Thread: Rant and Rave, Cry and Complain

Originally Posted by Puffin

Two-week spring break starts tomorrow! I'm happy because we're leaving for Toronto, but I'm sad because my mom didn't say we'd be gone for a WEEK... And I won't see my boyfriend until I get back. Then I'm going to Vancouver for three days near the end of spring break...

I should be excited, but I don't feel like I am.

Damn a two week spring break. We only get one week off here.

I hope you have fun, and owch, I can't really say much about how much you'll miss your partner, but

Hugs to everyone! I just caught up by reading the last 3 pages.

It's still raining here. The meteorologist said it wouldn't start back up until 4 this afternoon. I woke up around 7 this morning and the rain was coming down and the fog is so thick I can only see a couple blocks down the hill.

We had planned to have some outdoor activities today. Guess that isn't happening.

And to really kick my ass it looks like I will be driving back in to the rain when I go back to Texas on the 19th. Happy Birthday to me!

Muhuahaha! I have the last laugh, DMV. I passed your silly test, even after an unwanted all-nighter! God, now that the adrenaline's wearing off I could pass out at any minute, though. >.>

And disregard the self-loathing in my last post. I get that way when I'm tired.

Originally Posted by melanieb

Hugs to everyone! I just caught up by reading the last 3 pages.

It's still raining here. The meteorologist said it wouldn't start back up until 4 this afternoon. I woke up around 7 this morning and the rain was coming down and the fog is so thick I can only see a couple blocks down the hill.

We had planned to have some outdoor activities today. Guess that isn't happening.

And to really kick my ass it looks like I will be driving back in to the rain when I go back to Texas on the 19th. Happy Birthday to me!

Happy Birthday!$%!%@#^)*@$%&#%()^()^*(#%&)%*&$%&)$*&$

Melanie. Sorry to hear the weather hasn't been cooperating

Singularity!
And I understand your sleep-deprived self-loathing. I'm more prone to self-injure when I've been skimping on sleep. It can really do a number on my mood. But it can also spark creativity and outgoingness But it might as well be the roll of the dice in finding out which it will be

Have lots of fun Puffin!!! It would have been nice if your mom gave you more of a heads up so you could have perhaps planned on doing something with your BF before leaving.

I'm ranting because Snuffanuff smells again. It's a combination of skunk and trash. I never did give him a bath last time, but I don't think there's any way I can tolerate this smell!!!
I'm also still grumbly about a FB message I received in the early AM hours. Our big dog Rocky had followed some kids to the trailer park after they came over here. One of the girls (who didn't come with them) sent me a really nasty message that she wasn't going to bring him back and if I wanted him I'd have to pick him up or she was going to find him a loving home where he would stay inside or she would take him to the pound.
WTF?! If I was such an unloving owner, then why the hell have they given me at LEAST 4 dogs throughout the years because THEY no longer wanted them and the pets would have gone to the Pound.
In fact, THEY gave Rocky to me to begin with. WTF?!
If she had ignored him, he would have come back home. I talked to neighbors AND the people working at Exxon to make sure the dogs weren't being pests. Everyone was fine with them occasionally running around. The dogs HAVE been staying in the house because some jackwad keeps undoing their chains when they stay outside.

What's worse is that she sent the message to one of my FB accounts that I rarely use.
She got ahold of me on my real account asking if I wanted him because if not she was going to take him to her fiancees house. I had a conversation with her about it and she was polite. She contacted my other account FIRST but I still had to respond to it. I told her I didn't appreciate her attitude, pointed out they've given me all the dogs we've ever owned and told her if Rocky doesn't work out to send him back to me before dumping him at the pound.
But I should have kept my mouth shut. She's just (honestly) so bipolar she ticks me off sometimes. She sent messages to 3 of my FB accounts. If she hadn't gotten in one of her moods and previously deleted her account she would have remembered which one I use. The jerk in me wants to tell her to take her freagin meds or stay of the internet. I really dislike 2-faced people... but, she has a legitimate complaint AND a legitimate excuse for her lashing out. But cripes, what is she: 12 years old or the 19 she's supposed to be?

No, bad me.

Originally Posted by melanieb

Hugs to everyone! I just caught up by reading the last 3 pages.

It's still raining here. The meteorologist said it wouldn't start back up until 4 this afternoon. I woke up around 7 this morning and the rain was coming down and the fog is so thick I can only see a couple blocks down the hill.

We had planned to have some outdoor activities today. Guess that isn't happening.

And to really kick my ass it looks like I will be driving back in to the rain when I go back to Texas on the 19th. Happy Birthday to me!

How can you not write that in bold and caps???

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MELANIEB!!!!

Oh wait you're a Pisces? I like Pisces, they get along well with me!

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Rant for today (and for every other day): I hate reading because I'm too slow at it. And that explains why I don't read everything on DV.

Originally Posted by melanieb

And to really kick my ass it looks like I will be driving back in to the rain when I go back to Texas on the 19th. Happy Birthday to me!

Happy birthday. Hope it won't be too bad, and that you will get some enjoyment.

Thank you all very much! I really appreciate it!

Actually my birthday is on Monday. I'll be spending it driving 90mph through west Texas.

Glad you passed your driving test, Singularity!

And I get along well with most people. Come visit sometime, Carrot. We can go drop in on Aly, Ophelia, and Link.

YAY Happy Early Birthday Melanie!!

Party at my house for the locals!

Originally Posted by Alyzarin

No, bad me.

Aly.. WHAT are you doing??

Aly.

I'm ranting because I'm sort of dizzy-ish. I've taken in less than 1,000 calories today, so I'm sure that's why. PLUS, I just started my period.
I've lost 6 pounds in about 1 1/2 weeks. So THAT'S good.
My thighs are still incredibly sore. I *limp* whenever I walk down the porch stairs and I have to support the bulk of my weight using the banister. I'm going to have ease more into an exercise routine, because I've done nothing for what- 2 days now.

I'm craving veggies. I REALLY want some steamed cauliflower. I might get my advance tonight and go get some fruits and veggies.
But I'll likely have to wait until Sunday. My son is supposed to clean his sisters room for a video game. I'm supposed to go out on a date for Sushi and a movie with my hubby tomorrow. If my son gets the job done, I'll pick the game up at the mall.
He's still deluding himself into thinking he'll get it done by then. He doesn't feel well and has been lying on the couch all day
If he doesn't start on it by 9, I'm going to use my advance for food instead.

Originally Posted by OpheliaBlue

Aly.. WHAT are you doing??

Wasting my money on things I don't need to be buying for happiness that doesn't last. Ehhh. I ended up doing ecstasy last night. Which in itself isn't really bad, it's not really a dangerous drug like speed or something, I just don't need to be doing those things anymore and I didn't even really have a reason to, I just wanted to be high.... I ended up in a setting more like the ones I used to be when I was doing drugs and I lost my good judgement. :T

Originally Posted by weakamon

Something like this?

No, I meant, the exact same post. Probably my imagination though.

@ Alyzarin: D:

This is weird....In EVERY SINGLE ONE OF MY CLASSES today. 'Lucid Dreaming' was written in small letters on the board. AND IN EACH CLASS THEY HAD DIFFERENT HAND WRITING. I swear to god I thought I was dreaming. It was weird.

I found out my friend who i always ride the bus home with has lucid dreams :O but inconsistently.... today

My Mom's a fucking fool. I love her and all but goddamn, she's so utterly clueless some times. After my Dad started drinking again, about a year ago, she didn't make any real effort to get him to stop. All she ever did was nag and belittle him, thinking that would somehow cure someone with a long history of alcoholism.. who's also dealing with depression brought on by the death of his mother. Not once did she even bother to have a proper conversation regarding the matter. Just bitched and moaned like I child even though I clearly explained how it just makes the problem worse. A few nights ago, after a 3 hour conversation with my Dad, I convinced him to stop drinking. He was going to start cutting back and then eventually quit altogether. The problem was solved, everything was fine until my Mom fucked everything up with such a grandiose display of stupidity that even Shakespeare couldn't have scripted it better.

Yesterday, my Dad went over to my uncle's place for a get-together with a couple relatives and a few drinks. My Mom came home from work while I was taking a shower and the mment she realized my Dad wasn't home, she went straight to my uncle's house. She didn't bother talking to me about it beforehand, she just went their simpl for the sake of causing a fucking scene. She could have called my Dad and told him to come home early but no, she just had to go there. The moment she gets there, she starts flipping out. You don't go to someone's house and cause a scene, especially if you're from an Eastern culture. I can't even begin to describe how fucking damaging a move that was. If you're from South Asia or even East Asia, then you probably already know. If you're not, you simply won't be able to fathom it. It just causes such a fucking mess dsafjknfjsdfbbgjk

She justified it by claiming that, although it didn't help in any way (it just exasperated the problem like never before), it was worth it because now he won't drink with them any more. No, of course not; he won't drink with them because he can't even get together with anyone any more on account of them not wanting to get caught up in a what was supposed to be a private matter. How is depriving him of company and forcing him to drink alone going to help? That's when his drinking gets to be a problem, when he's drinking alone. That just means they'll be in a bad mood while they're drinking, making them drink even more. How does that help?

And now, she just called another uncle of mine and told him a one-sided account of what happened, and told him he should encourage my Dad to stop drinking. No, you clueless clown, you should be the one who encourages him to stop. Making him look like a fool in front of his peers isn't going to solve anything, you need to grow up and handle this like an adult. That means sitting down with him and having a civil discussion, not endlessly berating him like a child - which only encourages him to ignore your requests out of spite. And then on top of all that, she told my uncle that my Dad doesn't go to work these days because of his drinking. That's just a load of bull, the only reason he doesn't go to work as often as before is because things have slowed down. Whenever my Dad gets a call for work, he goes. When he doesn't get a call, he stays home. Drinking has nothing to do with it. How she even connected the two is beyond me.

I've tried talking to her but she just doesn't get it, she's convinced that she's right and that anyone who disagrees with her is just enabling my father. At this point, I'm kind of thinking a divorce would just be the easiest way to solve things but, given their upbringing and cultural norms, that just won't do. Neither of them is independent enough to make it on their own and a second marriage is completely out of the question (apparently it's "dishonorable") so that would just complicate things even further. I sure as hell wouldn't want to stay with either of them, but I'd have to or it would just make things worse.

Random rant. I skipped over a lot of things so it probably doesn't make much sense, just typed out whatever came to mind.

tl;dr - people should be required to take some sort of maturity test before being allowed to start up a family.

Originally Posted by GavinGill

people should be required to take some sort of maturity test before being allowed to start up a family.

this

Was just about to do that. lol

There's always interruption whenever I try to write my dream journal. Today my uncle decided to mop the floor. Maybe it's a bad idea to start writing dream journals again. My dreams were pretty interesting these two days even though I haven't been watching shows that's why I decided to jot them down. Wanting to write a dream journal and unable to do so is making me very pissed. Do I have to wait for nightfall everyday just to write something that will only take me about an hour?

It's a bad idea after all. I should stop forcing dream recall soon.

Keeping a DJ is a bad idea? Why stop recalling your dreams?

I'm ranting because my throat is sore and red again this morning. I also woke up freezing but I was also comfy, so I didn't want to get up and turn on the heater. So I turned on the lamp next to my bed and I bent it to shine on me. That thing puts out a wonderful amount of heat lol
Also... my freagin thighs are STILL sore. It's so strange because it's the upper front side of my thighs that aches so much- NOT the back. But walking around is MUCH easier today
I got my veggies last night BUT, I was so hungry when I got to the store that I bought nearly a pound of Onion Rings. I only ate about 7 of them though. My son got some and the dogs got the rest because the Deli over-cooked them I also bought a small bag of BBQ Rice Cakes. They were surprisingly very good. I ate all of them throughout the night. They're only 150 calories per serving though (and 3 servings in all).

I did give Meesha two showers yesterday AND I showered Snuffanuff as well. That was an adventure lol. I had to get in and shower with him and once I was inside with him he calmed down a whole lot.
And this morning, when I took the dogs out, I forgot Meesha outside lol. I noticed before I sat in my chair and when I got to the door, there she was in anticipation. She let out a few indignant whines then came inside and started doing the poop dance and tried to go behind the couch. I yanked her up and took her outside before she could! She pees outside no problem. But she prefers to poo behind the freagin couch I need to find a way to block her access... I think she prefers it back there because she likes her privacy. I'm going to have to keep the other dogs inside and take her out alone methinks....

Originally Posted by Zhaylin

Keeping a DJ is a bad idea? Why stop recalling your dreams?

Keeping a DJ is good. I like it. But I get very pissed off when I can't write my dream journals because I'm interrupted too much. I don't like having to wait till nightfall when it's peaceful to write it because the dreams will weigh on me for the whole day making me "burdened". It's just the feeling when you have something important you want to do but you can't.

Originally Posted by Carrot

Keeping a DJ is good. I like it. But I get very pissed off when I can't write my dream journals because I'm interrupted too much. I don't like having to wait till nightfall when it's peaceful to write it because the dreams will weigh on me for the whole day making me "burdened". It's just the feeling when you have something important you want to do but you can't.

When I woke up this morning, I had a lot of dream recall still lingering inside my mind. Because I had to get ready to brush my teeth, eat breakfast, etc., I could only write down so much. So what I did was just remember one aspect of each dream, and hanged out to those thoughts while I was busy taking care of things and packing up to go back to College Station. I even typed down the dreams while I was in the car going to College Station while my father was driving.

I think something you should practice is that when you do have the time to recall your dreams, when you do have the tranquility and silence that you deserve to type out your dreams, don't just type them as your mind helps you collect them. Try to remember key things in the dreams, like one of the dreams I had last night or early morning, even though I didn't have time to write the whole content down, I knew the main thing that lured me was "Lips"

So I held on to that thought "red lips," and when I had time to think about it, I thought about red lips, and was able to recall the dream just fine, in fact, my recall of it was a bit too long, but either way, that's good because I'm getting my recall up so that I can remember any shared dreaming attempts I'll have in the future when I become lucid.

Yes, sometimes real life can be a pain in the ass and force us to try and forget our dreams, but if you condense each dream to a few key categories, and if you practice it gradually, you won't get it on the first try, you'll be able to recall much better and branch out your experiences better.

This way, even if you do have to forget about typing your dream journal, it will be less of a "burden" for you throughout the day because you'll rely on those key categories. And when you add imagery to it, it just makes it even better, which is why I try to use a lot of images, but just enough so that I can glance over and know what I experienced already. And sometimes if the dream recall is longer, I add more images to help link each part together.

If you try this, even when you have to deal with waking life ordeals, you'll be able to trace back to those dreams.


Then again, maybe it's because I'm used to remembering a lot of experiences from having a somewhat consistent dream journal

Originally Posted by Linkzelda41

When I woke up this morning, I had a lot of dream recall still lingering inside my mind. Because I had to get ready to brush my teeth, eat breakfast, etc., I could only write down so much. So what I did was just remember one aspect of each dream, and hanged out to those thoughts while I was busy taking care of things and packing up to go back to College Station. I even typed down the dreams while I was in the car going to College Station while my father was driving.

I think something you should practice is that when you do have the time to recall your dreams, when you do have the tranquility and silence that you deserve to type out your dreams, don't just type them as your mind helps you collect them. Try to remember key things in the dreams, like one of the dreams I had last night or early morning, even though I didn't have time to write the whole content down, I knew the main thing that lured me was "Lips"

So I held on to that thought "red lips," and when I had time to think about it, I thought about red lips, and was able to recall the dream just fine, in fact, my recall of it was a bit too long, but either way, that's good because I'm getting my recall up so that I can remember any shared dreaming attempts I'll have in the future when I become lucid.

Yes, sometimes real life can be a pain in the ass and force us to try and forget our dreams, but if you condense each dream to a few key categories, and if you practice it gradually, you won't get it on the first try, you'll be able to recall much better and branch out your experiences better.

This way, even if you do have to forget about typing your dream journal, it will be less of a "burden" for you throughout the day because you'll rely on those key categories. And when you add imagery to it, it just makes it even better, which is why I try to use a lot of images, but just enough so that I can glance over and know what I experienced already. And sometimes if the dream recall is longer, I add more images to help link each part together.

If you try this, even when you have to deal with waking life ordeals, you'll be able to trace back to those dreams.


Then again, maybe it's because I'm used to remembering a lot of experiences from having a somewhat consistent dream journal

Thanks for typing that all out. But I actually do not have any problems remembering my dream. What can I say about my recall, it's pretty good too.

I used key points to remember my dreams too. But as I progress along in the day, some small parts might be lost and I don't like that. But it's not being unable to remember my dream that's pissing me off, but the fact that there's something important I want to do, but I can't do it properly that's upsetting me. Not really sure how to explain. Maybe because I'm a perfectionist cum OCD issues.

The burden of not being able to write my dream journal will be there for as long as I haven't write it, and it doesn't even help even if I posted snippets of it in "Share your dream from last night in one sentence" thread. It's just the feeling. That's why when I was younger I need to complete all my homework before I can sleep, no matter how tired I am.

Oh, wow. I really apologize for that, it seemed you had some trouble about recalling your dreams there Carrot. But yeah, I get what you're saying now.

You're saying that you remember so much to the point you think it's a concern because it side tracks you from taking care of more important things.

Think of it this way, you know you have important things to do, but try to look at recalling your dreams as a step that you'll want to take care off as soon as you can, because either, you will find yourself tempted to finish what you started.

Maybe you just feel overwhelmed that you have other priorities to take care of, and those are always important over remembering your dreams, but if you just think of it as something you take one step at a time, I'm sure it won't feel tempting to forget your recall.

I'm sort of a perfectionist myself, especially when trying to remember my dreams, because when I can't remember them, I get really mad at myself for wasting all that sleep for nothing (I tend to ignore that getting sleep is supposed to be a good thing anyway lol).

It's too bad that I'm not such a perfectionist in college as I was in High School lol.

Again, I do apologize for assuming that you couldn't remember much. I guess I'm just able to remember those "snippets" so to speak, and am able to branch off from those, probably because I have an abstract stream of consciousness that allows me to finish the dream recall because I type pretty quickly.

You seem to have the type of thinking process that involves getting things complete without hanging on to a few traces, which seems to be something I'm used to actually, and that's perfectly fine if you can't, and don't worry Carrot, even if you can't complete those dreams, just use that as motivation to gradually allow yourself to get things across even faster.

I do have an obsession in remembering my dreams, because it helps me take the edge off of trying to deal with the nonsense life gives all of us, so I guess I have and "OCD" for it as well, because I find myself almost taking SO long typing it out that I forget to do other things like eat or have something to drink, and I end up going to my classes inducing an endurance of not feeling hungry lol.

I guess I should sleep earlier to prevent that from happening, but I'm getting off topic from what I was saying to you. But yeah, it must be hard having the urge to just complete it, while knowing that you have so many things to keep in mind that you deem as important, but just know that those urges of trying to complete your dreams do not have to control your judgement in finishing something else.

You will always have the next day to look forward to remembering more dreams.