113. It used to be worse though.
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113. It used to be worse though.
I took the test...I got a 9.
Maybe I should hold back more?
A 9? Wow!! Major Grats lol
:clairity: Tommo, Maeni, Crashyy and others.
I took the test and scored a perfect 100 :roll: 48 in Fear and 52 on Avoidance. I hate that it's called "Fear" though. I DISLIKE doing a lot of stuff, but am I really *fearful* of doing it? So I broke it down: "Talking to strangers". Am I afraid of talking to people? No. Then why do I avoid it? Because I might say something stupid. Therefore, I'm "afraid" of talking to people. :roll:
"Fearful" to m means, I'm about to drive off a cliff and I'm fearful I'll die. Nothing about my anxiety makes me feel like that. It mostly makes me feel frustrated and angry with myself.
My rant is that I slept all day. Hubby called and woke me up at 4PM. I'm not sure when I went to bed, but the sun was up. I'll not go to sleep again until tomorrow night.
Also, hubby's still not given me any of the money I requested. I'm beginning to think he's not going to.
But, he thinks he has plastic in his garage. We'll look for it tomorrow and I'll get it put up under the house if we find it in time. IF we don't find it, he'll likely give me the money, so I hope we don't locate it. Ad it is, I have no money for next week.
I require very little food and my son can suck it up... but the animals cannot and they'll be needed more food in a couple of days.
My son finally moved the living room into one of the unused bedrooms. I told him ahead of time that I doubted he would be able to fit the couch in there, but he tried anyhow. I told him I would not touch that skanky thing, but when he got it stuck between the hall and 3 rooms, I gave in. I mostly just told him how to move it and he got it done. I was most impressed lol. But then I feared he was going to have a heart attack! That boy is far too out of shape.
He loves it back there now. And because the distance is more than 10 or steps away, he's not in my doorway every 20 minutes letting the cold in.
But the dogs are most unhappy lol. The area is contained and that can't get to him unless he opens a door.
Ugh... and now I recall why I started using paper towels to line the birds cage instead of wood chips. The male hangs upside down and flaps his wings which act as shovels :cackle: I have wood shavings and feathers everywhere :bang:
I'm sure you cheated ;)Quote:
Originally Posted by Linkzelda
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Originally Posted by Crashyy
*needs a Scapegoat* It's her fault!!!! :cheeky:Quote:
Originally Posted by melanieb
But really, I was being honest. I'm not going to pass out if I need to make a phone call or anything to someone in public. :P
My life just got so much better wohoo :armflap: 86eede93becccfa216b1571c52d36581.png
I'm sorry I can't see how your life got better by a band on a dutch webpage??Quote:
Originally Posted by Crashyy
Anti-Rant: I want to order this sexy piece of equiptment.
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I'm going to their concert that's why :PQuote:
Originally Posted by dutchraptor
My first month of lifting weights, and i only gained 1.5-2kg of muscle, was hoping for more.. I hate to be so skinny! But once i reach my goal, i will look like a beast! :mwahaha:
I love you Maeni
Heh. Hehe... Drunk.
*hugs Patrick*
The support I do get here is amazing. I should be grateful for that, I mean since I've been complaining about a lack of support and all... Thanks Patrick :]
Rant: One of my friends from school turns out to be sort of crazy and a bit of a dick. He is letting his feelings control him completely and it is ruining himself and a girl he has a crush on...
Also why does this cold just keep being there?? It's almost like it's still getting worse? What the hell! I'm tired of being sick now.
Anti-rant: Today's been good~ Training, tons of shenanigans. When they don't try (they did try though) to get me to go with them to some distant playground, I don't have to feel the paranoia when I wonder what by-passers, Mr.T or the dad thinks about it. Much more comfortable to just have fun right there at their home.
88 on the social anxiety test, like a bawse. No wait, more like a timid secretary.
Today was a good day for me too.
I helped hubby check everywhere for plastic for about 3 hours. He finally gave up, reached into the breast pocket of his jacket and gave me an envelope with the money I requested :banana:
But I would have sworn there were tears in his eyes :wtf:
So, depending on my energy level and the weather, I may venture out to the mall to get my son some clothes tomorrow. I put plastic up under the modular on Tuesday (supposedly the only sunny day this week, and also the warmest).
I'm not looking forward to spending 40 minutes in the car with my skanky son though. His clothes could probably walk off of him. He's going to HAVE to wash his clothes before I can take him anywhere. Now that he's at the back of the house, he can run around naked while they wash and dry.
Within the next couple of days I'm also going to look into buying a cord for my dryer...
For now, though, all I want to do is sleep. I've been sleeping in my chair lately. I still majorly belch when I wake up lol. My mom told me to have my heart checked :roll:
It's insane how comfortable sleeping in my chair is. Here lately, I sit almost cross-legged but my knees are elevated on the arms of the chair. Then I cross my arms and use one as a pillow on top of one of my knees or I lay my head on my desk.
But I think I should crash in my bed tonight :lol:
Major anti-rant: the cold is already killing off the fleas. I think the dogs can actually start sleeping with me again.
Time to rant it up!
So we have this haunted place where all the teens go to be scared. XD it's only open during the fall. It's like $20 to get in and to do the haunted corn Maze/houses. Anyway I went with two of my best friends and we went into one of the "haunted paths" and right off the bat this creepy clown girl started chasing us. XD she got a little too into it and pushed us..we all fell. LOL now I have this bruise on my knee. It was funny though...LOL!
Anyway we were having a great time and my friend saw her ex-boyfriends best friend. So we went over to talk to him and he said he didn't have any money to go into any places. :/ so I give him $20 because I'm nice :p anyway we wait in line with him to get a ticket and he gives my friend his phone number and said he got a new phone. Then suddenly..he was gone. He disappeared with my $20. We called the number and it was fake. So he just stole $20 from me. I was mad but didn't want it to ruin our time. My friend was so upset though she started crying :/ and it just kind of ruined the whole night for us.
back from a 4 day trip to a video game expo that was a 12 hour drive away. being around so many people only makes me realize how isolated i am, and i have noone to talk to. it's also hard fighting my own biology (kind of like maeni's) against my morality. forever.
I used to know someone who was always doing stuff like that. He would steal anything from anyone, especially if it was to get more drug money. I even remember one time he called me at like seven or eight in the morning asking if I knew how to crack the password on a laptop he stole from people he just met....Quote:
Originally Posted by Mancon
Some people are just dicks.
Today in lab, our vial got stuck on a collection flask needed for making some fractions with samples. Our TA said it's just fine, and then when we're done cleaning up everything, I realized I needed to tell the TA I forgot my Carbon-less and Carbon copy Notebook set, but I stapled an extra copy with me in my notebook in case these things happens.
I thought she would scream at me or something, but she ended up being nice to me and just gave me a nice warning. I mean, I know that's not a bad thing, but I feel a little guilty, considering she scolded at other people before in previous experiments to have our notebooks ready. It's sort of a petty thing for me to worry about, but me being an exception to her and being nice to me just feels awkward.
It shouldn't be a big deal, but I don't even do anything well enough for them to pull some strings for me, because I would've gotten a huge deduction if she signed just one part of the carbon and carbon-less paper. Then I would probably just be accused for misinformation, and who knows what that would've led to.....I guess I should be grateful I'm getting on her good side.
Why is it that any woman that is always in a pissed off mood, both out of labs and in labs end up being nice to me.
It's not like I'm the only quiet one in the lab doing what I need to do to get decent results.....bleh, whatever....guess I'll just keep pulling of the quiet stunt to make lab experiments easier, since there's only a 5% effort needed when they accept a proper explanation of mistakes.
And I feel even more silly when this guy to the left of me who is occasionally my lab partner stated he made a 100 on his Organic Chemistry Exam...is he a robot?!?! :shock:
I want to see if I can get a study group with this guy, since he's like ALWAYS active, I'm just passive in labs and still manage to do things just as or a bit more than him, it's just that I always double-check...but this guy just does things in one go with near perfection.
Like....I doubt reading the experiment guidelines is enough for that, he must be getting help somewhere....this guy makes everyone look like shit in labs honestly..
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I don't have any friends who like the music that I like. Probably stems from me having next to no friends. Hardly rant worthy, but it's annoying when your favorite band comes to town and you have to go alone like a looser. I'm still going though, I don't want to miss my chance to see them.
What band and where? I know how you feel. I wanted to go to the Rush concert in Detroit last month but I didn't have any money and didn't have any way to get there.Quote:
Originally Posted by SpaceCowboyDave
It's okay. It happens all the time. Which was why I decided to join the fan club. :)Quote:
Originally Posted by SpaceCowboyDave
I get sick after drinking coke; too sensitive to the aspartame sweeteners :(
Ugh... I cannot tolerate any sort of "fake sugar". It's just nasty stuff- can't say that it makes me sick or anything, it just makes me want to barf because it tastes so gross.
Regular soda shouldn't have any in it though- just the diet or reduced calorie stuff.
My rant is that I feel like crap. I have a horrible headache, which I woke up with. My eyes teared for the longest time when I got out of bed. Stupid allergies. Just because the fleas are mostly gone, the dogs still cannot sleep with me it seems. I woke up at one point to see I was using poor Cocoa's butt as a pillow lol. She looked at me like :wtf: but didn't move. That dog is such a goofball.
I tend to feel like crap a lot after I wake up, but today I feel like absolute hell.
Another rant is that when I went to the restroom I heard Tiny calling. She was using the meow meant to call her children. She was walking in a concerned manner. I thought she was just locked outside in the rain, so I went to let her in. The front door was wide open and I couldn't find her anywhere.
I went back inside and then heard it: the cries of a new kitten. So I went back outside into the rain to try to find them, but the little one had gone quiet and mom was nowhere to be seen.
It would seem we have a new bunch of babies. Hopefully, this bunch will fare better than the last!
Might be time to sleep in your couch again Zahy....
In other news the father of my childhood friend passed away yesterday.
It's not a popular band, Old Crow Medicine Show is the name. They play Old Time (or pre WWII style bluegrass if you aren't familiar with the term), and the few friends that I have despise anything that resembles country music. (because they are stuuuuuupidddd, but that's beside the point) A lot of people don't like/don't know the type of music, so its a little far fetched I guess to have a friend who likes the same band. But like I said, I got a ticket, I just hope I won't be the only creep there without a group of friends or family.Quote:
Originally Posted by Woodstock
They'll be in Royal Oak, which is only about 10 miles away from my house.
I know philosopherstoned likes them.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=O2vJUadjdmo
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Originally Posted by LightofHeaven
They only put that in diet sodas. If you're drinking diet sodas for any reason beyond their taste it'd be better to just skip them all together. (In my humble opinion. I like my sugar.)
@Dave...it's okay to like the music you like, even if you dance alone. Maybe you'll make some new friends at the show! :)