Thread: Rant and Rave, Cry and Complain

Originally Posted by fOrceez

There's a gathering at my friend's house this weekend with no parents. My ex and her bf will be there, her bf was one of my good mates till they started going out. After that, we just didn't talk. Without going into details, it still kinda peeves me off and it there is some hurt. It's not that I think of her anymore or anything, but when I see them together, there's a sense of betrayal. :/

Dang man, that really does sting.

At least you can look forward to having a good time and having a blast, and I'm sure they wouldn't want to cause any awkward tension with you, hope things go well!

Forceez Listen to Link, he's on a roll

Suena, if you're a decent actress, start talking in your sleep. Not a lot and definitely not every night. And only little amounts of stuff at once to plant a seed.
For instance: "It makes me so sad that [hubby] doesn't play with [baby] more." Of course you'd have to break it up and not say it all at once.
But if he's really paranoid, don't go that route or he'd think you're talking about him behind his back.
Well, you could always change it to "[hubby's name], I'm so sad because [baby] misses you so much."

I had mixed success using that with my first marriage. It's hard to get mad at someone because of a dream. If he asks you about it, you can always say you don't remember (depending on his mood) or you can create a story to go along with the "dream".

My rant is that I went to sleep RIGHT after posting last night and I didn't wake up until noon. WTH. I only remember bits and pieces of my dreams (and yes, animals and my car were it in )

Zhay, that's so cunning, I love it.

What Zhay was suggesting is equivalent to The Tell-Tale-Heart by Edgar Allen Poe

The Tell-Tale Heart by Edgar Allan Poe

Zhaylin has a side to her that's evil? :O

Me gusta.

They heard! --they suspected! --they knew! --they were making a mockery of my horror!-this I thought, and this I think. But anything was better than this agony! Anything was more tolerable than this derision! I could bear those hypocritical smiles no longer! I felt that I must scream or die! and now --again! --hark! louder! louder! louder! louder! "Villains!" I shrieked, "dissemble no more! I admit the deed! --tear up the planks! here, here! --It is the beating of his hideous heart!"

hehehe Desperate times call for desperate measures. If you have a spouse who refuses to take anything you say seriously, make what you say more captivating
I would even pretend to have passed out when he came home just for a little TLC that's how bad it was- how distant and emotionless he was. I only used that one a couple times a year or so.
I'd also leave my diary out for him to find every now and then though that blew up in my face once

Thanks for all the replies; I honestly wasn't expecting that many. Time for another long-ass post.

I sort of have a better idea of what may be bothering her now; I'm leaning towards jealousy, or even feelings of inadequacy given the fact that she doesn't have many friends or anything herself (same as me - not many shared interests with other people), but I'm still not certain. Unfortunately she wasn't at school today and I won't be seeing her until bowling Saturday - I have tomorrow and Monday off - so I'll have to wait longer to speak with her.

@ Alyzarin;
Yes, my class size is really that small! I go to a rather small private school which would account for that kind of size. Everyone knows each other, but it kind of sucks since there's not as much diversity.

It's just this fear of the unknown that I have in regards to leaving school and maybe not having a good friend to chat with anymore, once I do leave. I've never been very social with people - not because I am shy, but simply because I don't relate to 99.9% of the people in my school, whom I am stuck with for the majority of the week. So I haven't had too much social interaction and while it's very easy for me to talk with friends and people I know, getting to know people is intimidating. Again, not because I'm shy, but because I don't know if they'll be like me, or not. And I tend to talk about things that I like; if not, I end up going on about the weather or nonsense, which gets boring. Things get awkward when I try to stimulate a conversation.

I am excited for college though, because of the people I can meet... There's a good chance that I'll be in a class consisting of twenty guys and two or three girls, since it's visual effects/game design stuff, but that's okay! xD

@ Zhaylin;
We were definitely very close, yes. You've made some good points; I will be telling her something along those lines when I talk to her, but I don't want to sugar-coat or hold my opinion back too much because that will make me feel like I'm scared of losing the friendship. If I'm scared to say something to her while simply giving my side of the story, that just means I don't trust her enough as a friend. My mom always says "boyfriends come and go but friendships should last forever" or something really cheesy like that, and I thought about that when I was arguing with her, but then again... If this is just her personality, then I should be choosing to spend less time with her... I'm really itching to find out if it's just one problem that's making her act like this, or if it's actually her as a person. It's going to be hard to tell the difference if I don't make an effort to know, but depending on the answer, I might have to wait and leave her alone (who knows for how long) until she gets herself in line.

@ Melanieb;
Thanks. I find it a little odd that I am divulging so much information about this problem online instead of trying to find someone else in "RL" to talk to, but everyone here is easygoing and, quite frankly, has offered amazing advice. I seriously would love to meet some of you in the future; for now that's out of the question though.

@ Suena;
You're right when it comes to her taking the first step and trying to talk to me. I just really don't like waiting for people to do that, because it's one of those things that just makes me really upset and tense - it's hard not to flip around ideas in my head non-stop - so I want to make the first move.

@ Gavin;
How would she react if I were to tell her "we can't hang out anymore"? How am I even supposed to word something like that? I'm hoping that when I do talk to her and if it comes down to that, I'll know what to say, but then again I've got this slight feeling that I'll lose my tongue.

Wow, it feels like I've typed more here in three days than I have over the entire time of posting in this thread.

Relationships.

Zhay, that's awesome. I think I could pull it off. I pretend to be asleep sometimes when he comes to wake me up and I pretend to wake up slowly. Secretly I'm hoping to be able to fall back asleep and not be blamed for it because I was already "asleep".

Your suggestion would fit perfectly into one of those times, haha. I'll let you know how that works out. (Knowing me, I'll probably start laughing at myself...)

I've thought about leaving my diary out in the open (which I already do). I really don't care if he reads it or not though. I would actually prefer him not to because I've got some STUPID crap in there, lol. Not even worth him getting angry about...

Then again, I've written some stuff on the computer that I could "accidently" leave up. I actually wrote a poem I'd like him to read, but he won't. I could try writing him a letter, straight up, I suppose? lol

Then he can't interupt...

I don't know. You got my mind going though! Thanks!

EDIT: So I don't double post here.

Puffin: I get what you mean. I've got this friend that I rarely see any more. She used to be my best friend, you know, like sisters. I have this little family now, though, and she's off doing her thing. When I do see her, I can never tell if some of the things she's saying to me is sarcasm or not. I never know if she's trying to be spiteful with some of her words. Then again, she's got a strange way of expressing herself. I've always said, ahh, I'm done with it. She likes to play mind games. However, we never seem to be able to let the friendship go. If you want to work things out with her, then go for it. I do understand that it's hard not to care about someone who's been close to you for so long.

Originally Posted by Puffin

@ Alyzarin;
Yes, my class size is really that small! I go to a rather small private school which would account for that kind of size. Everyone knows each other, but it kind of sucks since there's not as much diversity.

It's just this fear of the unknown that I have in regards to leaving school and maybe not having a good friend to chat with anymore, once I do leave. I've never been very social with people - not because I am shy, but simply because I don't relate to 99.9% of the people in my school, whom I am stuck with for the majority of the week. So I haven't had too much social interaction and while it's very easy for me to talk with friends and people I know, getting to know people is intimidating. Again, not because I'm shy, but because I don't know if they'll be like me, or not. And I tend to talk about things that I like; if not, I end up going on about the weather or nonsense, which gets boring. Things get awkward when I try to stimulate a conversation.

I am excited for college though, because of the people I can meet... There's a good chance that I'll be in a class consisting of twenty guys and two or three girls, since it's visual effects/game design stuff, but that's okay! xD

Ah, I gotcha. See, I say that I was friends with that many people, but comparatively my situation was much like yours. The only reason I had so many school friends was due to the sheer volume of people, it was impossible to not have some matching personalities. My graduating class was around 1400 people. I've actually met a good few people who were in it since I graduated.

Oh yes, there's certainly nothing wrong with that. XP Well, I think you'll be fine. Don't worry about talking about the things you like! If people aren't interested in the things that make you you, then why would you want to be friends anyway? Don't limit yourself just so that you'll have people to talk to, just be yourself and people will respond, especially when you get out there and are in much larger crowds of people. You're a pretty interesting person from what I've seen, so I'm sure you'll make friends fast enough.

Yeah, what Alyzarin said, and when you go to college, you'll most likely find better friends who are actually mature and can relate to you. Since money is on the line here, people will tend to grow up a little more than they did in High School.

It sounds hypocritical for me to say this, since I haven't had time to make friends here in college, but I know you'll find a group of friends, and it doesn't have to be many, just a few you know you can trust.

And you know who you are, and there will be more diversity (hopefully in your area). The thing is about High School or whatever grade you call it before going to college, the popular people usually end up not having many friends because they were soooo compatible with the immature people, and they never got the chance to develop their core personality. So the people who were considered "social outcasts" in High School end up being more respected, because they're not trying to be a jerk, and they try to be reasonable in their friendships, and not wanting more out of a person than they can give back.

College might be the same for others, but it's more civilized, if that's the right word, because people are there for a goal, whether they like it or not.

Good luck in finding new and more deserving friends when you go to college, Puffin. You're a cheerful person, and even if you don't find any friends your first semester in college, you'll find them later on.

Edit: I think of it this way.

Those people who made fun of me in Middle and High School, they were the ones who never really paid attention to their academics more....they were all into video games, fighting over a person when we're barely developed physically...and now that they see others go to college, and they're not in their same footsteps, the only thing they can do now is to live on regrets that they were such jerks to people, and never bothered to focus on their objectives.

People who would not like you in High School, if they go to the same college as you, they'll probably change their behaviors because they've run out of vessels that made them big shots, so this makes them contemplate that they have to be more humble now.

Today is a damn good day!

- had some cool LDs early this morning
- got the 4 books I ordered off amazon
- it feels great outside, I may even take a walk!
- got my paystub online and there's a $300 bonus on it!!
- going to make a romantic rib-eye dinner then we're going shopping

Only bad side is that I have to work the next 3 days. but even that isn't that bad, because I'm getting extra hours, but they're divided up so my shifts are actually shorter. Well, I guess I'd like to lose some weight.

I want to lose weight!!!

I want to lose weight too haha. I'm not obese, it's just that when I walk, I look down from an altered perspective, and think my thighs look huge, but it's just the pants I wear are slightly baggy.

And when I look in the mirror, I think I don't see anything changing, but I keep having thoughts that I'm getting a little wide on my legs :*<

No it's not that, it's just that my rear is too big

All of this Fast Food has to come out somehow. But I sweat so much, and have a high metabolism that I my stomach is a blackhole, so I may just have had the same weight over the years, it's just paranoia in my head.

Complaint: WHAT THE HECK MIND?!?!?

When I had decent recall in my Dream Journal entries, you obviously were showing signs (guards that were almost invincible, zombies coming after me, etc.) that I shouldn't be too serious in finding my Dream Guide....now that I'm just sleeping like natural, YOU'RE SUDDENLY ON CRUISE CONTROL WITH RECALL?

Man....this is some bs....

Ugh... I so hate you right now Ophelia (not really )
I have been wanting a rib-eye steak for months now.

I want to lose weight too Maybe we could find and necro an ancient thread (somewhere) for workout buddies.
Keep in mind, I say this while sitting at my computer and eating a double BK cheeseburger

Glad you've had such a great day

I'm currently laughing at my dog because she actually eats pickles. But she hates mustard. So she's licking the mustard and making a snorting noise

Suena, about laughing.. I used to silently cry myself to sleep most evenings. I would do the sleep talking thing when I felt my worst so I WOULDN'T laugh!! If I was feeling devious or especially mischievous, I would definitely have blown it
It helped that I actually did talk in my sleep. The more stressed I was, the worse it was. I've also thrashed around in my sleep all of my life. So while I wouldn't do it on purpose, when he was being a royal jerk I always felt a little spiteful joy to learn I had elbowed him in the eye or something through the night.


God, what memories. I had forgotten most of this stuff until now.

Originally Posted by Zhaylin

Ugh... I so hate you right now Ophelia (not really )
I have been wanting a rib-eye steak for months now.

I want to lose weight too Maybe we could find and necro an ancient thread (somewhere) for workout buddies.
Keep in mind, I say this while sitting at my computer and eating a double BK cheeseburger

Glad you've had such a great day

I'm currently laughing at my dog because she actually eats pickles. But she hates mustard. So she's licking the mustard and making a snorting noise

Haha my chihuahua likes raw bell peppers.

A work-out buddy, or even buddies would be nice. I know what you mean about sitting in front of the computer and eating snacks. And I can always cook whatever I am in the mood for, which is usually naughty, like bread and cheese. Then I plop in front of the TV and computer. Am I doomed to have the sausage-mom shape forever?

Originally Posted by melanieb

Instead of a transfer, or a check, perhaps try dealing in cash? What I mean is, withdraw cash from one account, then, turn around and make another transaction to deposit the money in to another account. Banks can't put a hold on cash, in my experience. With checks, get them cashed by the issuing bank, and then deposit them. I did that for a while some years back because I hated the hold period of up to 7 days for out-of-state checks. No problem with that any longer, but it was a pain years back.

That's a good idea, and ordinarily I would do that, but my son's college fund is an online only account. It's ok, I guess I don't really need it resolved, I just need to translate bank terminology better.

I will immediately take a shit on the bank manager's desk. I won't even put a hold on it.

LMAO

oh shit, i forgot to pay my rent. now i gotta pay an extra 50 bucks.
ain't that a bitch.

Originally Posted by Alyzarin

Ah, I gotcha. See, I say that I was friends with that many people, but comparatively my situation was much like yours. The only reason I had so many school friends was due to the sheer volume of people, it was impossible to not have some matching personalities. My graduating class was around 1400 people. I've actually met a good few people who were in it since I graduated.

Holy shit... I graduated with 12 people.

Originally Posted by OldSparta

Holy shit... I graduated with 12 people.

I was homeschooled

Originally Posted by zebrah

I was homeschooled

Seriously? No offence, but you are like the only normal home schooled person I know. Not like the home schooled people here that look like they just crawled out of the eighties.

EDIT: Aly, your class was larger than my town is. There is like... 400 people in my town.

Originally Posted by OldSparta

Seriously? No offence, but you are like the only normal home schooled person I know. Not like the home schooled people here that look like they just crawled out of the eighties.

Well I used to be really antisocial and depressed. Moving to Canada fixed me

I just woke up from a 3-4 hours nap. Seriously? This is getting way out of hand.
I dreamed of car troubles, but no cats for a change At least there's that lol.

Originally Posted by zebrah

Well I used to be really antisocial and depressed. Moving to Canada fixed me

Good ol' Canada! We'll beat you until you're normal sweet talk you into being ok.

EDIT: Zay, you reminded me of a dream I had last night. A bee stung me, and it hurt like hell. When I woke up, my leg was still hurting.

Originally Posted by Puffin

@ Gavin;
How would she react if I were to tell her "we can't hang out anymore"? How am I even supposed to word something like that? I'm hoping that when I do talk to her and if it comes down to that, I'll know what to say, but then again I've got this slight feeling that I'll lose my tongue.

I'm not sure, it might be different for you than it is for me. I'd just say something along the lines of "Get it together or fuck off" but I don't think it works the same way for girls. =/ Maybe something like "If you want to hang out while my boyfriend's around, you have to stop being so catty. Otherwise, you and I can only hang out when he's not around." Idk, you'll figure it out eventually.
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Money problems. =/

Originally Posted by GavinGill

I'm not sure, it might be different for you than it is for me. I'd just say something along the lines of "Get it together or fuck off" but I don't think it works the same way for girls. =/ Maybe something like "If you want to hang out while my boyfriend's around, you have to stop being so catty. Otherwise, you and I can only hang out when he's not around." Idk, you'll figure it out eventually.
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Money problems. =/

She should just awkwardly ignore her and stop talking to her. Best way to end any friendship.

Originally Posted by Zhaylin

I just woke up from a 3-4 hours nap. Seriously? This is getting way out of hand.
I dreamed of car troubles, but no cats for a change At least there's that lol.

Don't feel bad Zhaylin, I broke out of that habit by sleeping in until 12 or 1 .. =/

There must be a sleep addiction thing that exists, eh?