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I went to sleep at 12 am Last night I decided to get HI before I go to sleep, I meditate.... but I already did beforehand couple hours ago.... Lol.. chant like 4 mantras while doing it..... like 5x times each Lay down chant just 1 mantra that will make me lucid..... bla bla bla i will realize bla ill become lucid.... I lay down... get into a comfortable position just lay there and imagine stuff happening to waste time.. and finally after some intensive amount of time .15-20+ min? I start hearing sound in my ear, though I still hear stuff externally afterwards it feels like preassure or something, and I felt like my body was spinning, and afterwards I felt increasing sleepy.... so well I hold on with my imagining and stuff and my eyes start to blink back and forth.... well it stopped after a while and my body was numb..... at least the most numb i've ever experience though I don't think it's as far as not feeling completely... i lay there for a while... I can clearly hear my mom doing sutff...... Nothing was going on so I decided to break off and go to the bathroom, come back chant chant chant, take off my watch and go to bed. Rc, some mantra. This time I just go to bed and I allow myself to move around, eventually im off... I think I dreamt SOMETHING once.... before REM but I can't remember nor was it much anyways, my Watch woke my up at 5, I go bathroom, Try TO WILD/VILD..... I'm sleepy as usual.... and it doesn't feel like my body wants to check if im awake... because I thought itd be more "excruciating" but after being up for a while with nothing I go to sleep dreamt like 4 dreams and woke up at 9, remember them all, wrote them down, but no lucids... but let's just skip all of this crap....... at some interval between 5 am and 9 am.... I got to the point where I thought to myself... what does lucid really feel like... how does RCing even come in this dream world... how the heck will I even notice... and well, I got so bewildered..... that I try opening my eyes, dunno if this was in a dream or not... but clearly my eyelids were glowing digital hues so of course I doubt it was real... but everytime I try to exert my thought into opening my eyes and be aware I would wake up and feel awesome and all for like a second and my eyes would close again... Yes I was really thinking about it that I actually went and looked over and imaginary post on DV... and suddenly im in my bed opening my eyes... And my dreams are totally game themed..... I don't know why... they start off as a game theme and they spiral into whatever fantasy it can get its hand on I dream about Mu Online,Tales of the abyss and from there it just takes a spiral... and heck I NEVER played on a mu private server with 1000 level cap.... yet for some reason While i was in the Tales of the abyss dream... I had taken pictures of my mu characters... some were 600 and I was struggling to find lvl 400s And all of this I STLL CANT realize im dream.....WHY WHY WHY WHY And now I remember I also had a dream about playing counter strike... downloaded like 4 mods of it... even played the mod with the modern weps and all.... or more realistic..... ha ha ha ha.... QUESTION time I Rc with 4 things My watch which also has text, I look back and forth to see if any thing changed, I would pinch my nose and breath look at my hands and count my fingers and look and remember how they look, and lastly I would pinch my other hand (left) with right hand's index finger with the intention of it going through I rc frequent Is this fine? Or am I just fine with 2? Does having 4 increase the chances? I also do 4 mantras........... but I think that's fine I only concentrate on the one about dreaming,realizing, and becoming lucid when i finished all other. I will try to WILD at 1-3... which is like 2 hours from now.... I'll also try to WBTB and focus less and less on DV... no offense, but I haven't been doing anything productive for the last 2 days ... *yawn* Can I ask how RCing happens in your dream and howw you realize you're dreaming.... because im not getting it even if things were weird.... but weird things is normal to me....