Rant and Rave, Cry and Complain

So I didn't have the best morning.

Today I had a lab exercise starting at 12.15 and nothing before it, so I stayed up quite late. It's the first lab I have in this subject, and we're working in a clean room complex that cost "well over 0.25 billion NOK (~ 44.7 million USD)" to build so I was a bit nervous and wanted to go over the procedures before going. At 8.45 though I was woken by my phone ringing. Groggily I answered, only to find it was the student assistant calling because apparently I was supposed to have the lab at 8.15, and had noted it wrong in my calender. So I had to rush out, no breakfast, down to campus and into the lab.
Then when we were doing the exercise and was on the second last step, we discovered that the hotplate we had used was incorrectly calibrated so we were unable to develop the samples... and so we had to start over again, still on an empty stomach. Finally we finished, and I got home at around 14.15 and could finally have a bite to eat... But at least it was fun.

As I think I mentioned here before, a friend of mine keeps using the incorrect form of 'your/you're' on facebook and it really bugs me. I know it doesn't matter because it's friggin facebook but it's as if she's actually trying to get it wrong... It's not difficult! So anyway I decided to be a bitch and I mentioned it to her, she said it was just laziness. Now I feel really stupid and guilty for even getting annoyed by it in the first place. I mean, it obviously doesn't matter. She's just being lazy on facebook, big deal? Why do I have to get all high-and-mighty about it?

Makes me wish I was a bit more easygoing about the little things that don't matter.

Sounds chaotic Khh! Glad you made it!!

Ugh.. I have a similar gripe, Patrick, but I always bite my tongue. Run-on sentences are the worst... ESPECIALLY if they don't use caps and such :roll:

I'm ranting because I'm awake. What the heck?! I didn't fall asleep until almost 6AM, so why did I wake up at 9:30? And weirder yet, why had I pulled one of my arms inside my shirt when I was asleep lol Was I too hot and trying to take my shirt off :lol:
I'm having a lot of anxiety symptoms, so I'll probably take 1/2 a Clonazepam then go back to sleep once it kicks in.

You aren't the only person here who cares when someone slips up, grammatically. I care, I seem to recall Dianeva cares, and I'd be willing to bet a few others around here would roll their eyes when confronted with Facebook posts like that.

The use of language matters, even on Facebook. Otherwise you end up with posts like these Tweets from Courtney Love: <<<click for source

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uh oh the worlds mots fabulous person just asked me out, oh my. nuff said. hmmm.

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im not used to truly fantastical creatures Godlike Genius people asking me out its been some time, id idnt just play the Garden, hmm,

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i do love it when someone gets me without the circus just me kooky as i am, its so rare i better say yes immediatly!and say nothingperusual

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Originally Posted by melanieb

You aren't the only person here who cares when someone slips up, grammatically. I care, I seem to recall Dianeva cares, and I'd be willing to bet a few others around here would roll their eyes when confronted with Facebook posts like that.

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Yeah, I care too. Consistent errors like that bug me :cheeky:

I'm a little annoyed because I have sore muscles from my fall yesterday. What the heck? It's my outer/almost upper muscle from above my ankle to below my knee. It's not bad though, just enough of an ache to nag me. But it's not like I was exercising. How did I pull the muscle from merely stumbling to my knee :roll:
I guess it just goes to show exactly how out of shape I am :lol:
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Originally Posted by Pensive Patrick

As I think I mentioned here before, a friend of mine keeps using the incorrect form of 'your/you're' on facebook and it really bugs me. I know it doesn't matter because it's friggin facebook but it's as if she's actually trying to get it wrong... It's not difficult! So anyway I decided to be a bitch and I mentioned it to her, she said it was just laziness. Now I feel really stupid and guilty for even getting annoyed by it in the first place. I mean, it obviously doesn't matter. She's just being lazy on facebook, big deal? Why do I have to get all high-and-mighty about it?



Makes me wish I was a bit more easygoing about the little things that don't matter.

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My boyfriend's daughter always uses the word "ganna" in her texts, like "I'm ganna go to Brianna's house after school"

drives me up the WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAALL

I have tooth aches, headaches, neck pressure/pain, tinnitus and benign muscle fasciculations daily acting as the base of moderate to major anxiety. This type of stuff just wears one down mentally. I don't expect anyone of any age to bode well with many little problems like this, but being only 23 it is disconcerting; a lot of years yet for things to simply get worse. I've had nothing of this sort a couple years ago. Hard to cope with something coming upon me so suddenly, and considering most of my symptoms are from an unknown cause the mystery only makes it more difficult to accept (Doctors and dentists only alleviate the problem and feeling for a time, but it never leads to a permanent solution). Everything wears down, I guess. I've battled with health anxiety on and off since middle school. Dealt with depression a little while back. Just ready to be "normal" mentally, reminiscent of simpler years. I've long had an aversion to being tethered to medication but this reservation is waning away in light of general unhappiness.

Perspective is naturally very important. The same person can have the same condition and be happy or sad. The problem comes when a person knows they are being irrational, or do not have it as bad as others, but have no control over one's own feelings. I know that I am A) blowing my problems out of proportion and B) am blessed and should be thankful, but this knowledge has virtually no bearing on whether or not my distress is present. Month after month I expect this to fade away. Indeed, it does have times of remission, but it just pops back up again after a painfully short intermission. I used to do things like play video games for fun. Now it's a utilitarian activity to "forget" that I'm breaking mentally. Perhaps I'm making it seem worse than it really is, but there isn't much harm in a little embellishment, eh? :P

There's my little confession. I've told people IRL, but I may as well leave note of this on the Interwebz. Good times had by all. :3

That's really rough man. :blue: I had no idea.

Have you tried therapy? I've always hated the idea of just throwing drugs at a problem too, but in conjunction with therapy might do some good? I hope you find a solution, or some more relief from the condition at least.

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Originally Posted by GestaltAlteration

I have tooth aches, headaches, neck pressure/pain, tinnitus and benign muscle fasciculations daily acting as the base of moderate to major anxiety. This type of stuff just wears one down mentally. I don't expect anyone of any age to bode well with many little problems like this, but being only 23 it is disconcerting; a lot of years yet for things to simply get worse. I've had nothing of this sort a couple years ago. Hard to cope with something coming upon me so suddenly, and considering most of my symptoms are from an unknown cause the mystery only makes it more difficult to accept (Doctors and dentists only alleviate the problem and feeling for a time, but it never leads to a permanent solution). Everything wears down, I guess. I've battled with health anxiety on and off since middle school. Dealt with depression a little while back. Just ready to be "normal" mentally, reminiscent of simpler years. I've long had an aversion to being tethered to medication but this reservation is waning away in light of general unhappiness.

Perspective is naturally very important. The same person can have the same condition and be happy or sad. The problem comes when a person knows they are being irrational, or do not have it as bad as others, but have no control over one's own feelings. I know that I am A) blowing my problems out of proportion and B) am blessed and should be thankful, but this knowledge has virtually no bearing on whether or not my distress is present. Month after month I expect this to fade away. Indeed, it does have times of remission, but it just pops back up again after a painfully short intermission. I used to do things like play video games for fun. Now it's a utilitarian activity to "forget" that I'm breaking mentally. Perhaps I'm making it seem worse than it really is, but there isn't much harm in a little embellishment, eh? :P

There's my little confession. I've told people IRL, but I may as well leave note of this on the Interwebz. Good times had by all. :3

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You've got my sympathies. :hug: Anxiety sucks. :( I went through periods of thinking I wasn't getting enough blood circulation, then thinking I was constantly on the verge of having a seizure, then a stroke, then a heart attack, then that I had a tumor, and then brain damage. My latest anxiety was thinking that I have blood clots. The only advice I can really give is to learn as much as you can about anxiety and learn how to control it, and eventually you can at least train your body to fight it off, even if it doesn't go away forever. Don't turn to drugs unless you think you really need to, it may be okay for lighter anxiety and stuff like social anxiety for a while but with the heavy stuff it just makes things worse. I was on Xanax for a short amount of time and eventually I had to take large doses of it to have any effect, and it still wouldn't make the symptoms go away, just my freaking out about them, which doesn't make you feel the slightest bit better about them afterward. And then I had to go through the hell of coming off Xanax. I still get withdrawals symptoms every now and then. Totally not worth it.

Thanks for the responses you all. :)

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Originally Posted by OpheliaBlue

That's really rough man. :blue: I had no idea.

Have you tried therapy? I've always hated the idea of just throwing drugs at a problem too, but in conjunction with therapy might do some good? I hope you find a solution, or some more relief from the condition at least.

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I've tried it precious few times about 1.5 years ago. I can see benefits if this is done long term. Stuff like talking about it here helps, in fact. :cheeky: Therapy is a must if the drug option is taken at all, I agree.

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Originally Posted by Alyzarin

You've got my sympathies. :hug: Anxiety sucks. :( I went through periods of thinking I wasn't getting enough blood circulation, then thinking I was constantly on the verge of having a seizure, then a stroke, then a heart attack, then that I had a tumor, and then brain damage. My latest anxiety was thinking that I have blood clots. The only advice I can really give is to learn as much as you can about anxiety and learn how to control it, and eventually you can at least train your body to fight it off, even if it doesn't go away forever. Don't turn to drugs unless you think you really need to, it may be okay for lighter anxiety and stuff like social anxiety for a while but with the heavy stuff it just makes things worse. I was on Xanax for a short amount of time and eventually I had to take large doses of it to have any effect, and it still wouldn't make the symptoms go away, just my freaking out about them, which doesn't make you feel the slightest bit better about them afterward. And then I had to go through the hell of coming off Xanax. I still get withdrawals symptoms every now and then. Totally not worth it.

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Thanks for the support. I've avoided medication due to hearing examples like your experience, and I've had the view psychiatrists and doctors are too gung-ho in prescribing what is typically very long-term medication. Nothing more hellish than withdraw, either. Will continue to try and seek options other than meds. :eek:

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Originally Posted by GestaltAlteration

Thanks for the support. I've avoided medication due to hearing examples like your experience, and I've had the view psychiatrists and doctors are too gung-ho in prescribing what is typically very long-term medication. Nothing more hellish than withdraw, either. Will continue to try and seek options other than meds. :eek:

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Glad to hear it. :content: Like I said, try to learn as much as you can about anxiety. That's what helped me. Like, what symptoms (actual symptoms) go along with it and make it worse, and stuff like that. Anxiety is self-perpetuating. Once you figure out what's causing it for you you can come up with personal ways to get around it. I know I've mentioned this somewhere in this thread before, but I would get the suffocating feeling a lot. Usually that means you've actually got too much oxygen, it just happens to have the effect of making you feel like you don't have enough, so you take big breaths and that makes it even worse. That's what the standard breathing exercises are for (quick deep inhale through your nose, slow full exhale through your mouth) but for example if you're too panicky to focus on your breathing, you can try putting on a song you really like. One that'll make you calm and that you don't have to focus on to be able to sing along with perfectly. That way it distracts you and brings you to a better state of mind, while at the same time getting you to let loose a lot of your oxygen. So if you can reach the point where you figure that kind of stuff out, you can get around it a lot more easily, and eventually when you've fought it off enough it'll be a lot easier to convince yourself that it's just anxiety. :)

I find it amazing that a person would hate me because I thought something they declared was wrong, sorry for having an opinion. Like really...are humans really so pissed when they can't find someone to add on to their list of people that "like" them?

I guess it's just based on the level of being accepted and feeling like they are wanted. But what amazes me is that...no matter how much I try to know that these people I meet in life are really just foolish to think that I shouldn't have my own opinion, and that theirs are absolute or right, even though it's obviously saturated with theories that will obviously be rejected with more efficient and tangible ones, I just can't help but seeing them dead.

It's not because my opinions aren't respected, it's the fact that they are ridiculed until they get enough people to follow their fucked up mentality. And then when I do something right for once while everyone fucks up, suddenly I turn into this genius.

Like really, I know I'm not omniscient, and even with my passive demeanor of just ignoring people in real life, I know that I observe a lot, and from those observations, my mind already has created ways to formulate why humans behave a certain way.

Also, I find that most of my friends on Facebook (they aren't even friends, just associates, people I've met) are starting to become dipshits, I go on to see if they're alive, and then I see them make really stupid opinions that are just...a bit concerning.

They don't want anyone challenging their opinions, and their idiotic friends who have the competence of light switch go on this roller coaster of agreeing with them, and then agreeing with them when they change their opinions. They just go on and off with their ideals, and it seems they're just tools instead of actual human beings.

I've also noticed that a few women want to be friends with me at this University, but I don't want to be stuck in the friend zone, especially if they're bloody hot. Ehhhh.

It seems the only place to make friends is if people are in the same class as you or something, and because of that, I don't see any hot chicks around here. I guess most of them are taking the Kinesiology, Education, Business, or generic majors. Even though one would see a lot of people during their freshmen year, it seems that even if I find an attractive female here, I just can't help but to repress the urge to even introduce myself to them.

The reason is, by the time I shake hands with them, I wouldn't want others to believe I'm flirting with them, especially when they have boyfriends.

And making friends with men? Lmfao, get out of here dude! I'm not one to make a lot of male friends anyway, there's too much of this borderline shit with them worrying if they're....eh never mind, it's pretty obvious.

Why is it that all the hot girls in this University are taking the basic majors, and the ones that are kind of cute taking Biochemistry or Genetics as their major look like they're stuck up or something.

Especially a few girls who are sophomores or above that I know are Biochemistry majors, it's like...how do you say this....they're so protective of themselves, as if they have anything worth to offer other than to just at least try to be open to other people without degrading their self-esteem. They are so quiet towards me, and it seems that if I even utter something like "Uh", they suddenly turn their head with interest if I end up socializing with them.

I know I'm quiet and I don't really go out much, but I can't be so quiet for you to have fast reflexes to think that I only speak every 25,664,643,453,646, light years or something...

I also find that there's a side of me that really judges attractive women, I think it's because I've had repressed urges in the past in High School that are suddenly coming out now in College. It's like I'm scanning every single women that looks attractive to me, and then suddenly forgetting about it and going back to this horrible facade of being a passive and neutral person.

I know looking at women is a biological thing, an instinct, but damn, it is really hard to fucking find female friends here. I know that all women in this University are just plain awesome, because they have morals, and they don't tolerate nonsense (excluding the rarity of sluts in dorm rooms if you can find them).

I want to be more confident, and I know I've been through this petty speculation over and over, but it keeps coming back to me.

I guess I'll go make some pancakes and scrambled eggs now.

Also, I find almost all women I meet are nice to me, but I'm not sure if this is just basic competence in portraying respect to everyone at the University (since they have a pretty important emphasis on respecting others), but I don't know...it just seems so shallow when they act nice towards me.

Their tone in voice changes compared to talking with their friends, they seem more lively, but I don't think I deserve this type of liveliness from women if I'm just being neutral and passive overall. I can't help being neutral, but....

/rant over, peace.

14 hours at work both saturday and sunday.

Looooooooooooovely weekend ahead :blue:

The upside is I just got paid today and I got a bonus, so at least I'll be eating well!

Next Friday and Saturday I'll be spending 14 hours in the car each day, driving to California. I feel your pain, Ophelia.

Link, you are awesome! Now...it's time to stop overanalyzing what people think about you, and just accept good company at face value. Meeting someone cool has to start somewhere, even with the 'hot' girls, and it's good to make friends with them because even if they put you in the Friend Zone, they'll likely introduce you to someone else that will consider you special.

Everyone that has been special to me in the intimate sense was introduced to me because of an association, either directly by a friend or because someone I knew held a party which allowed me to meet someone interesting.

You clearly have a lot to offer. Give people a chance. And if it doesn't work out with one, or another, you still aren't worse off than you are now, and the experience will help in so many ways!

+hugs+

Oh, and happy Texas Independence Day!!!

Oh wow you're driving to California? What city? And what for?

Can I come too :blue: it's my home and I miss it.

Seriously fucking sick about how insensitive a lot of the people in my life are. No one cares about anyone but themselves these days, no one has any compassion.

Oh, also. It snowed like crazy earlier. Seriously, the snow flakes were freaking huge. There was barely any visibility. It was extremely windy, and the snow was going in every which direction, it was also super cloudy. This was at like 9am-12pm, and now it's super nice and sunny out <_______< wtf is this bipolar weather.

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Originally Posted by OpheliaBlue

Oh wow you're driving to California? What city? And what for?
Can I come too :blue: it's my home and I miss it.

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My dad lives in Oakland, so I'm going to drive the kids to see "Crabpaw" and spend a week enjoying some cooler weather. It's 15 degrees cooler there right now, I'm so looking forward to it.

Sure, come along, plenty of room. You can ride shotgun and help me find my exit in L.A. to turn north.

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Originally Posted by Erii

Seriously fucking sick about how insensitive a lot of the people in my life are. No one cares about anyone but themselves these days, no one has any compassion.
Oh, also. It snowed like crazy earlier. Seriously, the snow flakes were freaking huge. There was barely any visibility. It was extremely windy, and the snow was going in every which direction, it was also super cloudy. This was at like 9am-12pm, and now it's super nice and sunny out <_______< wtf is this bipolar weather.

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I care about myself, but without even knowing what country you live in I care about you.

Still, I don't suppose that helps your situation.

Still... +hugs+

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Originally Posted by melanieb

My dad lives in Oakland, so I'm going to drive the kids to see "Crabpaw" and spend a week enjoying some cooler weather. It's 15 degrees cooler there right now, I'm so looking forward to it.

Sure, come along, plenty of room. You can ride shotgun and help me find my exit in L.A. to turn north.

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sweeeeeeeeeeeet

My dad and step-mom live in Paradise, CA, I love it there

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Originally Posted by melanieb

I care about myself, but without even knowing what country you live in I care about you.

Still, I don't suppose that helps your situation.

Still... +hugs+

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I live in Missouri, woot woot. Close to you, in Texas.
And aww thanks :hug:

Mostly it's just people in my immediate life, people on DV are much more caring. But just the people I interact with every day are so self centered and arrogant.

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Originally Posted by OpheliaBlue

sweeeeeeeeeeeet
My dad and step-mom live in Paradise, CA, I love it there

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It's only 165 miles away, that's not far. *nudge-nudge*

My last surviving grandparent passed away this morning. My brother and I are heading on quite a long drive this weekend to attend the viewing and visit with relatives we haven't seen in a long time.

:hug: everyone.
Link, listen to Melanie :)

I know the feeling Erii. I think part of it is when you see everyone day and day out, you become more aware of their flaws. I'm sure if most of us hung out IRL we'd quickly become annoyed with one another to varying degrees :) But then again, there are some truly arrogant and self-centered people out there and I'm sorry if you're surrounded by the lot of them! They rub me the wrong way too and I just have to GET OUT.

My only rant is that I put my car in the garage. Thankfully, hubby found an extra opener for me so the rant isn't nearly as big as it would've been. I don't like feeling stranded... but if a tree falls on my car, then I really would be stuck lol. There's a nasty storm system coming our way. I hope it's intense but not dangerous. I love a good storm.

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:hug: Anderj. So sorry about your loss.
Have a safe trip.

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Originally Posted by anderj101

My last surviving grandparent passed away this morning. My brother and I are heading on quite a long drive this weekend to attend the viewing and visit with relatives we haven't seen in a long time.

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This would be another valid use of the "dislike" button. I clearly can't like this post. Sorry to hear.