Rant and Rave, Cry and Complain

**Puffin** · 01-15-2012 04:23 AM

Everything seems to be getting really complicated right now.

**OldNutter** · 01-15-2012 04:32 AM

Originally Posted by Puffin

Everything seems to be getting really complicated right now.

nothing is complicated, you just make it so

break it down to the simplest way possible...

man my head hurts.... freaking wine/beer

**anderj101** · 01-15-2012 04:37 AM

Originally Posted by OldSparta

man my head hurts.... freaking wine/beer

Me too. I should have stuck with beer, but I felt like I needed a few shots too.

**OldNutter** · 01-15-2012 04:38 AM

I started with wine... then went to beer.

**Puffin** · 01-15-2012 04:44 AM

Originally Posted by OldSparta

nothing is complicated, you just make it so

break it down to the simplest way possible...

I will try. I'm not gonna start another thread in Help!, so this will do.

Spoiler for tl;dr:

**fOrceez** · 01-15-2012 06:19 AM

Originally Posted by Puffin

I will try. I'm not gonna start another thread in Help!, so this will do.

Spoiler for tl;dr:

Don't get upset over douchebags, they're not worth it. Here,

**Erii** · 01-15-2012 06:33 AM

Originally Posted by tommo

Alaska would be awesome, fuck your family lol. As far as I can tell family just serves to hold one back from their goals.

But I'd miss them

**Darkmatters** · 01-15-2012 07:42 AM

Originally Posted by Puffin

Everything seems to be getting really complicated right now.

Welcome to Relationships.

**tommo** · 01-15-2012 08:48 AM

Originally Posted by Erii

But I'd miss them

Awwwwwwwwwawawawawaaawwwww....
Ok, well, get a good job there and then you can visit them on holidays

Stressing my ass off about how I'm going to pay for this science course. And I'm not even sure if it's worth taking it.
I guess if I don't want to do anything with it when I'm done, I'll just save up some money and move to a different country.
But it's still stressful coz I have to pay so much god damned money that I don't have.
I have e-mailed the relevant person at the university to see how I can pay it off, but will have to wait for a response.

AGHWGEOERL:EANAEVgnkearngRKGnkanrgWkGKRRNGKRNGWRN! !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!11111oneoneoneone

FML....

EDIT: And yeah, every relationship (sexual or otherwise) is complicated, but only coz people make it so.

**Linkzelda** · 01-15-2012 09:04 AM

I just realized that when I came to this forum, I've been trying to find my dream guide ever since. I always took blonde females as a dream sign, and focused so much on that in hopes that my dream guide was a blonde. But there were those rare occasions where I would see a lady in red. I would always ignore it because I thought it was just an illusion, when in fact that the blonde females were in fact an illusion.

The last dream I had, a DC literally took my breath away, as if the feminine side of me wanted to show me how important it is to know what we have to be together as one, and to see how it feels to have part of your life taken away. I think when she passed out, it's because I took all of her energy away, and tried to sublimate it towards the blonde females.

Of course I may be wrong, but it is not coincidence that happened because before that dream, I ignored another lady in red as I was going up a white stoned ramp. All this time I've been focusing on blondes, working my ass hard to find my DG, when it fact that she's been there all this time. Now I have to find her, and when I do find her, I'll be at her feet begging for forgiveness for my ignorance.

But now, I have to find her, and it's going to be hard, I have to get serious on getting lucid, non-lucids only convey a message. The only way I can truly find out what's right and wrong is to become lucid regularly and form a bond with this DG in a red dress.

Eva was just a blonde who was a distraction, I strongly believe it's the DC that appears in a red dress that is my DG, the only way to find out is to become lucid and ask it questions and demand it show proof that she is my DG. I never cried so much to this song...I'm still crying...at least I know when I find her, and if she is the one, I hope I'll be happy to know I'll get to see her everyday and ask her for advice and help with waking life, and hopefully make me a better person overall.

This video really gets to me because the blonde can be Eva, and the lady in the background of the wedding is the one that I should've been looking for all the time.

Taking my breath away, and before then just appearing when I ignored her is no coincidence, it can't be. If not, then who am I? =/

I'm serious, I'm fucking shaking at my ignorance. My eyes are twitching yearning for resolution.

Happy lucids everyone.

**Carrot** · 01-15-2012 09:23 AM

Originally Posted by Zhaylin

Carrot. Are you religious at all? A lot of churches offer spiritual counseling for free. As for therapists, it usually takes a while for the relationship to click. Before that, it seems like a waste of time and money. In the long run though, if you find someone you click with, it's definitely worth it.
I saw my p-doc for at least a year before I even liked him lol. After several years, I finally revealed some things I had held back. Now I couldn't imagine not having him around.

Hugs to everyone else who needs one.

I'm not religious, sadly. I do believe in supreme beings though but I'm more of a freethinker.

In my case for the psychiatrist, he's not trained in psychotherapy so there's no difference really between talking to him and any other normal person. All he does is just give pills and lots of people were advising me not to take them because the side effects are hazardous.

I don't really mind talking about my problems to people. Because in the first place I don't think there's any need to hide if I really need help. Besides I realised what I am thinking isn't weird at all because there are many people in this world with the same thinking too. And just remember, every time you spend wondering about how others think about you, they are thinking how you view them too.

Thanks for the hugs. Hugs to you too.

**Wayfaerer** · 01-15-2012 09:51 AM

Originally Posted by Erii

I really want to move someday. I love it here, I am going to go to college here, and what not, but I want so bad to move to Alaska. For years I've wanted to move somewhere in the pacific northwest area..I honestly plan on moving there someday xD. Once my parents die and what not, well, maybe before that if they live to be 47239574295435. Family and friends would be something that would hold me back though. I have a brother and a sister, a nephew, a lot of aunts and uncles (only close to a few of them though)...mostly all of my immediate family lives here. Which is like the only family I see. I would still move there though, I'd visit here and what not, obviously. I dunno I just have a burning desire to move there xD preferably with someone I know though..
I want to go there so fucking bad! lol

That sounds like an awesome idea, I've had similar ones too. I miss my family and friends but there's something about travelling and nature that beckons me stronger than people, including family lol For example, I had my heart set on moving to Canada for college for years and had no problem with the idea of leaving everyone I knew (I ended up staying in state for the financial benefits). I think the fact that I'd only be missing a few people might have helped lol. There's just something about going somewhere completely different and starting new that I find irresistible. I also lived near a city and had a serious need to be able to explore real wilderness. Alaska seems amazing :0 I figured if I ever had the money to get a vacation home or something, it would be there lol. You could always visit a few times first, it might change your mind, or it might suck you in :0

**DeeryTheDeer** · 01-15-2012 10:12 AM

It seems that I can't enter chat whether I'm on my iPad or computer. Something's weird. I used my own username and password.

**Zhaylin** · 01-15-2012 02:37 PM

AustralianFire, the reason you can't draw (I imagine) is because it's distracting to others in the congregation. You're also supposed to be paying attention to whats being said

Erii, Alaska sounds amazing. I've always wanted to explore the wilderness there. But Hawaii is more my style lol. Alaska's just too darn cold

As for your boyfriend. Definitely consider the source. Ignore him. If your boyfriend continues acting distant etc, confront him.

Gratz Link!

Thanks for the hug, Carrot

Hope you figure out your chat difficulties, Deery,

My rant so far is that I went to bed at around 1AM and got up at 8AM. Various body parts kept falling asleep throughout the night

I had some awesome dreams though.
I'm also confused about my pulse. I walked to my desk after waking up, to take my pressure: 101/75 pulse of 107. But I felt fine. My pulse wasn't pounding. Whereas when my blood pressure dropped and my pulse was 100 I thought it was going to pound its way out of my chest

Which tells me pounding and racing don't necessarily go together?

We still have no water

But the modular didn't burn to the ground, so I guess that's a good thing

**tommo** · 01-15-2012 04:03 PM

Just sent some greeting card illustrations to a card company, hoping to get some extra cash, coz they pay pretty well.
They rejected my submissions....

I don't understand it, half the cards I've seen on their site aren't even close to being good, and in fact directly go against the guidelines of the type of images they say they want.

Fuckers....

Here's a song for everyone here, it always gets me when I'm down for any reason. Right now multiple reasons.... heh....:

**Singularity125** · 01-15-2012 05:13 PM

Originally Posted by tommo

EDIT: And yeah, every relationship (sexual or otherwise) is complicated, but only coz people make it so.

That's right, people are complicated, not relationships. Maybe you should get a pet dog, Puffin, they're the poster animals for unconditional love.

...seriously though, I'm sure the jealous guy is just being an ass. Don't pay him any mind. Feel better.

Originally Posted by Linkzelda41

...Eva was just a blonde who was a distraction, I strongly believe it's the DC that appears in a red dress that is my DG, the only way to find out is to become lucid and ask it questions and demand it show proof that she is my DG....

Hey, Link. I'm seriously not trying to be a downer here, but keep in mind that things shapeshifting in dreams is not that uncommon. It differs for everyone, but you can't rely on appearances alone to find your dream guide. Without trying to sound esoteric here, there's a certain energy you should look for from your Dream Guide, that should be unmistakable. I think, when you find him or her, you'll know.

Also, why spend so much time trying to find her? You should ask for her to find you. Sometimes passive commands work better in lucids than active ones. I'm just throwing out possibilities.

**Carrot** · 01-15-2012 05:47 PM

I was trolled at another forum. Twice.

**~~Alyzarin~~** · 01-15-2012 05:57 PM

Originally Posted by Zhaylin

My rant so far is that I went to bed at around 1AM and got up at 8AM. Various body parts kept falling asleep throughout the night

I had some awesome dreams though.
I'm also confused about my pulse. I walked to my desk after waking up, to take my pressure: 101/75 pulse of 107. But I felt fine. My pulse wasn't pounding. Whereas when my blood pressure dropped and my pulse was 100 I thought it was going to pound its way out of my chest

Which tells me pounding and racing don't necessarily go together?

Well, I'm still willing to bet that the pounding heart was an illusion since you also had other symptoms of low blood pressure. It goes along with with the disorientation and nausea. Technically I don't think racing and pounding have to go together, but they usually will. But, it seems that more often than not, pounding is a symptom of anxiety that's more perceived than real, and it's definitely easier to become anxious if your heart is racing.

**Erii** · 01-15-2012 06:04 PM

Originally Posted by Wayfaerer

That sounds like an awesome idea, I've had similar ones too. I miss my family and friends but there's something about travelling and nature that beckons me stronger than people, including family lol For example, I had my heart set on moving to Canada for college for years and had no problem with the idea of leaving everyone I knew (I ended up staying in state for the financial benefits). I think the fact that I'd only be missing a few people might have helped lol. There's just something about going somewhere completely different and starting new that I find irresistible. I also lived near a city and had a serious need to be able to explore real wilderness. Alaska seems amazing :0 I figured if I ever had the money to get a vacation home or something, it would be there lol. You could always visit a few times first, it might change your mind, or it might suck you in :0

Yeah I do plan on visiting it within the next few years for sure. It's so beautiful and I would rather be there than here, I'm not fond of bigger cities, hustle and bustle, etc. I really just want to live in a beautiful small town there, by the mountains and forests, everyone knows eachother, and so on. The only problem is I would have to drive a ways to get to a bigger city for work and stuff, but buses are an option. I think I would get over the "homesick" thing after a while though, I would still visit for sure, ahh i dunno I just wanna go there so bad xD

**OldNutter** · 01-15-2012 08:19 PM

Well, came back from a great night, had a lot of fun with my friends and the works. As I was coming home, I noticed my car was shaking a lot. Ok, though there might have been ice in my rim again. whatever. So I get home and when I popped the truck open, I hear a hissing sound. OOoo great! I now have a hole in my tire -.-

I have like 5 services calls to do tomorrow, on a freaking donut tire. Great. I hope the tire shop will be able to patch it up like... really quickly. Bah, I needed this like I need a hole in the head -. -

**Zhaylin** · 01-16-2012 12:17 AM

I don't think the pounding was because of anxiety. I knew what to expect before it happened. Hubby's a doctor so I asked him and he said pounding and racing usually do go together but not always. Then he said a bunch more stuff that went right over my head lol.
My hair was so gross, I went outside and used hubby's facet to wash it. It was SO COLD, but strangely invigorating

I've not been in this good of mood for a while, plus I have a bit of energy to boot. Maybe I should start taking cold showers lol

Then I went grocery shopping, came home, unloaded everything and my son informed me that we now have water

Hubby felt bad and said he has more than one shower and I could use it if I needed to. What's the fun in being normal though

I slipped on the snow when I was picking up money from where hubby stashes it for me. I fell right on my formerly broken wrist and I rammed my shoulder onto the open car door. Thankfully, my wrist seems to have healed perfectly but boy my shoulder hurts.
I also gave a ride to a young couple who were walking with a tiny baby. The baby was being carried by dad in one of those backpack style carriers and he was completely covered. They didn't have far to go and I've seen them around a lot. Hubby lectured me though because the other day someone pulled over to a broken down car to help out and was beaten nearly to death and his car was stolen. It happened just a few miles down the road from us.

OldSparta. Hope your tire can get fixed quickly.

**~~Alyzarin~~** · 01-16-2012 12:33 AM

Originally Posted by Zhaylin

I also gave a ride to a young couple who were walking with a tiny baby. The baby was being carried by dad in one of those backpack style carriers and he was completely covered. They didn't have far to go and I've seen them around a lot. Hubby lectured me though because the other day someone pulled over to a broken down car to help out and was beaten nearly to death and his car was stolen. It happened just a few miles down the road from us.

Ah! Don't get beaten nearly to death!

...I probably would've done the same thing.

I always think about that kind of thing, though!

**Solarflare** · 01-16-2012 12:40 AM

Originally Posted by Carrot

I was trolled at another forum. Twice.

Aww

The problem with trolls is that people don't know how to either ignore the troll or troll them back.

**Wayfaerer** · 01-16-2012 01:58 AM

so much studying to do

**Linkzelda** · 01-16-2012 02:51 AM

Woke up from a lucid, but now I'm speculating on more questions on whether or not the guide DC I met was a guide to lead me to my Dream Guide, or if he's the DG, but again, he answered my question if he's the guide in questions..

This is bullshit....at least fucking TELL ME! Damn it...