Thread: Rant and Rave, Cry and Complain

My rant is that I slept all day and missed the big goodbye
I'm horrible about personally keeping in touch with people (just ask my mother lol)

Another rant is that I have a flea in my ear. That's what ultimately got me out of bed at 11:30. I could have slept longer. Now I need to get a shower and try to flush the little bastard out. It would be a really embarrassing thing to have to go to a doctor for something so stupid.

But I slept wonderfully for a change until then. I had lots of awesome and strange dreams.

I just went to look for jobs at local stores. None in the large shopping centre complex that I could see
But.... I SAW THE MOST BEAUTIFUL GIRL ON EARTH!!!!
Holy crap.....
I swear. I mean, usually I just walk around perving and saying to myself "woah...." "holy shit" "jesus can you get any hotter?" "goddamn she's fine" "look at dat ass" etc.
So there's that level of hot, and then there's "Holy fucking christ! I need to go pretend I need something from that shop so I can get a closer look".
So that's what I did. And then stood in line behind her as she was paying for her stuff (just good luck, I didn't follow her or anything lol) and just stared at her.
Incredible.... She sort of reminded me of one of my old friend, and I thought she was for a second, she was similar but a million times better looking.
Of course I didn't say anything coz she was so far out of anyone's league it's not even a question of whether she would like me.

Good strawberry's though.

Originally Posted by RobStar

Yeah, I sure do!

Take care Aly. All the best!
We will miss you.

Originally Posted by Singularity125

My other rant: I'd miss you too, Aly.

Originally Posted by ThePreserver

Aww, we're going to miss you! I think I understand what you mean, though. I joined a couple of years ago, and the first year was all about me learning about lucid dreaming, then I took a break, and now that I'm back, I basically only use it to chat with people on the site itself. Stop back and say hi sometime!

Originally Posted by khh

You're hardly going to solve the problem of old people leaving, by leaving yourself

That said, I'll also miss you. Do check back sometimes.

I'll miss you all, too. I will absolutely come back and visit, I promise. I know I seem all gung ho about totally stepping away from DV for now, but it's just because I really want to make sure that I stick to my motivation and get out into the world and start being active. Over time I'll start appearing on DV more and more again, I'm not just going to disappear for good.

Originally Posted by Darkmatters

Makin me all sad an stuff

Awww, look at that adorable sad little face.

Originally Posted by tommo

Ah, that makes sense then, Well, you are one very lucky person. Or you just know how to choose your friends lol.

I like to think I'm a good judge of character. But honestly, I think my friends and I just kind of found each other. I believe that if you really just put yourself out there you'll tend to gravitate like-minded people.

Originally Posted by tommo

You just made me realise that since I deleted my Facebook that my DV time has increased dramatically....
Hm.....
And the other day I also had my first thought of making another one, which is probably just a sign I'm slipping back in to old ways.

Yep, pretty much. I always honestly kind of thought of DV as the better Facebook. It's certainly the most similar forum to Facebook I've participated in, if you ask me.

Originally Posted by tommo

I can definitely empathise with that. For example right now I'm on here and after will check new posts in e-mail and spend hours on here instead of looking for a job.

....Damn.... that post has almost convinced me I need to leave now.
Especially that last bit. I've put all my energy that was being used on actual pursuits in to posting on DV and now Reddit too.
I think at the least I need a healthy balance. But way more energy in to other IRL things and way less on the internet. So not really a balance, but yeah.

Hm. Overly Dramatic Leaving song!

Oh no, people are going to get mad when I start dragging people away with me. >w< Do what you think is best for you, tommo. I don't want to sound all pushy, but it sounds like you've got a pretty good idea of where you want to be and where you are right now. Remember that things won't change unless you take that first step to make them.

And that was very touching, thank you.

Originally Posted by Zhaylin

My rant is that I slept all day and missed the big goodbye
I'm horrible about personally keeping in touch with people (just ask my mother lol)

Don't worry, Zhay, I wouldn't have left without saying goodbye one last time. I won't be gone forever so either way we'll get caught up eventually.

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Alright, I think I'm making this my official "break starts now" post. I may still catch a couple stragglers after this but from this point on your best bet at getting in touch with me on DV is through PM. I'll still be checking all PMs I get through email notifications, and if you like talking through email you should leave me yours in a PM because I'd prefer that.

I'll see you guys later!!

Let's see if this works.
This is the latest blanket I'm working on...
https://www.facebook.com/photo.php?f...type=1&theater

It actually worked lol
Here's the stitch of the one I finished last week.
https://www.facebook.com/photo.php?f...type=3&theater

Turns out (thankfully) the groove on my left finger goes away after a while... but my right thumb IS becoming calloused from the needle.

My rant is that I'm hungry but I'm going to wait until 8AM (1 1/2 hours) to leave so I don't disturb hubby.
Another rant is that I ate some cheese earlier then took lots of trips to the bathroom So now I'm kinda worried about eating anything else lol.

I swear on my fucking life, I was walking down the hall, and there was a massive tarantula spider, on the fucking wall.
We killed it.
I went into my room, looked at my door, FUCKING SPIDER.
Did I mention I have like, severe arachnophobia?

Originally Posted by Aly

Bye bye message

do not want

There's just something about friends calling you to tell you how great a time they're having, and about the fun parties they're at and the stunning girls there that gets you down, man.

Originally Posted by dutchraptor

Aly How is anyone gonna take supplements anymore, imagine how lost people will be without the excellent Menthol thread etc. I suppose its obvious that this forum only grows extremely slowly, it's just sad how many of the great members are leaving while only 1/10 of the new guys actually stay and become a part of DV. Surely you don't have to leave completely, just stay on a few of these threads. You, littlezoe, wolfwood, carrot and linkzelda are what started up DV for me and now I rarely see anyone but Link around .

I see my camo has made blending in with the shadows quite successful.

I've just been out... basically. Blame it on the weather.

Originally Posted by RobStar

Take care Aly. All the best!
We will miss you.

This. I hope your exploration takes you to a fulfilling land, Alyssa. ^_^

I'll be at school starting tomorrow so I won't be very active. If you want/need me my Skype is the same as my username here. I will check back every now and then to read about your misfortunes.

And my rant: school is starting tomorrow.

Originally Posted by dakotahnok

I'll be at school starting tomorrow so I won't be very active. If you want/need me my Skype is the same as my username here. I will check back every now and then to read about your misfortunes.

And my rant: school is starting tomorrow.

Good luck and have fun!

@ Aly:


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I've been high for over 19 hours and it sucks. Sucks so, so bad. The first 6 hours were enjoyable but then I got way too high and felt sick, and the time seemed to pass by so slowly. I don't know what I did to make this batch of edibles so strong (either better bud, more cooking time, more oil, or all the above). I'm not gonna touch the stuff for a week or two, this was fucking horrible. >_>

In a world where people will always have their own opinions about you, and even when you know that you have to do what's right for you, for your own happiness, and yet you still worry about people's nonsense and negativity, dissolving your chance of happiness.

I know these people will not exist forever, I know that people will come and go, so why do I still saturate my mind with their negativity? So what if they think I'm this or that...they are not perfect themselves. Overbearing scorn that are just words in vain, words that show how insecure they are about themselves to take it out on someone they think is "weaker" than them, when in fact I am merely playing things out and realizing that I'm actually more sane than them......

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Also, I am too eager for this tablet I ordered through amazon to arrive so I can actually get down and dirty with some digital art for damn sake!!!!!!

UGH, I'm already set for this semester and next for college, I have the opportunity to win a huge sum of cash if I can find the means of how to conform to the conditions to win this scholarship ending next year.....but I want to get practicing now so I can build up to increasing my chances of winning it and other scholarships as well!

Man, patience is so hard to maintain...keeping calm on something that can really be a good outlet and a way of relaxation through these few years I have left before I apply to graduate or even medical school....sigh.

god dagnit i jst droped my toast butter on the grond and it landed buter side don!
fml

Originally Posted by Aeolus

god dagnit i jst droped my toast butter on the grond and it landed buter side don!
fml

A Period of Rotation

"The angle imparted by the ungainly divestiture of the bread causes the bread to rotate as it falls, fuelled somewhat by the uneven mass distribution of the butter or other viscous substance (ugh! like Marmite) on the bread or toast slice. This rotation has a period and unfortunately the floor intersects this cycle exactly at the half way point, resulting in the deposition of the bread slice with the viscous side down. If the counter top were twice as high, the bread would land butter side up 95% of the time. You can check this with a ladder in your kitchen and drop bread missiles from it. If you haven't a ladder handy, cut the bread in fourths or use a saltine cracker and drop from normal counter height. You can see that the cracker has a different period of rotation due to its smaller size, and should be able to complete a full rotation before hitting the floor."

Well i've not been too active here in the last days... I've been feeling extra nervous and scared and who knows what... i even bursted out crying some days ago to my mom about how i hate my current situtation, that i'm alone and can't do anything... like my life is pointless. I'd like to talk to her about my problems in more detail, but i just can't for some reason.... i can't really talk with anyone in much detail about them....

I just don't know... i'm basically doing nothing all day while i would like to live my life normally, but i don't know how to start building things up now...

I talked about a guy already who i knew from another site since some time now and how i could stay at their place... well we talked about how we would meet first on Friday this week, but i'm too nervous and i'm thinking of ways to dodge this meeting and delay it by a bit... i don't know why i don't want to meet him... well i do want to meet him, but i don't know why i feel like he would react negatively towards me, but i have no idea why i feel this way. I just feel unimportant...

I don't really want to start ranting in long, because i would just repeat myself most probably and i don't want to bore anyone... i hope i'll be here more often though... after all if i have nothing to do i can at least check here.


Also, i'm sad that i missed Aly's goodbye, but i didn't expect it :/
I'm sad that you are gone, but i hope everything works out for you Aly!

I'm leaving London tomorrow at 10am and flying to Chicago to attend university. I'm kind of nervous at the moment. Goodbye sweet innocent kid's life and welcome to the world of independent living.

It's that time of year again where I'll be on much less. School makes me get away from technology a bit more (besides using it to type papers, which is an unfortunately frequent occurrence.)

I do like how it forces me to be more productive than I am right now. I'll still be around and complaining about my first-world problems, just not as often

all around

Gah. Life sucks and then you drink. And getting drunk euphoria only lasts for a couple of seconds. ... I need me some real drugs >.<

You need to maintain a 2 - 2.5 beer level of alcohol. Always seems to do the trick for me. Any more and I start feeling shit.

I found this old abandoned building and took pictures using my camera. I wanted to show you guys but the file size is way to large on this camera.

imgur.com Allows you to resize.

Wow, first I thought the College Station shooting a few days ago was a big concern, and now today, there was a robbery at Fedstar Credit Union.......too paranoid to even go outside for anything now.

Singularity and Link.

Stay safe Link!!

I'm doing okay. Don't really have anything to rant about except random aches and pains. I'm finally ALMOST finished with my multicolored blanket and then I'll move on to the one with the experimental stitch.
I had an MDT for my youngest daughter today. My stomach was exploding and I almost didn't make it, but they were running behind so I was in time. I finally broke down and told them I don't want Zee to come home. There's nothing good or healthy for her here. I want her to be transferred to a facility that has horses and a very high success rate (everyone who goes there loves it) and then they can work her into the Independent Living program when she's ready and of age. It's very far away though, so I'll only be able to visit her about once a month. But we'll get more time on the phone.

We also spoke about the case with the teacher. He waived a pre-hearing (or somesuch) so hopefully the case will progress quickly and be over soon. I found a forum called Topix and people don't know what to think. Some call my daughter a liar, some call him creepy and others proclaim his innocence. No one knows it's Zee who stepped forward and I've wanted to comment SO badly lol, but I know better.

I need to get off my butt and get some cleaning done, but I just don't have it in me.