Thread: Rant and Rave, Cry and Complain

I agree with the first part

maybe drunk?

HA!- Darkmatters, I completely sympathize. It feels like all I ever do is moan, groan and whine about one thing or another. But it is cathartic. In theory, you say what you feel and be done with it so you don't have to dwell on the negative.

to everyone.

My only current rant is that I'm an idiot. I can drink all the Soda in the world. I can pop caffeine pills in moderation. But the moment I drink tea, good God, my anxiety goes through the roof. I have a special weakness for Southern Style Sweet Tea and I'll drink an entire gallon in one day. I rarely ever buy any (a couple times a year usually). With everything that's been going on, I should have known better than to buy any

It's mean, but I hope we get a major ice/snow storm tonight that keeps me from seeing my daughters tomorrow. I'll be one the road for at least 4 hours- no, that seems to high. I leave at 10 to pick up my oldest by 11 . We'll arrive to see my youngest at noon. We'll talk for an hour then head back TOWARD home. My oldest will want to come home, but that's a major waste of gas because I live past her place. I have to have her back by 7PM. So what the heck are we going to do between 1-6. There's the mall, but we'll be broke. It will be too cold to do anything outside.
It's actually only about 40 minutes to my oldest then 40 additional minutes to my youngest, but there's no telling what the roads will be like or how many times I'll get lost

I would much rather decompress tomorrow, but my girls need a break so I should be ashamed for my selfishness. I've not seen my youngest for at least a month.

wait like... a massage parlor while drunk? maybe. alcohol makes me all wobble... loose... other words. I had a good one in mind for a second lol. but for me its more like up in my head, but this ativan is like body...ish. it already feels like I'm being massaged

Lol, it takes a lot of effort, but sometimes, I can feel like I'm getting a massage to. And loose would be a good thing while getting a massage. being tense isn't ideal.

I guess so. alcohol usually mkes me too tired before I get to that point. I just like wanna do stuff like that right now lol.. I wish I had like three more of these pills

lol, Go to sleep, have a lucid

Also, I'm EXTREMELY pissed. I'm staying off the internet now....
SOPA sponsor has another Internet bill that records you 24/7 - SlashGear

god, what is that guy's problem?/ what's with all the sudden internet hate. I need to reread that again later lol

go to sleep? like right now?? but I'm buzzin :O buzz buzz.... actually it is making me pretty tired lol

Originally Posted by Alyzarin

god, what is that guy's problem?/ what's with all the sudden internet hate. I need to reread that again later lol

go to sleep? like right now?? but I'm buzzin :O buzz buzz.... actually it is making me pretty tired lol

lol, and I dunno. but I'm getting extremely depressed reading the news now. I seriously have an easier time listening to how people died in explosions, and through wars, then I do reading about how a group of many 1000 people think they are better then the world. It disgusts me to see that because they "entertain" people, and force people to pay their ridiculous prices, that they are somehow responsible for who does what on the internet. Granted, piracy is an issue, but that doesn't mean everyone else has to abide by their rules because they are being "hurt" They have made more money in 2011 then they ever have, but someone, that isn't enough. They have to bully everyone. They have to act like a 12 year old child, and rule the play ground. They bough this into congress, and into the senate, and honestly expected it to pass. they ACTUALLY had the nerve to sponsor it with something like 94 Million dollars. Now they are pissed with Obama because he stood up to them, and so did the rest of America and the world. But no, in the end, they'll win. Maybe not today. or tomorrow, or in the next year, but eventually, they'll force a puppet to squeeze it in there. And when they do, I hope the American people, the world, has enough balls to say enough, and over throw the corrupt and disgusting entertainment industry.


PS @ Alyzarin: yes right now lol I'm just messing with ya, and I actually have a buzz going on right now to

Originally Posted by Zhaylin

I hope we get a major ice/snow storm tonight

I just went outside to hit McDonald's and found my car covered with ice!! And the streets - and pretty much everything else. Took me like 10 minutes to clear all the windows on my car and get it warmed up/defrosted enough to go. And then they forgot my cherry pies!! Sure didn't forget to charge me for them though..

Oh well, at least there was a really hot girl working the drivethru. Somehow that makes it all ok. (Sad, I know.. )

Originally Posted by OldSparta

lol, and I dunno. but I'm getting extremely depressed reading the news now. I seriously have an easier time listening to how people died in explosions, and through wars, then I do reading about how a group of many 1000 people think they are better then the world. It disgusts me to see that because they "entertain" people, and force people to pay their ridiculous prices, that they are somehow responsible for who does what on the internet. Granted, piracy is an issue, but that doesn't mean everyone else has to abide by their rules because they are being "hurt" They have made more money in 2011 then they ever have, but someone, that isn't enough. They have to bully everyone. They have to act like a 12 year old child, and rule the play ground. They bough this into congress, and into the senate, and honestly expected it to pass. they ACTUALLY had the nerve to sponsor it with something like 94 Million dollars. Now they are pissed with Obama because he stood up to them, and so did the rest of America and the world. But no, in the end, they'll win. Maybe not today. or tomorrow, or in the next year, but eventually, they'll force a puppet to squeeze it in there. And when they do, I hope the American people, the world, has enough balls to say enough, and over throw the corrupt and disgusting entertainment industry.


PS @ Alyzarin: yes right now lol I'm just messing with ya, and I actually have a buzz going on right now to

I understand the gist of what youre saying right now and I agree I'll reread that again later lol. just finished smoking two bowls of highquality catnip! X3 added a nice mellow feeling.... I really want that beer sigh

and oh okay cause I was like go to bed but why? D: ha

Lol, Mmm catnip

Anyway, I dunno. I'm very pissed off right now about this bill. It's the booze though. I'd be pissed off sober, but I wouldn't write a rant like that :/ I only do that in IRC. For reasons "unknown" Christ like 5 mins later, I had a similar rant on my Facebook account -.-

Oh. I thought this rant and rave thing was a topic, like its own forum, or subforum, in which one could make their own personal rant. I don't feel like having my own personal rant lost among 183 pages of others' personal rants.

Not a complaint, just an observation.

Yeah man, catnip rocks XD it tastes kind of like shitty weed and gets you buzzed somewhere between being high and drunk but not really all of either and it's pretty light, it's basically a nice subtle additive to things.... I bought 4 ounces a while ago because it has medical benefits and stuff too if you brew it as a tea

yeah this stuff is a real bummer, I signed the google petition the other day against the first two ones. it's some BS :T

Catnip, seriously? I cannot be anywhere near the stuff. My youngest son thought he would be funny and place a catnip filled toy right beside my face while I slept. I woke up raging. It messes with my sinuses and head in a way that isn't in the least bit enjoyable.

Get lost in HERE, Ophelia Nah. Feel free to jump in anywhere.

I think of this thread as the "throw it in a trash can and create a landfill" thread. What Zhaylin said.

Posts in this thread won't be lost. There are quite a few people who read every one of them and will respond. I've posted some things in here that are pretty serious and might deserve their own threads, but I post them here because I'm not so selfish that I think a whole thread needs to be started just for me, even with serious issues, unless I'm asking for help with them, in which case I'd post in the Help! sub-forum.

So, I'm starting to drink. I feel nothing yet, but realise I am alone and have no one to talk to. So, to pass the time, I've decided to write in here. I won't write constantly, only in few-minute intervals. I'll drink a glass, let it hit, then write another paragraph. So each paragraph will imply a higher level of drunkenness. For the first time, I'm drinking actual red red wine. This bottle was about $18. What I usually buy is about $12. I'm feeling rather bored actually. I wish that I had someone to talk to. It's kind of odd that I don't. Over the last few months I've had a few online friends who I've talked to regularly, but most of them go away. Usually I'll talk regularly to one or two at a time, then they decide to stop talking to me gradually. I'm not sure why that is. I'll drink a glass or so and then come back in the next paragraph. I'll post what I have now, and edit it in real-time.

I suppose I'm now buzzed. This wine is disgusting. I much prefer the $12 stuff. Yeah, @OldSparta, IRC is okay sometimes, but not usually. I don't even want to risk it. Usually when I go in there, I get a series of greetings, someone asks me how drunk I am, and then I'm ignored. Either there's silence or people start talking about something I don't care about, so I end up leaving awkwardly. What I said before about not knowing why people stop talking to me... no, I know why. I have a very good surface persona. I'm physically quite attractive, I appear to be intelligent and insightful, I have a lot of unique and interesting qualities. But, beneath that, I'm nothing. I'm a complete fucking useless waste of oxygen. I seem intelligent, and I suppose I am, in certain ways, but that fact means nothing when I'm so ignorant of everything. I'm lazy and never finish anything I try to do. I've been planning to learn about politics for... how many years now? I don't know. I suppose I create the illusion that I'm knowledgeable by keeping quiet about the things I don't know. So yeah, I'm alluring, someone people want to get to know. But once they reach out to me, and I reach back, and I get drunk and write them a lot of long e-mails, they see who I really am which is nothing worth their time, and lose interest in knowing me. None of my other seemingly positive qualities are really that great either. I'm learning violin - ooo, how classy - but I don't know it at all yet. I'm interested in philosophy and think about it, but once you actually start talking with me about it, you realise I know none of the history nor the terminology. I might know a bit to start a conversation and appear knowledgeable, but I could never carry one out in depth without losing myself. I read books, but they're only fantasy novels. I appear to do well in my classes and look really good as the only female in a class of males with the strictest asshole teacher in the school, but I'm really not doing that well. I've learned to get a bored, knowledgeable look in my eyes, as though I know exactly what the teacher is talking about, but really I'm lost most of the time, I'd just never show it. I'm attractive, my face is nice, but that means nothing. It sickens me lately. I cannot look in mirrors, I fucking hate it. It's completely wrong, not what I feel like I'm supposed to look like. I seem to have a nice body, but I'm constantly holding in my stomach in real life to appear really skinny, and my thighs are too big. I have a huge scar on my arm and plenty on my legs along with about 30 fresh cuts, but no one would guess that in real life. I act confident and classy, I put on a good act lately, but really I drink every night and want to die and am a fucking loser who will never achieve anything. I might seem knowledgeable because I pretty much look for excuses to recite any of the knowledge I know, so people assume that I must know a lot more, but I don't. People see these flaws about me, they realise I'm a useless idiot, and they leave because there are others more worth their time.

Thanks OldSparta, I appreciate the post. I don't feel like responding to it now though. I find myself listening to um... System of a Down, lol. I literally haven't listened to that in about 5 years. I saw one of their songs in a related video on youtube, expected it to be crap now because most of the music I used to listen to is, but it's actually sounding okay. This wine really is hard to down. I suppose I'm almost drunk now. Not quite, but almost. Somebody on DV was online and in their profile I saw them looking at this thread, but they never replied to it, and that made me sad. In addition, there is someone I wish would come online, but won't. In further addition, there is someone who I wish would e-mail me, but likely won't. I have a huge fear of rejection. Yet, I continue to do things that usually result in it, because I can't stand the nothingness that comes otherwise. I decided conclusively that I would not e-mail the guy in my class anymore, since his last e-mail to me was kind of short so I'm fearing I said something that made him dislike me, but I can feel myself almost willing to do it already... I fear that I will. I wish I could somehow prevent myself from accessing my hotmail while drunk... fuck. It seems that no humans in the world exist who I like and who like me. It's like there are two bars, my liking of him and his liking of me, and added together they must equal 100% or something. So, for example, I might like him 20% and he likes me 80%. The relationship never works because he likes me way more than I like him. Or sometimes it's the opposite. I like him 90% but he likes me 10%. I swear it almost always follows that scheme, adding to 100%. Someone reaches out to me and I'm not at first interested, then I become interested and start talking to him more, then he stops talking to me and becomes less interested, and I'm left heartbroken. I wish that wine wasn't so bitter. I've realised that songs that I've been liking a lot lately are actually intended to be emotional rap beats, which kind of demotivates me, because I hate rap.

People just.... don't seem to realise how much pain they can cause me. They don't think they're that substantial to another human, but they are. Either they don't realise how much they can affect me, or they're cruel. Extremely cruel. And don't care. People just don't do what I want them to do. People try to reach out to me and talk to me when I don't want them to. And they ignore my cries for help or for someone to just talk to when I really really really really need it, like they think it's nothing. FUCK. Time to I don't even know. I suppose I'm technically drunk now. I hate it. Or I love it, I do enjoy it. Listening now to Nirvana. I never liked them, but my taste in music seems to alter drastically while I'm drunk. I enjoy being drunk, a lot. But it would be better if I had someone to talk to. Fuck. I'm so unfulfilled. And desperate, and to be honestly, constantly horny. I swear I have a higher libido than most males do. It's fucking ridiculous and embarrassing. But only while I'm not depressed. Bands like Nirvana and Alice in Chains are nice, because they lack emotion, they promote the lack of emotion, and that's nice.

Well, over an hour since my last post here. If link s irgh the that's okayl.. I'm quite drunk now. I'm listening to a song that i havn't listend to in a very long time. I am much too embarrased to admit what son git is.. But okayl, it's blink 182 -I miss you. Okay? hate me now. lol. It almost makes me want to cry honestly. What is wrong with me. To be honest, no. I becom eattached to people, but what is the differenc between that and love? I do love, too many people. If I can't stop thinking about osmeone for over a month an dfeeling such loss and lifelessness due to losing them, is that not love? I suppose it isn't. I don't know why I'm tlakin gabout it. I know it isn't love. I have experineced real lolve. So I don't know hat's going on with me. I suppose there are a few different types of what people call love, and I've experienced about every one of htem. I feel like I'm floating, I'm drinking, my body is higher than it should be. Oh god. Why do I do this? I'm horny. Fuck. Why am I alone? I'm an attractive female, I should have guys ready to please me in any way I want, but I don't. I don't. I'm just a loser. I'm lonely. I've been getting a hug eurge to SLAP myself lately, seriously. And I have been when my parents aren't in the house. I just did now, twice, on either side of my face, it feels so good. I wish that scars didn't happen. I like cutting myself, the only reason I don't is from fear of new scars.

THe only reaosn now I"m tyring isk idk, holy shit.. Compeltey druhk,.. I can't even play a anow.. So deprese,d no point in aything, cna't stand it, terified of a hangover, feelin lighlsyt nauseous.. we/ goodbye.

wait so, you're gonna keep editing that post? alright, I gotta keep my eye on this page lol. I don't know guys, I think I might be going for that beer soon.... it's been like two and a half hours since I took the ativan... wait, is that right?

Originally Posted by Zhaylin

Catnip, seriously? I cannot be anywhere near the stuff. My youngest son thought he would be funny and place a catnip filled toy right beside my face while I slept. I woke up raging. It messes with my sinuses and head in a way that isn't in the least bit enjoyable.

hehe, well then you probably shouldn't try smoking it XP it's nice but you won't have to live unfilfilled just from not trying it

Originally Posted by Dianeva

Posts in this thread won't be lost. There are quite a few people who read every one of them and will respond. I've posted some things in here that are pretty serious and might deserve their own threads, but I post them here because I'm not so selfish that I think a whole thread needs to be started just for me, even with serious issues, unless I'm asking for help with them, in which case I'd post in the Help! sub-forum.

So, I'm starting to drink. I feel nothing yet, but realise I am alone and have no one to talk to. So, to pass the time, I've decided to write in here. I won't write constantly, only in few-minute intervals. I'll drink a glass, let it hit, then write another paragraph. So each paragraph will imply a higher level of drunkenness. For the first time, I'm drinking actual red red wine. This bottle was about $18. What I usually buy is about $12. I'm feeling rather bored actually. I wish that I had someone to talk to. It's kind of odd that I don't. Over the last few months I've had a few online friends who I've talked to regularly, but most of them go away. Usually I'll talk regularly to one or two at a time, then they decide to stop talking to me gradually. I'm not sure why that is. I'll drink a glass or so and then come back in the next paragraph. I'll post what I have now, and edit it in real-time.

Or get your butt on IRC You too Alyzarin(I think I spelled that right. I didn't look this time)

No, sorry, something in between HELP and Uno Rant lost in pages of ramble would be nice, just saying.

99% of 'my issues' are shared by others, which is normal and can be shared here in this subforum. But less or greater than 1% is selfish and wants a singular audience. I didn't realize I was the only human on the planet who felt that way.

But since I can recognize how things have changed, I will blend in with the sheep </me has no choice>

Originally Posted by OpheliaBlue

No, sorry, something in between HELP and Uno Rant lost in pages of ramble would be nice, just saying.

99% of 'my issues' are shared by others, which is normal and can be shared here in this subforum. But less or greater than 1% is selfish and wants a singular audience. I didn't realize I was the only human on the planet who felt that way.

But since I can recognize how things have changed, I will blend in with the sheep </me has no choice>

BAH! Don't become a sheep. The world has too many goddamned sheep. It sickens me.

Originally Posted by OldSparta

BAH! Don't become a sheep. The world has too many goddamned sheep. It sickens me.

Hehe an exaggeration; I was being facetious with respects to Dianeva's comment about 'not being selfish'. Ophelia ain't losing her Blue. </3rd person>

Originally Posted by Dianeva

I suppose I'm now buzzed. This wine is disgusting. I much prefer the $12 stuff. Yeah, @OldSparta, IRC is okay sometimes, but not usually. I don't even want to risk it. Usually when I go in there, I get a series of greetings, someone asks me how drunk I am, and then I'm ignored. Either there's silence or people start talking about something I don't care about, so I end up leaving awkwardly. What I said before about not knowing why people stop talking to me... no, I know why. I have a very good surface persona. I'm physically quite attractive, I appear to be intelligent and insightful, I have a lot of unique and interesting qualities. But, beneath that, I'm nothing. I'm a complete fucking useless waste of oxygen. I seem intelligent, and I suppose I am, in certain ways, but that fact means nothing when I'm so ignorant of everything. I'm lazy and never finish anything I try to do. I've been planning to learn about politics for... how many years now? I don't know. I suppose I create the illusion that I'm knowledgeable by keeping quiet about the things I don't know. So yeah, I'm alluring, someone people want to get to know. But once they reach out to me, and I reach back, and I get drunk and write them a lot of long e-mails, they see who I really am which is nothing worth their time, and lose interest in knowing me. None of my other seemingly positive qualities are really that great either. I'm learning violin - ooo, how classy - but I don't know it at all yet. I'm interested in philosophy and think about it, but once you actually start talking with me about it, you realise I know none of the history nor the terminology. I might know a bit to start a conversation and appear knowledgeable, but I could never carry one out in depth without losing myself. I read books, but they're only fantasy novels. I appear to do well in my classes and look really good as the only female in a class of males with the strictest asshole teacher in the school, but I'm really not doing that well. I've learned to get a bored, knowledgeable look in my eyes, as though I know exactly what the teacher is talking about, but really I'm lost most of the time, I'd just never show it. I'm attractive, my face is nice, but that means nothing. It sickens me lately. I cannot look in mirrors, I fucking hate it. It's completely wrong, not what I feel like I'm supposed to look like. I seem to have a nice body, but I'm constantly holding in my stomach in real life to appear really skinny, and my thighs are too big. I have a huge scar on my arm and plenty on my legs along with about 30 fresh cuts, but no one would guess that in real life. I act confident and classy, I put on a good act lately, but really I drink every night and want to die and am a fucking loser who will never achieve anything. I might seem knowledgeable because I pretty much look for excuses to recite any of the knowledge I know, so people assume that I must know a lot more, but I don't. People see these flaws about me, they realise I'm a useless idiot, and they leave because there are others more worth their time.

WHOOOOAAAAAAAAA ok.... Where to being. Since I'm actually fairled bizzed I'm just gonna take this in stride, and not breaking it down with quotes. Sorry.

lol IRC is decent during the afternoon right now, there is a fuck ton of drama.. so you're actually better not coming in.

Anyway, onto the real stuff. Quit being so hard on yourself. You aren't a waste of oxygen. No offence, but you have a wickedly low self of esteem. Why not do something about it. GO out, find some friends. Hang out with them, socialize, go have some fun. Doesn't matter if you don't feel like it. just... Do it! Again, no offence, but sitting here drinking isn't helping you. You seem more depressed when you drink anyway. You seem like a perfectly fine young woman when you are sober, and you are smart. If you like philosophy, talk to people with it. Who cares if you know nothing. You need to start somewhere.

Also, people don't see those flaws as much as you think they do. Youa re like me, you get one drunk night, fuck shit up, and automatically assume they hate you. That isn't true. It's you running from them, not the other way around. When you poke out of your walls, and see people, you instantly run back in. That's not a good thing. Which is why I said go out!

Anyway, that was short, and very crappy, because of booze, but I hope it helps some what. and By the way, you are attractive. No need to hide who you are

Originally Posted by OpheliaBlue

Hehe an exaggeration; I was being facetious with respects to Dianeva's comment about 'not being selfish'. Ophelia ain't losing her Blue. </3rd person>

You can always hang out around here:

http://www.dreamviews.com/f21/chill-...L+CONVERSATION

I like to call that thread: "Let's have a one night stand conversations and just go bat-shit crazy in our thoughts and try to experience feelings all at once and make our eyes bleeds while we ramble on and on and on until one of us has to go sleep/live/breathe/cut ourselves/ etc."

It's quite popular, at least for the people who talk in it *cough* me *cough*, if you need something to talk about, you can pop in and start a conversation. Most of them are non-emotional talk. I'd like to talk with you if you want, being a female chauvinist, you don't see that often here in Texas, I'd like to see your thoughts, ideals, etc. on the matter. Feel free to join.

Complaint: My apartment is a fucking mess. My lotion is right next to my laptop, a bag from take out asian food on my left. Noteooks stacked and scattered pieces of paper, suitcase of clothes is open and placed awkwardly while my jacket and shirts that have dried up sweat saturated with cologne as I use it over again because of my laziness, I just can't take gather the will to clean all this shit up.

And my neighbor upstairs always comes out with two women, where the hell does he get them? Slut R' Us? God damn it, and they're always giggling too! It's not as if they're making cookie dough...

Originally Posted by Dianeva

Posts in this thread won't be lost. There are quite a few people who read every one of them and will respond.

Oh trust me they will be lost. You have to be a masochist to go back to the replies and all of them and respond to every one of them and not realize that it's only causing more stress trying to empathize with the many rants of others without causing yourself to go into insanity.

Spoiler for For people who complain that the thread for complaining has too much complaining...like DERP HERPA DERP:

The blood vessels surging into their eyes as they make snide secret remarks of how this or that person thinks their life is so miserable and pathetic. The sweating initiated from the forehead mixed with sodium goes into their eyes and makes them burn like hell, compelling them to make a complaint about said issue.

Or if one feels drunk and wants express their thoughts in a raging fit. You'd honestly have to enjoy pain or just not have any kind of logic being that 0.0000001% to read most posts here and not have the side comments in our heads that speculates on what constitutes of an actual rant rave cry and complain, and then we find ourselves becoming hypocrites creating a scale for such matters when it really is going to be lost in a landfill. As much as we want to label it euphemistically, it's just a trash can that will be lost.

When I make a complaint or whatever, I always speculate on what people might think about it, thus forcing me not to post it anyway because of this invisible scale of what establishes a form of ranting, thinking that their ideals and their thoughts are far more important than small things; I think to myself, "You're a dipshit Linkzelda41, who will give two shits anyway, but wait, it's really all just something to dump on when you experience a brief moment of spontaneity of sorrow, rage, bitching, etc. that needs to be expressed, acknowledge, and hopefully forgotten as we all find a way to empathize and create this pretentious facade that everything will be okay as long as we endure and all that idealistic "YOU CAN DO IT" when we will eventually come back with more problems.

There is nothing wrong with coming back with problems, it's not as if when we post our problems, we're going to form some utopia in waking life thinking "I'll just use the advice the others told me!" , we're not perfect, we're going to have problems, but people just think it rots and goes into hell when several people come at once and start revolution. But it's going to die out eventually and everyone can be happy to have a stable place to express their problems of the day.

Oh how I love human beings, we continue to deny our wickedness, we will have turmoil, and if people use scales to constitute what is a problem or just a petty speculation of being pissed off, just move on, it's going to be lost. It will be lost, and it will accumulate.

But it's the internet, it's all a trash can, and if it's not one to others, it will be. When we find that no one else will want to listen to our cries, we use the internet, it releases the clogs in our veins temporarily, and to analyze and look at every post is only a form of sadomasochism as you bleed your eyes and secretly snicker at the person's qualms. I'm sure typing releases modicums of stress, thus making the person feel better. It's like getting laid for now until we need to get laid again.

This is the "fleeting moments of rage, ranting etc." There's nothing wrong with that, it only becomes hell to others when they keep hanging on to the fleeting moments of others and think too much about it. And to waste one's brain power over fleeting moments is just going to make them start to bitch on the purpose of the thread, but when it's taken into Freud-mode, it just makes them want to bitch that everything is going to hell.

WAH WAH WAH!

Back to torturous cleaning. I hope I finish cleaning this apartment.

Originally Posted by Dianeva

I wish that scars didn't happen. I like cutting myself, the only reason I don't is from fear of new scars.

I'mas right there weight you. Alright so guyds I'm not taking bebzos + alchol anymore. Alright... kJust no lol. I can't raelly thinkg of anyhting else to say buyt rhat's my complainst. just no