Thread: Rant and Rave, Cry and Complain

Has anyone gotten ahold of Deery? I've not seen her for awhile.

My rant is that everything is loading SO slowly.
I also have an MDT to go to in an hour (informal meeting about Destinee's progress and goals).

I hadn't seen her for a while even before this happened. Same with Darkmatters, now that i think about it... I'll try PMing her.

The girl in my Biology Lab, when we were done with everything, we all headed out for the door. She used her feet to open it, but I think she put too much force.

When the door hit the wall, she's like "Oh!" And bam! As soon I said "Nice," I knew she was going to get me into a conversation. I think she was being being aware of her thoughts as she started to ask me questions, and she mentions that she knows that she mentioned these questions to her before. I'm kind of in that spaced out zone, and I just say that it's all right and I don't mind at all. Then she says she likes this relationship we're having.....




















This FRIENDSHIP that we have. And the innocent look on her face was waiting for me to respond to say "Yes" or "No"

Why can't I have a portable button that says "Friend-zoned?"

And what's worse when she realized I was just spacing out, she jokingly says that I'm probably thinking, "Why is this BITCH talking to me!?!?" and starts to laugh.

That's when my mind went to "lolwut? I didn't think that nor did I want to say that! And she said it so LOUD that the people outside the hallway could hear it, which means the Biology Lab classmates heard it too. She obviously said that at loud to see how I would react....and I'm speaking quietly

I think they know that she's interested in me, but they're just being quiet of course. She started to ask where I live, which I gave horrible directions for...and she starts mentioning that her sporadic nature or whatever is what she gets from her cousin.

Like, I don't care about what you said. We never HAD a friendship! We're only "friends" because we have to work together in the lab, and there's no way in hell that I'm going to have petty qualms with lab partners.

After the semester is done, I'm going to forget you, like I did for the other people! It's just natural because no one really is going to remember you unless you're important to them.

And I also could see some girl having a problem with another girl because she gave her wrong information, and when she found out it was wrong, she was deciding whether or not to correct her or not....and this other girl said that they should be good Samaritans and show them the answers to the table to make the cladogram.

They did, and the girl with the pink jacket, I could just tell that she hated the other girl, or maybe I'm just paranoid?

Because she had her body to the side listening to the TA, and she looked at the other girl like there was a catfight going on or something. Her face said, "You whore" to the other girl.

Loooooool, isn't this cute? Oh and the quiz average for the class was a 3/10...so yeah, there's definitely going to be major curving for that. And the practical exam is like next Thursday, and the TA looked like she was concealing her rage on the class' performance on the quizzes.

She's one of those people that tries to be nice with a nice tone and everything, but has moments where it's hard for her to bottle up the emotion that says "FUCK THIS CLASS...YOU ALL DON'T CARE ABOUT THIS SHIT."

I love how I'm being analytical on these things, but I can't just ignore them! They're so hilarious! It's so funny! I never knew a girl would have a hidden bitch fit with another girl in a laboratory.

ugh...it's a huge whorefest in this laboratory. Maybe I'm just confused....eh..

I know for sure she likes me now, but I'll just let her play this game in finding if I like as well.

What's really bad is that I don't even pay attention to things like this, it's like it's just coming at me or something. It's like going out on a battlefield with a plastic fork.

Haha, she definitely likes you, Link.

Link- for all the drama.

My rant is that I am still wayyy too tired. I didn't sleep night before last. I fell asleep yesterday at 5 PM and woke at 9-ish with the worlds worst headache. I figured it was Clonazepam withdrawal because I hadn't taken any all day. So I took half a pill but the headache didn't ease up one bit. So I then took 1/2 of Valium. I STILL had a headache, so I asked my son to make me some burritos (which he knows would have killed my gallbladder but I thought that was all we had). He made me 2 tuna sandwiches and the headache went away
But I had taken the equivalent of ... 10-30mg of benzos (different people react differently) and it knocked me on my butt. I don't think I've ever slept as well as I did last night.
Yet I was awake at 7:30AM (after about 7hours of sleep) from a nightmare and now I'm dragging BIG time.

I also have tiny cuts on my hands from cutting out a doggy door using an old steak knife, a crescent chisel, an x-acto knife and pliers. The doors to my house suck royally so it wasn't that hard of a job. I could have done it much more easily with a box cutter but I couldn't find one.
And after posting on the happy thread, I realize that my clothes rack is too far forward to be a perfect [tiny] closet. I'll probably redo that next week.

On top of all that, my room is a TOTAL disaster area. I've been organizing and rearranging everything (plus the "construction" work), so there's barely any room to move about. But I simply have NO energy to do anything more at this time.
Blah... and to think, I'll still have 3mg worth of Valium in my system 37hours from now. That fact is much worse seeing how I didn't need it at all

Originally Posted by Zhaylin

Has anyone gotten ahold of Deery? I've not seen her for awhile.

My rant is that everything is loading SO slowly.
I also have an MDT to go to in an hour (informal meeting about Destinee's progress and goals).

She's on vacation in California, visiting family. I can't remember when she said she would be back, but I have her cell so I
can text her if she doesn't appear pretty soon.

IT'S FRIDAY FRIDAY! GOTTA GET DOWN ON *BANG*
/ded

Yay, weekend soon!

I just sneezed. Alllll over.

gesundheit.

beer

Originally Posted by Dianeva

I hadn't seen her for a while even before this happened. Same with Darkmatters, now that i think about it... I'll try PMing her.

I was just thinking the same thing about Dark, last night. Where the hell has he been?

Originally Posted by OpheliaBlue

She's on vacation in California, visiting family. I can't remember when she said she would be back, but I have her cell so I
can text her if she doesn't appear pretty soon.

Deery? I was under the impression that she was moving to California. Why did she have to give up her cat if she was only visiting relatives?

Is it weird that my BF is watching Dr. Phil right now - topic is open relationships - and just made a point to tell me about it/ask my opinion of them, when he usually doesn't say he's watching tv in the first place?

I have really bad butterflies in my stomach.

I just decided to drink a refreshing glass of apple juice before going to bed, as I read that it will help with lucid dreaming. I opened up a bottle of apple juice, poured some in a glass and started drinking, only to find out that instead of apple juice, the bottle contained sunflower oil. I have no idea what sunflower oil is doing in an apple juice bottle, or how it got in there, as the bottle hadn't been opened before.

Originally Posted by Puffin

Is it weird that my BF is watching Dr. Phil right now - topic is open relationships - and just made a point to tell me about it/ask my opinion of them, when he usually doesn't say he's watching tv in the first place?

I have really bad butterflies in my stomach.

Try it, could be fun!

Originally Posted by Linkzelda41

The girl in my Biology Lab, when we were done with everything, we all headed out for the door. She used her feet to open it, but I think she put too much force.

[....]
What's really bad is that I don't even pay attention to things like this, it's like it's just coming at me or something. It's like going out on a battlefield with a plastic fork.

Why are you so hard on that girl? And whorefest?? Why would you say that?

And my rant: just been in an awful mood all day. And I'm tired. Last night been woken up through that AWFUL doorbell that just pierces through my brain at 2 AM. It was the asshole being all drunk and saying stuff like "I can't stop thinking of you" and "you're the only thing that matters" and didn't want to leave until I let him in. I just got scared and I started half-begging him to leave, saying that we'd talk later but then he asked if I would believe him but I couldn't lie about that because I will never be so stupid again to believe him... It took an hour before I convinced him to leave. I actually heard the door go open and some talking around that time so I think the landlady chased him away. Gawd so embarrassing. Why would someone think that's okay...I'm starting to think I encourage such behavior. Then he didn't go home but started wandering around in dodgy neighbourhoods looking for trouble and making me worried. I blocked his number again. Why is he making it so hard, It's hard enough getting over him without him stalking me. And it's like, I'm the victim here, I was being lied to, HE cheated on ME, and now he's acting like I'm the bad guy all of the sudden. Girl. whatever.

Originally Posted by tommo

Try it, could be fun!

I'm having trouble deciding if you're joking or being serious.

Damn it, I went to the Sushi restaurant that had okay Chicken Fried Rice, but they ran out, so I had to go with the Beef Fried Rice, and suddenly they raise the prices of all their foods now.

I didn't want to buy fast food but since the water system near my area was faulty at the time, I couldn't clean the dishes, so I had to buy something outside. Now I wasted $7+ on Beef Fried Rice, the only change that would make it more expensive now is that they're sweetening the food up a little more.

Then I go to my house, eat it like there's no tomorrow, and the water suddenly works. I can't believe this shit LOL. Sigh....buying on impulses is a really bad thing, I better be careful on how I spend my money (though I'm perfectly okay with lasting this semester in college with the money I have, but still...I don't want to be too reckless because one event prevents me from doing another thing for a cheaper price).

Now I have to go to the Vietnamese Restaurant, because the prices are basically the same, and I get a better meal there than at this Sushi place. Fuck that place man...I remembered paying $5 for Chicken Fried Rice to go, and now it's $6.99! What nonsense is this?

And my bicycle...I don't know what's up with it, I swore I shifted the chains right, but when I go back to my apartment, there's this intersection where I usually have to wait on, and the road I go up is shaped where you go higher a little bit and finally go down to a flat surface, which means I have to apply more pressure to the bike, and that can cause it to screw itself up. I'm really tired of this shit because there's a timer on the street for people and bicycles to walk, and if I have to constantly get off my bicycle to walk to an area with less traffic, I'll just fucking walk instead.

And I know that even if my father might fix it when he comes during Saturday or Sunday, it's going to fuck up anyway because this bicycle wasn't used as much in High School, in fact, it was meant for someone else, but of course, with parents, they want you to use old shit. I need a new bicycle, it's going to slow, and I can't shift the gears right, it's basically rigged to one setting now.

But I can't just spend money like that! I'm loaded with cash right now, but I want to be more conservative than Ricky Perry with my cash...because I know having leftover money is going to help when shit might happen. Damn it! I knew I should've used the $100 as a means to get a new bicycle...damn it damn it damn it!

And I'm looking at a notice my internet provider is giving to all their customers how much they can download with certain download speeds, and I see that they give us 150GB.

LOL? Who the hell is going to download 150GB of shit? Like really? Especially with a shitty connection that as max is at least 270+ kb/second? Are you freaking kidding me? What the heck do you think your customers are going to download? Are you promoting others to use torrents now to feel that they're not being ripped off by their low usage of what they are actually paying for? Man this is bullshit lol, I mean, I don't have to worry about the limit, but it's the fact that I don't really use what I'm paying for (it's like $30 bucks so no biggie).

Ugh...and I have to find a cheaper apartment for fall semester 2012, this is probably the cheapest apartment I can find that's actually freaking clean with no pests or anything. They're increasing the rent to $445 after spring semester is done, and that's not a problem since it's a $10 increase, but the fact that the college semester will be done before my one year lease with this apartment is done ticks me off.

So basically, I'll still have to pay a few months for the apartment that I might not really be going to since I might go to another house for vacation. Oh and vacation, that summer internship program? Should've definitely went to the formal meeting for it, so my father wouldn't nag on me in finding a part time job, and I already know how I would react to that.

I still have a lot of time before this semester is over but MAN, so much shit to take care of! Sometimes I wish I could just be in a coma for the rest of my life....*knocks on wood*

Maybe I'm thinking too much in the future, but still, I want to take care of the part time job thing, but I don't have a car, so how the fuck am I going to be able to go to a place if I get the position? Did he ever think of that? It's not as if I can just get a car and a job within a few months, that's bullshit. I swear, does my father even fucking thing at all?

Is he such a workaholic to not even fucking rationalize everything he says? And I hate how I'm always quiet to him whenever we meet. I mean, he is my father and he's worked his ass off and everything, but college wise, I'm the only one getting all of this money anyway. He's just there for a source of income for me to get even more money (he's not using his money, it's just so I get more money from the college).

I don't know what to do, but I do know that I should just stop worrying about it, relax, a little bit, study for my Political Science exam tomorrow, and just chill after that is done---wait no, I can't do that, because I have a Sociohorticulture Exam and Biology Practical Exam on the same day Next Thursday, and a Chemistry Exam next Tuesday. Fuck, this weekend is going to succccccccccck. I hope I can get some lucids during the weekend or even tonight or Friday night to motivate me not to sublimate my rage with my libido....my mind gets skewed if that were to happen.

WAHHHH!!!

My brothers had off from school all this week, but I still had to go to school wednesday through friday. But that's not even what I'm mad about. My dad schedules a two day trip to atlantic city on the days I had to go back to school, basically taking my brothers and leaving me. I'm starting to feel a little less pissed, but still... Not to mention he texts me pictures every five minutes with captions like "LOL, standing outside the hotel" and "Inside the hotel" and "checking into the hotel." I know he doesn't mean to upset me, though.

Originally Posted by Anthonyyy0

I know he doesn't mean to upset me, though.

Are you sure?

I know my son would be mad if I did that to him.

Originally Posted by melanieb

Are you sure?

I know my son would be mad if I did that to him.

I can tell. He's not the brightest or the most sensitive. Either that or I'm just a total pushover.

I downed like 3g of kratom 15x extract and I end up depressed... I feel cheated... >.<

Originally Posted by khh

I downed like 3g of kratom 15x extract and I end up depressed... I feel cheated... >.<

Did you buy it at a head shop?

Originally Posted by Alyzarin

Did you buy it at a head shop?

No, I bought it from a reputable web vendor. It's the real deal, it just turns out I'm not too good at utilizing it.