Thread: Rant and Rave, Cry and Complain

i wish i could remember seeing the northern lights a month or so ago, without the soul-crushing memory of my soul being crushed during them.

I cried to myself talking to my subconscious before sleeping last night, I told it how I'm grateful for keeping me alive despite me contemplating on giving up and just being reduced to nothingness. I did that to convince it to make an entity in my dreams to be my Dream Guide, but I kind of failed doing a WILD attempt, so I only remembered being taken to a lady related to the villain in Uncharted 3 (The old lady who was blonde when she was young).

Still speculating on it because she appeared as a blonde. Which is a dream sign I rarely become aware of.

another one for today because i feel like it: i never -ever- learn. damn my inability to let things be.

I'm gullable as hell. If you told me lucid dreams are actually elaborate indie films, I'd believe you.

For freaking gdoasgjsfhkdhduj SAKES!!~!

WHY CAN'T LOVE BE SIMPLE LIKE IN THIS VIDEO!?!?! It's about Rave Master, the main character forms a friendship with Ellie, gets friend-zone...BUT...BUT...they end up having a child at the end of the manga. Does this mean I have to die, and find someone who's waiting for me, and come back from the grave??? (That's what Haru basically) Damn it manga writers....giving FALSE HOPES!

Never mind.

And lol Neoquestmoo, you should use that highly persuaded mentality (which is really a good thing to have to be honest if you can gear it towards positive results), lucid dreams can be a simulation for you to prepared for problems in waking life!

INCEPTION...I PLANTED AN IDEA!!!



Is it just me, or does anyone use the panic emoticon, and become enticed by it's wacky animation, and imitates it?

Originally Posted by ThePreserver

Their situations might just be about boredom/habit... Whenever I watch TV, I feel the urge to eat, because that's what I DO when I watch TV. Even if I'm not hungry.

The more probable explanation is Gavin was stoned.

Originally Posted by Linkzelda41

And lol Neoquestmoo, you should use that highly persuaded mentality (which is really a good thing to have to be honest if you can gear it towards positive results), lucid dreams can be a simulation for you to prepared for problems in waking life!

INCEPTION...I PLANTED AN IDEA!!!

This is a good line of thinking. Maybe you could take placebos and have them work. Unlimited lucid dreams!!!!

That makes sense. My brother was a pothead too.

Originally Posted by Linkzelda41

Is it just me, or does anyone use the panic emoticon, and become enticed by it's wacky animation, and imitates it?

I'll try to make the panic emoticon. I've tried only the dancing banana so far.

Originally Posted by tommo

This is a good line of thinking. Maybe you could take placebos and have them work. Unlimited lucid dreams!!!!

I shall rule the world!

I'm weird when it comes to eating sometimes.
"Hey son, you want my left overs?"
"You're full already?"
"Ehhh, I'm bored."
Then my son calls me weird again.
It takes me an hour to eat a single stacker and a side salad (and anything else of a similar size). I get bored before I get full so I usually break it up by a couple of hours. But I still watch Hulu while I eat. I can't be the only person who does that My son looks at me like I'm an alien.

I've taken 1 1/2 hydro throughout the day and it still hurts to move my head (especially to check behind me while driving!!!). I've done nothing to explain it other than sleeping wrong... but the aches seem a little too severe for that! Then again, I think I'm a bit depressed which could explain my heightened libido as well as exaggerated aches and pains. I see my p-doc at 10AM. I've been driving myself crazy for the last couple of hours trying to remember if my youngest had run away before or after I last saw him. My internet crashed for 4 hours or else I would have just reviewed my posts here. Now I can't be bothered to look. I'm still pissed off at CPS.

I got ahold of my youngest before 8PM. I had to Google and search for the number. She told me they would have shipped her off to Detention but the facility was full. She's been trying to get ahold of her Case Worker too but no one calls her back or keeps her informed about anything either. She's threatening to run again by this weekend if "they refuse to take their heads out of their asses". And if she runs this time I doubt I'll ever see her again.

Originally Posted by Dianeva

That makes sense. My brother smoked Cannabis too.

Fixed.

FINALLY... my p-doc suggested I might have narcolepsy. I first played with the idea almost 12 years ago. My sleep study ruled it out however, saying I do have sleep apnea and restless leg syndrome. I've never ruled it out completely though because I read somewhere: 'Everyone who suffers from Catalepsy has Narcolepsy though not everyone with Narcolepsy has Catalepsy.'
What sucks is that validation of a long held idea doesn't make the medication any more affordable. Provigil is marketed primarily FOR narcolepsy, but my p-doc prescribed it originally for ... crap, can't remember what it's called now - for being too sleepy all day every day for no good reason Excessive Daytime Sleepiness.

My neck and back still hurt, though not nearly as bad as yesterday. My jaw aches too but I notice it mostly whenever I sing.. which, oddly enough, also makes my neck hurt more too.
And yeah... these aches are from sleeping. When I slept earlier, I caught myself bending my head back as far as it would go (as if looking at the sky). To make things worse, I was also laying on my side in an almost fetal position on an air mattress that isn't firm enough.
My dizziness is also back to a lesser degree. Grrrr...
I can't remember the last time I felt wonderful. It seems I always have some sort of ache, pain or illness going on.

I'm starting to get worried about the dreams I'm posting on Dreamviews, I mean they're not that sexual or anything, but what if one of my friends goes to Google and search a random word and they see a picture linking to Dreamviews, and then search more about the user posting the dreams, and finds out it's me! (I mean I already revealed who I am in a the "Post a picture of yourself")

Lol, I swear, if any of them finds out I have a like 70+ page dream journal (on Microsoft Word), I'm going to die of embarrassment l0l

Even worse, if it's a girl, I might have to become her sex slave.

Then again, they are just dreams hahaa

Why won't my boss:

1. answer his phone
2. answer my emails
3. answer my texts
4. respond to my angry yelling into the cold winter void

Originally Posted by Spartiate

Why won't my boss:

1. answer his phone
2. answer my emails
3. answer my texts
4. respond to my angry yelling into the cold winter void

@Zhaylin .. that sounds shitty.
This feeling of being tired is ridiculous. I just don't feel rested at all. I can't wait till my exams next week are over. Today I have an "Advanced Maths" test on Locus and the Parabola, Quadratics and the Geometric Applications of Calculus. I'm not worried about this test but I just want to feel "normal"! (rested) What is wrong with me :/ Maybe it's my inconsistent waking up.. I'll have to work on this. I find that if I wake up during a later WBTB (5am onwards) I feel compelled to get up and check my computer. I should start turning it off again..
Feeling tired like this is making it mega hard to keep my awareness up aswell. My recall has gone to shit (although last night, i recalled two dreams) because I've just been recalling the dream, 'eh, i should sleep instead of writing the dream down' and then forgetting it completely. Stupid laziness. Stupid education and exams. Stupid school. Stupid not having enough free time. Stupid not enough night time. Stupid only 24 hours in a day.
I want an alcoholic drink.

My profile thingy on my computer said something about "Windows 7 internet security" that there's a "threat", I tried to open my antivirus thing and run a scan, it didn't work, so i went to the guest account thing (I made a separate account, not default guest account) and ran the scan so i hope it works for my account too xD

Thanks fOrceez and I know all too well how much fatigue SUCKS!

I need to start keeping a health/activity/dream journal again, but I suffer from laziness as well. When you're tired all the time, it's hard to find the motivation to do much of anything.

Snuffanuff is missing in action. He was let outside at around 5AM to go potty and we've seen neither hide nor hair of him since. I hope he doesn't have his mothers sense of direction. Despite being a portion Beagle, she couldn't find her way home to save her life. Hopefully he found a new home. Thankfully, people in the Country tend to rotate pets.
His father, however, isn't happy with his disappearance. He keeps going to the door and whining. I let him out and he picks up a scent but then he either loses it or loses interest and comes back inside... and continues to whine.
It's been snowing most of the day but it's a very wet and icky sort of snow. I'm still loving it though

I hope you were able to take care of the threat Erii!

omg. gonna kill someone. what is happening to my computer, everthing is messing up. gahhh

I wasted 2 days at work trying to install Windows Server 2008 on a machine, and it kept screwing everything up with the LAN interfaces. Apparently a static IP cannot be set on an interface that doesn't have Internet access??!!???!? ...then the whole box went down the toilet when I started disabling the automatic network discovery crap that was fighting my IP address change.

After fighting with it for 2 days, I wiped the drives and installed Linux. In 30 minutes time, I had everything working perfectly, including a couple of applications running on WINE, the Windows emulator. Not sure what the boss will think about it tomorrow, but I give up on Windows... ...if he argues too much, I'll just remind him that 1 Windoze license = $2800, and Linux is free + it works better.

You know that feeling in your stomach that makes you feel empty? I'm not talking about being hungry, just a black hole inside that consumes your motivation to accept reality.

I'm feeling that right now, and I'm loving it, I honestly can't think straight now. I have two exams next Tuesday, but didn't do anything today but just finish some extra credit for my Chemistry 101 course and turned it in.

I really need guidance from my subconscious, and I believe it's trying, but I just can't become AWARE...this is a bunch of MUFFINS!%!

I normally get this feeling when I refresh Dreamviews, and no notifications come up :x

Originally Posted by Linkzelda41

this is a bunch of MUFFINS!%!

Eat them, they will give you strength.

NOM NOM NOM NOM NOM

MOAR

I hate when a girl makes a comment that's sexual and I feel the need to just log off and...yeah. LALALALALALALA

LOL

study, right?