I didn't think I'd be on DV for a while but apparently I am.
People seem to be discussing their relationship-type stuff now. I would, but, it's difficult when some of the people involved know about this forum and may check it, so I can't exactly use it to vent if I don't want them to hear, lol. Also it's just too fucked up.
 Originally Posted by Linkzelda41
I just don't want the cousin ending up liking me, and the girl I like finds out, even though we're not really in a relationship. I don't understand women, why is she being so nice to me...it just doesn't make sense, I barely even talk to her that much anyway, and when we do talk it's over silly things.
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I know I've whined about being friend-zoned, but this one just doesn't make sense at all. She is so fragile, she just sets herself up for a heartbreak that it's almost tempting to see her cry and just go nuts. I won't go into detail on this girl's status quo in life, and she's like 4 years older than me.
I've been in both your place and hers. It fucking sucks. If you don't like her, you aren't obligated to date her or anything. You might not want to make her feel bad, but it is her problem, not yours. If the time ever comes that she makes it more obvious that she likes you in that way, let her down gently to lessen the heartbreak.
 Originally Posted by stormcrow
haha so i went out tonight with some coworkers and I had too many makers marks and shiners I got pretty drunk and told everyone I liked this girl at my work (who wasnt there she is really smart) and now shes is gonna know I hate myself Im a pretty pathetic person I always like girls who think im a fucking asshole pretty pathetic I want to be asxesual so I dont give a fuck anymore I just dont care anymore
I'm quoting this so you don't try to delete your post later, lol. Did you tell the coworkers that you hate yourself and are pathetic? How would she know all that? And why are you so sure the coworkers will tell her what you said? And I bet no one thinks you're an asshole. You're probably completely making that up, being irrational about it due to self-hatred. Or that's what it seems to me, I do the same thing.
My Windows isn't working so I'm stuck on ubutnu. Really pissed off because it was working fine until I installed updates. I guess I need to get used to linux though, I should probably be switching entirely over to it anyway.
I got drunk two nights ago and did at least 3 stupid things. Three that I remember, likely more that I forget. I did forget a lot. A good friend deleted me from Steam. I also decided, while drunk, that it would be a good time to send a thankyou email to the guy in my class who I'm slightly attracted to and whose email I have (mentioned that situation on the happy/cheerful thread recently). I basically just told him I think he's nice and everyone else is mean and people are so cruel. God, why am I such a fucking retard when I'm drunk? Can I not control myself enough to at least not interact with people I don't know very well? If anyone's going to witness how insane I get while drunk, it should just be friends who I know aren't going to cease talking to me due to something I say. And it saddens me to realise I don't have anyone in my life right now who fits under that category. Anyway, for a day I didn't get a response from him, but then did. My heart was pounding as I opened the email, but it was good, perfect again. I'm still embarrassed about it but it's a lot better now.
Work is very, very stressful. I've been eating healthily for the last three days or so, but it's difficult not to eat doughnuts when I'm basically staring at them for eight hours.
I took a walk in the early morning sunrise and there was light snow on the ground. The moon was bright and exactly half full, and there were no other people about. And I kept seeing those diminuitive birds that seem to always come out in the winter. So fast and cute. And I was listening to positive music for once, reminding myself nothing matters, attaining a state in which I feel it to be true and am overcome with this extraordinary peaceful feeling. I don't think there are any other thoughts capable of making me happy lately.
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