I have been infatuated with Lucidity for about a month now. I don't remember how I found out about it, but it has been on my mind for some time.

I have not had a successful lucid yet, as far as I can remember.

The closest I have come was about 2 weeks ago, where I was talking to my mother in a dream, and for some peculiar reason, the words "This is just a dream" happened to be my reply to a question that she asked me. After I experienced this insight, everything went black, and I assumed that I had woke up. After doing some PDF reading, i'm kind of wondering if this was a false awakening. Blast.

Another strange moment, and possibly close encounter, happened 2 nights ago, where I woke up in the middle of the night, stayed still, kept my eyes closed, and envisioned myself spinning, as advised in a guidebook. After the spinning became more "realistic," I attempted to lift myself out of my body. The "weight" of this "body" was extreme, and I could not separate completely. It was very strange. After this, I assume that I went to normal sleep, since I don't recall anything afterwards.

Here are my problems:

1.) I have problems remembering my dreams. I keep a dream journal, but when I wake some mornings it almost seems as if I closed my eyes at night, and opened them in the morning, with nothing in between. Sometimes I will remember full dreams in the middle of the day. Take today for example. I was taking a shower around 10:00AM, and had a single dream make a full recovery.

2.) When in the dreams that I DO remember, I seem completely oblivious to the fact that I AM dreaming. I listen to a loop every night before I go to bed that says, "The next time I am dreaming, I will realize that I am dreaming. Am I dreaming? Is this a dream?" and it still doesn't seem to help me have insight while dreaming.

3.) My dreams are FOGGY. The dreams that I DO remember seem extremely foggy. I remember people telling of the vividness of their dreams when I was in high school. These people had no clue what Lucid Dreams were, nor did they ever contemplate the importance of dreams, but they still seemed to have better recall.

Anyways, I hope that is enough background info to conjure up some advice.

Thanks in advance,

LD