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I have these electric shocks in my head at random times. So i did a little bit research, and now i'm afraid that i have Trigeminal neuralgia - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia. It only last 10 seconds though, so it doesn't effect me that mutch. But it worries me a little bit.. Let's hope i'm wrong.. :shock:
:hug: Auron. Sorry you've had such horrible success. Could it be you're after a certain "type"? I don't know where this thought is going.
I've been interested in SEVERAL guys throughout my life... to find out they were gay. Stereotypically, gay men are more open, good natured, affectionate. So my "type" was doing me in lol
And I had a friend in High School who was obsessed with jocks. But she was overweight (etc) and was constantly shot down. Could it be (in part) that as athletes, they wanted someone who could keep up with and be involved in their active lifestyle?
I don't know, people still confuse the heck out of me lol ESPECIALLY when it comes to attraction and dating!!!
Crashyy, welcome to my life :bang:
After getting several hours of sleep, do you wake up feeling refreshed? It could be (as in my case) that even though you're SLEEPING, you're not sleeping well. If you toss and turn a lot, suffer nightmares or vivid dreams your energy level will suck. There's also the possibility of sleep apnea.
But definitely try the easier stuff first before worrying about all of that: eat better, get some fresh air and exercise and see how you feel after that.
No real rants from me. Fatigue is a given.
I'm lamenting my voice lol.
Here's my range: http://youtu.be/1G4isv_Fylg I can sing the words of that song with ease.
But I wish my range was: http://youtu.be/Ny5H9GiVP_0 Sarah Brightman's voice gives me goosebumps.
I guess I should just be thankful I can sing and usually carry a tune :D But I really wished I sounded less manly lol
The thing that irritates me most though is that whenever I'm on the phone or talking to certain people, my natural speaking voice changes to a higher pitch. Sometimes I'd swear I sound like some 12 year old kid :roll:
I guess there are a few similarities in the the two I mentioned....the "I have a lot of guy friends" type. I've been avoiding them every since, or saying "look here....I like you" in a nutshell. It usually ends things quicker than the drawn out mess I've had happen in the past. And for some reason, I've come across a lot of women who were in relationships, but wanted to be with me. Those have always turned out bad. I'm not sure how I attract those women, but I know it's a waste of time. The bad part is....I've been single for so long, where I'm beside myself and I'm like "fuck it".
So I end up going through bouts with myself, where I'm completely content with being single, and then all of a sudden I feel like I need to be with someone. It'll get me depressed for a while, and then I'll bounce back and focus back on things that I need to, like school. This mainly happens when I'm not that busy. I need to occupy myself with things to get my mind off of it.....then next thing you know...someone strolls along and ask why am I single. Like they'll be really dumfounded by that, and the cycle repeats.
If it gets worse you should probably go see a doctor. I sometimes experience a very sharp tingle in my head like a spider-sense ( if you've seen the spiderman movies ) for a few seconds at random times doing the day, without the clairvoyant bit of course..
Do you experience any headaches or reduced clarity of vision after these 'shocks'?
:hugitout: Auron and Tommo. I'm so glad I don't have to worry about that crap anymore. My heart goes out to both of you.
But it's good you're being so forthright, Auron. Hopefully you'll get some positive results!!!
:hug: Ekyu. I don't know how I missed your post. I can't imagine being in that sort of pain!!!!
At first I thought you were talking about something like "brain zaps". But those aren't painful.
I hope it's nothing as serious as the link you provided. That sounds like hell.
@Zhaylin, I'm sure it'll end one day, and I'm sure most of this has happened just so I can really appreciate being with the right person.
And Ekyu, you're not taking anything that has B-6 in it are you? If it's a lot, it could give you similar symptoms.
Trigemin neuralgia is pretty severe pain. It's not a common affliction but it is strong enough to make some people really hate life. I recall talking to my neurologist about it when I was having severe migraines.
Little nerve pains are not uncommon and can have a variety or causes, most of which are benign. I wouldn't worry as it's likely something non-threatening like a slightly pinched nerve.
As always, if concerned, consult a doctor.
At least it's not Guillain–Barré syndrome.
^^ I saw a commercial about that this morning. Sounds unpleasant.
I had so much knee-pain last night I had to take two painkillers and I still had difficulty getting to sleep.
I've been spending the last couple weeks attempting to help my mom resolve a financial issue. Yesterday I found out her issues go deeper than I could have expected. Things are not good.
Last night my son worked on a Biology project using my computer. The work he plans on turning in is, let us say, not his best effort. I worry his grade will plummet lower if he maintains his current level of effort in the class.
I really picked the wrong week to stop sniffing glue.
Yes. :lol:
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Today my rant isn't really a complaint, but it's a rant nonetheless. I took a college algebra exam this morning and I finished it within like a few minutes. It was probably the easiest exam I have ever taken. There were questions that made you draw things like the graph of f(x)=(x^2)+2, but it wasn't even just draw it knowing what it means (as if anyone wouldn't), it actually already had f(x)=(x^2), and it told you to draw the new one using that. Really?? That wasn't even an easy equation I just made up to mock it either, that was actually an exam question. Seriously. -_-
My son informed me late last night that I have to take him to the Probation Office and some other place to fill out paperwork this morning :bang:
At 6AM, I became dreadfully tired and I kept falling deeply asleep in my chair only to wake up with severe belching lol So for the past 30 minutes, I've been Googling "Belching Sleeping Upright". I've not found any straightforward answers yet. If I was sleeping with my mouth wide open, I could understand. But I'm not. I'm a nose breather. And when I sleep upright, my head falls to my chest- tightly closing my mouth.
I had to dig out a needle and thread for my son. He wanted me to sew his pants but I told him no way. They've not been washed and he doesn't wear underwear lol. The huge rip was down the crotch of his pants. So I told him what to do and showed him some basics. He did a fairly good job for it being his first time :)
My phone time STILL has not gone through :bang: So I'm going to have to find a local store to make sure it was activated properly. Or call Tracfone and bitch. I can't afford to throw $20. away!!!
My youngest son wants to kill his original Facebook account. I have the password, so we're always playing tag with deactivating/reactivating it/changing the password. I changed his name. I banned his new account. I created a new email for it. He kept saying 'I need to kill Myles because he's dead. He's not me anymore.' But I'm like 'WTH, I changed EVERYTHING about that account. It's NOT you anymore.... If you don't change the password back now I'll not talk to you for 3 days. I've put in a lot of time and money into that account >:(.... forget it. Kill him if you must. It's not worth arguing over :)'
To which he replied: "Stop your crying. I wont."
But then he went and friended himself :bang:
He likes that the original is high level in a lot of games (the time and money I mentioned), so he can get a lot of help with his games. But if the accounts existence bothers him, why not just leave it alone (out of sight out of mind)?
Yeah. I know it's a silly thing to rant about :cackle: I'm emotionally attached to the account because I played his games for him when he was in Placement.
Gotta run.....
:hug: everyone.
No, i don't take anti-depressants. I'll probably go to the doctor next week, see what he thinks about it. Thanks for the support! :D
Oh, and Auron i take a supplement that has B-6 in it, but it's not that mutch.. Also i believe that my cereal has a little bit B-6 in it, but i had it long before all of this. But i know that to mutch of B-6 is bad, thanks for the advice!
HA! I made a failing grade on my Math Exam, good thing it's only 15% towards the overall 45%.....and I still have a chance to get an 87 in the class overall....but I have to make 100s in all 2 exams, and then at least an 85 or so on the final exam. I honestly thought I was going to get my GPR/GPA ****ed up until I reread the syllabus that it's just 15%, and I'm seeing a trend where as long as I make 110s and 105's during Math Recitation, my points might add up to an extra Exam grade (since Recitation and the 3 Exams excluding the Final are 15% each). Now all I have to do is actually take time to do the homework over again instead of finishing it in one go.
Mind switching grades for me? I could really use the high grade you'll be getting. :P (kidding :cheeky:)
Rant:
I'm going to have a relative come over to my apartment for the week, which means I have to reform to being proper all over again...like really...just because you're afraid a relative of yours is going to leave for a week, you think people are going to rob your house if you're all alone? How does coming over to my apartment justify any kind of protection? Is this person afraid of their own shadow????
Compared to my apartment, and their own separate house, my apartment, and the environment around it, CLEARLY has more danger than the house a few 100 miles away from here. Like really, there's drunkards every Friday, sluts walking down the streets getting ready for bar parties with men who probably have Chloroform and other forms of date rape drugs (all the guys care for is flat white girl ass).
LOL, along with the occasional mishaps and misbehavior, especially a neighbor two doors left of me that says he'll kick someone's ass for not letting him smoke........, what exactly in your mind makes you think I'm perfectly capable of making sure you're safe, especially when I have to worry about other things than you being an inconvenience in my apartment.
Relatives....they can be a pain sometimes...a real pain. Just when I have a silent and peaceful apartment all to myself, I'll have to deal with some paranoid judgmental person for a week. Thank goodness I have no exams during the week they'll be coming, because they would just stress me out. Ugh.
I don't want to be mean, but having this person over, and it's because I know how they behave, is really walking around with knives pierced into my back. And what's worse, they're an adult....like.....what was wrong with your childhood, it couldn't be that traumatic for you to not be comfortable living by yourself.
I'm only 19, and I'm living just fine in this battle zone called a University....you disgust me relative.
I've a weird rant.
I'm getting closer and closer to a good guy friend of mine, it's almost like every time we meet we get even closer when we are already very close. There seems to be no longer any mental barriers between us. We spent an hour chatting on the phone today because he was worried I might be depressed over my job termination so he called. Then we started casually talking about things that happened to us when we had just met 4 days ago. After I ended my call, I had this unspoken fear in me. I've no idea why being with him makes me feel comfortable yet afraid at the same time. Maybe because I'm having issues with my sexuality since I like girls. But I don't have any attraction for him (sexual attraction maybe :P) unless my heart does not know the feeling of falling for an opposite sex.
/EndWeirdRant
Tomorrow is my 2nd first school day of the new year cause I changed school. And I'm so nervous srsly lol. So stressed out, it's not even normal anymore. My dream recall is going to be shit when I wake up tomorrow morning. :panic:
haha, Link. Your relative would die of a heart attack if he stayed with me. I leave the front door to my home open at all hours. I go to sleep with the door strapped open (so the dogs can go potty freely).
I joked with hubby once saying the only time I close my door is when I'm afraid of something getting OUT :cackle:
When I go to the store, I close the door to keep the dog from chasing the car :roll: But my son opens it right back once I'm down the driveway.
Of course, I live in the Boonies. But there have been robberies, murders, abductions even in our tiny town. My hubby says I'm foolish.
The religious person cringes when I think of such things, Carrot, but love is love. I'm with "guys" because of my religious side. But I'm equally attracted to women. I've had a few flings with women throughout my life. For me, it's not so much about the sex as it is about the emotions- the connection. Perhaps you're the same way?
Auron, I thought about you while I was waiting in the car for my son to do his stuff. Women in relationships who pursue other people, in my experience, fall into 2 basic categories. Perhaps your "type" is one of them.
Type 1 is strong, independent. She might love who she's with very much, but she wants more. Perhaps she's a party girl. For such a type, maybe you're drawn to a no-strings-attached type of relationship initially.
Type 2 is the Damsel in Distress. She's miserable. Maybe even abused. She's looking for someone to be her Knight in Shining Armor. Maybe this type appeals to your nourishing side or the protector in you.
Or I could be completely full of crap lol. That's just what passed through my brain....
My anti-rant is that I got some stuff taken care of while out:
I worked on my daughters blanket some more; I dropped off 2 bags of clothes to Goodwill that I've had in my "trunk" for months; I stopped by the Dollar General and they got the minutes added to my card.
I also went to a dear womans house and left her a note. She works at Wal-mart and she used to frequently see me. I almost ALWAYS were a skirt and one of her relatives gave her a bunch of clothes she couldn't wear. So she asked if I wanted them. I said sure and thank you. That was several months ago. SOmething always interfered and then I stopped seeing her at the store.
I ran into her again last Friday and she said she would leave them on her porch if I would pick them up on Sunday morning. She gave me her address and I was surprised she still had anything waiting for me.
Well, on Saturday, my "Cousin" died and I completely forgot about those skirts.
So, I stopped by her place this morning and thanked her for thinking of me, but to not hold on to the clothes for my sake only. I explained why I forgot and left her my cellphone number.
I feel like a bum for standing her up but I feel good about the note. I just wish she had been home so I could have apologized in person.
But then I feel like crap all over again because I can't remember her name for anything lol.
Time to go eat some Cheetos and watch Prison Break :D I'll watch some comedies before going to sleep though Carrot :whistle:
That's exactly it. I'll get a combination of both. The ones who like to complain every day that their relationship they're in are miserable every day. In the back of my mind I'm going "I know you can do better, cause I'll actually give a damn". I'll give a good example of both.
Damsel....she was pretty awesome conversation wise, we had a lot of things in common....and I decided to ask her if she was married....turns out she was, and she wanted to get out of the relationship she was in. Or at least that's how she spun it on me. Turns out this chick had been married with this rich guy whom she also worked for, and was cheating on him with several guys. She was married for 20 years to this dude, but supposedly "stuck".
Damsel 2: The chick at the gas station....
Damsel 3: This girl at school. She complained about her boyfriend months on end, and wanted to move out. She even wanted me to be her room mate or something like that. I didn't fall for it....I just listened to her, suggested things, and let her tell me why anything I suggested was impossible. She broke up with him for a month, and now they're married.
Main thing they all had in common. Tired of who they were with, but were in super long horrible relationships. It almost made me think is this really what women do when they're not with their men?
Strong Independent 1: I dated this girl who would talk circles around me. I couldn't tell her anything because she thought she knew it all. Really intelligent girl, but she had this weird habit of bringing up the same exact stories. Well anyways, money was tight, so I couldn't see her that often, but when I did, it was all on me. I'd say we would see other a couple of times a month.....and then my mother died. That day I want to see her...just to be with her, and I wanted to go to some place quite....and she insisted that we go to a big bar/dam near night club. Ladies were drinking free that night and she still wanted me to buy her a drink. Anyways, I got to the point where I was like "hey, can't we go some place quieter?". And she was like yeah "yeah, you can go....I want stop you". I was trying to tell her that I needed to be with her because of what happened, and she tried to flip it to "what about when I need you"? Yeah....that was the end of that.
Strong Independent 2 "The party girl". Lets just say, I can raise my hand when someone says "have you ever dated a stripper before". She was cool, but she was always in "spend money on me" mode, and if I didn't, she'd be pissed off for the rest of the day. After losing my mother, and that crap relationship I just mentioned earlier, I just wanted to hold on to anything, and every time we went out, she would set my wallet on fire. She used to lie to me a lot, and one day I told her if she didn't call me back at a certain time, it would be over. Well she didn't....and tried calling me back the next day. I told her she was cool, and beautiful (like really, this chick was gorgeous) but in the inside, she's ugly. I hung up the phone, and she tried calling me back once, and I threw away my phone.
Why the hell are there so little people on DV :? I know its not a great rant but it sickens me to only see people around with who ask like 2 questions and then leave. I'm pretty sure the activity has gone down quite a bit since may.
Edit: after I posted this I got bored and decided to do some art only to later check that DV has 41!!! members online, holy fudgesticks.