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Oh yeah, and I'm applying for Financial aid. they need a bunch of stuff on my parents, that I don't know. then They send me some BS saying that I'm not enrolled with Selctive service, which I am, because I remember when I turned 18 I was moving around alot and I never got the letter to enroll and never did, and I almost got put in Jail for not signing up.
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Yesterday i dropped off a resume, gave it to the boss, he looks at it and i added a remark that should help me out on getting a job at the jewellery shop, so just like i knew it would happen he would look at the resume and then me in a odd way and said "Thank you very much."
I sensed i am not getting a job here, and it was only part time! The plus about it, is that they are looking for a Portuguese speaking person, and i am that person! God damn it!!! :mad:
Was it an online application for the Selective Service? I remember that Fafsa.gov (which I think is the same site you went to) gives you a direct link to be signed for the selective service. It's pretty easy, but about the other things with providing the parent's info, sorry to hear that :/ Isn't there some extenuating circumstances option?Quote:
Originally Posted by ZeraCook
I wonder what you put in that resume ಠ_ಠQuote:
Originally Posted by hathor28
It states that i work mostly in customer service and sales fields, so idk why that was or is a problem, they probably want someone who can shine the damn golds, cubics, and diamonds for part time! LMAO!Quote:
Originally Posted by Linkzelda
SO I'm going to start traveling this summer. I'm starting by going to Rainbow but from there I'll probably hit the west coast, starting at Seattle and working my way down until I find a nice place to settle. I've been all up and down the west coast before but never on the road like I'll be doing.
Right now I'm working on magic tricks and tarot readings. I'd also like to get good at hypnosis and if possible, I-Ching. Perhaps I'll carry a book on the I-Ching with me and practice it while traveling. Currently I envision myself doing something between street performance and psychic readings. I'm friends with an elderly couple who are both certified hypnotists. The husband is a better hypnotist in my opinion but the wife is a better psychic except she's egotistical as fuck. That's why she's a bad hypnotist in fact, she likes to talk too much. I think I'd be good at both. The husband also has a DVD collection on magic tricks. I mostly just want to learn some simple tricks and stage hypnosis to get people's attention while on the board walk then I can charge them for a service and make real money. The woman who's going to help me learn tarot better said she'd make just shy of 800 bucks a day giving psychic readings. I could possibly get a reputation on whatever street corner I work and make a similar income, though that's probably my ceiling, and I'd only rake in that cash if I gave back to back readings all day long.
So apart from that I'm also planning on writing down the stories that happen to me. I'm hoping to compile enough stories around that theme to put a small book together at some point. I know what you're saying, On The Road's been written already and no one cares anymore, but I'm not really interested in writing a best seller, I just need to put my youth to better use than washing dishes, wasting time in coffee shops and sitting in front of screens. When I grow a bit older I'll rekindle the idea of finishing a novel but it's not a good time in my life for that, all I can manage are short stories. And I think getting out and experiencing the road will enrich my writing.
Now for a rant: People are so easily blind to their own egotism it's kind of ridiculous. This woman who's teaching me tarot is one of the people I based my "Am I psychic or a bullshitter" thread on because she takes herself so seriously that she's never wrong. She knows her stuff, I'll grant her that. But she's judgmental and if you disagree with her readings, it's because you're denying truth, not because she's off base. And then she has the nerve to talk shit on another psychic friend of mine because he's too ego based. Granted he is, he's all sorts of identified with that stuff, but talk about the pot calling the kettle. It's fine though. Like I said, she knows her stuff. I just have to get over the fact that she uses the word symbology when she ought to say symbolism. I'm down to sponge up all her knowledge without identifying with it. As far as I'm concerned, I'm still a con-man, but there's no reason a con-man can't offer some good life advice.
Rave! Rave!
Holy smokes, I just found me a real live lucid dreamer!
I freelance from home and I got called to a place today where guy had Inception as a screensaver. So I asked him if lucid dreams or if he just likes a movie. He said he loves the movie and if I LD a lot. I said I do and he says he did once or twice accidentally.
There were other people in the office so I was just whispering, but he wasn't, so we just talked very briefly. I walked out of there in shock.
Next time I'll be ready and will slip him DV address and see what happens.
$600 optometrist bill, work fucked me twice, and I gotta close the next 2 days and shell out $100 in transportation.
It's been a pen0r kind of day :blue:
^^^ No like, but sympathy :(
Thanks mel
And per our irc conversation about it, I have decided to sleep with my assistant store manager :)
edit: OOOooooohhhhhh, and Charles from work found out that I can make cheese, so he's all "Oh I make homemade bagels! So I'll bring them on wednesday and you bring the homemade cream cheese whee!"
So what happens? I do 3 attempts at cream cheese on my 2 days off, using expensive cream. (3 tries because of an issue that I finally corrected). And he didn't even bring any goddamned bagels. My a-hole is sore from all this effing I tell ya!
So it looks like your final answer to that "Is it okay to take advantage of stupid people?" thread, is yes. :lol:Quote:
Originally Posted by Original Poster
I've thought about it too. Just saw a tarot reading place around here the other day, they also taught NLP.
There's obviously money in it and people are always gonna believe it.
I don't know how comfortable I'd be doing it though.
Well, you have a boyfriend, DreamViews, and are planning to sleep with the assistant store manager, you set yourself up for that. *snaps fingers*Quote:
Originally Posted by OpheliaBlue
Spent the whole day, basically sometimes fantasizing about my dream guy rescuing me in the middle of the NWO happenings, and corruption and him blowing off corrupted police with a big ass gun daaaaaamn O_o i might induce a good dream today....maybe. I dunno why i am thinking of this, probably his ego/masculinity is coming thru lol
Today has been thoroughly unenjoyable. First of all it's the first day I had some of to myself for a while and I was hoping to have some with it but I guess not... these last few days have been really busy, and I've constantly been with at least one other person for whatever reason. A friend of mine crashed here last night so he was here in the morning too, but only until just after noon. When I woke up this morning I had sooo many stomach problems, and I've had some that have been getting worse for the past few days so I'm afraid I've caught a virus or something. This morning was one of those times where it's so bad that you feel nauseous and cold and clammy and like you can't possibly get comfortable no matter what. I still felt a little beat up during the day as I was just running errands all day, and in the afternoon this headache started coming on that pretty soon had progressed to the point where I was constantly pacing around begging myself to become distracted with something because there was so much head pressure. So after my errands I pretty much just stayed at home lying in one spot trying not to use my eyes too much because it was adding to the strain, and then when the headache finally wore off I got hit with another wave of stomach problems just like the one from this morning out of nowhere and was dealing with that for a little bit. Now I'm just lying on the couch waiting for this day to end. -.-
My only anti-rant is that in the last two days three of the supplements I ordered have arrived, namely L-DOPA, acetyl-L-carnitine, and arachidonic acid. (Note: despite the fact that these are all largely used for exercise purposes, I ordered none of them for that reason.) I think I'm going to take one of them tonight before bed and see what happens. I just have to pick one first....
Give him your number as well.Quote:
Originally Posted by gab
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I'm finally starting to sober up. Took a while, but I think it's wearing off. Tbh I can't really tell, I sort of forgot what it's like to be sober. I thought I was sober when I woke up this morning, but I was clearly wrong since I feel even less intoxicated now than I did then. Realistically, I think I still have a week or two to go.
I'm not quite sure why I react to edibles the way I do, it doesn't seem to last nearly as long for others or hit them as hard as it does for me. When I used to smoke, I'd be high for a few hours and then it'd start to level off. But with edibles, a single gram of potent bud cooked into peanut butter is enough to last me damn well near an entire month. When I first started eating instead smoking, it only lasted me a day with some residual effects the next morning. Now it lasts so long that "last week" seems like a lifetime ago. It just drags on and on.
Money wise, it's fucking great. It works out to less than a dollar a day and for the first 2-3 weeks, I get as stoned as I used to when I was smoking a gram or two ($10-$20) per session. I think I've just learned to "fine tune" the high or something. It has it's upsides and all, but I'm really looking forward to being sober for a while. I've already noticed I don't think as clearly or process information as efficiently as I did when I was high - I feel slow/stupid when I'm sober - but I have more energy. I'm much more upbeat. I'm not very focused or driven though. Kinda scatterbrained, really. Definitely more sociable though.
When I'm high, I'm much more serious and somber. I'm markedly more... intelligent? I'm more empathetic, more thoughtful, more caring, more morally driven. But I don't get anything done. When I'm sober, I'm more socially adroit and likely to finish the projects that I start... but feel borderline retarded.
Anywho. I'm gonna try to go through the next month or two sober and see how much I've changed since my little year-long binge.
o.O Damn, maybe I should switch to just using edibles lol.Quote:
Originally Posted by GavinGill
This does sound like an extreme case, but... maybe not as much as it seems. Let's take all the different factors into consideration. First of all, the duration of the bulk of a high from smoking is really never going to last any longer than... oh, like six hours I guess, and that's of course with good bud and not too heavy of use. Maybe just a little longer if it's just one of those days where it decides to hit you like a ton of bricks for no reason. Eating weed can easily last a day if it's good enough. Very high doses could last two days, and relatively unheard of doses can last three or more. And remember, I mean the bulk of the high when I say this... I mean there's always that afterglow the next day where you still feel kinda baked after a really clean high. Then there are the effects of chronic use to look at.... Long-term CB2 activity causes temporary changes in the brain, which in animal tests manifest as anxiety-like behavior. Not too ridiculous to suggest since lots of people start getting paranoid when they smoke too much in too little time, but even below that there are definitely changes in effect and overall mindset even while sober with constant use that take a decent break to wear off. Another thing to consider is how incredibly long THC and its metabolites can last in the body. If I remember correctly, research done with smoking has shown that even without chronic use, cognitive deficits can still be detected up to at least seven days after the last use, but even in the lifelong smokers these deficits would be completely resolved by the end of the month no matter what. It was shown that these deficits were also more significant in those chronic smokers. What's interesting is that one of THC's metabolites that has pain killing effects, 11-nor-9-carboxy-THC, was shown to have a half-life of five to six days just on its own, so that could certainly account for some of the aftereffects of acute use, but they also found that in the long-term users, and keep in mind that this test was done after like a month break or something, there were still significant levels of THC itself found in their plasma at those seven days after use. That means it hasn't even been converted into that ridiculous metabolite yet.... And remember that these tests were done with smoking, so I can only imagine what kind of outcome eating weed could have. And eating a gram is ingesting quite a bit of THC compared to just smoking some on average, and due to altered speed of metabolism into 11-OH-THC, eating weed is no less potent than smoking it.... So maybe you're just really sensitive to this process?
That wasn't what the thread asked, that was your interpretation. I never asked about the morality of being a psychic in that thread. I'm not sure whether or not there's anything to psychic readings, and I refuse to invest belief simply because I don't want to get my ego wrapped up in it and buy into my own bullshit. On the surface, there's magic tricks, mentalism and NLP but they're merely tools to get people's attention. Below that surface there's basic tarot, palmistry, I-Ching, and simply because you don't believe that kind of thing doesn't mean it serves no value. Sure, there's money and it would be my means to make money but it would also make me feel good about myself because it would help people. You have to realize a lot of psychics who think they're really psychics admit that reading a person's unconscious tells are part of the reading, too. So even if there's nothing substantial to subtle energies, etc, simply picking up on a person's tells and giving them proper life advice can be tremendously helpful. Moving even deeper from tarot and all those tools, it comes down to being a street therapist.Quote:
Originally Posted by tommo
I'm also working on developing my psychic gifts to work synergistically with my people reading skills. It's not like I have to choose between being a "real" psychic and a swindler. Unless of course they're all swindlers which I'm sure your experiences lend you justice in thinking. But there's essentially three steps for me, the first is to grab their attention, the second is to prove my credibility and the third is to offer genuinely helpful advice. The way I prove my credibility and the criteria I base my advice on will walk a fine line between mentalism and subtle perception, to be sure, but it'll still be good advice.
And conning people out of thirty bucks in exchange for some good advice I think is a bit more admirable than, say, claiming to understand the key to happiness and becoming a self-proclaimed guru. This is why I think it's vital to stay humble about it, and avoid becoming like the woman who's teaching me tarot. Her ego's so inflated she's never wrong, but I know for a fact I could take it a lot farther if I got wrapped up in it. That's part of the reason I destroy my credibility as often as possible, because I figure as long as no one respects my opinions I'll never let it go to my head. This is what'll be most challenging, building credibility will be integral to running a successful business as a psychic. I'll have to allow people to think I'm something that I don't believe myself to be, and somehow not take that too far. I think I'll accomplish this by maintaining friends rather than followers, and ensuring my friends are in on the joke. If I confuse the two, you may see me running a cult by the end of the decade.
Rave:
So I'm starting to get into getting better at blogging, making content for a certain site where the CEO and staff members are definitely happy with my progress in elevating its rankings so far. I've received two instant payments from them out of the 12, which is rare, and I was a bit worried before on whether or not they were just getting paranoid. Well obviously, if I can rank #1 for specific niches for pretty hot topics, I just have to keep moving forward with it. I recently bought a component that will definitely help me a lot with keyword research analysis, and with the other site's Pagerank and potential to actually let me dominate in SERPs and all that fun stuff, I can make a pretty decent income.
I think it's actually better than Google Adsense in the long run, but it depends on my own diligence to keep finding new ways to blog about many many things. I feel for once I actually like something I do that I would spend hours upon hours upon hours improving on because I know it's going to make me more money as a hobby. I just hope the site itself doesn't get shutdown, but it's not really going to happen since apparently it's worth about $3.5 million. And since I know the CEO himself directly e-mails me compared to all those incompetent spammers complaining on whether or not they're getting their payments when I've been a Golden Boy in that site, the future with this company seems pretty good.
I also realized that the more I improve on this, this is really just work experience, especially for any kind of company that may not have been acknowledged online as much, I definitely have the tools and knowledge to actually push them further. Everything is so easy now, information is so easy to distribute, and even if I don't like a particular topic, if I spend at least 15 minutes or so knowing the basics, I can just make derivatives and extend from that and make something that this company and future companies want to see. I just wish that this could be a career, since I know I have the ability to progressively improve in information and making efficient content in a short amount of time. I guess I'll just have to be motivated to balance this along with college.
I just LOVE researching these things nowadays. It used to be me going through constant episodes of "I can't do this, I can't do that," when I obviously can. I know I have a lot more to learn from, since these things constantly update, but I know I can keep up with dominating many aspects on the Internet in terms of monetizing it in a short amount of time. I just wish I would learn how to code. However, in the situation I'm in now, I think just being a living information database that can derive basic concepts and make specific and detailed objectives with certain topics is good enough.
Hopefully I can master the persona of an Internet Businessman, since I've been attracting a few good bloggers from that same site I'm just hiding in the shadows and just waiting for the site to grow and blossom. For once I can just disregard the apathy towards petty things and take advantage of what people look for and actually giving them what they want. And anyone that says blogging is impossible to make a decent side money hobby clearly doesn't know how to do research well.
I just have to contain this excitement and still manage my time with college, but I think I'll do well if I just relax.
I love you.Quote:
Originally Posted by Alyzarin
That's awesome! I'm glad to hear it's going so well for you. :)Quote:
Originally Posted by Linkzelda
I love you too, Gavin. :clairity:Quote:
Originally Posted by GavinGill
I hope you feel totally sober soon. :P
I'm actually feeling quite happy today. :) Because they're playing Inception for the first time on tv. I've seen the movie about 5 times or so, but I'm gonna watch it again. Cause I absolutely love that movie. And I'm gonna focus on lucid dreaming instead of my life. Is it actually possible to have a second life in your dreams? Like are there people here on dreamviews who have 4-5 lucid dreams each night?
There seem to be at least a couple at any given span of time. You could theoretically live a second life in your dream, but it may not be exactly what you want or like this one. The dream world has some weird rules lol. But I have heard of people trying to do that before and having some success. Now whether or not it's healthy for you, that's a different subject entirely, but I do think it's possible in a way. I would go for it if I was that far into things.Quote:
Originally Posted by Crashyy
Enjoy the movie! :popcorn:
I really wish people would shut the fuck up, about letting someone from the past go. NO!!!!! and NO again. it has been a year and a half now... and she is still on my mind every single day. I've tried everything... and i mean everything. She is completely erased from my facebook. I've dated other people. gotten rid of any belongings which remind me of her, (most of them were actually stolen by nasty room mates). I've went to psychics... Hell I've even read the bible and turned to Jesus after finding out those psychics were full of shit, (one that predicted her coming into my life and also said that by december of 2011 i would be in a relationship with her, failed prediction... the same psychic, whom i later went to, told me that if I ever saw the woman again it would bring me nothing but tears. However in the bible God says that if a prophet makes a failed prediction, do not be afraid of him. "Do not be afraid" a phrase which appears in the Bible as often as days in the year...)
anyway. There have been times where I almost forget her. Then i just happen to run into someone that reminds me of her... not just one. but several. Similar variation in name, similar past history. on even had a day apart from her birthday. It's like The world periodically smacks me and tells me "Do not forget, Move on the best you can if you have to, but DO NOT FORGET" okay... Looks like I will have to wait this one out. I've waited this long without turning to drugs, alcoholism, suicide etc. i can wait a while longer.
Another thing that irks me is when someone, like a BS psychic says, "You were meant to meet her but were not meant to be together." again I will call bullshit, the very day she left, both of our lives spiraled out of control in a string of really bad luck. Me, I got jewed out of my basement suite to live with my father who began to emotionally abuse me, then moving out only to have all my belongings stolen and later winding up living in a heated garage at the edge of last winter. Her.. well after she moved halfway across the country to the bad part of a concrete jungle, she got mixed up in a drug trip that should have killed her, and lost her purse and wallet, also family issues were involved but I don't know the half of them. I know it's not good to dwell too much on the past but... I'm absolutely positive that things would have went a hell of a lot better if she never made her reckless move away, and if we had both sought to finish what had begun.
another BS phrase, "There is a great lesson to learn here." What... that having a giant heartbreaks hurts like hell? I could have told you that 6 months before i met this girl when I lost another girl, a muslim girl to an arranged marriage. There is no lesson here but SHIT HAPPENS, i already knew that one pretty well too. What about the lesson that love can conquer all? Or a pair or group of people who stay together in spite of so many things trying to tear them apart. What about those lessons?
Or what about the lesson... that whenever people break up, or if some love is unfulfilled means you have to cut off contact from that person, throw out anything that reminds them of you, and endlessly date a new stream of people who will NEVER fill the hole that the other person left.... Just doesn't fucking work... It doesn't work at all. Not just me, but so many other people and stories i have heard... that route... Is actually the worst. Ever notice how when someone makes a decision based on fear ( will be nothing but deceit and tears if you talk to her again) to avoid some hypothetical fear from manifesting, that the fear based decision you actually make manifest something worse than what you originally feared? Next person i have to break with... I am going to make damn sure i talk to them, and get some answers from them first before they go. After all it's all the assumptions and running away that makes things worse anyway. Truth hurts yes... but lies and unanswered question hurt much much more. more ranting on this later.
I SO understand this! I am missing someone more than just 2 years, more like a decade. :\Quote:
Originally Posted by Man of Shred
I'm not sure who would care, but I feel so lonely. I feel so unlovable. I do know these emotions are irrational, but ration cannot defeat emotions it seems. Sometimes life isn't fun.
I love you, man.Quote:
Originally Posted by khh