Rant and Rave, Cry and Complain

**tommo** · 02-04-2013 12:56 AM

Originally Posted by CanisLucidus

You very well may be right. I hope so. Our perception's inevitably colored by our experience, and I'm certainly vulnerable to this. Over time, I've had a number of friends and acquaintances who've had close calls (and even worse) with men like this: predatory, delusional, opportunistic. In particular danger are passed out or intoxicated females, or those vulnerable to drug-facilitated sexual assault (including alcohol.)

Yeah, well the reason I thought that is just because Aly said he looked disappointed rather than angry.
In my experience the type of guys (or women too!) that would sexually assault someone would get pissed off when they get turned down
and probably call the person a bitch/bastard etc.
Normal people are disappointed, people who can't deal with their emotions get angry and sometimes take it out on others.

Originally Posted by CanisLucidus

That's a great point, and thanks for the background info. I didn't know how this worked in Australia. There's also variance from state to state in the US, but it's illegal in the vast majority of the country.

I know you're not from the United States, but if by any chance you're familiar with our history on Alcohol Prohibition, you'll see that we've already learned (and apparently forgotten) this particular lesson.

Humans shift all to readily from "Well I would never want to do/own/smoke that" to "There oughtta be a law!"

Yep, exactly! We'd be so much better off without these special interest lobby groups.
Or if the government realised that they're only a small sect of the whole population and ignored them.
Unfortunately the people who disagree with them aren't as vocal, so the government doesn't know about them.
That's why I try to write letters to Government when I really feel strongly about something, because it really does work.

Originally Posted by CanisLucidus

I wish I could, I don't know, somehow brain-to-brain upload the experience of how different you'll feel as you grow more and more comfortable in your own skin and with your place in the world. (Wish I could done the same for my younger self!)

You have more power, freedom, and potential than you think. You will realize this as you move forward. In the meantime, try to relax, try not to be afraid, and above all, be good to yourself.

This, Crashy.
It's really shit that we're stuck to communicating with words that just don't really convey what people want them to, and are largely useless for anything other than practical purposes.
If we could telepathically communicate, I guarantee you would not be depressed anymore.
You get different problems when you're out of school, but they are so much.... less....
In school, it was just constant worry and depression for me. I thought that was just how I was.
But it's SO MUCH DIFFERENT now. I mean I still get like that when shit comes up, obviously, but even then it's not like this end of the world type thing.
In school those bad times were basically my world.... I dunno it's hard to convey properly.
I guess you just become more aware of the possibilities and you get more experience and see more of the world when you travel etc.
So your problems then revolve around a tiny part of your life, but you know that it's not all there is.

Change high schools, you absolutely can do it half way through the year if they have spots open.
Go and ask them.
It doesn't matter what your dad wants. By the sounds of it they are good people, they want you to be happy.
The reason the want you to continue your dad's business is most likely so you are well off and don't struggle. That's all.
And anyway, that's definitely something you could fall back on if the criminology thing doesn't work out for whatever reason.
But tell them you want to try it because you've always been interested in it and you wouldn't feel right if you didn't pursue it.

**OpheliaBlue** · 02-04-2013 12:57 AM

Staycation is over

And now I'm really broke

But I got alot of great memories and photos

**mikeac** · 02-04-2013 01:13 AM

Originally Posted by Crashyy

Well I pretend to be happy when I'm around them. So actually I am depressed when I go out with friends and family. I just hide it. I really hate my life. The reason why;

I'm working for my dad, he owns a construction business. So I work 4 days a week and I go to school 1 day a week. I'm currently in the 11th grade. My mum and dad think I love construction, but I actually don't. Like it's not that bad. But it's really not my thing. So there are 3 major high schools in my area. I've been to 2 of them. To HHC for 3 years, to SL for 1 year (I got bullied there, so I left after 1 year). I'm really not happy with my life, i'd rather go to the third high school in my area, get my diploma so I can go to uni to study criminology. But the thing is, it's already february so I'm not sure if it's possible to change schools in the middle of the year. So that means i'll be so sad for the next 6 months or so until i can change schools. So I just wanna go back to high school, get my diploma and then go to uni. But I'm also afraid if i'm going to the third high school, I'm gonna get bullied again. And I also don't know how to tell my dad, like he'll be very sad and angry probs cause he assumes i'm gonna take over his business eventually. So my life's quite fucked up atm. Life for me is just a war I can't win

"Change is good." - Kha' Zix

KhaZixSquare.jpg

I want to tell you to follow your dream and passion, but I don't know your whole story. I want to tell you that you or anyone can become confident in yourself enough so that bullying is a non-factor, but that's on your hands on whether or not you can do it. What I can tell you is that it is absolutely possible to change schools in the middle of the year - my parents just pulled me out of school for a couple weeks because of financial issues. But this isn't about me, this is about you. You may not be happy now, but you'll pull through. Know that going through pain makes you a stronger person.

And about your dad - I tried to tell my mom I really don't want to be a physicist or a chemist, and instead wanted to pursue a degree in digital media or art, and they stared at me like I was no longer their son. My dad, however, was much more forgiving, and told me to do what makes me happy. If you can, find someone to talk to about your future so you can work things out.

I really don't have a rant for myself today, but meh not going to school isn't the most fun thing in the world

**Original Poster** · 02-04-2013 04:01 AM

Come on you fucking niners beat the gap

**dakotahnok** · 02-04-2013 05:31 AM

Woot Ravens win!

Does anyone notice the gigantic ads destroying the right side of your screen?

**~~Alyzarin~~** · 02-04-2013 07:48 AM

@tommo: As Canis said, it's illegal here.

@Canis: Thanks.

And yeah, I hate that it was at that park.... I probably won't be walking around those paths again for a while. I don't know if he'd go so far as to hurt someone, it's hard to say, but just not knowing for sure isn't exactly ideal either.... Hopefully he's just desperate in a creepy but less-than-criminal way. Either way, I hope I never have to find out.

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It's so difficult to hold off depressing thought cycles. I'm in an intro to communication course (part of the required core curriculum) this semester at college and part of what we've been talking about in class is self-fulfilling prophecies. That takes me back to some conversations I've had with my boyfriend, too.... My thoughts about myself are so incredibly negative. All throughout the day I let them drown me and it just makes me this person who always feels like I've failed before I even start something, and it makes my thoughts get even worse and I end up just obsessing about them and getting even less done in my life. I'm just so used to it that it feels weird if I don't think that way, and when I make a conscious effort to resist the thoughts it's like they're still pushing at the back of my mind. I know that's just part of the process of moving past them, and the whole point is keeping at it and not giving up, but it just hurts sometimes. I really need to learn to like myself....

**Original Poster** · 02-04-2013 08:18 AM

Originally Posted by dakotahnok

woot ravens win!

blargh you and your damned ravens

**~~Alyzarin~~** · 02-04-2013 04:56 PM

This morning, I just....

I have to go. I know it's sudden, and I'm sorry. I'll be back eventually. PMs are still okay until then.

I love you all.

**Linkzelda** · 02-04-2013 06:15 PM

Originally Posted by Alyzarin

It's so difficult to hold off depressing thought cycles. I'm in an intro to communication course (part of the required core curriculum) this semester at college and part of what we've been talking about in class is self-fulfilling prophecies. That takes me back to some conversations I've had with my boyfriend, too.... My thoughts about myself are so incredibly negative. All throughout the day I let them drown me and it just makes me this person who always feels like I've failed before I even start something, and it makes my thoughts get even worse and I end up just obsessing about them and getting even less done in my life. I'm just so used to it that it feels weird if I don't think that way, and when I make a conscious effort to resist the thoughts it's like they're still pushing at the back of my mind. I know that's just part of the process of moving past them, and the whole point is keeping at it and not giving up, but it just hurts sometimes. I really need to learn to like myself....

I think you're trying to aim for a change where you're completely cleansed of blemishes and sins because again, you're trying to get rid of the negative thinking you've been so saturated in most of your life.

Also, about self-fulfilling prophecies, I don't know if you're associating it with your current state of shifting through cycles of behavior, but in more general and practical terms, self-fulfilling prophecies are sustained by positive feedback, and it could come from others or you practicing to instill positive thoughts into yourself.

If you're not receiving that positive feedback (which you obviously aren't) about who you are as a person, chances are, it's not that term at all. But if you're associating it with what you learned more about it and comparing it to how you are, then just don't mind what I said just now.

Also, based from what you said, you seem to have conditioned yourself to the point where you just passively acknowledge that you'll "fail" from the start before even making an attempt. It doesn't mean things are worthless to attempt, you can turnaround that conditioned response into something more positive.

Example:

Primal thought: "I'm not going to do well no matter how hard I try."

New thought: "I know that I might fail this, but if I make an attempt at it, it's better than to sit around and do nothing and know that not attempting is letting myself fail."

Another thing that concerns me is that I feel you think that having these negative thoughts have to be the totality of who you are as a person. Clearly, that's not the case, because you're kind to others here on dream views, and you seem to have a lot of friendships here you try your best to keep up with. And because you have an overwhelming charisma towards these people, they'll generally tend to be sympathetic towards you if you wanted to vent towards something negative that happened in your life because they know that from you, you'll be able to overcome them.

But you should know that negative thoughts, the darker depths of your psyche do not validate your whole being. You already stated that if you keep practicing and doing your best, you'll eventually get there, and pretty much that's what you need to keep doing.

You're so caught into the idea of possibly failing, completely disregarding the skills you have, or the potential for you to improve on whatever skills you think you need to succeed that it's only creating more anxiety for yourself. And based from that, I would also deduce that not being able to resolve those conflicts makes you a "bad" person. Which isn't the case in my belief; there's going to be events and things we've done that we couldn't possibly forgive ourselves over simply because of the emotional value that sticks like glue in our minds, and the more hardened that glue is, the more difficult it's going to be to loosen that grip a bit.

You're still a young person like I am, and I obviously have to work at this myself, but you have to realize that it's not simply a matter of moving on, it's about acknowledging these things that put a burden on your soul, and if you don't mind me quoting,

“Courage is the discovery that you may not win, and trying when you know you can lose.”

- Tom Krause

“The greatest test of courage on Earth is to bear defeat without losing heart.”

- Robert Green Ingersoll

Just remember, whatever it is you're trying to handle, take practical steps in approaching them, don't expect them to be resolved overnight (and I'm sure you know this obviously, but you have to get that idea stuck in your mind).

And as for trying to move on, again acknowledge them and just remember that having these negative events engrained in your mind is going to make you a stronger person. A person with absolutely no experience or understanding of something dark/evil/sinister/negative/etc. is one of a shallow life.

Maybe when you're trying to overcome your fears and negativity, you're actually fighting it rather than just acknowleding it, which is why it's pushing back at you; because again, you clearly rely on that negativity because it distracts you from thinking for yourself. You let that other aspect of yourself control your will to move on, but it's time for you to let that other part of yourself that you have to start learning to control your own actions and stop letting yourself be drowned in pity.

You shouldn't aim for eradicating that part, it's part of what you are, but not everything of who you are. And I'll say it again, the hue of your soul is not defined just from that negativity.

And you don't have to force yourself out of the depressive cycles, just slowly pick yourself up.

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Class got cancelled today for Calculus I, and I spent an hour waiting only to realize I could've just read the sign that said " Dr. So and so 's So and So's Class is Cancelled for Feb 4th"

Well, at least I did something with my laptop during that time frame...so I guess it's not too bad.

Then there's this neighbor to the left of me that is starting to be a growing pain to me. He's one of those individuals that has this very concerning charisma towards people, most likely because of his voice that's just naturally harmonious....hell, even I have to admit that listening to his voice, it's clearly a sign that he puts off a different countenance than what I see him as.

I don't know how the neighbors can tolerate his loud, blaring music.....and like....this apartment complex....you just have to interact with the other neighbors because you'll know most likely, they'll be here for a while. People come and go obviously, especially for the apartment to the left of me (since that annoying neighbor moved in), but if there's one person that's been here consistently, possibly before me, is the blonde girl that's maybe 1-2 doors to the left of the neighbor to the left of me.

Before this annoying neighbor moved in, everytime I see her outside and she sees me, she usually tends to be kind and tries to make a conversation. Unfortunately because I'm so passive about anyone that comes in and out of the apartment complex, I tend to just be laconic and go into my apartment as soon as I can.

She's just one of those people that can be a good apartment friend, and make the place more humanized, but I don't have time to engage in placing value towards her because I know that I'm not planning to stay in this area for longer. It's just cheaper to be here than on-campus, and what bothers me is, I'm probably not enoying myself that much here since I'm so caught up with making sure I condition myself to this schedule (which I've only been 40% committed to honeslty).

Even so, I know I can't let myself get distracted from these people, but the more this FUCKER starts socializing with the other neighbors, the more impact he'll have towards them, and they know for certain that they don't want to see his bad side. The loud fucking

"I SELL DOPE FROM MY IPHONE" rap music is not really something I want to hear all the time.

And I know I could just move to another location on-campus and study, but fuck that! I'm not going to move when I can just stay here and study myself!

UGH....he doesn't have a job, at least from his constant chattering, so my conclusion is that he probably just sells drugs or does some collaboration with others and makes paying the bills easier for him.

I hate those types of people. It's like...it's like...

Having the mentality of a persuasive businessman/businesswoman and having NO direction in magnifying that image/personality.

Ugh, it annoys me and pisses me off so much! Wha a worthless piece of shit this guy is! God, the misanthropic levels just augment over fucking 9,000 when I see, hear, and interact with this guy. Ugh.

Whatever, he's not going to be part of my life forever, that's for sure.

**khh** · 02-04-2013 07:34 PM

Originally Posted by Alyzarin

This morning, I just....

I have to go. I know it's sudden, and I'm sorry. I'll be back eventually. PMs are still okay until then.

I love you all.

It's okai, take all the time you need.

We will be waiting.

**CanisLucidus** · 02-04-2013 08:43 PM

Originally Posted by Alyzarin

This morning, I just....

I have to go. I know it's sudden, and I'm sorry. I'll be back eventually. PMs are still okay until then.

I love you all.

And we love you back.

We're going to miss you bad, but take excellent care of yourself, take the time you need, and come back to see us when you're ready. We'll be looking forward to it!

Anti-Rant: We skipped the Super Bowl and took a family trip to the zoo instead. The day was beautiful and we had a great time. Sunday was relaxing, fun, and filled with top-notch day residue. I topped it off with pre-bed apple juice, a solid WBTB, and a B-complex so that everything would be ideal. Conditions were perfect for a morning of incredible, vivid dreaming. Sure enough...

Rant: ...I had a long, incredibly vivid dream that I was stuck in a boring meeting.

**Zhaylin** · 02-05-2013 02:03 AM

I've not been in the mood to type, so I've just been lurking

Crashyy. It DOES get better (usually

) As you get older you look back on your life and can't help but shake your head at some of the things that devastated your life.

Aly, so glad the walk in the park ended safely for you! Carry some mace or something next time you go walking! And I hope your current hardships pass quickly and as quietly as possible

As for those thoughts, you really do have to make an absolutely determination to stop them in their tracks. You'll be re-directing your thoughts several times a minute at first but it gets easier as time passes.

Link, sorry to hear about your neighbor troubles. I'd never be able to make it in a dorm or apartment complex!

My rants. Beware, they're gross.
I've become worse than white trash. The toilet stopped flushing again several days ago. Maybe a week. So, how does one go to the restroom when you cant flush and the snow is too deep and the ground too frozen to dig a pit?
Walmart bags (double to triple bagged, of course) and empty/cut-to-size soda bottles. That is the unfortunate answer. You can't take a shower so you feel gross all the time. Sponge baths still suck. Powder in your hair gets very old, very fast. You can't clean cooking aids/utensils, so cooking real food is out of the question.
I had planned ahead before this freeze. I filled the tub with water, plus 2 empty water gallons and several 2 liter soda bottles. But it's kind of pointless when the water wont drain

And my throat mucus has been so annoying that I finally broke down and started a "spittoon" out of an old water bottle.

But I really don't care lol. Gotta do what I gotta do. But I'll be using hubby's shower again very soon!!! Not having water is annoying. But not being able to drain the water or flush a million more times more annoying.
We should be thawing soon though. And then I'll be back under the modular to see how bad the damage is (If I can. I'm still not going to destroy the under plastic at the back of the house. )
I need to try to find a way to make some siding. I'll use mortar and brick if I have to.

The house is staying plenty warm. WoW is starting to bore me a little though.
The dog still has her bladder infection and is pissing everywhere. With no running water, that especially sucks. I was in the other room today with paper towels and bleach. It is clean though

We went on a huge cleaning spree right before we lost the water again, so at least the house is still fairly clean. I need a LOT more paper towels though!!

**Rozollo** · 02-05-2013 03:44 AM

Annually, I have to get a thorough eye exam that involves staring at bright lights through a magnifying glass while my eye is dilated and other graphic details. Almost always it leaves me with a KILLER headache and burning eyes. At least the prognosis was semi-good.

**Zhaylin** · 02-05-2013 04:45 AM

Originally Posted by Tiresias

Annually, I have to get a thorough eye exam that involves staring at bright lights through a magnifying glass while my eye is dilated and other graphic details. Almost always it leaves me with a KILLER headache and burning eyes. At least the prognosis was semi-good.

If it's more involved than standard dialation,

Dialation in and of itself sucks enough.
But glad the news was good

Something sucks. I've been spelling dilation wrong my entire life

I am in a terrifically wonderful mood. It's snowing a LOT and I LOVE the snow. It's just so fresh and clean and makes me think of the season rebirth. Yeah. I'm weird. I've written this weirdness before (probably this same time last year

), but snow makes me feel how most people feel about Spring.
PLUS, it's big fat, wet snow which means the temp is well above freezing, which in turn is great news for the pipes.

The check-out guy at Sheetz, this evening, asked why I was always so happy- that every time he sees me, I have a smile on my face. My idiotic reply was: "I try... someone has to be positive"

I guess it was likely a Freudian slip because he always seems so serious/borderline grumpy. And yeah, Sheetz is my home away from home lol. I go there almost every day *sigh*

TIme to check my Farmville then watch something.
Hope everyone is well.

**Carrot** · 02-05-2013 11:25 AM

I'm so tired now, I know I'll go into a REM sleep the moment I fall asleep. 5 more minutes to work end, another hour for me to travel home.

**Wishfulthinker** · 02-05-2013 11:55 AM

My minor Rants

- labels of society, Just because someone wears something or listens to a certain kind of music doesn't just make them a goth or an emo. You don't suddenly start cutting yourself because you wear black people!

- Being so forgetful, pretty self explanitry. Lost two things really precious to me because I've forgotten where I've put them.

- Being so busy. I have no time! I cry so much at the moment because I'm either so stressed or I've found old memories that mke me sad and I'm sick of crying!

- Obnoxious people. They're idiots. Linked in with rant point 1.

- Weird half-happy half-depressive moods. They suck. So does crying. Link to point 3.

- Mondays? Are they allowed to be ranted at? :p

**Iokheira** · 02-05-2013 06:15 PM

My husband got me sick. I thought I was going to miss everything, but the day he got better I started feeling it. Now I can feel exactly where my nasal passages and sinuses are. Feels like my head is filled with crap, and my throat is raw. I had an awful sleep, so awful recall (just when it was back to normal too!). And I really hate when you tilt your head a certain way and all the mucus goes that way, and air bubbles get released up your nose. It's very uncomfortable. I skipped school today and I have lots of things to do this week, so I hope I get better. At least it's not the flu.

Here's a wistful childhood story: Every year my elementary school would have this one day in the spring (right about now, actually) where they set up tons of games and snack stands and prizes all over the playground and inside the gym. Every year I would get so excited about going since it looked so awesome and fun. Every year save one I was sick and couldn't go. On the one I did go to, it rained and most stuff was packed up, and there were only a few things in the gym. That's about the only time of the year I'd ever get sick

I hope I don't miss anything important today.

**Wishfulthinker** · 02-05-2013 11:41 PM

Aww bless ya. Hope you're feeling better soon!

**Rozollo** · 02-06-2013 12:30 AM

Originally Posted by Zhaylin

If it's more involved than standard dialation,

Dialation in and of itself sucks enough.
But glad the news was good

Something sucks. I've been spelling dilation wrong my entire life

Yeah, it dilation lasts for about 6 hours with the stuff they use (+ numbing drops to manipulate the eye), so it's not a short term thing at all.

My auto correct said dilation was right. Isn't it?

**Linkzelda** · 02-06-2013 01:27 AM

So there's this perfect scholarship that has a deadline of March 5th or so.

There's no GPA requirement, U.S. Resident, JPEG requirement, and you can draw, use a photo of your own, an essay, but most of the entries are picture related.

I went through most of the entries and saw that 99% of them are complete and utter shit. I have this image instantly painted in my head of something I could do to completely destroy the competition. But I'm starting to worry if it's worth going back to drawing for now when I'll have to get busy after finding out how hard exams are when the first two weeks of them are over.

The prize is $1,000 , and based on the rules and requirements, I can seriously own the competition, literally. The problem is, if I wanted to do that, I would have to do traditional media drawings since my graphite drawings are shit. But I don't have a scanner to use so I could upload. So it means I'll probably have to use the three programs I use for editing and drawing digitally:

Sketchbook Pro
GIMP (rarely)
and Photoshop CS5

The temptation and thei mage is there, the idea is implanted, and now I'm in a conflict on whether or not to waste time on it or not. I'm worried more on my chances of winning it than the actual process of making the drawing, because that'll be easy when I spread my time out for the weekends.

I disregarded a previous drawing scholarship for $10,000 because it was TOO simple, a greeting card type of deal. And based on my experience, or limited experience with drawing contests, especially on DeviantArt, no matter how realistic I try to emphasize, someone who clearly fucking sucks wins.

Which means the sponsors hosting it have a particular image they want to see...but then again, based on the entries so far, it's literally embarassing, and I might as well take the chance to grab $1,000 , since there are 5 winners. The 1st prize winner just gets $1,000 like the other 4, including a $1,000 donation to their school.

That could be good in showing off what I could do if I had more time to draw, but damn it, it's too confusing. I can't be everything at once. I have to focus on studying and all that, but I know I have a lot of time in the weekends to draw. Maybe I can do one hour of drawing per day, but still, it worries me though.

FUCK....I'll just do it and see what happens.

I just hope I won't cry when my drawing doesn't even get top 5 for this scholarship, because if that's the case, this whole society's standards on drawing scholarships will be horseshit, and my whole fate in humanity will just decrease to -190324102392140.

.....................why can't I just live a life drawing and improving myself?

Bleh.

WAH!

**Taffy** · 02-06-2013 04:36 AM

A friend was upset recently and I think I'm more angry about it than they are.

**tommo** · 02-06-2013 10:47 AM

Originally Posted by Tiresias

Yeah, it dilation lasts for about 6 hours with the stuff they use (+ numbing drops to manipulate the eye), so it's not a short term thing at all.

My auto correct said dilation was right. Isn't it?

Dilation is right. Those atropine drops suck. Makes your eyes look cool, but when I got it a couple of times, I just couldn't stop blinking. Really annoying lol

**Linkzelda** · 02-06-2013 04:01 PM

I'm going to take take a 2 month break from Dream Views.

One: I need to stop taking myself so seriously and add more humor in my life. I don't want to become a bitter person at all.

Two: I probably just need to not focus on dreaming at all and simply focus more on meditation and other abstract things from dreaming, maybe I'll actually GET somewhere instead of recalling random dreams.

Three: I've noticed people completely disregard curiosity both in life and any forum I would go to, and that honestly is a turn off to me. Rarely anyone acknowledges how limited their horizon is, their perspective and perception of life isn't the most practical for everyone. It's not something that's always perfect, and yet they still imply that it is.

Rarely anyone remembers that if you want to find more knowledge, you have to use what you know and expand from that, even if it involves having a few mistakes here and there. It's no wonder I have no friends whatsoever, especially at a University with a Conservative level of OVER 9000!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

We can't possibly fathom all the wonders of the universe in this life, so how can people just restrict learning (no matter how hard you're on with evidence)???

Ugh, what a miserable world ._.

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Anyway, see you all in 2-3 months..

I hope Alyzarin is going to do alright too.

**Crashyy** · 02-06-2013 07:16 PM

So for the past few days, things changed alot. Well construction is way too tough for me. I'm way too tired during and after work. I just came back from my doctor's appointment. And she told me to ask the school principal to see if I can switch schools this month. So that's what we're gonna do probably this week. But if I would do that, there's also a chance I might not pass the 11th grade cause I've missed the past 6 months. Unless I can catch up and pass the december exams. But there's also a chance I might have to redo the 11th grade. Just cause I missed so much. I had some heart problems the past few years, so cause of that I had to redo the 10th grade twice. So I'm currently 18 years old (turning 19 this month) and I'm still in the 11th grade. So I really don't wanna redo the 11th grade cause that would be quite embarrasing even though it's not really my fault. So life would be quite good if I'm allowed to go to the 12th grade next year. So I can study criminology after. But I doubt that. So I guess I'll just have to wait until we've spoken with the principal. And thanks for all the replies though

**Iokheira** · 02-06-2013 11:49 PM

Couple of things here:

I was walking through the quad on campus and saw a group of people holding up various signs. One said "I love masturbating!" Now that's great, good for you. Most people do. They just don't shout it from the rooftops. If you do talk about it, it's with people you're close with or on an anonymous forum like this. I really don't care what you do. The thing that gets me is the complete lack of privacy. What is it with people and the lack of privacy nowadays? I really don't want to know who you're screwing, or how big your last dump was, or how trashed you get on the weekends. That stuff should remain private, or at most with a few close friends, not plastered all over the internet. Do you know how fast that stuff can spread? You're just creating a horrible image for yourself.

Screwing yourself over is one thing, violating someone else's privacy is another ball game. Has it ever occurred to you that maybe I don't want to be blogged about or have my picture posted online especially without you asking me? What is with that? Please, talk about yourself. Just yourself. And what about those websites that gather all of your information and sell it? I've worked pretty hard at erasing all traces of myself from the internet, and I've mostly succeeded (which makes those bloggers even more annoying). Then the one website that I can't touch says the only way to delete my info is to make an account, but the small print says by creating an account I give them the right to publish my information. WTF! Seriously, wtf. And stores! I'm sorry, but why the hell do you need my social security? I'm buying a pair of friggin pants. I'm not giving it to you. Nor am I giving you my address. Why are you asking for this crap?

Along a similar vein, there are those parents and grandparents who send a million pictures of their kid to everyone. I get that you're proud of your kid, but still. One, I don't need tons and tons of pictures, I visit just about every weekend. If you really must send me some pictures, pick a few really good ones out of the hundreds you take. Two, what if those kids don't like their picture shared? Sure, they're kids. They probably don't get the whole privacy thing yet. But maybe you could limit sending the pictures to just immediate family and not everyone you've ever known, at least until they're old enough to make the choice themselves.

My brother-in-law just did some tests on canned air and found that it's really bad for you, which sucks since I love using canned air on my computer. Bleh.

I was browsing around on the internet today and found some really beautiful custom knives. I would love to have one, but they are all a bit out of my price range (the starting price is $800.) Worth every penny though. If only I was rich... I don't get why people are so afraid of knives either. Maybe if someone was carrying around a Bowie knife I'd get antsy, but just a small lockback or penknife? Please. Why are you getting freaked out that I carry a 2 1/2 inch lockback? That's nothing. I'm also not the kind of person to go indiscriminately stabbing people either. You've known me for years. Show a little trust. I use the damn thing just about every day, so don't tell me there's no need to carry a knife either.

The quality of temporary tattoos has improved a ton since I was a kid. I'm glad I chose the "Hi-Five!" one for my hand instead of the Yo Gabba Gabba "There's a party in my tummy!" one. Cause this thing shows no sign of coming off by itself.

And this sickness keeps making me feel like I need to sneeze, but I never actually do sneeze. So I'm stuck with a twitchy nose and watery eyes. At least I feel better than yesterday.

Now to do a ton of biology homework.