Thread: Rant and Rave, Cry and Complain

Originally Posted by khh

Tonight I had a nice dream. I don't quite recall all the specifics, but I was hanging out with a girl I (in the dream) liked. While the back-story unfolded, it became clear that she liked me in return and at some point we started kissing. It wasn't to be very spectacular, so there it ended. As far as I can recall, this is the first time I've dreamt that someone liked me. So why am I posting in the Rant, Rave, Cry and Complain thread, and not the Happy and Cheerful thread? Well, it just seems to highlight what feels like certain knowledge, that this will never happen in real life. And I feel I should be too old to feel like this.

You can never be too old to experience the joy of love. I'm envious of you. I still haven't had a dream where I met someone who liked me.

I just weighed myself on the scale and it turns out I lost 10 pounds over the last two weeks. I didn't eat much meat during those two weeks so I'm guessing that's why it dropped, despite eating like 5 meals a day with plenty of snacks in between... and enough leftover Halloween candy to off a diabetic. It's going to take me forever to get my weight back up. =/

Originally Posted by GavinGill

I just weighed myself on the scale and it turns out I lost 10 pounds over the last two weeks. I didn't eat much meat during those two weeks so I'm guessing that's why it dropped, despite eating like 5 meals a day with plenty of snacks in between... and enough leftover Halloween candy to off a diabetic. It's going to take me forever to get my weight back up. =/

I know what that's like. It feels like a chore to me to keep my weight up too, and I have a high metabolism, eating lots of small meals a day. Apparently if one wants to gain weight, it's better to eat less (but larger) meals, but it's hard for me because I can't eat that much in one sitting; I'm already full.

On a side note, I woke up fifteen minutes ago and I'm in my room getting ready for school... My half-SIAMESE (whyy) cat has been going crazy at the door to the room for the whole time, and she won't shut the hell up. MOWMOWMOWMOWMOW.

Originally Posted by Puffin

I know what that's like. It feels like a chore to me to keep my weight up too, and I have a high metabolism, eating lots of small meals a day.

Lol, It'll catch up to ya I have a high metabolism too, but after high school was over, it's been slowing down.

I'm worried about my GPR for college. I honestly don't know what it is right now, but I hope I'm going to destroy the final exams. If not, might have to say good bye to Biochemistry. But I can't quit now. My GPA that I sent to the college before I was a senior was like a 3.73 out of 4.

Fucking hell, I'm PANICKING!!! It's because GPA's in college reset typically, and the good standing GPR for biochemistry is like a 2.5 I think. I seriously need to step up my game. Oh god...nooo!!!! NOOOOO I CAN'T LET THIS HAPPEN.

And they want you to make friends in college? HA!!

Originally Posted by Linkzelda41

You can never be too old to experience the joy of love. I'm envious of you. I still haven't had a dream where I met someone who liked me.

Hehe. I was referring more to the teenangst feelings of "No-one will ever love me" and "no-one gets me"
I got through my teens without teenangst in that form, and it feels like a sucker-punch to get it now.

Originally Posted by khh

Hehe. I was referring more to the teenangst feelings of "No-one will ever love me" and "no-one gets me"
I got through my teens without teenangst in that form, and it feels like a sucker-punch to get it now.

Ahh I see. I apologize for misunderstanding what you said.

But when I feel like "No-one will ever love me," I always think of my left hand. I draw with it, and I feel content when I draw people well, my way to remain sane. Together, we will DOMINATE the earth!!! Who needs other people for emotional comfort =P

Originally Posted by Linkzelda41

Ahh I see. I apologize for misunderstanding what you said.

But when I feel like "No-one will ever love me," I always think of my left hand. I draw with it, and I feel content when I draw people well, my way to remain sane. Together, we will DOMINATE the earth!!! Who needs other people for emotional comfort =P

Too easy...

Originally Posted by Linkzelda41

Ahh I see. I apologize for misunderstanding what you said.

But when I feel like "No-one will ever love me," I always think of my left hand. I draw with it, and I feel content when I draw people well, my way to remain sane. Together, we will DOMINATE the earth!!! Who needs other people for emotional comfort =P

Rofl

I know what you two are thinking, and I was trying to avoid that. But yes, my left hand can do a better job.

Originally Posted by Spartiate

Too easy...

FUCK! I cracked the screen on my phone. ... least it still works.

Ugh... having a yucky kind of day. My oldest daughter was going to get Wed. afternoon- Friday evening home but now she only has a 24 hour pass. It would seem my daughters are now turning on each other and revealing all of each others secrets and dirty laundry.
My youngest is being moved from the psych hospital to another shelter which reminds me that I need to call my oldest daughters facility and tell them the girls aren't allowed to speak to each other right now.
BRB
Grrr... it's infuriating how nobody ever answers at that place!

... just stop the world, I want to get off.

Damn, as I was typing up the dreams I had recorded, I realize one part of the dream a girl asked me, "Are you going to move?" several times.

I thought she meant move as in move into another house since she looked familiar to me, so it made me think it was a memory instead of something abnormal.

So much for my shot of being lucid at that time :/ I haven't had a lucid dream at all. I've been staying up late for the past few days on purpose because I just felt like wasting time :/

Sorry if this is too "adult" but I freagin want sex NOW. I have rearranged my room, ripped up some of my carpeting and scrubbed the floor beneath- for the last 2 hours, and the mood hasn't faded one bit.
I've discovered throughout the years that there's 0) Thanks, but I'm not interested 1) eh, I could take it or leave it 2) I'm in the mood for some lovin and 3) I must RUT with you NOW. I'm at a 3. And I go from 0-3 in the blink of an eye lol

So now I'm drinking my last wine cooler (which I bought some 2+ months ago) and I hope to sleep soon. I'll probably take a hydro to seal the deal.
I missed my p-doc appointment today. I'm not used to it being on a Monday which REALLY sucks because I've been thinking about talking to him all freagin day. I kept telling myself: "Blah, you have to wait until the 21st. You can make it another week." Today WAS the 21st you freagin idiot.

I've been feeling trapped inside of a dream today. I keep "flashing back" to dreams I've had these last couple of days and I literally have to shake my head to snap myself out of it.
Blah...

Ah crap that's it! I'm coming out to West Virginia and driving around till I find where you live..

Originally Posted by Zhaylin

Sorry if this is too "adult" but I freagin want sex NOW. I have rearranged my room, ripped up some of my carpeting and scrubbed the floor beneath- for the last 2 hours, and the mood hasn't faded one bit.

Ya'know, you can always go for a solo run...

It's nights like this that I wish I wasn't such a nice person and that my hubby wasn't so well known.
There are 2 bars, literally, 3 and 5 minutes down the road from me. I want to go trolling but every freagin body in this small towns seems to know who I am. People I don't remember frequently comment on how they *always* love to see me smiling or they ask if I got a new car- stuff like that. They only remember me because I'm too nice of a person.

I'm at a point where loyalty be damned... but I'm afraid of getting caught.
Of course, tomorrow I'll be back at a 0 and completely embarrassed about my mood tonight and the cycle will continue until next ovulation (which is all this rutting crap is).

But, hey, if you can get here within the next couple of hours I'm all yours

**EDIT**
Gavin, *blsuh* I'm no good in that particular department.

***EDIT***
JUST talked to my hubby. I told him my needs and he good-naturedly laughed and asked me if I've stopped smoking? REALLY???!!!!! RAAWWWRRRRR!! I told him that never stopped him when we first met and he said "True, but I've gotta do something to get you to quit and try to save your life." ARGGGGG!! It's been over a year, hubby! Is he truly going to keep doing this?
But I'm still in a better mood. He made me laugh and smile if nothing else

AAAaaaarrrrggghhh!!!! Of all the times to be cursed with great gas mileage but a slow car!! WHY do I have to have a damn Honda Civic Hybrid??!!WHY????!!!!

lol it sucks to be sobbing when my parents call me down for dinner. My face takes at least 10 mins to clear up, wth am I supposed to do?

Getting a tooth taken out in a while. Not keen on anesthetics lasting 2-3 hours.

It was my birthday today, and I forgot until I got home from college... only because I got a card in the mail. I'm not even sure how I forgot... WTF.

Originally Posted by Zhaylin

Sorry if this is too "adult" but I freagin want sex NOW. I have rearranged my room, ripped up some of my carpeting and scrubbed the floor beneath- for the last 2 hours, and the mood hasn't faded one bit.
I've discovered throughout the years that there's 0) Thanks, but I'm not interested 1) eh, I could take it or leave it 2) I'm in the mood for some lovin and 3) I must RUT with you NOW. I'm at a 3. And I go from 0-3 in the blink of an eye lol

So now I'm drinking my last wine cooler (which I bought some 2+ months ago) and I hope to sleep soon. I'll probably take a hydro to seal the deal.
I missed my p-doc appointment today. I'm not used to it being on a Monday which REALLY sucks because I've been thinking about talking to him all freagin day. I kept telling myself: "Blah, you have to wait until the 21st. You can make it another week." Today WAS the 21st you freagin idiot.

I've been feeling trapped inside of a dream today. I keep "flashing back" to dreams I've had these last couple of days and I literally have to shake my head to snap myself out of it.
Blah...

Oh wow

I thought I was a bit out there when I pretend I'm talking to myself and then someone I make up to talk to tells me to get laid. And I do a predicted BEFORE (what's so good about sex?) and AFTER (holy fk!! that was amazing) reaction of me getting laid. Then I just go freaking crazy hugging my pillow and roll around my bed like I'm a paint roller dipped in new paint just waiting to change the color inside a room.

And suddenly I have the tendency to use my "Pre-teen Slut" female accent (the voice that goes "Like oh my gawd, where did you get those shoes?") and I'm having speculating thoughts of cross dressing the next Halloween to come.

(Maybe a repressed fetish for transvestism/cross-dressing?)

Ugh, I HATE that Dianeva. I don't even have to actually shed tears for my eyes to get red and puffy. The mere act of my eyes welling with tears does the trick. THen everyone knows I've been upset PLUS my eyes are dry and annoying for the rest of the day.
Feel better.

fOrceez, anesthetics is your friend. Embrace them!!!
Hope the removal goes smoothly.

Happiest day to you, Preserver

LinkZelda, lol Thanks for the extra smile and laugh

You're welcome! But really, I think I do have a repressed fetish for cross-dressing, or just mocking the accent of a "teen slut."

And because I'm normally quiet in reality, people would just go "What the hell?"