Thread: Rant and Rave, Cry and Complain

Don't worry, I'll forget about it anyway, I just felt like venting because my skewed mind is going to remember it and make me laugh so hard at the girl to the point that I can't look at her without a straight face, and my shits and giggles with her will become worse, and I might end up telling her she's just fucking stupid. Just a vent.

And yeah, most of them are used already, but not beaten up here at least. It's just sad seeing that I'm getting money for free from the government for being a good boy with good grades to pay for shit like this lol, oh well, I'm being spoiled anyway...I'm not those high money scholarship people, but it's the fact that this University basically begs that you get unsubbed loans that makes it really stupid to may so much each semester for mediocre shit like this.

Eh....if I was president of A&M, I would feel like a cheapskate too..lmfao

Harsh

Btw come back into tinychat. I won't ignore you this time...

Oh, I have to get ready for my Biochemistry class, sorry! . Hopefully the professor will actually COME, otherwise I'll have to wait for a while for the guest speaker to come (the freaking professor never comes because most speakers are part of the faculty or whatever...even though our first one was from HONG KONG...lolwut?T?T?T?)

He better come to the room before we go to the seminar room. I have 4 pages that need to be turned in and OUT of my sight, because the more days he's absent because it's just faculty speakers, the more likely I'm going to forget to bring some paper on time, and that will just make me want to cut my finger off.....sorry, I just feel aflasjfksdfklajgksgjllfkjasf

Haha OK no worries. I'm just sitting around in tinychat cuz irc still isn't working for me. Does that count as a rant? Good.

Originally Posted by GavinGill

Set him on fire.

No one ruins Meeps' day.

Awww.

He basically told me more lies involving him having awful cases of memory loss (yeah right, I wonder if I have "stupid as fuck" written over my forehead) and then said I was the one for him. I told him to leave me alone and he said he won't. But I think he will.

Originally Posted by Linkzelda41

I swear....I don't like talking shit behind people's back, but this one just made me want to just stuff something in her mouth.

Maybe that's what she's looking for?

I'm not being sexist or anything, if it were a guy I would react just the same...

College really is the place to explore boundaries.


You'll have to come visit Austin someday. Things around here seem calm by comparison.

Originally Posted by melanieb

Maybe that's what she's looking for?

Lol!

College really is the place to explore boundaries.


You'll have to come visit Austin someday. Things around here seem calm by comparison.

It's pretty quiet here at Texas A&M, in fact, it gets boring sometimes (but that's just me being lazy in not paying attention to events). I just know that on Sundays, it's like a wasteland since people probably go home or are so drunk from Saturday to even wake up until later afternoon lol.

The people are cool here at A&M, very friendly, it's just that those occasions of listening to silly heads might make it seem that the whole University is like that. I bet Austin is more relaxed, but I probably won't be going there for a long time. I'll probably go back and forth with College Station and Houston during long breaks.

And I'm worried that I should've went to the formal meeting on summer internship. The guy who called me about it wanted to make it look like it was difficult to get a position in it because of the "hundreds of thousands of 'people' " apply for it. I thought it would just be a crappy opportunity, but I'm starting to regret it because my father talked to me about finding a part time job when I'm taking a break from college (it's like he wants me to be doing something....I don't know what's wrong with him, he needs to just chill and let me focus on school work).

And honestly, this bullshit ignorance he has that thinking that going for these small jobs will help with my loans is crazy. It's like he thinks that once I get a degree, that I'm going to fall that bullshit jungle hunt for jobs. Screw that, I want to go to graduate school to get more training, because a person who majored in Biotechnology told me that lower wage jobs do not really provide enough reliability in actually making a good career overall.

I don't mean to insult those that are having a hard time finding jobs or anything, and I apologize if I do, it's just that if parents want their child to do well, it would be logical to gain some knowledge of that the inevitable competition for job hunting is just going to make the situation even WORSE...when I can be getting more hands-on experience and competence for big companies?

Does he not see that trying to pay everything off too quickly before they make a huge impact isn't really going to make a huge impact when I could be going for a PhD, to at least give myself an edge despite that other people may have the same competence as me? At least I'll be at a higher priority for ACTUAL careers rather than wasting 4 fucking years memorizing useless crap to just end up having a low wage job for most of my life (and don't get me wrong, I know some people have to work low to get their way up)...but if you know the right people, and know how to apply their usefulness in pushing you forward, there is NO FUCKING NEED FOR ME TO jump on the bandwagon of

"Oh, even though I have a degree that should validate that I should earn more income, I should settle for less and not use my brain, and end up regretting not paying attention to how people in the universities can help elevate you" type of mentality.

And because this university is pretty huge, and so many departments, how could anyone want to settle for that politically correct bandwagon of settling for less after they get a bachelor's degree when they can just take the time to just look for opportunities and work experience RELATED to their degree that can impress prominent companies rather than working for retail stores?

The guy who majored in Biotechnology is making big income because he told me that no matter what people tell you of how hard a course is in college, that as long as you work hard and ignore those fears of it being difficult, you will do well. And he's a friend of my father....HELLO?!?!?! That's a person that can help me elevate myself in the more challenging workforce rather than settling for less

Which makes me speculate to myself...am I really ready to become that serious in finding more and more assets to help me elevate? Am I really up for making huge sacrifices of being able to shift through many parts of myself to master several abilities needed to gain the career I want without going through the painful competition for lower wage jobs?

The more I speculate about this, the more I'm tempted to use lucid dreaming as a problem solving medium. It feels silly, but just makes me believe more in Dream Guides and beyond, but when I see other people doubt this potentially vital boost in competence, it makes me wonder if I'm just too crazy to use dreams as an aid to shift to the right direction...or if I'm actually on the right mindset with this to eradicating this belief COMPLETELY that lucid dreaming is just experiences gathered consciously and unconsciously into one big virtual reality.

Am I being too ambitious in relying lucid dreaming for that? Is it because I'm afraid that I could be setting myself up for more confusion if I keep trying to stress my mind to help me out here? Damn it lol.

I wish the people I interact with in real life would understand this more, but nooooooooooo PARTY it up you assholes, I just can't relate to them! They just keep bragging over who fought who, how a relationship is going with one person, and when they're being challenged, they're suddenly surprised and call the University they're in "gay" or "stupid" or "not fair."

Do you see what I mean? This is why I can't relate to others in real life, I can into topics that can make you successful, but they just want to talk about movies, books, etc., BORING stuff that is AMAZING to them. While what I find amazing is boring to them.

This is another reason why I'm afraid to have a girlfriend just for experience, because I'll constantly want to focus on academics rather than their well-being. Sure you can say you can balance things out and still come out good, but really, do you honestly believe that if a lot of people accepted this ideal, don't you think that they would all be successful instead of struggling to find a career?

It's obviously people do not know true sacrifice, just having few friends isn't enough, people just don't indulge into the true pain of sacrificing more and more to get what they want. It's like they're so afraid that whatever makes their day everyday might fade away, and they obviously are too afraid to experience a pain that can actually make them stronger and independent. Why can't people understand that going through the pain for a few years is worth it when you get something that would boost financial stability exponentially...and I being ignorant? Or am I the only one out of all these normal "friends" I've met that really wants to go through those sacrifices...

I just can't relate to others...I can easily relate to the social side of things and all that humanistic bullshit that's easy learn, but that's the thing, it's easy to interact with others because we're naturally gregarious, no? I know that sounds ironic since I claim I'm socially inept, but I don't think that you have to be a popular to know social competence, that should be a natural thing, it's just the belief that we're not is what's holding us back.

So if one believes that they have natural social capability, why not indulge yourself into matters that not many people are interested in that can help distinguish yourself from the rest? Is just me saying nonsense, or am I actually making a point here. (Sorry talking to myself to see how certain thoughts will try to answer this rationalization of mine)

I apologize if this venting made anyone mad, it's just something I feel that those in college/universities should think about. How are you going to make yourself valuable compared to others just as valuable as you? Does anyone ever think about this in the University I go to? It seems they're just so....so....STUPID!!!!

Rant/vent over.

Time to move along. (also Melanieb, I was talking to myself just now, so sorry if it seemed directed to you again). I find this crazy talk to myself is somewhat helping measure what's really important to me).

Originally Posted by Pensive Patrick

Oh and whoever is now controlling Dianeva's account on the fake DV is posting some really weird shit... I mean, why would you even bother?!?

That's horrible. Especially for members still stuck over there that don't know what's going on.

Please tell me they aren't doing that to me too. Or anyone else. I wish this could all be fixed, like, yesterday.

Originally Posted by OpheliaBlue

That's horrible. Especially for members still stuck over there that don't know what's going on.

Please tell me they aren't doing that to me too. Or anyone else. I wish this could all be fixed, like, yesterday.

Don't worry, that's actually Dianeva posting those, she's just messing around since that forum doesn't matter. The hackers aren't using anyone's accounts or anything like that, and we currently have several people in there (I've got two accounts logged on myself right now) PMing as many people as we can.

Link, I believe in talking to yourself. It's healthy. And typing it out helps you form thoughts into something cohesive that you can work with.

I wouldn't call relying on Dream Guides as a boost in competence...rather, a boost in confidence. A way to utilize a part of your subconscious to help you interact with the real world. Nothing crazy there.

People will always be trivial, and that's okay. Sometimes you need some of that trivial stuff. Sometimes it helps take the edge off of the cerebral stuff. Keep in mind that the path to true happiness is both wide and long, and includes little stuff as much as big. You'll need that ability to relate to the mundane so you can maintain future relationships and interactions. It doesn't seem important, but it's part of being well-rounded. In that line, it's good you share your feelings here. This is a great outlet.

My rant: I'm installing 59 updates to Windows on the laptop, as part of my reinstall ov...everything. Total pain.

Originally Posted by Alyzarin

Don't worry, that's actually Dianeva posting those, she's just messing around since that forum doesn't matter. The hackers aren't using anyone's accounts or anything like that, and we currently have several people in there (I've got two accounts logged on myself right now) PMing as many people as we can.

That's really really really badass of y'all to do.

Let me know if there's anything I can do to help. I mean, I see the note in your sig about it, but I'm not sure how to go back and forth. Just remove those things I added in the host file, and then add them back to go back and forth? I think I'd get lost.

Originally Posted by OpheliaBlue

That's really really really badass of y'all to do.

Let me know if there's anything I can do to help. I mean, I see the note in your sig about it, but I'm not sure how to go back and forth. Just remove those things I added in the host file, and then add them back to go back and forth? I think I'd get lost.

Yeah, if you're willing to figure it all out it'd be a great help to PM some people over there. If you're not you can always PM me your password over there (which should be different from the one here now!) and I'll sign in and do the work for you. More accounts at once means more PMing power!

Can't you just select a bunch of people and send a group message? Or perhaps have an admin PM a group of people? I thought you could do that with vBulletin

I have no idea about that, you'd have to ask zebrah. It's hard to say what can be done right now though, I do know for a fact that they demoted and banned a bunch of the mods.

So, where are our admins these days, or have I missed them?

/me checks meta forum

Slash is dead to us Has a girlfriend. Zeb is kicking about, and Our overlord is hopefully getting our Domain back.

Originally Posted by OldSparta

Slash is dead to us Has a girlfriend. Zeb is kicking about, and Our overlord is hopefully getting our Domain back.

just because it feels good right now to do it

Just thinking critically here - but what would happen if we can't get the domain back? I'm sure people will always go to a .com address before a .org one, unless it's widely announced online that it's a fake site or something.

Originally Posted by Puffin

Just thinking critically here - but what would happen if we can't get the domain back? I'm sure people will always go to a .com address before a .org one, unless it's widely announced online that it's a fake site or something.

Personally, I don't think it'll be an issue, I'm sure Alex will be able to get it back. But I guess there's always that possiblity.... :T The hacked site right now is pretty worthless, completely trolled and not allowing new registrations, so I don't think it'd be easy to mistake it for the real thing. I guess we'd just have to get the word out that the domain name changed, I'm sure people would start thinking of dreamviews.org as normal eventually.

Is .org a potential reality for this site?

<<<Trying to stay in the know.

TheUnknown's post says that Alex has the rights to that domain, on this page --> http://www.dreamviews.com/f18/latest...e-alex-128692/

Originally Posted by Pensive Patrick

Dianeva, I would never have thought you would post tits. Even if it is a fake site.

lol you're right that isn't the type of thing I'd normally do, but my personalities are many and malleable, I'm not a constant person...

For clarification, it was me posting the strange stuff yesterday. That was mostly for fun, because I could, and I don't think it was hurting anyone. I only made a few strange posts though. Mostly I've been trying to help the cause. I dedicated probably over 15 hours total so far to helping to inform people, but haven't wanted to make many explicit posts to avoid being banned as some other members have. So I understand if it looks like I've been doing nothing but irresponsibly fucking around posting soft-porn, devil's advocate religion threads, etc. with the fake forum.

But I'm an idiot for doing so, and here's the rant. Lately I've been procrastinating with school until the last possible moment and barely making deadlines. It's been extremely stressful. And it didn't help that last night I found myself fixated on the DV cause, and have now done it again for the last couple hours...

Earlier today I was almost late for a class which I cannot be late for, but had to print out the assignment which I had somehow managed to do within about 40 minutes before it was time to leave. Three computers were having printing problems until I finally found one that would print what I needed. I was half screaming and almost tearing, begging it to work, punching myself, etc (my cat was getting scared). I left like 15 minutes late and was sure I wouldn't make it so I RAN, which I never do, like 4 blocks. My body had to stop after about each block but after only about 5s of rest I'd start running again. I ended up barely catching the bus, and it took like 15 minutes for me to fully catch my breath. I was in pain, my throat hurt, it felt like I'd torn something. And I can still feel the pain a bit when I inhale deeply. Then I'd forgotten my bus pass but the driver luckily let me on. So I did end up in class on time, with the assignment, but just barely.

That whole situation seems a metaphor for how I've been handling everything in the last couple weeks or so. Episodes of extreme panic separated by periods of lazy procrastination. For example, I started an assignment at 11:15pm that was due at midnight tonight. My heart was pounding and I could feel my face burning up by the end, and I managed to submit it at 11:58. I don't see how I got it done in time, it doesn't seem possible, it was too much to do. That type of thing makes me realise how productive I could be if I tried hard enough. But shit like that keeps happening and I never seem to learn to start things early. I've always had that problem but have never been this bad. And as I've posted before I think, I stayed up for about 40 hours a couple days ago trying to finish a couple other assignments which I also barely completed in time....

I now have a linear algebra midterm which I haven't studied for at all. I'll have to stay up all night. Actually, I have to leave in 6.5 hours, so even after being up all night, I don't know if I can possibly study everything I need to. I don't know why I'm still on here. I'm a fucking idiot.

Lol, I have a Political Science Exam tomorrow, and I bet I'm going to be mixing studying and looking at DV, even if there aren't any new posts on the control panel for me. That's how sad I am. And I'll probably keep refreshing it every few seconds for 2 minutes, or just click "forum" and find some newcomer to help with and throw big gargantuan amounts of information.

Lol, I have a Political Science Exam tomorrow, and I bet I'm going to be mixing studying and looking at DV, even if there aren't any new posts on the control panel for me. That's how sad I am. And I'll probably keep refreshing it every few seconds for 2 minutes, or just click "forum" and find some newcomer to help with and throw big gargantuan amounts of information.



@Dianeva, DV can be like sex sometimes, you just can't pass on the opportunity. ( Just wasted 3 minutes waiting to edit this message when I should be going to my Biology lab room before it starts at 8 AM (but it's only 7:30, so I have a lot of time)....but still I keep doing this...it's so addicting.

But

Here's a hug '