Thread: Rant and Rave, Cry and Complain

Well it wouldn't - I'm saying she'd have to be more than JUST drunk to do it..

I would like to sleep, please. 3.5 hours is not enough

Originally Posted by tommo

I just realised last night that you're contradicting yourself, I think anyway, unless I misunderstood.
Coz you said it would only be a very small consideration if at all.
But then you said you'd also never completely blacklist someone....
How does that work?

lol, nice contradiction-finding skills. But when I said it's sometimes a small consideration, I was responding to (what I thought was) your claim that guys always have sex in the backs of their minds while talking to girls. Then when I said I wouldn't blacklist someone I was talking about myself being attracted to or wanting to be be with someone. I might consider someone a friend, without sex in the back of my mind at all, but if I were to get to know them better and get along will with them I might develop an attraction.

Honestly sex itself doesn't cross my mind at all. When I 'like' someone it's probably more like some immature crush-like attraction, it just feels good to be around them and think about them. The desire for sexual gratification is a completely different type of desire for me, although I can't imagine wanting to have sex with someone who I wasn't attracted to in the other way. Perhaps this would be different if I'd experienced sex before, lol.

Gah. I have to hand in four large assignments by Wednesday morning to be allowed to take the exam in one of the subjects I currently have. It's my own damned fault for not doing them when I was supposed to, but still. It sucks. However I think I'll call a friend of mine who also have that subject tomorrow and ask if he still has any of his. Then I can just copy them. It's technically not allowed, but no-one really cares as only the grade you get on the exam counts.

The reason I haven't done them is that I have absolutely no motivation or energy. It sounds like a crappy excuse, even to me, but I find myself unable to get started with anything. And the few times I do manage to get started with something, it's so much more tiring than it should be. At every single pause, to think or look something up, I get an intense desire to just quit.

I also find I don't really know how to look forward to stuff any more. I am for instance going on a cruise with my family during Christmas, and I can't manage to conjure up any excitement. I just find myself dwelling on the extra packing I will have to do.

My social-life is also pretty bad, in a way. I don't really have much of a desire to hang out with my friends, though I do agree to it when they suggest something. I also having a regular appointment to work out a bit with a friend once a week. Maybe half the weeks or a little less, that workout is the only time I talk to someone at all. I can have a relatively good time when I do hang out, but it's nothing that sticks. As soon as I'm out the door (or usually sooner), my mood will drop again.

I guess the only person I genuinely want to hang out with is the girl I'm (oh so hopelessly >.<) in love with, but it doesn't really feel right to suggest it. I can never think of anything to suggest we do, it all seems so mundane. At any rate she's too busy with exams to want to hang out now, apparently.

Future, past. It all seems so pointless. The only reason I bother to try studying is cause it'd be too much of a hassle to explain why not to people, and because I have to live somehow. So I guess that's my rant.

Feelin pree' lonesome.
I was in an extremely good mood last night, for no reason at all, i felt like i was on top of the world, then bam, i crashed and felt worse than I did before that.
meh.
I ordered a cool tye dye hoodie though earlier, and i got 85 bucks, so that's nice.
Still pissed my laptop isn't working....one of our family friends is a computer guy so he's gonna see if he can fix it. I have tons of papers and what not on that laptop :c
*sigh*
...though in general, feeling slightly neutral though, not super depressed, just sorta meh. Lethargic, melancholic, apathetic, whatever you would call it..I just want to meet new people in my life, so so so so so much. But don't have the motivation to do actively do that. I'm not very social, i just want someone to pop up out of nowhere and be my buddy.

Originally Posted by khh

Gah. I have to hand in four large assignments by Wednesday morning to be allowed to take the exam in one of the subjects I currently have. It's my own damned fault for not doing them when I was supposed to, but still. It sucks. However I think I'll call a friend of mine who also have that subject tomorrow and ask if he still has any of his. Then I can just copy them. It's technically not allowed, but no-one really cares as only the grade you get on the exam counts.

The reason I haven't done them is that I have absolutely no motivation or energy. It sounds like a crappy excuse, even to me, but I find myself unable to get started with anything. And the few times I do manage to get started with something, it's so much more tiring than it should be. At every single pause, to think or look something up, I get an intense desire to just quit.

I also find I don't really know how to look forward to stuff any more. I am for instance going on a cruise with my family during Christmas, and I can't manage to conjure up any excitement. I just find myself dwelling on the extra packing I will have to do.

My social-life is also pretty bad, in a way. I don't really have much of a desire to hang out with my friends, though I do agree to it when they suggest something. I also having a regular appointment to work out a bit with a friend once a week. Maybe half the weeks or a little less, that workout is the only time I talk to someone at all. I can have a relatively good time when I do hang out, but it's nothing that sticks. As soon as I'm out the door (or usually sooner), my mood will drop again.

I guess the only person I genuinely want to hang out with is the girl I'm (oh so hopelessly >.<) in love with, but it doesn't really feel right to suggest it. I can never think of anything to suggest we do, it all seems so mundane. At any rate she's too busy with exams to want to hang out now, apparently.

Future, past. It all seems so pointless. The only reason I bother to try studying is cause it'd be too much of a hassle to explain why not to people, and because I have to live somehow. So I guess that's my rant.

I completely agree with you. This Thanksgiving, the only thing that I looked forward to was just eating the food. I didn't really care to meet up with my parents for a few days. I basically sat on a bed on a floor looking at random stuff on the internet on my laptop.

And when I start on an assignment, like STUDYING for biology. I just give up, but I know if I don't, I'll fail, but then, I always pull out a win when it comes to exams, especially the final exams.

I just hate the main holidays now, it's all too cliched, majority of people still think they're the epitome of happiness and joy and all the bull when it should be done as much as possible.

I'm starting to dislike my parents, I love them, but I just dislike them now because of them wanting me to come for the major holidays, because they end up contradicting their expectations of me for college and blah blah

I had a bunch of First-World problems today. People were chewing with their mouths open, someone was in my normal conference room and I had to move rooms, and the stupid iMac keyboards and mice in the computer lab are absolute shit. The keys stick the mouses don't move or click (let alone trying to get the wheels to work.) It was a seriously awful experience.

But I'm still healthy(ish) and alive, so that's good.

I decided to see the satisfactory academic progress for my university that sustains financial aid, and the minimum is a 2.0 GPA

Okay..WHAT THE FUCK LOL!?!?! ALL THIS TIME, I"VE BEEN WORRYING MY ASS IF I DON'T DO WELL ON MY EXAMS, and now I face reality and check the site, things are so much better now!

Oh my god, I've been worrying for nothing! *Major Facepalm*

lol Link! Glad to hear things are better than you thought!

I'm riding a placebo which is incredibly annoying. I KNOW (with about 90% certainty that) this is nothing more but I cannot convince my brain otherwise.
I've been without Wellbutrin for a couple days now, and caffeine as of yesterday, which means I slept most of the day away today. I woke at 4PM or so, got a soda, came home and fell asleep an hour later.
I woke up again at 8PM, took a drink then decided to go pick up my meds. I couldn't find the empty pill bottle I normally use to cover the straw, so I grabbed what looked like an empty bottle. I opened it, covered the straw, rushed out the door.
I came home with food, ate, took my meds, sipped my drink for 30 minutes and then I finally noticed dark colored balls on the lid of my drink. They were sleeping pills. Did any fall into the little opening where the straw goes? Yep, they fit.
I tried ignoring it but I kept feeling more and more sleepy. So I finally went out and bought a new fountain drink

My drink was still cold with ice in it and half full. Chances are, even if something fell in, it didn't dissolve (I dumped it in the yard before thinking to check).

That's the most exciting thing to happen today. It's my biggest grumble even though I'm more humored with myself than grumbly. Chances are, this "high" I'm feeling is simply from Wellbutrin and Caffeine. Or it's a complete product of my imagination.

My 17 year old son was going to go before the Magistrate about his truancies yesterday, but the PA and school Super met with us instead. They waived the hearing because Myles is going to go back into the system. They made sure that's what he really wanted then said he should be gone by the first of the year. They're going to try to get him into Independent Living by the summer.

Sorry about the double post, but I didn't want to make my last one any longer than it already was!

I just got a call from the shelter my 14 year old daughter is at. She ran off out her bedroom window. When they find her, she'll most likely be going into detention.
The girl she got into trouble with is at the same shelter.
I spoke to my daughter right before 8PM and she was in a good mood. But she was talking about how much she would rather be in detention than the place they were sending her. She didn't want to be with her friend anymore. Whenever my daughter spoke about how she wanted to change and get back on track, the friend kept saying stuff like "Yeah, yeah. I know you too well. That will never happen." So, I think my daughter sabotaged herself to get away.
I hope they find her quickly.

Bloody hell. I've got to finish an assignment that's due tomorrow.. It's the first of my assignments that counts towards my HSC (Higher Schooling Certificate) Blah... BLAH!

My ankle hurts because I sat on it for most of the day.

...now I just realized that I am sitting on it again... What the........

Zhaylin I hope your daughter turns up soon and is ok. And you've got to be the only person I know who's ever managed to slip herself a roofie..

I went upstairs an hour ago only to find the whole house smelling strongly of gas. I had cooked a frozen dinner earlier and somehow left the gas on but turned off the flame! I know the best thing to do is supposed to be to get out, but dammit, I wasn't going to miss the Victoria's Secret fashion show!! Finest evening of television entertainment all year!! So I opened a kitchen window and propped the front door open just a few inches so the dog couldn't get out, grabbed a bag of chips and a jar of French Onion dip and settled in. Right at first I felt pretty woozy, but after a while the air cleared. I left the window and door open till the show was over just to make sure, and then I couldn't find my dog!!

The door looked like it was closed too far for her to slip out, but I opened it and called her name and heard her collar jingling as she came running down the sidewalk back to the house! Damn I didn't realize she could fit through such a narrow space!! But luckily she had stayed right in the yard (or did she come BACK to the yard after a wild neighborhood adventure? ). And also luckily she didn't run into any wolves. I actually haven't seen hide nor hair of the wolf since that one night, and nobody else has reported seeing it either. They have a range of like 60 miles, so I think it's passed on by and moved on.

Originally Posted by Darkmatters

Zhaylin I hope your daughter turns up soon and is ok. And you've got to be the only person I know who's ever managed to slip herself a roofie..

I went upstairs an hour ago only to find the whole house smelling strongly of gas. I had cooked a frozen dinner earlier and somehow left the gas on but turned off the flame! I know the best thing to do is supposed to be to get out, but dammit, I wasn't going to miss the Victoria's Secret fashion show!! Finest evening of television entertainment all year!! So I opened a kitchen window and propped the front door open just a few inches so the dog couldn't get out, grabbed a bag of chips and a jar of French Onion dip and settled in. Right at first I felt pretty woozy, but after a while the air cleared. I left the window and door open till the show was over just to make sure, and then I couldn't find my dog!!

The door looked like it was closed too far for her to slip out, but I opened it and called her name and heard her collar jingling as she came running down the sidewalk back to the house! Damn I didn't realize she could fit through such a narrow space!! But luckily she had stayed right in the yard (or did she come BACK to the yard after a wild neighborhood adventure? ). And also luckily she didn't run into any wolves. I actually haven't seen hide nor hair of the wolf since that one night, and nobody else has reported seeing it either. They have a range of like 60 miles, so I think it's passed on by and moved on.

How often do you get wolves in your area? :O

I think everyone should get a "stab the person you most despise" freebie. Although I'd probably get stabbed a couple of times but hey, I'd get to do the same to someone else.

It's very counter-productive... but OK.

Yeah. Murphy's Law likes to wait until EVERYTHING lines up perfectly. Then it all goes wrong. Best time for it to take effect.

Originally Posted by fOrceez

How often do you get wolves in your area? :O

This is the first time I've heard of one being around here. We've had coyotes and some kind of wildcat like a lynx or something.

Can't stop thinking about my cat's fate, since we can't find a single goddamn person who wants her and we're about to move soon. The local news story about how the animal shelters are overcrowded right now certainly did nothing to help. Why are people so stingy about cats, and why doesn't one person just say yes? If any of you guys live in either Utah or California, maybe you could take her? Assuming you're safe and caring.

rofl, AnderJ (I thought you changed your name?) I do the same freagin thing ALL THE TIME. I've actually acquired "alligator skin" on my right foot from sitting on it so much.

Thanks DarkMatters Glad to hear your dog was okay and that you didn't kill yourself!!!

I'm now upset with myself because I'm not beside myself with fear and worry over my daughter. I have unrealistic expectations. I ran away, the first time, when I was about her age and I did more than okay. I thrived for about 10 days, on my own, hiding out in a little patch of woods. I came home only because of guilt over what I felt my parents must have been going through.
BUT, I wasn't a drug addict either. I've also *heard* my daughter is a bit of a prostitute at home. Those 2 things make for a very bad combination in the best of circumstances. But on her own, trying to survive and hide out from the State?
Why aren't I upset?
What the hell kind of mother wouldn't get upset?!

Originally Posted by DeeryTheDeer

Can't stop thinking about my cat's fate, since we can't find a single goddamn person who wants her and we're about to move soon. The local news story about how the animal shelters are overcrowded right now certainly did nothing to help. Why are people so stingy about cats, and why doesn't one person just say yes? If any of you guys live in either Utah or California, maybe you could take her? Assuming you're safe and caring.

I hope you find a good home for her. I'd take her in but I'm all the way here in Ohio... Any family members or friends you could trust that you haven't thought of yet, or a no-kill shelter that can take her? That's too bad that you can't take her with you.

Can't you just get someone to take her temporarily and leave them with the responsibility of finding someone else to take her permanently?

EDIT: Since they'd have more time.

Originally Posted by Dianeva

Can't you just get someone to take her temporarily and leave them with the responsibility of finding someone else to take her permanently?

I don't think anyone we know would want that responsibility, and I can't imagine it'd be any easier for them to find somebody for her. Interesting idea though.

Originally Posted by ThePreserver

The keys stick the mouses don't move or click (let alone trying to get the wheels to work.)

Same problem, but my school has eMacs

FUCKING eMACS! Well in the library, what was supposed to be a computer lab is now a socials class. That is full of iMacs. Other than that, eMacs. EMACS I SAY

I've got my first exam tomorrow and I haven't studied anything. Not one thing. This is gonna be fun.

Deery and everyone else in need.
I hope you find a home for your feline friend. Is she declawed, spayed? Those are always big selling points. Do you have a free paper where you live? You could always put an ad in it but screen potential adopters very carefully.

My daughter has been missing for almost 12 hours. No one knows anything yet. She rarely ever clears her text messages on my iPad so I spent a great deal of time screening them and calling the numbers. I didn't get anywhere except to rule out all but one. I didn't get ahold of anyone at that number, so I'll keep trying. I'm trying to reach her guy friend Daniel- the guy she's known for years and who buys her almost anything she asks for. I know nothing about him, however, except for his name. I'm going to put out a general message through her contacts telling him to get ahold of me or I'll have to release his name to the police. He's the first person she'd call. He paid for her a cellphone which I have, so if nothing else, I can give it to the cops to track down. She has it locked so I can't access the info.

I rescheduled my p-doc appointment for today at 3:45. I guess it just took awhile for the whole thing to sink in. I've been having almost constant adrenaline surges (i.e. anxiety attacks) for hours now. When I talk to my p-doc, I know I'll cry. What sucks is that I can't talk to my hubby. He'll say something "funny" like "good riddance" or how he's surprised she hadn't taken off sooner. He wont mean anything by it. He has a cop or ER doctors sense of humor/coping. I'm just not in the mood for it.

I'm very sleepy but my thoughts and anxieties are keeping me awake.