Rant and Rave, Cry and Complain

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Originally Posted by Dianeva

The worst part is that now I don't even get a chance to prove my ability.

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I would make the website anyway. Find a picture of generic guy smiling and incorporate that. Just to show him, how much a website looks better with photos.

Make a few color schemes, one that you like, one, that you think he would like.

Get an account at godaddy for 5$ a month and a domain name for like 10 a month year. Domain could be free with hosting purchase. Upload and make him cry, that he picked a wrong choise with webbuilder.

After a month - either cancel account or keep it to showcase your other website ideas as a portfolio. Godaddy has an excellent customer support and issue refunds without fussing about it at all. Had all my websites with them for over 5 years.

Agree ^

Also one of my friends did the same thing, but the thing that almost turned here around (would have if she hadn't spent the money on it already) was that those sites never work on mobile coz they're all flash-based. So tell him that too.

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Originally Posted by gab

I would make the website anyway. Find a picture of generic guy smiling and incorporate that. Just to show him, how much a website looks better with photos.

Make a few color schemes, one that you like, one, that you think he would like.

Get an account at godaddy for 5$ a month and a domain name for like 10 a month. Domain could be free with hosting purchase. Upload and make him cry, that he picked a wrong choise with webbuilder.

After a month - either cancel account or keep it to showcase your other website ideas as a portfolio. Godaddy has an excellent customer support and issue refunds without fussing about it at all. Had all my websites with them for over 5 years.

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It was on Bluehost which is also supposed to be good for about the same hosting price with a free domain, maybe a dollar more (just looked and now it says $3.95/month). lol maybe I should do that. Thanks for the suggestion. Don't they usually make you pay for at least a year or a few months though?

@tommo I didn't know that, if it is true for all of them.

I swear I was going to rant about something long and emotional when I first opened up this thread.... It seems so irrelevant now though. I actually took a huge bong rip of that synthetic cannabinoid right before I started reading posts thinking it was just going to get me into a good casual high but I ended up tripping really hard for about ten minutes, it was sort of salvia-like but with tons of energy and a little anxiety. I ended up pacing around the whole time before waiting to come down so I could read because I was so stimulated, and I think that was a part of it. I read the other day that cannabinoids upregulate GABA receptors in the adult (post-pubescent) brain as an aftereffect, and I obviously reached a point of pretty low GABA with the cannabinoid effects. I was really wired before I smoked it and now I'm all calm and not worried about anything, so... maybe that happened?

Anyway, I'm way too content to rant about anything now. I might be back in a bit though.

Also, I was pretty much gone for a week. I missed you guys. :hugitout:

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Originally Posted by Dianeva

IDon't they usually make you pay for at least a year or a few months though?

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It is cheaper if you pay for a year, but you can go month-by-month. Godaddy now has a sale for 2.99 a month, starting with 3 month minimum. But after you put it in a shopping cart, you have an option to switch to only 1 month, same price 2.99. But you buy your domain for a year, and if you pay for hosting for a year, domain is free.

It's not that much money and it feels really good to see your work live on the internet. I think it's worth it. Put up a few templates and ask friends around if they want a website for a 100 bucks + expenses. You will get experience and maybe even a client or two.

DON'T USE GODADDY!!!! They have been supporting internet control bills like SOPA, CISPA etc. FUCK GODADDY.

Look at namecheap for instance, 10.69 per year for dianeva.com http://www.namecheap.com/domains/dom...=&type=single&

Also bit of a rave:
I just had a job interview, I stayed positive instead of thinking the worst, and tried to remind myself that it wasn't the be-all and end-all, I can keep handing out resumes even if I don't get this job, coz obviously some people think my resume is good enough for an interview.
I think I did pretty well. I probably could have responded better for a couple of things like when he was listing the qualities he was looking for I could have said "yeah well I think that fits me pretty well because...." but overall I did ok. He said he's got 5 other people to interview and if I don't hear anything by next Wednesday then that means he found someone more suitable.
The words he used made me think I did alright, but he's just going to see if there's anyone better. So not too hopeful, but not too distressed either. At least I got of my ass and pushed myself to do it. :D:D:D:D

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Originally Posted by tommo

Also bit of a rave:
I just had a job interview, I stayed positive instead of thinking the worst, and tried to remind myself that it wasn't the be-all and end-all, I can keep handing out resumes even if I don't get this job, coz obviously some people think my resume is good enough for an interview.
I think I did pretty well. I probably could have responded better for a couple of things like when he was listing the qualities he was looking for I could have said "yeah well I think that fits me pretty well because...." but overall I did ok. He said he's got 5 other people to interview and if I don't hear anything by next Wednesday then that means he found someone more suitable.
The words he used made me think I did alright, but he's just going to see if there's anyone better. So not too hopeful, but not too distressed either. At least I got of my ass and pushed myself to do it. :D:D:D:D

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Congrats on getting out there, and good luck! :)

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My parents have been fighting a lot for the past few days, and it's getting out of control now. They're really pissed at each other right now. It sucks. :blue:

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Originally Posted by Alyzarin

My parents have been fighting a lot for the past few days, and it's getting out of control now. They're really pissed at each other right now. It sucks. :blue:

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Try using emotional blackmail? Or just turn them together by making them get mad at you, I use that many times to end discussions between my parents, I can easily take them raging at me instead of each other.

mini rant: I think that people coming here and rant and vent their frustrations together is great. But if I myself rant, I feel like a stupid idiot rant guy. Who needs to vent. Oh see I'm ranting. Now I'm just staring at the screen. Now I feel more stupid. More screen staring. No this doesn't belong in the drunk thread, more like in the insomnia thread. No, there's not a smart way to end this post. Stupid zoth --'

My favourite author, Iain Banks, announced he has terminal cancer yesterday. He has less than a year to live and the book he's currently writing will be his last. I'd just finished reading one of the last books of his that I hadn't read before, when I heard the news. Totally devastated. He's pretty much been my role model for the past five years.

UGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHGDGWEGWEL

I just lost $130 worth of Bitcoins in a stupid mistake.... FML....
If I can't recover the wallet file from my old Mac, which is extremely, EXTREMELY unlikely.... it's gone forever.
Fuckewagewongajwealgk;jhwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww wwwwwwwwwwwa

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Will go to sleep now, still thinking of him once again, it never stops.

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Originally Posted by Alyzarin

Congrats on getting out there, and good luck! :)

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My parents have been fighting a lot for the past few days, and it's getting out of control now. They're really pissed at each other right now. It sucks. :blue:

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I'm sorry to hear that Alyzarin.

Parents will be parents, and I'm sure they love each other. If they have been together for this long, they usually should know how they cooldown after those arguments. Maybe it's just them having a bad period with work and such. When I was younger, I noticed how certain relatives would react after quarrels, and it's always in a silent agreement where they pretend nothing happened.

I'm sure your parents are awesome since they have a wonderful daughter, it's just that they're maybe anxious. I hope things go well for them.

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Originally Posted by zoth00

mini rant: I think that people coming here and rant and vent their frustrations together is great. But if I myself rant, I feel like a stupid idiot rant guy. Who needs to vent. Oh see I'm ranting. Now I'm just staring at the screen. Now I feel more stupid. More screen staring. No this doesn't belong in the drunk thread, more like in the insomnia thread. No, there's not a smart way to end this post. Stupid zoth --'

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You're not stupid for venting or ranting, and anyone that thinks you shouldn't vent/rant can just fuck off. No one should prevent you from just getting your thoughts out and feeling a bit better at releasing it instead of bottling it up.

From personal experience, this forum's vent thread is a bit more chilled than other forums.

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Originally Posted by Patrick

My favourite author, Iain Banks, announced he has terminal cancer yesterday. He has less than a year to live and the book he's currently writing will be his last. I'd just finished reading one of the last books of his that I hadn't read before, when I heard the news. Totally devastated. He's pretty much been my role model for the past five years.

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I'm sorry to hear that. It's when we see people we look up to are just as human as we are is when we really start appreciating them more. I hope that his values and what he tried to expressed that made you admire him helps you in your journey in life as well.

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Originally Posted by tommo

UGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHGDGWEGWEL

I just lost $130 worth of Bitcoins in a stupid mistake.... FML....
If I can't recover the wallet file from my old Mac, which is extremely, EXTREMELY unlikely.... it's gone forever.
Fuckewagewongajwealgk;jhwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww wwwwwwwwwwwa

http://24.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_lu...ojhto1_250.gif

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I heard that bitcoin was shifting to PPCoin or something like that? They didn't make the news apparent because they transferred that update in Russian language (based on another forum I occasionally lurked), so anyone that doesn't do some dirty digging wouldn't know about it.

It always seems Russia is a good place to hide secrets :shock:

It's assumed that the value can augment over time, I would like to give you more info, but I only glanced at the thread with the presumption.

Sorry to hear that though, that's a lot of money. :/

Ugh... I hope you can recover that money Tommo!!

Zoth, thanks for the smile :) I do that ranting about ranting thing too :lol: But like Link said, rant away.

My rant is gross but VERY cool. At least, it's cool to me. It takes very little to impress me :cackle:
Anyhow... my throat was bugging me to no end last night. So I finally broke down and REALLY looked at it. I knew the annoyance was from a tonsil stone. I've never seen one intact in my throat though.
Until last night. I have a head-lamp (small but powerful flashlight) and a ??? handheld mirror that magnifies on one side.
I saw white from a tonsil stone. WOOT! Finally. Couldn't find any Q-tips, so I used a plastic knife lol. Turned out, there's a really deep "pocket" along the upper left side of my throat. It's above where a persons tonsils would be, almost as high up as the Uvula.
I poked and prodded at that pocket forever, it seemed, but the stone extraction was a success. It was gross but interesting at the same time :roll:

The other side of my throat seems to be missing that pocket. But the tonsil is noticeable. Seems the tonsil should be swollen where the pocket was.
I have a bit of an earache and my lymph node is a bit tender, but no sore throat amazingly enough.

Other than that, life has been peaceful and (thankfully) uneventful.
I'm smoking anywhere from 5-10 cigarettes a day. I did, however, buy one pack of smokes. Not because I needed them (I still have 3 packs from last weeks carton), but because they were on sale and I knew I'd never them sooner or later :roll:

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Originally Posted by zoth00

mini rant: I think that people coming here and rant and vent their frustrations together is great. But if I myself rant, I feel like a stupid idiot rant guy. Who needs to vent. Oh see I'm ranting. Now I'm just staring at the screen. Now I feel more stupid. More screen staring. No this doesn't belong in the drunk thread, more like in the insomnia thread. No, there's not a smart way to end this post. Stupid zoth --'

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Just do what I do--whenever you post a genuine complaint here, also make a post in the Happy/Cheerful thread some time to balance it out. :'D

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Just feeling terrible right now after an unexpected night of drinking. In the last month and a half, I lost 12 pounds and felt awesome. That was the most I've lost in years of trying to lose weight and I could feel and see the difference. I didn't feel the need to hold in my 'stomach' in public anymore because I looked skinny without it. But I've gained at least 1/4 of it back in the last week because I drank too much. It was because last weekend, I thought that since I'm eating so little and feel so great, it doesn't really matter if I drink a bit extra. Then I drank 4 nights in a row. Now, it's only Thursday and I've already drank and feel terrible. I feel so bloated because I drank a 2L bottle of cider last night. It would probably be best if I just didn't drink this weekend at all, but it's so hard not to. Now it may seem easy, but tomorrow or the next day, when I'm feeling great again, the idea of drinking will just seem so fun and I'll do it all over again. On top of that, although I successfully woke up earlier (at like noon) the last two days, today I woke up at like 3 pm again. I've been meaning to pick something up from my school since last Friday but keep waking up too late or procrastinating and saying "I'll do it tomorrow," and today it seems that's just happening again. So I guess I'll try to do it tomorrow again. I didn't do any studying yesterday and said I'd just do double today, but it's already 4:30 pm now and I really don't feel like it. And also, it's raining today unexpectedly. It's been sunny for the last week, and happens to be raining today on top of me already feeling so terrible... okay.

I can't talk to anyone in person, especially when I feel like this. My dad tries to talk to me all cheerfully when I go upstairs and I just give brief monotone answers like I obviously want him to go away. That isn't just when I'm upset, but today I felt especially bad about it when it happened, like I'm such a bitch to my parents all the time. I can't seem to stop that. It's so ingrained in my personality while talking to my parents, it's harder than it probably sounds to change. Everything they say annoys me for some reason unknown to me, and in that moment I don't care at all about being nice to them. But afterward it always makes me feel like some spoiled bitch and I'm just being mean for no reason, like I have no respect for my parents or something.

I also suspect I'm getting some PMS right now and that's contributing to my mood. There's a certain specific feeling I get when I'm upset when I can tell it's PMS. It isn't just 'feeling bad', it's this feeling of frustration, restlessness, like I need to stretch or exercise but neither of those things usually help, almost like claustrophobia. Even little things are irritating. It's like the feeling I had all the time when I was a teenager, emotional instability, my brain was just fucked up due to hormones. When I was younger my PMS symptoms were mild when I experienced them at all. I was proud of myself for this because I thought I was just controlling them, and other girls were just using PMS as an excuse to be bitches but I was above that. Now they seem to be getting uncontrollably worse, like I can actually tell when I'm going to get my period soon because I get that distinct feeling. It's not like it changes me completely and makes me irrational. In fact when I'm upset is sometimes when I'm the most rational because I feel like I have to figure out why I'm upset or justify any anger I have, or else I just get more angry at the thought that I'm being unreasonable. Guys are lucky not to have any severe hormonal changes that happen to them past puberty.

I need to make this quick so I'm going to try to do fast responses....

@ Patrick: I'm sorry to hear that. :( I can't say much because I'm not familiar with him, but that really sucks. I hope the rest of his time if spent well.

@ tommo: That sucks!! I hope you can find that file, that's a real bummer!

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Originally Posted by zoth00

Try using emotional blackmail? Or just turn them together by making them get mad at you, I use that many times to end discussions between my parents, I can easily take them raging at me instead of each other.

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Thanks for the advice, but that probably wouldn't be a good idea for me. In this situation it probably wouldn't solve anything, it would just create even more tension. I appreciate the thought, though. :)

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Originally Posted by Linkzelda

I'm sorry to hear that Alyzarin.

Parents will be parents, and I'm sure they love each other. If they have been together for this long, they usually should know how they cooldown after those arguments. Maybe it's just them having a bad period with work and such. When I was younger, I noticed how certain relatives would react after quarrels, and it's always in a silent agreement where they pretend nothing happened.

I'm sure your parents are awesome since they have a wonderful daughter, it's just that they're maybe anxious. I hope things go well for them.

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Thanks, Link. :) I know they'll cool off, they always do, it just really sucks hearing them go at it so much.... I can tell there's been a lot of strain lately, and that both of my parents have been going through some things. I just hope they can work past them soon....

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So, the reason this has to be fast. This eye strain is killing me, I can barely take the laptop for any extended amount of time. I think it's a combination of the headaches I get, my vision getting worse, and smoking too much. Way too much.

This is what you call a bad sign. I've been way overdoing that synthetic cannabinoid blend. I do this every now and then though so I didn't think much of it... but this is going too far. I first started becoming suspicious when I noticed that I wake up every day nauseous, a little irritated, somewhat anxious, and with a heavy feeling in my head... and it just dawned on me that it all goes away immediately after I smoke more of that blend. And my attitude over getting to smoke it again has subtly shifted from "wow, this blend gets you really high, it's pretty cool" to "thank god I'm high again". I think about that blend all the time and I feel so relieved whenever I get to be on it again for another ten minutes, and then I don't feel the need to for a couple hours again... and then it comes back. I think it's time to stop....

Dianeva: 12 pounds in a month and a half is a lot to lose! Generally, to keep off weight (reliably--without a yo-yo!), the goal should be 1 lb/week if you're only a bit overweight (less, the less overweight you are) to 2lb/week if you are more overweight/obese. So don't beat yourself up too hard, you probably overshot the weight loss and your body yo-yo'd (brought the weight back up after dieting) to compensate. Just drink a little less each day to ween yourself off, and you'll be fine.

Also, weight can fluctuate between plus or minus 5 lbs a day. Be sure to weigh yourself at the same time each day, with approximately the same mass of meals per meal for a more accurate reading.

Wtf is going on ???! Internet is fucked up! Nothing is working well, websites all messed, at least i can go here!! Facebook, twitter and gmail is fucked!! Wtf is going on???!!!!!!!! Its not my internet!

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Originally Posted by Linkzelda

I heard that bitcoin was shifting to PPCoin or something like that? They didn't make the news apparent because they transferred that update in Russian language (based on another forum I occasionally lurked), so anyone that doesn't do some dirty digging wouldn't know about it.

It always seems Russia is a good place to hide secrets :shock:

It's assumed that the value can augment over time, I would like to give you more info, but I only glanced at the thread with the presumption.

Sorry to hear that though, that's a lot of money. :/

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PPCoin is just another cryptocurrency, there are quite a few of them now but Bitcoin is still the most popular and Litecoin is the second most.
I'm mining Litecoin now in the hopes of regaining some of that money.

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Originally Posted by Abra

Dianeva: 12 pounds in a month and a half is a lot to lose! Generally, to keep off weight (reliably--without a yo-yo!), the goal should be 1 lb/week if you're only a bit overweight (less, the less overweight you are) to 2lb/week if you are more overweight/obese. So don't beat yourself up too hard, you probably overshot the weight loss and your body yo-yo'd (brought the weight back up after dieting) to compensate. Just drink a little less each day to ween yourself off, and you'll be fine.

Also, weight can fluctuate between plus or minus 5 lbs a day. Be sure to weigh yourself at the same time each day, with approximately the same mass of meals per meal for a more accurate reading.

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:hug: Dianeva Weight loss is exceptionally annoying!!! Is alcohol that fattening? My downfall is Soda.
12 pounds sounds a lot to me too.

It "funny" but I've been concerned with my weight all of my life. But until I was 25 or so, I was obsessed with gaining weight lol

Aly, :hug: , I really hope you lay off the fake stuff. It triggered psychosis and seizures in my daughters best friend. I've heard similar tales, but that one hit particularly close to home (as the friend lived with us off and on for years).

Hope your internet is better today.

My rant is also my rave :)
My boobs are still getting bigger. I need to find a tape measure and instructions on actually measuring yourself. I don't understand the bra process at all because I've never really worn them. I never needed to and I hate those things lol
But I no longer fit into the second-hand ones I picked up at Goodwill a few years ago (for when I MUST wear one).
What the heck? I've not gained any extra weight. I've been at a steady 140 for months now. Is it because of all the milk I go through lol It's low fat, but who knows.

I like having boobs :chuckle: But I'm about to be alone with my hubby for 5 days and he's going to get all concerned and tell me to see a doctor :roll: Maybe he has a reason for his concern though?

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So depression or no depression, I figured it was about time to start doing what needed to be done. Power through, you know?

I wake up to go to class, I go to the bus stop, and the bus goes right on by. They always stop, full or empty. I wait for the next bus, which pushes back my schedule enough that I miss about half the class. Alright, well I have to do research anyway. So I wait for the person to show up, no-show. Not a huge deal, but you know. Just a cherry on top for a sucky week. Makes me wonder why exactly I try.

I'm tired. I need a friend here.

My buddy got on a plane an hour ago, he's moving to China to teach English at a high school. I'm going to miss him but I understand it's what he needs to do and I'm extremely happy for him. We boomed last night, sort of a last send off, and he started crying. He's terrified. I'm sure he'll have a great time though.

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and he started crying

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You and I both know you were blubbering like a baby as well, foo'.

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So depression or no depression, I figured it was about time to start doing what needed to be done. Power through, you know?

I wake up to go to class, I go to the bus stop, and the bus goes right on by. They always stop, full or empty. I wait for the next bus, which pushes back my schedule enough that I miss about half the class. Alright, well I have to do research anyway. So I wait for the person to show up, no-show. Not a huge deal, but you know. Just a cherry on top for a sucky week. Makes me wonder why exactly I try.

I'm tired. I need a friend here.

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I think I know that feeling. Every so often I'll get these moments of motivation, in which I'm tired of being fucked over by life and decide to do whatever it takes to turn it over. Then bad things happen and I feel so weak and worthless again. It almost feels like the world is this conscious malicious thing that's trying to do whatever it can to destroy my life. Like just now, I needed to get something at my old college and had to interact with this mean person at the desk. Afterward I felt like crying. Going back to that school brought back memories of so long ago, and knowing I may be going there again soon reminded me that I didn't get into university and am such a loser, still in college without a degree after 5 years. I decided to tough it out afterward, to put on a layer of armor and turn the day around, but depression was so hard to keep back. I ran across the street to the bus that was just coming, thought I had made it since I was right at the bus door when it stopped, but the driver was either oblivious to me or was just an asshole because he/she didn't open the door and drove off. I'm just frantically cleaning my room now and am determined to feel better, to get my studying done and not to let myself succumb to depression. Well I'm still depressed but I'm trying to do things anyway so I'll have less reason to be depressed later.

I got some Captain Morgan and am definitely planning to drink tonight, but want to do productive things before drinking so I'll feel better about it. After leaving DV after this check I'm planning not to check it again until I'm finished. Same with Facebook, YouTube and my e-mail.