality before than I did with this trip. But nothing I've ever experienced has been such a fucking COMPLETE integration of every drug experience I've ever had AND every major psychological issue I've had in my entire life and just have them resolve in such an unendingly beautiful, cosmically orgasmic, breathtakingly phenomenal, LIFE-AFFIRMING, EARTH-SHATTERING psychological trip as this. This is one of the few trips I've ever had where I felt like I would come out of it completely changed forever, and the one that I've felt the most *like* that with by several orders of magnitude. It was pure bliss BEYOND WORDS.

I LOVE YOU ALL.

Originally Posted by Alyzarin

RAVE RAVE RAVE: Holy fucking shit. Oh my god. Motherfucking hell. That TRIP. You guys probably don't remember but a couple times here I posted about this synthetic cannabinoid blend I have that's REALLY psychedelic and really speedy for cannabinoid that only peaks for a short amount of time but it's definitely the strong cannabinoid I've ever used. I smoked a bowl of to kick off the peak of the LSD. Good... lord.... My mind was fucking blown apart. Like... okay. I have experienced more extreme emotional states than this while tripping. I have experienced stronger hallucinations. I've even had more trouble dealing with reality before than I did with this trip. But nothing I've ever experienced has been such a fucking COMPLETE integration of every drug experience I've ever had AND every major psychological issue I've had in my entire life and just have them resolve in such an unendingly beautiful, cosmically orgasmic, breathtakingly phenomenal, LIFE-AFFIRMING, EARTH-SHATTERING psychological trip as this. This is one of the few trips I've ever had where I felt like I would come out of it completely changed forever, and the one that I've felt the most *like* that with by several orders of magnitude. It was pure bliss BEYOND WORDS.

I LOVE YOU ALL.

God damn lol, that does sound incredible. Do you think you've really changed, or did it only feel like it during?

Holy shit. I had the busiest weekend ever. I did not forget about you Alyzarin, I have some time set aside later for research so that I can respond to your PM. I'm jealous btw, I mean my weekend was hella good. But it would have been even better with 5 hits of cid

also.....HAPPY BIRTHDAY WISHFULTHINKER

Originally Posted by Dianeva

God damn lol, that does sound incredible. Do you think you've really changed, or did it only feel like it during?

It was sooo intense. >w< Well, as with all drug experiences some of the high will fade with time... but the things that that trip opened me up to I know will stick with my for the rest of my life. I am 100% certain in saying this. Even in the short term.... All of my psychedelic experiences build off of one another and this was just another one down the line, but the impact it had was so profound to me personally that I'm honestly probably going to think of this as like an important milestone in life, as in like life before that trip vs life after that trip kind of thing.

Unfortunately I'm getting ready to go into work for the rest of the day so I can't say much else on this for now, but let me tell you, it was fucking sublime. I spent almost the entire trip on AIM talking to a relatively new but very close (closer than most ever) male friend and a prevailing theme of the trip was that every concept of sexuality that my brain has recorded in its entire database was being processed visually, psychologically, and emotionally and that whole process would branch out from literally every single thing in my perception of reality (including things only processed mentally as opposed to with sense organs) and so I was discovering new depths of my sexuality that reached SO much further beyond anything that I even thought remotely possible before (and holy fuck it was magnificent XD) and every single desire I had was being reflected off of my friend, so we were in this duality where he was being processed in my mind as basically the prototypical symbol of everything that is male and I was being processed as the prototypical symbol of everything that is female. It created some extremely interesting psychological results. O_O

Originally Posted by Zacsby

Holy shit. I had the busiest weekend ever. I did not forget about you Alyzarin, I have some time set aside later for research so that I can respond to your PM. I'm jealous btw, I mean my weekend was hella good. But it would have been even better with 5 hits of cid

Haha, no problem, I figured you'd get to it. I'm glad to hear you had a good weekend. Hehehe, but what weekend wouldn't be better with that? X)

Originally Posted by Alyzarin

I'll pass on the zombie apocalypse lol.

Spoiler for Now who left this here?:

Hehe....

After this post, I'm gonna need some alone time! JAPAN HERE I COME, BETTER HIDE THE GIRLS!!!


Oh, and Crashhy, long distance relationships are not a good idea. I once got to mutch attached to a girl that I met online. We were in a "relationship" for about a year, and we never even had a meeting in real life. Needless to say, it failed and I was quite depressive for a while. Now I just feel like an idiot to waste that mutch time on a woman that I didn't really know to begin with. People tend to be different in real life that they are online.

The odds are way to low for a relationship like that to last. The only time when you ever should consider a long distance relationship is when you 2 already know each other in real life and have some sort of plan to meet up once in a while, and to live with each other within a year..

People need to have physical contact in a relationship. Otherwise, that relationship is gonna sink down like the titanic.

Not to say it's impossible to build a long lasting relationship like that, but it's just not worth the risk and time.

Originally Posted by Zhaylin

Woohoo! Aly. But, of course, I'm late to the party

I've gotten sucked into Skyrim. I didn't even go to bed last night or today for playing so much.
Today, in an effort to stay awake, I've actually been fairly productive, cleaning and laundry and all that.

I used to worry about user names when I first started up. But I'm an oversharer in life just as on the net, so I came to not care so much if people read what I write. I'm an open book. What you see is what you get. And, generally speaking, if I wont say something IRL, I wont say it on line either.
Zhaylin is who I am. Even on Facebook But I started out as AprilD, then Xyleisha and afamilyjah at a couple forgotten places. I really like Zhaylin though. I've been this "person" for... 6 years or more?

My rant is that it's getting very hard for me to stay awake lol. My eyeballs are on fire. I have clothes hanging up outside, though and I have to keep my attention on the weather because it feels like rain. I keep begging "Give me just 2 hours, clouds. My clothes should be dry enough by then."

+1 for happy thoughts.
I usually don't frequent this thread until you post because otherwise this place is just depressing. I like how your posts keep it simple.
yeah.

@Everyone-Else Why so much depressing thoughts and stuff in this place. I know that it's called rant and rave, cry and complain, but isn't happy thoughts so much more fun. Admire the little things in life, nothing is worth complaining about. Complaining only re-enforces your unhappiness, instead embrace all the things (no matter how tiny) that are wonderful in this world
- take this smiley as an example, he just got hit in the face by a tomato and he's still smiling. We could learn a lot from that guy.

I'm in mourning dutch... after that you can hit me with 10 tomatoes and I'll smile.

I pinky swear.

I got a +1 for happy thoughts
I feel like the biggest, whiniest baby on here some days. And it's all trivial stuff for the most part.
But I'll take the compliment with a huge smile and a "thank you very much, sir"

I hope you had the greatest birthday ever, Wishful. That plate looks awesome.

Be more careful, Aly!! It turned out to be an awesome trip though, but sheesh *whew*

all around.

I must dash out the door. It's grocery shopping night but I have to pick up a ton of stuff for my hubby so I'll actually have to go in the store Bah!

Then I'll probably get back on Skyrim. I've come to love Steam and mods.

Ophelia. Beautiful poem for a beautiful cat. sorry for your loss

Thanks girl. He was a badass rockstar. Actually lived with me in Sunnyvale, Dallas and Houston TX, Staten Island NY, Queens NY, and finally Cedar Hill TX. And every time we moved, he acted like it was the biggest friggin adventure. My other cat, Sofie, acts like it's a fucking tragedy whenever we move lol.

Anyway, I'll miss his jumping-in-boxes, and the "whassups" he would give me when we passed in the hall lol. And the way his tail would twitch and front claws curled when I said his name. He was 14, so a pretty decent amount of years. Especially for being so jam-packed with adventures. Wandermüde was not in his vocabulary!

Dianeva, that dude stalking you? Ffs I can totally imagine how annoyed you must be every time you see a mail from him in your inbox.

Sorry to hear that Ophelia.

That's a very beautiful present Wishful! You should be happy with your friends.

Good to hear you've enjoyed yourself Alyzarin! Love to you back, and the rest here as well of course.

Rave:
Totally agree with you there Ekyu, been in the same situation but we met three times. She was from sweden, and I flew over there by myself once at the age of 17, it was a very rich experience. Walking around in the city there at night because I wanted to be away from her, looking at all the lights... just purposefuly trying to get lost. I randomly went in streets and 30 minutes later I ended up at her apartment again. I guess we really do walk in circles when we don't pay attention... Walking there alone in the night was probaly the most beautiful experience I've had in life so far. It's all coming back to me, it feels so good. I wish I could go back there, just to take a walk there. Anyway I'm drifting off, so that's that. Needless to say, our 'relationship' which had nothing to support itself on crumbled in a matter of time. I was a bit younger and blamed her for everything, she wasn't in perfect mental health but I didn't go right about things either. I'm glad I can say this about myself now.

There's something positive for you raptor! Also, I'm drinking a glass of water. I fucking love it, that shit is the best thing you can consume.

Goal for the next 30 days: No weed, no porn, no masturbation. Need to learn some self control, if I can't do this how can I call myself a man damnit? Anyway, 2 days free now; 28 to go.

List of positive things from today:

• Learning moment about my previous relationship
• Installed some new light in my room, it looks great
• Learned a lot about hydraulic systems for school, and nearly finished my take-home exam
• Water is crazy and awesome
• Watched a movie with my dad
• Pretty much parted ways for real now with my nearly 10 years best friend (Actually a good thing, even though I don't have any real friends now atm. Abandoning him meant abandoning 2 others as well. I'm glad, and I feel free.)

That's my daily positivism there. You asked for it raptor.

Originally Posted by OpheliaBlue

I'm in mourning dutch... after that you can hit me with 10 tomatoes and I'll smile.

I pinky swear.

I feel ya, I absolutely love cats. Losing one is like losing a limb.

"Athylus That's the spirit, I enjoyed reading that

Originally Posted by Wishfulthinker

Major rave - it's my birthday tomorrow! The birthday messages have started already. Brace yourself Katie, brace yourself...

Happy Birthday!

Started my new job today, and it went pretty well. I am really sore from this weekend, but I feel like I did a lot of good work too. I should be in top shape for the beach.

Great list, Athylus!

Tiresias Congrats on the new job! When do you go to the beach?
I was never a fan of oceans. I always imagined a creature under seaweed waiting to pull me under And then there was the time a swam across a bay (a couple hours swim one way) and it was infested with jelly fish.... and then there was the time I was chased by a shark (a nurse shark in retrospect, but scary as hell at the time!).
No thank you

Rant:
Does anyone know of a site or some place I can go on-line to get the codes for games? I have SIM City games but after moving so many times, I have no idea where the codes are. Also Bioshock and MySims. I friggin hate games where you have to know where the code is for the rest of your bloody life. I've gone through 4 computers since I first bought some of those games. And some I can't find in the store anymore (I would love to have another copy of Pharaoh/Cleopatra! And MySims didn't seem to be out for very long though it was an awesome game).

I understand pirating is a problem but jeez-louize (sp)

Another rant is that I took a caffeine pill at 9:000 to make me stay awake until 1AM. I've been sleeping way too much lately. But when I went to the store, I picked up a Bolthouse drink that was "Salted Caramel Latte". The "Latte" was lost on me as I chugged it down but turns out it was a coffee drink I can't find how MUCH caffeine is in it though which is annoying. I even searched on-line. Maybe it's caffeine free or such a low amount they don't have to list it.

I also have a fairly brutal headache right now. I had it before the caffeine so who knows why it's bothering me.

Another rave is that I'm awed by my plant again. It is such a resilient thing! The limbs were majorly drooping earlier so I chastised the plant "How can you be thirsty already!!! I JUST gave you a bunch of water the other day!" But I watered it again and the limbs almost automatically shot right back up again.
But it looks like the seedling died. Yet another is popping up through the soil to replace it already.
I'm definitely going to have to get it outside and in the sun this year. I'm over-protective of my plant. I worry about the rain, wind and animals damaging it. But I'm hurting it more but making it stay inside all the time.

RIP Ziggy

Thanks Zhaylin!

I take my words back. Forgive me, it was unreasonable.

I too get hit in the face by tomatoes, and am still smiling. I also go here to vent every once in a while, but I am still smiling.
I really dislike the many creative and subtle ways to say "shut up" that 'optimists' can come up with. It's like when I say, oh man, this day is gonna suck. Some douche just has to drop in through the window and state "WELL, IF YOU SAY IT'S GONNA BE BAD, IT WILL BE SO." and I'm like, bitch please. I'm saying there's a large chance it'll suck. I may be surprised and I'll do my best to make it good, I'll try to face it positively. But shut up with your self fulfilling prophecy bullshit, I'm allowed to have premonitions and misgivings, and there is nothing bad about venting, venting is a way to release stress and as thus is a positive thing. This thread is actually a really positive thread because it's about stressed and tense people coming in and just letting it all go. We can't all just sit around and laugh at and learn important life lessons from animated smiley faces i.e. never show your feelings just pretend to be happy

Don't get me wrong... It's super awesome that you're positive and optimistic. I try to do the same and succeed most of the time! But you're simply making the mistake of thinking that there can be no place at all for negative thoughts, whereas it only makes sense to me to have a designated vent space. That way we can sometimes take the tip of the stress off by venting it here. Complaining every once in a while doesn't exclude positivity and happy thoughts.

EDIT:
Injecting positivity.

List of positive things and also raves about things I just generally like:

• There's a lot of things I've been actually pursuing lately, ice skating, skateboarding, guitar, getting a driver's license... 2014 is so far a year of progress!
• Both today and yesterday turned out to have a lot of good moments despite my fears of coming out of the winter holidays.
• I feel like I'm getting better at driving, and I actually like driving now.
  
• Light is crazy and awesome. Like, looking through a diamond shaped glass thing, kaleidoscope effects and slight refraction of white light into rainbow colors? Yeah it's amazing.
  I'm serious, I think I'm a bit of a light freak sometimes. If there's sunlight coming in and someone with a colored shirt steps in front of it, I'll consistently enthusiastically point out how the colors of the walls next to the window can suddenly change because of the light reflecting off of their shirt. And sometimes I'll be totally mesmerized by how I can use my hand as a skin-colored lamp if strong light is hitting it. Don't even get me started on lasers.
  
• My journal is amazing. One part of it that just spontaneously happened out of boredom was that, on Oct 23 2012, I filled in one of those typical "draw your life" things and I just kept making a new one every time I felt like I had changed. So now I have this weird tradition of evaluating myself in random intervals using that template. Very odd! It's super fascinating to me how my diary keeps becoming more, in random ways. Some of the changes are inexplicable yet very predictable though, like how the page count of each month grows over time.
  
• I feel like I'm getting a lot of success moments every day, and my life feels very hectic lately, so I'll say that means I'm developing a lot personally! My job is great, it both is and has been teaching me a lot about myself.
  
• Although I haven't focused on it so much lately, dozenal arithmetics are still absolutely awesome. With ten, you only have 2 and 5 that go into ten, every other integer shoots past. I think the best way to show this would be to show you a cool little shape that the awesome number, twelve, has inside of it.
  
  Do you even see how cray that is? So many of the multiples that before had little to no system, like look at the multiples of 6, it goes 6, 12, 18, 24, 30, 36... In dozenal it goes 6, 10, 16, 20, 26, 30.
  Even the multiples of 8 and 9 are cool. Eight goes 8, 14 (one twelve and four), 20, 28, 34, 40... and nine goes 9, 16, 23, 30, 39, 46, 53, 60...
  
  But if that doesn't make any sense to you, fuck it, just look at the shape man. It's a dodecagon (twelve sides), in which you can fit a hexagon, and a cube, and a triangle! If you were to do the same thing with a decagon (ten sides), you would only be able to put a pentagon inside of it. The number ten is really quite unfriendly.

Spoiler for more doz:

I also just couldn't stop myself so I made this gif that's supposed to show how cool it is to count on your fingers in dozenal.



If we'd been using the dozenal number system, teaching kids quarters (why is a quarter 0.25?) and thirds (wtf 0.333 infinitely repeating??) would be so much easier because you can literally just count out a third of twelve on your digits. Oh look that's just 0.4 because you need to have three 4's to get to a dozen! It'd be much more intuitive. For the rest of us, really the biggest challenge is to stop thinking of "10" as ten, and start thinking of it as "1 gr0up of the base I'm using", so in base ten, 10 is 1 group of tens, and in dozenal it is 1 group of twelves. That's it, after getting used to it, 6 + 6 = 10 becomes intuitive.

/raves about cool thangs

Hahaha maths exam tomorrow hahaha a lot hahaha I'm gonna fail it.

Btw name change!