Hi,
I am looking for some guidance here, because I am not sure what I have been experiencing. So I am glad for any advice, thank you.

One night i woke up, though my eyes were closed, i saw the room, was paralysed and I have heard some dark whispering around me, very scary. I am not sure if I was completely conscious, I couldnt think logically.

Two months ago, I awoke and felt like there was something dangerous in front of my bed, which I could not see, but I immediately got paralysed by fear, when I looked there. So I started singin Hare Krisha to protect myself, and fear disappeared quickly and I saw a Buddha-being.

It came again after a week and I tried a buddhist mantra- i saw warm pink colour around me, i felt so safe like never before and a choir was singing straange tune which was making me floating, then it changed to Hare Krisna tune from Hair. I remember back of my eyelids then and i fell asleep again.

I am very confused, because I am not sure, If I am fully conscious. I cant think very clearly and logically, and that makes me crazy. Before mantras saved me, when i was paralysed, i wanted to turn the light on to stop it. I felt like i saw my hands reaching the light, but everytime i turned it, i realized that i was still sleeping and it began again- up to 10 times! That was so mad!

I am so glad i found some key how to stop the fear of paralysis, but I would love to extend it into Lucid dreaming and have clear thinking processes, to control it, but I dont know how. I dont know how to make a decision there- except mantras. What do you guys think? Let me know, please.. :peace: