Thread: Rant and Rave, Cry and Complain

Originally Posted by Linkzelda

I hate my life, my Runescape membership expired.

Dude, what's your username?

Small annoyance: I don't like that you can't choose which achievements are displayed under your username (on DreamViews). Also I don't know why it doesn't say I'm fully profiled. /quasi-rant

Originally Posted by Astrosomnia

Dude, what's your username?

Small annoyance: I don't like that you can't choose which achievements are displayed under your username. Also I don't know why it doesn't say I'm fully profiled. /quasi-rant

My username in Runescape is Wugguls.

I'm drinking!

k so we were watching Dexter and my boyfriend fell asleep on the couch. I couldn't wake him up. I'd wake him up and he'd get annoyed and tell me 'one sec', then fall asleep again a few seconds later. So I started tipping the couch forward, and when it was about 45 degrees he says "c'mon, quit it" and I stopped, then he fell asleep again. So, I had a devious plan. I lit a cigarette, woke him up and put it in his hand, and said 'better get outside!' (we can't smoke in the house). I accidentally burned him in the process, but it worked! Hehehe... lol

Cold Sore on my effin mouth

Originally Posted by Linkzelda

Damn it, I know I may not be strong like you steroid taking freaks, but you don't have to creep me out.

I swear, all they do is do a few reps, get up, show off, and repeat.

*sigh* I thought I didn't care about what people think....seems I'm wrong.

You know why they do that? Coz their muscles are fucking useless.
They can't use them for any extended period of time because they're so bulky and it takes massive amounts of energy to move.
Guarantee you could beat every one of them up. Just think about that when they look down at you.
All you'd have to do is dodge a few of their punches, move around a bit and they'd already be getting tired.

Another rant about jobs. Can't find any. There is one cleaner position for a hotel. That's about all I can find.
I wish I had stuck to learning computer related stuff tbh. Even though it gets boring being on them all day, at least it's easy to find a job.
Any outside work I find all say "experience necessary" bla bla bla. Fuck man....
I spose I could use that one time I milked a cow as experience. And go work at a dairy farm. haha
There's quite a few dairy farm jobs for some reason. Although it's a lot of travel.

My lip hurts. I just broke my phone. I bought some speakers for 16 dollars made out of skittle bags, that don't WORK.
my life is over.

Just kidding, I'm glad that those are my only rants. It has been a pretty great day. I bought "THE GRAND DESIGN". I'm very excited to read it. Stephen Hawking is my all time idol. My absolute favorite person in the world. If I could meet anyone it would be him!

My rant is still fatigue. I got plenty of sleep last night too *grrrrr* My period's about to show up which always makes me sleep more...
I actually had a micro-nap at my desk at 8PM. I woke up, looked at the computer clock briefly and wondered if it was morning or night

I brought 2 mattresses down from the Farm. I tried to use one of them but the springs keep jabbing me. So I just re-inflate my air mattress about every 3 days and it's working fine. I still can't find the leak and I don't feel like soaping it up to look for it.

My Farmville addiction is way out of hand. I literally spent AT LEAST 5 hours in one sitting yesterday rearranging and redecorating In honest truth though, I probably spent closer to 10 hours on it all in all. I'm a member on RS, but I've been ignoring it for a week now...

Originally Posted by DaveTheJoker

Cold Sore on my effin mouth

Oh man. I feel you. I feel you so bad.
Coldsores are easily the worst thing ever: just sittin' there bein' all "hey, I'm not that bad, just really fucking annoying and stupid for a week and a half".
GARGH!

(Deleting most of this post becuase it's way too long)
(This post is me bitching a lot. I'm sorry, but it's going to be the originating post of mine in here for a long time. I'm expressing anger here which I don't usually express)
I have no friends. All of my friends have left or barely talk to me anymore. Am I that unlikable of a person? Or are other people just fucking retarded? The only time I ever dislike anyone is if they're being assholes. There are no exceptions. But people dislike me and I have no idea why. It makes me feel terrible. After I got banned from a game I felt like putting a bullet through my head. I cannot handle rejection.

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I need new people to play L4D with, since my friends who used to play don't anymore, so I played some public games, hoping to find some nice people. I chanced upon a group of 3 friends who were all good and all seemed nice. I started talking to a couple of them and they seemed nice. Then the guy, who was 28 or something, found out I was only 22 and he deleted me. wtf? I've played that game with 50 year olds and there's really no problem. So today, I joined a game with the girl and the other guy, and they all seemed drunk. I was glad because I thought this might turn out to be a good group of friends to drink and play with. I'm nervous at first around people so I didn't speak up to tell them i was in trouble quickly enough, once, and they kicked me. One mistake and I'm kicked? From a friend's game that is supposed to be for fun, when you haven't even gotten the measure of me yet? Really? What the fuck? Then, while I'm waiting for the checkboxes to fill up, affirming me being kicked, the girl says "yeah sorry, I'll be honest, I don't like playing with other girls at all". WTF? What the fuck is wrong with people? Seriously? She doesn't like playing with other females? Because she wants a game to be a nice little paradise where she feels like the only woman and all the men have to fight for her? No competition? Is that it? Some of the funnest L4D games I've played have involved mostly females, or half. She's 29, gain some maturity, for fuck's sake.

There's a guy, my boyfriend's best friend (or used to be) who I used to talk to a lot. He and I were close once. He was mad at my boyfriend and at me for a long time, months. I actually met him in person when I first arrived here, and everything went well, then he started being mean to my boyfriend and to me and didn't talk to either of us for a couple months.

I realized I hadn't talked to him for a long time, and thought that maybe I could get us to talk more, and I could reunite him and my boyfriend. So I said hi to him, asked him about his work and his life, then out of nowhere he asks me, "are you still here?" (wisconsin) and I said yes. Then he says "that's hilarious." I ask why, and he just continues like a fucking asshole: "that's so ironic, that's so hilarious, you're still there, wow." I really wasn't sure what he was talking about, so I ask him why it's ironic, and he says "you know exactly why" or something, but I really don't. He had some fallout with some girl on Steam with whom he was involved romantically and is taking it out on everyone else. I was willing to look past his cynicism, so desperately I explained everything to him. Why I was still there, that his ex-friend and I were in a relationship now and I'm living with him, that we're both happy here and think it was the right decision. I told him that I'm sorry for his situation and hope it gets better, that I understand his concerns.

But he went after me, he insulted me more than I've ever been before. He said he was sickened by me for 'mooching' off of my boyfriend, for his money, which completely isn't true. It's a lot more complicated than that, and this situation is temporary. He called me a coward for running away from my obligations at home, which is far from the truth. I was drowning in obligations which shouldn't have been obligations, which were bad for me. He expressed irritation that I was living in the house he had helped to fix up (I asked my boyfriend about this later and he apparently only helped for like 3 hours to do one thing). He explained to me in detail why everything was my fault, that I ruined their friendship, that if I hadn't come into the picture everything would have been fine, that I'm ruining my boyfriend's life. He told me that I better not ever leave him, that I 'better marry him' or else he'll be fucked up and it will be my fault.

He has no fucking right to accuse me of any of this. He doesn't know the details of the situation, the thought that's gone into this. I was so infuriated but didn't know what to say, so after a while I told him that if he's ever willing to see that everything isn't black and white he can talk to me again, then next time I signed into Steam he'd deleted me.

So, again, I hate people. Some people, I guess. Most of them. He really was a good friend before, I thought he was a good person. I don't know if that girl fucked him up or if I just couldn't see how terrible he was before. I was willing to look past whatever problems he had with me, to just be friends with him and hang out with him. But he was so aggressive. So with the reminder of this too, yeah, I'm definitely done trying to befriend people. I'm actually a good person. I'm not mean to anyone unless they're assholes to me first. I don't give into mob mentality; if someone is being ganged up against I'm always the first to join the victim's side. I always try to understand other people's points of view. So I don't know what the fuck is going on, why I can't make any friends and why everyone seems to hate me. But I'm fucking sick of it and done with trying.

I feel so alone sometimes, people in this forum seem smarter than me (or just have a better way with words) and most people at school talk of trivial or stupid things.

Edit: Also I feel like you sometimes Dianeva, but not to that extent.

Lately i've been more easily annoyed than usual... and i get mad at a lot of things... not sure what's the reason O.o

I feel like my emotions are out of hand.

Originally Posted by Linkzelda

And I hate when I go to the gym, all those muscular guys look at me weird.....which makes me afraid to workout at those sections where you don't use a machine.

Damn it, I know I may not be strong like you steroid taking freaks, but you don't have to creep me out.

I swear, all they do is do a few reps, get up, show off, and repeat.

*sigh* I thought I didn't care about what people think....seems I'm wrong.

Haha, yeah, that free weight section is always camped out by the muscle team. Usually, they're actually quite helpful if you ask them to spot for you. Remember, everyone at some point.. started at level 1. ^_^

Dianeva. I hope things get better for you soon. That former friend sounds a real jerk!!!!

I'm still annoyed with my youngest son. I expect he'll run away. I was in a cleaning mood last night, which is an extremely rare thing for me. I was going to mop the master bedroom but Myles needed to get the boxes off the floor first. I told my oldest boy to call for him. He did so and a few moments later I heard "It doesn't matter why, just go see her!"
5 minutes or more later, he still hadn't shown up. My blood pressure started rising.

I told my oldest boy to yell for him again. He did, followed by the same "It doesn't matter..."
10 minutes later, he still hadn't shown.

I was getting angry at this point. I marched to the back of the house and told him to come see me.
And, by God, he would come to ME- so I went back to my desk and waited.
As he walked to my room he burst "What the hell is so God Damn important that I can't finish eating?!"

I told him he needs to come when I call. I don't care what he's doing. He can take a break long enough to see me. I don't request his presence that often.
Then he said "I'm not your damn dog."

WTF?!!!

I told him that he could finish eating (which he never bothered to mention before his outburst) then he would bring me my iPad because as long as he spoke to me in such a way, he had no right to use something that belonged to me; and he could pick up the boxes after that.

He brought out the iPad but ignored the boxes.
So I marched to the back of the house again and he told me "I don't feel like it."

Excuse me? So I went all the way into his bedroom and told him to do it. He asked why he needed to. I fell back into "old school" parenting and told him it was MY house and he had to listen to me. He said he'd leave and I told him to "Get going then."
He then said he was pissed off and I told him it takes a lot to get me mad but he was pissing me off and that it would take him all of 5 minutes to do the chore.
He finally did it but it took a long time for my blood pressure to return to normal and for the scowl to leave my face.

Then he had the nerve to say *I* was disrespecting *him*.
My oldest boy had a very hard laugh at that.

What the hell is that boys problem? It's not like I surprised him by my request. I had been asking him to pick up those boxes for a couple of days.

My rant for today is that the "real world" and dream recall seem to be incompatible. I was browsing here last night and got all excited again about the possibility of lucid dreaming -- fully intentional, because I have had nights where the enthusiasm made the difference. But a combination of being out of practice, and a random call before 8 AM kept me from remembering almost anything. I dimly recall that I had a dream about looking for work (kinda sad, really...) and I'm pretty sure my older brother was there... but that's literally all I remember. Guess I'm back at square one. =/

The following rant won't make much sense to people who don't have the type of OCD that they need the order in things... but what the hell i need to let this out :S

So, yesterday i updated my iPhone to the latest firmware (5.1.1) and it's fun and all, BUT: Now i installed SBSettings, which is a little tweak that adds some buttons into the notification center for easier use.

Now the only problem with this is that for some reason the icons are not in the center, no matter what i do, even if i change the theme, they stay a little off, here is a picture:



Look at the icons below the "Search here" bar.... they are off to the left side for some reason...
Now it was a long time since OCD took over this much, but anytime i look at those icons, i can't help but keep thinking about how they are not in the center and this thought keeps annoying me to hell :S Even if i stop looking at it, i can't take my mind off this... and this will probably happen anytime i look at it in the future... ugh.
I don't know what to do with it, but i feel like throwing away my phone somewhere to forget about it for a while... but i don't want to break it, i like it a lot.... but i just can't stop thinking about how those icons are off... it's almost like some kind of torture... ugh.

But there are too many good features of SBSettings to uninstall it... i don't know what to do :S Maybe try and write to some developer and ask if they can fix it or something

I know it must sound really weird...

Originally Posted by Wolfwood

I just ate a whole jar of peanut butter.... :/ 2100kcals lol. Oops.

I would like that... If only my throat doesn't feel like it's getting sick if I ate too much peanut butter. Reminded me, I should get myself peanut butter ice-cream sometime soon! ^^

And I ate Japanese curry at level 5 spiciness today. The waitress was shocked when she heard my order, I even ordered an extra kimchi. I honestly tasted nothing but the chilli after I ate for a while. Then my mind was too screwed up because of the pain from the spiciness and I was in a little daze. And it's kind of salty. I finally know how the curry tasted like when I burp now because I was too numbed by the chilli previously. That's a rant.

Originally Posted by tommo

Another rant about jobs. Can't find any. There is one cleaner position for a hotel. That's about all I can find.
I wish I had stuck to learning computer related stuff tbh. Even though it gets boring being on them all day, at least it's easy to find a job.
Any outside work I find all say "experience necessary" bla bla bla. Fuck man....
I spose I could use that one time I milked a cow as experience. And go work at a dairy farm. haha
There's quite a few dairy farm jobs for some reason. Although it's a lot of travel.

I have thoughts about being a cleaner too.

And I really hate the experience requirement. I even applied for a low pay job but to no avail.

Originally Posted by littlezoe

Lately i've been more easily annoyed than usual... and i get mad at a lot of things... not sure what's the reason O.o

I feel like my emotions are out of hand.

I'm easily annoyed/irritated too.

Let's blame it on the time of the year.

Originally Posted by littlezoe

The following rant won't make much sense to people who don't have the type of OCD that they need the order in things... but what the hell i need to let this out :S

So, yesterday i updated my iPhone to the latest firmware (5.1.1) and it's fun and all, BUT: Now i installed SBSettings, which is a little tweak that adds some buttons into the notification center for easier use.

Now the only problem with this is that for some reason the icons are not in the center, no matter what i do, even if i change the theme, they stay a little off, here is a picture:



Look at the icons below the "Search here" bar.... they are off to the left side for some reason...
Now it was a long time since OCD took over this much, but anytime i look at those icons, i can't help but keep thinking about how they are not in the center and this thought keeps annoying me to hell :S Even if i stop looking at it, i can't take my mind off this... and this will probably happen anytime i look at it in the future... ugh.
I don't know what to do with it, but i feel like throwing away my phone somewhere to forget about it for a while... but i don't want to break it, i like it a lot.... but i just can't stop thinking about how those icons are off... it's almost like some kind of torture... ugh.

But there are too many good features of SBSettings to uninstall it... i don't know what to do :S Maybe try and write to some developer and ask if they can fix it or something

I know it must sound really weird...

I understand lol. And I laughed at it.

I'm not so much annoyed by that, probably because it's not my phone. I'm just having problems typing and reading words now because of my OCD, all those stupid redundant checking. OCD I hate you.

Originally Posted by Carrot

I understand lol. And I laughed at it.

I'm not so much annoyed by that, probably because it's not my phone. I'm just having problems typing and reading words now because of my OCD, all those stupid redundant checking. OCD I hate you.

It's not that funny as it seems, but i can understand if it seems like that

I always think that i can get fully rid of this OCD, but then a small thing like this happens and it gets all over me... at least i don't do anything physical anymore, it's just the thoughts... but they annoy me so much eh...

Originally Posted by littlezoe

It's not that funny as it seems, but i can understand if it seems like that

I always think that i can get fully rid of this OCD, but then a small thing like this happens and it gets all over me... at least i don't do anything physical anymore, it's just the thoughts... but they annoy me so much eh...

Well if you're trying to do something to the obsessive thoughts, in a way you're giving in to it and it falls into compulsion acts. Even if you're mentally trying to do something about the thoughts. As long as you see something that triggers obsessive thoughts and you tell yourself something in your mind not to bother yourself over it, that's already counted. If an object or event doesn't trigger your obsessive thoughts, then I would consider that as OCD cured.

Sorry about laughing, I find my own OCD thoughts funny too so I just give it a laugh and live on with it. What else to do?

Originally Posted by Carrot

As long as you see something that triggers obsessive thoughts and you tell yourself something in your mind not to bother yourself over it, that's already counted. If an object or event doesn't trigger your obsessive thoughts, then I would consider that as OCD cured.

If only it would be that easy

Originally Posted by Carrot

Sorry about laughing, I find my own OCD thoughts funny too so I just give it a laugh and live on with it. What else to do?

True, it can be funny sometimes, but if i can't get rid of that thought then it loses it's fun factor fast

Originally Posted by Zhaylin

Then he had the nerve to say *I* was disrespecting *him*.
My oldest boy had a very hard laugh at that.

What the hell is that boys problem? It's not like I surprised him by my request. I had been asking him to pick up those boxes for a couple of days.

How old is he? I guess he did feel disrespected, for whatever reason, even though he shouldn't have. It is your house, and most kids have a healthy understanding of that and a willingness to do at least a few chores, but he seems to be missing that.

I was a little like that at one point while a teenager, but probably for a different reason. I felt like my parents thought I didn't want to do anything and was lazy, so whenever they asked me to do something, I always felt like it was because they were trying to get me to do something *for once* rather than actually needing something done. So even when I did do something, I didn't feel that good feeling I might get from helping out, I just felt worse. But, the whole time, if there had ever been something that I knew needed to be done, that I could legitimately help them with something, I would have done it without them asking.

I doubt that's what his problem is, but there definitely seem to be some communication issues. It seems most people, in his situation, would have come to tell you that they're eating and ask nicely if the job can wait a few minutes. And most people, in the older brother's situation, would have told you the younger was eating and asked if it were okay to wait a bit as well. There is some weird psychological stuff going on in your family. I wish I knew what it was.

Originally Posted by Singularity125

My rant for today is that the "real world" and dream recall seem to be incompatible. I was browsing here last night and got all excited again about the possibility of lucid dreaming -- fully intentional, because I have had nights where the enthusiasm made the difference. But a combination of being out of practice, and a random call before 8 AM kept me from remembering almost anything. I dimly recall that I had a dream about looking for work (kinda sad, really...) and I'm pretty sure my older brother was there... but that's literally all I remember. Guess I'm back at square one. =/

That happens sometimes. It doesn't necessarily mean you're back to square-one. Just try not to be distracted next morning, think about your dreams and maybe you'll remember at least one full one.

Originally Posted by littlezoe

The following rant won't make much sense to people who don't have the type of OCD that they need the order in things... but what the hell i need to let this out :S

I completely understand. In fact, looking at that, I'm getting the same OCD problem. I don't know if it's because you brought it up first so I was looking for it or not, but if I had that now it would bother me too. Is there no way to move the display a bit, under display settings or something, like you can do with monitors?

I notice the 'Y!' from Yahoo is a bit farther to the right on the row below, so in a way, that row ends too far to the right. What if you keep that in mind, that the first row is too far to the left, and the second is too far to the right, so in a way they're balanced? That starts to work a little for me but it still bothers me quite a bit.

Originally Posted by littlezoe

I always think that i can get fully rid of this OCD, but then a small thing like this happens and it gets all over me... at least i don't do anything physical anymore, it's just the thoughts... but they annoy me so much eh...

I've also been trying to fight it lately, because urges keep coming back. They were pretty much gone, or at an ignoreable level, for years, but seem to be increasing again. I try my best to ignore them, and that works, to some extent. Just STOP the thought process, walk away from the thing that's bothering you and casually think about something else, not focusing too much on 'not thinking about it'. But sometimes it's so strong, at least a few times a day, that I really have no choice but to give into it, especially if it's something easily fixable that is causing a hell in my mind.

Originally Posted by Dianeva

I completely understand. In fact, looking at that, I'm getting the same OCD problem. I don't know if it's because you brought it up first so I was looking for it or not, but if I had that now it would bother me too. Is there no way to move the display a bit, under display settings or something, like you can do with monitors?

Sadly, it's not that easily customizable that i could move it even a little bit... It's weird because before putting the buttons into the notification center, they were well placed... it's just like this since then. I guess it must be some bug or something, because different themes change the look of buttons, ect, but they always stay a little off :/

I searched for a fix on google, but no useful links popped up... seems like nobody else cares about this o.o

Originally Posted by Dianeva

I notice the 'Y!' from Yahoo is a bit farther to the right on the row below, so in a way, that row ends too far to the right. What if you keep that in mind, that the first row is too far to the left, and the second is too far to the right, so in a way they're balanced? That starts to work a little for me but it still bothers me quite a bit.

Hmmm that's a nice observation... I try staring at it and think that it balances it out, but the Yahoo button is too small compared to those above :S

Originally Posted by littlezoe

If only it would be that easy

My mother doesn't understand that. She told me just don't think about it and you would have no problems. Clearly forgetting the idea of an anxiety disorder.

My dog took a big ole crap while I was in the shower and when I walked out I stepped In it

So I spanked, with a rolled up newspaper, her for the first time in a few weeks because she hasn't did something she knows better than to do, and I brought her outside and made her sit out there for awhile, because she really hates being separated from me, she has a base form of Seperation Anxiety I think.

When I went outside, to let her back inside, she had dug a really big hole Which she also knows not to do, so I had to go get the newspaper and give her another swat...

It breaks my heart spanking her much more twice in one day, she screams really loud like some banshee when spanked too.

3 PMs per hour limitation =( I understand if it were to prevent spam, but it isn't spam at all. I send someone a PM, like 45 minutes later I send someone else one, then 10 minutes later another. Now I need to reply back but can't. The limitation should be changed to 10 or something.